Wanting to be wanted...

Miffed, concerned , irritated, frustrated, chained, ignored,loved,protective, cared for,.....wanted..

Shiv Kapoor feels all of this and more, all at the same time at times , camouflaged, by overpowering sense of denial.
No different is he at heart from a kid, who seeks his parents attention , of their approval of him, of his ways, of his acts, but ends up with brickbrats from his ever so busy father , to whose attention , his acts are brought to in bad light..

Like a ghost of the past , it seems to exist , the nightmare, the dream that haunts...

Amidst the chaos, thrust he was into matrinmony with a woman, he never envisioned as his life partner...yet the underlying magic of companionship in matrimony does not escape him and unaware , his life starts revolving around her.. in his anger, in his plans, his wants, in his search for a companion to fight , argue, and share with, in his want to be wanted and not be ignored.

Lifeline it seems , her attention to him, for in his anger, his irritation , in his silence, in his adamance, it is that he seeks, her attention. Her silence , seems to him , her indifference, killing him, driving him extremes to seek her attention. For all he wants , is for her to want him for what he is, the man behind the mask, yet scared he is to shed the mask, for the fear of denial, for he knows , she sees behind the mask, and run away he does in fear , pushing her away, in denial, escape reality, he wishes , bury forever, in his depths, his true self..

A quintessential man, he seems, a kid at heart he is, Shiv Kapoor , like any one of us out there, wanting to be wanted...

-Sareeta

wonderfully written sareeta.I agree with each and every word.You have described shiv very beautifully.He is more like a kid.He wants all the attention in the world and he clearly knows somewhere deep in his heart ,that she is the only one who can take all his tantrums.Once she is out of his life he will regret a lot.

I had goose bumps reading this...dont have any more adjectives to use for ur posts sareeta..
Touched my heart...Put Shiv and his relation with gauri in a brilliant way... 👏 👏 👏
Chalo with this lovely note..me will go to the university or else my prof will become devika and kick me out of the lab 😆 😆

ur just so good..people say words can sometimes express what people cant...ur just so good with words...u weave magic with them...🤗

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really...all shiv wants is attention...and wen he doesnt get that from gauri (for example the silent treatment) he gets annoyed!!! im sure once she's gone...or is away from him for sumtime...he will start realizing that even if she ignored him or wasnt effected by wat he used to do to her...atleast she was there to take it all...now there's no1 😆

Originally posted by: ismita

wonderfully written sareeta.I agree with each and every word.You have described shiv very beautifully.He is more like a kid.He wants all the attention in the world and he clearly knows somewhere deep in his heart ,that she is the only one who can take all his tantrums.Once she is out of his life he will regret a lot.

Thank you so much! Glad you liked the post! Thank you so much for appreciating the post! 😊

marvellous 👏
yes, shivy is an attention seeker..but sumtimes i think gauri shd react to his tantrums...bandha sudharjaayega....it's her silent treatment that is killing him.he feels ki jo bi woh kartha hai kehatha hai..gauri par koi asar nahi padtha.......that is killing him frm inside.

sareeta... that's really nice.. 20/10!
well said.. well written n you are really really good in it 👏

he found solace in his unwanted wife. that's really sad... he always been driven away by his father when he needs his attention at most. He never get praises for his good doings. There is a poem about child i read couple years ago saying :

If a child lives with praise,
he learns to appreciate.

he was brought up as neglected son by his dad. so he couldnt express his true feeling n appreciation to others including his wife.

Originally posted by: vivaviva

marvellous 👏
yes, shivy is an attention seeker..but sumtimes i think gauri shd react to his tantrums...bandha sudharjaayega....it's her silent treatment that is killing him.he feels ki jo bi woh kartha hai kehatha hai..gauri par koi asar nahi padtha.......that is killing him frm inside.

agreed..

she should react with spanks😆

Attention seeker and Shivy, yeap just like a kid. Gauri will kill him with silence, he said to her yesterday, I have said so much to u just now and nothing fazes u, r u an idiot. Gauri just looked at him. She cries when he is not around, whe thinks when he is not around, time will come when Shiv will be doing what Gauri is doing.

What will happen to him when he finds out that Gauri really owns that land and Gauri is way richer then him, after all she is Devika's grandchild right. Will he accept her because she is rich and has the land, if so then he is a real jerk. 😡

As always beautifully writeen Sareeta. 👏 👏 👏

Originally posted by: queenkumar

Attention seeker and Shivy, yeap just like a kid. Gauri will kill him with silence, he said to her yesterday, I have said so much to u just now and nothing fazes u, r u an idiot. Gauri just looked at him. She cries when he is not around, whe thinks when he is not around, time will come when Shiv will be doing what Gauri is doing.

What will happen to him when he finds out that Gauri really owns that land and Gauri is way richer then him, after all she is Devika's grandchild right. Will he accept her because she is rich and has the land, if so then he is a real jerk. 😡

As always beautifully writeen Sareeta. 👏 👏 👏

how cud someone trade his marriage for money 😭. with money we cn buy things but love.