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So finally Tuesday arrived, and let me just say what an episode it brought along.
We saw her smile, and we saw his face light up too. We saw her tease him, and we witnessed his loss of words too. We saw her dive in for a hug, and we were the spectators of how he gave up on his resisting too. The battle has finally begun and let me warn you all, it's not just a battle. It's war. A
war that he will fight to protect his love. A war which will make him realise his love. A war which will result him to name this relationship the name it actually deserves. The name of true love. Manan made quite a delayed appearance in today's episode. But when they made the appearance, there were no complaints from my behalf. Every scene evoked bliss, joy and delight. The bliss of seeing my Manik's sixth sense dragging him to the dark corridors of the college only to see his Nandini. The joy of seeing my Nandini excitedly chirping at the thought of her Manik being jealous upon seeing her with someone else. The delight of seeing my Manan's peaceful expressions as they stood there, with such serenity; wrapped in each other's arms.
She had tried her very best to get hold of his phone during the night. But to her dismay, she was unsuccessful. Her face had suddenly filled with worry, with automatic concern... "I hope woh theek ho". How she just flew out of her bed and peeped through her window upon hearing the mere sound of a horn. How she utterly wanted to feel his presence once again. To ask him if he was okay. How she just wished she could see him again if not now, then soon. Whilst my Nandu eventually would've fallen asleep in the hope that she might get to see a glimpse of him in the awakening of a new tomorrow, my Manik found it too stressful to sleep the night. Oh how absolutely adorable he looked whilst he tried to convince himself that it was her life, her decision, her wish to do whatever suits her. But the mind seems to have fallen weak these days. And that's when his heart called out that her life is your life. I personally absolutely love the scene when he's about to walk off right after his phone call with Cabir but then takes a few steps back. Again, it was his heart knocking on the door informing him that you can't just walk away from yourself. You can't just walk away from the undeniable truth that she matters to you more than anything else in the world. Oh how his struggle with himself always seems to lighten up my face because that is the time his love takes the forms of various emotions such as worry, care, restlessness, frustration, protectiveness. It was burning him, it was killing him. Just the mere thought of knowing she would be alone with panditji and that too at a rather odd timing. How he wished he could simply grab her by the shoulders and shake her to make her realise that the path of blind faith she was treading on seemed to be leading to an unknown direction ahead. How he wished that she was in front of him at that moment and he could yell at her for being so heedless with her decision. "Matlab... how can she be so.. so reckless? Uss pandit ne paanch baje bol diya aur wo... usne haan bhibol diya... like..." His stuttering returned, and so did Manik's heart. He knew at that moment what he needed to do.
Ever since my nandu had stepped into college in the early hours of today's morning, there was only one name humming continuously in her mind, in her heart, in her soul and oh her lips. "Manik". Be it when the lights unexpectedly switched off or the pre-rehearsal meditation therapy... her focus and her thoughts were fixed on him. Be it her conscious or subconscious mind... both of them wanted to only think about him. And well we all know that if our Nandu really wants something, how can her Manik ever deny her from that wish. And little did she know that there was an escort waiting to drop her off to her Manik. The mouse.
Oh what a sight that was! She screamed her way through the sleeping corridors of the college only to find that the mouse was no real. The only thing which was real in this whole situation was his love for her, his care for her, his need to protect her. She stood there, arms crossed, eyebrows raised already knowing that he had only one reason to come to college this early. She was the reason. Yet she still questioned him "You have an early morning flight...? and you've come to college early...? Isme... connection kya hai?" Ooft that struggle was real... how was my Manik supposed to say to her that he had come here just for her. How was he meant to confess that his need to see her safe and sound had dragged him to the college premises even before she had arrived. He knew she had him trapped from all corners this time. He knew she wouldn't buy his lies so instead he became the interrogator. And when he realised she wasn't going to be able to recognise the bigger picture of such early morning rehearsals, he snapped! "Problem hai!"
His eyes poured out the frustration that had been boiling inside him upon seeing someone else eyeing his lady love. His voice raised an octave as he tried to reason with Nandini of the rather unreasonable demands of panditji. From the time he was supposedly "checking her out" to the candle light rehearsal he had organised minutes ago... his heart confessed each of its bothers. It professed each and every reason for his previous sleepless night.
Nandini: "Ohhh so Mr. Manik Malhotra is jealous... woh bhi pandit se?
Manik: Bulshit... what...?
Nandini: What nahi... this is woww! You're jealous!
