I have decided to continue writing my fan fiction but will still remain a silent reader otherwise....i need more time, am still hurting.
I would like to thank all those who have supported me in my crisis. Thank you very much.
I do not know if and when i will post part 10...we will just have to see.
I do hope that you like this part.
Thank you all once again.
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Part 9
"Love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime….."
The pure torture, the agony, of seeing the man who you love escape from you very clasp and leave you utterly alone, is the true anguish in the world which only those who are nursing a broken heart can know of. Such deep longing and lust... for him, so powerful that not even their face can be forgotten. Each day, every second your heart beats for him. Every time you try and forget it, love, him… some how it all just comes rushing past, like the wind. Not even sleep can ease you troubled heart and your silent ache.
So the line "Love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime" speaks quietly to all lovers in this world indicating Love once yet never forget that your first love can never be forgotten even if you wish to do so. Subconsciously they are alive in you. In your life invisibly….admit it now or admit it later such is the truth that reality has tried to hide with its corruption.
Yet never forget that you can continue to love…but your first love is somehow someway alive inside of you…may be for any reason yet somehow…something of theirs, you can never forget….
(what I just talked about…another riddle...see if you can solve…it is directed towards one person mainly…but who?)
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"Sanjana"….let the tears flow let yourself yearn in your own lovers anguish, even he has not forgotten…..how can he as something of yours reminds him of all…your marking refuses him to gift her (bani) a chain of gold….why…what caused him such distress and reluctance….a past love, an old mistake.
As there is always something of your first love which you can never forget….
"sanjana"….a chain of gold…a feather of life…
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Entering the beautifully lit restaurant filled with all sorts of desires. An atmosphere is shown for once as that of romantic, as flower pettles and showering sprinkles of glitter shimmer down on the many couples that sit.
The candle lights illuminate her face, making it glow ever more. The man who sits opposite her is completely love loran, not caring and not wanting to look at any others who surround, only wanting and needing her. Her face flushed and hair hiding all, he reaches out and gently brushes what was blocking his view….her hair. Softly touching her cheeks, feeling her face burn up with the contact of his touch…he smiles at her shyness…noting all, yet still saying nothing at all. Both, letting their silence engulf their every word, allowing it to say all that has already been said so many times before. Entwining his hands in hers, feeling her shiver. Perhaps it is the cool wind rushing around them, yet he is certain that he knows the true reason behind it….the truth behind her mask of shame….her shivers.
Bringing her hands up to his lips he kisses them, letting her feel his love tingle through her body….with just that one touch.
She smiles cautiously, knowing all that he plans. Unable to help her own desire…she pulls her hands from his murmuring in haste, allowing her eyes to dart cautiously around the room "Jai….we have come here for dinner, please …jai…please…jai…" Her eyes beg his….yet no response comes from her charmer. He contentedly enjoys her discomfort…knowing and understanding all.
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Sanjana, sanjana….sanjana…..
Across the room….she looks on watching the two lovers, holding her fist tightly on the white table cloth, draining it of blood. Her eyes, she curses her (bani) and her very existence, dazzle amongst the very light which wishes to soothe and kill all distress that creeps near intending to destroy the two…the darkness…wanting intending to destroy all…
Her face pales as she sees the two flirt and his hands grasp hers once more, pulling her towards him across the table…only for hers to meet his. Her eyes dazzle in surprise as he kisses her (bani) slowly as if savouring all, and only then gently letting go….after fully having all.
Oh her (sanjana's) heart cries…..yet he is not hers…yet…
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Soft gentle music plays, inviting all...telling to join as one and sway in pure harmony of bliss…
He takes her hand in his pulling her in a firm clasp allowing her head to rest gently against his chest, holding her waste with his fingertips and holding one hand in his…allowing the music to sway them in gentle bliss…only in one another's arms…enjoying the feel of being in love. Eyes deep in content for being in one another's arms…allowing their silence to overtake their senses.
Both sway…lost in time caught in a web of one another's love.
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Eyes now blazing in cruel distress, she clutches her locket seeing all fail and crush around her, knowing that all is lost….she cries bitterly on the inside…yet then it comes to her…
Taking her most prized possession...she walks up to the two lovers table…kissing her precious twice...letting a single tear stain its shiny cover…she drops it into bani's bag…awaiting and knowing what will happen next…knowing his reaction…knowing all…
Now feeling completely bare, loosing the one thing that helps her live…yet having no other option left for her love to return to her…she leaves the restaurant...watching the couple she wants to break...entwined in a deep passionate kiss not caring of their surroundings....only hungry for one another..lust..love...
"Once you fall in love you feel on top of the world…you feel that all has been conquered and that nothing can come in your way…as together you stand now as one…"
For now she waits….she is waiting for him …waiting….
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He sweeps his hands gently through her hair pulling her closer… only to look deep into her eyes…to see his mirrored love for her reflecting back yet only as her love for him…deep in content…allowing their untouched food to cool…they continue to sway, never wanting the music to stop…never wanting to be separated from one another…never…
Yet who knew…that in a few hours all would be lost…as all truths would be revealed...and once a strong barrier of love…would crumble to pieces…leaving all shattered and all destroyed amongst the ashes of dust…
"Unknown truths and curiosity of the soul can kill the heart…as who knows the truth?"
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Another riddle, yet simpler….but it hides allot…see if you can solve it.
I am sorry if no one likes this part,it is not written very weel.... yet I tried my best. If anyone found anything from this part which they thought offensive please do tell me and I am very sorry and i sincerly appologise.
To my fan fiction readers I would like to say thank you for being so supportive. I give you part 9 in the hope that you will like it.
I have not returned as a fully active member but have decided to continue my fan fiction; having received many pm's regarding it.
I would like to thank my angels( you know who you are) for helping my through my time of need…thank you and luv ya!
Once again those who do find some part of this fan fiction inappropriate do tell me and I am very sorry to have disturbed you, and will fix it immediately.
Thank you all once again and once again sorry to all those who find something in this part which they do not like.
Sweetu.
Edited by sweetu144 - 19 years ago
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