Originally posted by: twinkle10
DAY 49! - NEVER HAVE I EVER!!!
Anyone remember that game?
Well today's the day I say NEVER HAVE I EVER SEEN MANIK MALHOTRA IN SO MUCH PAIN, IN SO MUCH AGONY, IN SO MUCH GUILT, IN SO MUCH NEED...
The last time we witnessed Manik play the game his words were..."Never have I ever taken a no as an answer"
Today...the needs, the wants, the desires, the wishes...they haven't seemed to change a single inch.
Those fire-raging eyes, those aching shrieks of his heart...that darkness that has seemed to have blurred his mind's ability to think of anything and everything beyond her... "NANDINI!!!!" ...if he could get a grip on his words...it would confess "Never have I ever felt such a desperate need of her before..."
His hunt starts...the rants of floating to every corner of the unknown jungle, searching her smile behind every tree branch. Shining...anything shining around? Anything twinkling and shining like her earrings, like her excitement-filled eyes. Anything radiating a brilliant shine of light? Every leave was turned; every inch of land scanned...but his shining star was nowhere to be found..."NANDINI!!!!"...if he had the strength to think he would say..."Never have I ever felt so lost in darkness..."
The paces of his feet no longer in his control...His eyes scanning to find her even amidst the thin air...She has to be here...she was just here a second ago...His hands aching for the empty gaps between his fingers to be filled with her natural warmth again...his head searching up, down, right and left...This world...it can't be that enormous for me to never find her again, to never be able to see her again, to never be able to feel her again, to never be able to touch her again..."NANDINI!!!!"...if the heart could speak it would scream..."Never have I ever felt so lonely before..."
The silence drove him mad...tears...they refused to roll down...every nerve breathing inside him, oozed with excruciating pain. Scared, beyond terrified! Her lack of response, slicing his soul in a million pieces. The pain became unbearable as he threw his head back in defeat time after time. The witch! She would know...her threats repeatedly echoing in his ears. Alright talk! "Where is Nandini?!" Where have you hidden her? She's called for it this time...god dammit all three of them are the reason for his long-forgotten monster side to surface. He can't be leashed today...he won't be calmed. Because the one who made him realise that his monstrous acts were nothing but just a mask...the one who's words, who's touch, who's eyes would effortlessly calm his inner rage, has been ripped apart from his inner soul as if she was someone newly-planted tree. But they forgot that she's not some commodity that can be snatched from his hands...she's no flower that can be plucked off his life's tree...they're fated...they breathe in each other's breath...they live in each other's heart beats...you steal her away from him, you self-invite him to become the doom of your existence. "NANDINI!!!!"...if the lips could voice they would exclaim..."Never have I ever forgotten or forgiven those who hurt her..."
His knees seem to be losing their strength, they buckle as he feels his world crashing down...his hands trembling in anger. The anger he feels for himself! His heart drowning in the guilt of letting her escape his sight...why...just why...? He wants to scream, to ask every living thing for what mistake is he being punished so brutally for? His quivering lips parted as if panting for oxygen...she's gone, how will he even make it through the next second? He needs to leave...now! To go after her before she makes it too far...it's almost becoming unbearable now...the hands and feet pinning numb. The heart's beat fluctuating and slowing down with sinking throbs. What do I answer to her family? How do I face myself? How will I ever face her?! She trusted me...I assured her she'd always be safe...then how could I let it all happen?! "NANDINI!!!!"...if he could write it down on a piece of paper he would scribble..."Never have I ever felt so defeated before..."
He calls for every helping hand he can...yet his frustration peeks as no one seem to be able to understand his state of mind, his escalating need of having her back, safe, in front of his eyes. What part of we need to leave now aren't they being able to understand?! And this police officer...how dare he even doubt my intentions?! I love her for god sake! It's true love for the sake of god! Her fireflies and my stars have written our tale...our destiny and fate are meant to be for Hamesha! He had started trusting her Aiyappa too...but...but...he strolls around lost. Where does he look for his own god now? "NANDINI!!!"...if he could express it through tears he would sob..."Never have I ever felt so much pain before..."
I need to find her! For the sake of her family, for the sake of her own protection, for the sake of my life! This can't be the story of our Judaai...our exile is long over. Be it the demons, this world, her god, or our destiny...I will fight with whomever and with whatever it takes to have her in front of my eyes again. To have her safe and sound breathing in my arms again. To have her hands entangle themselves in the loneliness of my fingers again. To have her voice echo in my heart again. To have her touch heal my pain again. "NANDINI!!!"...if he could warn...he would announce..."Never have I ever felt the need to kill someone before..."
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It's shorter than usual I know...But I can only blame them again and again for making me forget my words...
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