Oh just the pure glory that lit up her face even in such darkness of surroundings. My nandu now knew that there was no turning back. She had already accepted him to be hers forever, and now not too long to go was the moment when he'll confess to her that she's his forever. When he'll officially welcome his shining star back in his days and nights. When he'll proudly claim that true love does exist. If he had a sixth sense to sense any danger lurking around her, she had the sixth sense to unveil the real manik behind his pretentious mask. He could hide his true feelings from himself. But he couldn't himself from her. After all, she was the meaning to everything in his life. She was the reason of his actions. She was the origin of his feelings. She was the hope of his true love. And as she elatedly announced... "Mr. Manik Malhotra... my hope is winning". His heart wanted to celebrate, to smile with utmost joy that she had taken his hope 5 steps closer towards victory today. But his mind stuck to being the adamant being it was.
My heart melted once again today as he gave her that look when she completes his sentence for him.He was so confident that he could delude her mind, confuse her mind too, just like his own mind was managing to do with him. But she proved him wrong. She proved to him once again that in this battle of hope vs hatred... she has the upper-hand because she has his heart. She has his hope. Oh how I was wishing that we get to see a Manan hug today and to my utter delight, the wish was fulfilled. She hugged onto him as tightly as she could in the hope that just like her, he would be able to hear the union of their heartbeats too. She wished for him to just listen once if not to his heart than to her heart which wanted nothing more than to just melt away in his arms. he struggled a little both physically and psychologically but her touch did its magic and he broke through all the dilemmas of the mind. He had missed her touch. It was evident in the quietude expressions of his face. She had taken him to a world even ore beautiful than heaven. The world which only belonged to them. Manan's world.
"Nandini?!" The silence was broken. Their eyes opened up from their dream-world and the sound of an intruder brought them back to reality. The intruder who has also been trying to enter their world of dreams and wishes for each other. And after today's episode, it seems like he won't be giving up so easily. The string has been strummed, the nerve has been pressed, the question has been asked... "Main nandini ka guru hoon. But who are you to stop me?" It stung.. you bet it did Manik. Because he knows there is love, he knows there is hope, he knows that his past, present and future is all Nandini yet he's the reason for their divided paths. He's the reason for his own silence.
But like they say... a silence can often speak a thousand words. And this silence will become the reason for their reunion. This silence will heal the remainder of the wounds that remain unhealed. This silence will amplify the echos of Manan's heartbeat for the whole world to hear on the night of the fusion concert. This silence will give a name to the unnamed relationship that bounds them in this knot of togetherness. It's an indirect open-challenge. But little does panditji know my manik has a little bit of an advantage. My manik has the strengths of two hearts, the spirits of two souls and plenty of that "something" that panditji claims to be over between Manan. He has unconditional, unequivocal and unlimited love for his love, his life, his Nandini.
Now let's just take a detour to the very start of this episode where Dhruv's inner frustration erupted like a volcano today. And from what it seems like, this may be just the start. There seems to be more pain on its way for my Manik. Fresh wounds may bleed once again. His trust will perhaps shatter once again. But luckily my Manik won't be alone on this rocky road. My nandu, like every other time, will become the soothing balm of his wounds and will shine her light of positivity once again in his life. She will calm him when the time will come, wipe his tears when the need be and shield him from his own pain when hard times hit.
Oh also also... I can simply not conclude this post my mentioning that did anyone see the husband-wife type of poise and posture and interaction between Cabir and Navya today?? I don't know what ti was but damn that scene popped up and I couldn't help but foresee a future for them two that will never exist. I swear there jodi would've actually been one that we would've enjoyed just as much as Manan on this show.
( My thoughts exactly !! Cavya are adorable the easy way they interact with each other, like they have known each other for years. Like i say: if Cabir was straight, i would daydream about these two becoming a couple)
Look..who is here !! the most awesome person on the face of this planet 😉 lol..i joke..well sorta kinda 😆 Let's get to business, shall we ?
I start with a 'royally pissed Dhruv with a dash of Bhang' lets it all out today. He might spit venom now, but he shall regret it. But the Cvs are going down this 'rocky road' to heal Manik and Dhruv's relationship. But i feel for Manik already. You said it: he will be hurt, a lot of hurt is coming his way in the name of Dhruv's resentment towards him. Manik is a great guy, everyone loves him, everyone wants to be him and such. My baby, Manik is such a great friend, cares for Dhruv like a brother ( calling him nonstop because he is so worried) and it's sad how Manik never get the same love in return (except for Cabir and Nandu).
Dhruv was pretty damn rude, seriously. And Dhruv suffers from a complex, he has been rejected by Nandu and has apparently played rebound guy for Alya. Alya really has played a role in Dhruv's volcano eruption, she didn't give him the chance to be the cute/caring boyfriend he so wanted to be. Dhruv was a sweet guy, and he would have made a wonderful boyfriend but Alya denied him that joy hence i hold her accountable as well.
Everyone seems to be brushing Dhruv's rude outburst off because of the bhang intoxication but our Cabira can forsee the future: "I have a bad feeling for this guy" Right you are my Cabira.
And the new promo shall come into effect pretty soon. Pandit wants to keep Manik away from 'his student' and Dhruv wants to be Manik Maltorta and he thinks he can be him when he replaces him in the concert. Nandini will be definitely be involved. As you said, she will be Manik's support system. And i don't know if Alya can do the same for Dhruv, I sincerely hope so but i doubt it.
cabira: everyone needs a friend like Cabir in their life. Truly a blessing. And i would like to thank him for reassuring Manik he isn't responsible for everyone, he shouldn't feel responsible for the mistakes his friends make. I may have said that Manik is done playing mother hen to Fab 4 but that might never happen. Not when they need him. That's why they should the significance of his priorities and how he can indeed balance fab 5 and Nandini because he first checked on Dhruv, made sure he was okay before he started worrying about Nandini. I found that quite endearing about him. He gives so much love to the people he loves, I feel as thou he doesn't get as much back as he deserves.
Now onto our Manan. He is restless, he cannot sleep in peace. He can pretend for a few seconds, attempt to brush it off but the worry will not leave him. "How can she be so reckless ?" It's not Nandini he doesn't trust but it's the Pandit whose intentions he questions. his Nandini all alone with Pandit, not gonna happen while Manik Maltorta is around.
Nandu's worry for Manik, running to see if he is here: small yet meaningful moments. He will always be the first for her, that's the main reason she can't focus on music. Manik is the only thing on her mind, her first thought as she feels a presence. Her first image when she closes her eyes. Fire, she says she sees. She didn't lie, Manik is her fire, all consumed with anger at times, his arms are like her personal heater, his love strong as a blazing fire, his passion that has the power to burn her with desire. And she is his water, his calm when he is raging a fire of anger. his soothing balm. Opposites but together they are perfect.
A child lives in Manik Maltorta, with Nandini he can let that child out. He can do childish antics he probably never did as a child. And he knows her so well. Not only the man shows up to college early to guard his girl, he can't keeo it simple.Nope, It's gotta be MM style so knowing his girl well, he brings a remote controlled rat.haha. The Pandit should know Nandini Murthy isn't all quietness and cuteness. her aaa escalating into AAA: hahaha
And when she catches him red-handed, he looks like a kid caught with his hand in the cookie jar. Today's Manan sceene was both fun with Nandu's teasing yet beautifully filled with emotion( with her realisation and delight that he still cares for her and of course the hug). She lights up like the very shining star she is for him when she realizes he has come to college for her, that he is jealous. But darling, he isn't just jealous, he is fiercely protective of you, especially possessive when it comes to you. And he is afraid for you. "Problem..problem hai." he doesn't trust this Pandit and his intentions, he can't stand how "he was just checking you out." But, she doesn't see anything past Manik and his love and care for her, she doesn't see what the Pandit may eventually do. Right now, she is delighted and playful as she teases him and all he can say is "bullshit'..lol. She sees through him anyway. iThe emotion behind that 'bullshit' And it means alot to her. Let me tell you something Manik Malttorta, "bullshit and nonsense" aren't much of comebacks for a sassy man such as yourself.
And shining like the star is she, she embraces him tight and spreads her brightness as their bodies touch and the darkness Manik promised himself that fateful Valentine night fades a little more as his arms come around her, the mind barely put up a fight. He closes his eyes as his heart finds the utmost peace. His cheek rests comfortably against her head and he does a slight sway. My beautiful moment right there ! Nandini may have initiated the hug but Manik needed it as much, he was going away from her a day, not being able to see her for hours; he needed that last touch.
Oh flip sauce this is already too lengthy and i haven't mentioned Pandit and his boisterous claim: I am her guru. I would recommend that you stick to that role only Panditji. Because a certain Manik Maltorta doesn't need to remain your student to take care of his girl. The man got his own MM ways. But Pandit did stump our Manik: "who are you to her ?" Yeah Manik, who are you to her? the world is bound to question and it's probably one you need to answer to yourself if not to the world. Is she your true love ? Is she your shining star still ? Hmmm, Think Manik Maltorta, Think. You did really well on the Pandit and Manik section for the epi so i won't add much anyway.
Fabulous as always my lovely. You have such a flair with words, i am in awe every time and i applaud you.
Muahhh
- Reya aka Your Sunny <3
Edited by maankigeet4ever - 10 years ago
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