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Part 4
NT announces to end the night, "but before that we have a very special thing that needs to be done" and then NT hold Dev's and Kaajjal's hands and tells them, "its time to formally do the ghar pravesh" and then she looks at Nandani, and Nandani knows exactly what to do. She takes dev and Kaajjal out of the main door, and then NT and Panna Chachi brings pooja ki thalis and all necessary things to do the ghar pravesh.
Kaajjal is standing at the door with Dev, and both are seeing all the excitement and love in NT, Panna Chachi and Nandani's eyes. Dev thinks, "aap yunhi khush rehna mom, your happiness is everything to me," and then he looks at Kaajjal and thinks, "the two women I have loved like crazy in my life, my mom and my Kaajjal, both are here, with me, next to me, and I am sooo happy today. Although some hurdles still needs to be dealt with where Kaajjal is concerned but I will prove myself to you Kaajjal. And we will be happy. We will be happy my love." NT's words brings him back to his senses, "chalo Kaajjal aur Dev now enter the house," and Kaajjal lifts her right feet, along with Dev's right feet and enters the house. She drops the chawal wala can with her feet, and NT and Panna Chachi chahi do the aarti, and tilak rasam. Kaajjal then stands in the thali filled with red color, "chalo beta, ab in qadmoon say mandir main jao," and Kaajjal walks towards the mandir, leaving behind her, her colored red footsteps, an honor and a symbol of a suhagan. A promise to the house of her husband, that her entry into this house will brings colors and love to this house and family, and will drive all bad things out of the house. They all than do pooja in the mandir and NT says to Kaajjal, "u r formally a part of this family and this house now Kaajjal, this house is yours to love and protect from all evil." And Kaajjal looks at Dev and NT both standing side by side and looking at her; both have this amazing love in their eyes, and Kaajjal promises in her heart, "I am here to protect Dev's house from all evil, and to bring happiness into this house, I promise mom, I will do anything to protect you and this house." Kaajjal bends down and touches NT's feet again, and NT gives her blessings of long life, forever suhagan, and forever happiness.
"chalo Nandani beta, take Kaajjal to Dev's room," Nandani comes forward and holds Kaajjal's hand, and Kaajjal, it is as if her feet are not a part of her body, as if she is frozen to that ground and won't even take a single step. O my God, what shall I do, I don't have any other option but to go, I don't have any other option. She glances at Dev before moving and finds Dev looking at her, and there she sees this strange kind of assurance in his eyes, as if he is saying, I will respect u and your every decision kaajjal. "Is this an illusion, or am I really feeling these words in Dev's eyes" she questions her self silently, and there she realizes, unintentionally she has called him Dev in her heart. "mera dil tum pay yaqeen karma chahta hai, magar dimagh ab bhi dara raha hai, mujhay maaf kar daina Dev." and then she with heavy feet and mind full of chaotic thoughts, starts taking one step at a time. While getting closer and closer to Dev's room, every step, is bringing a strange feeling in her heart, and giving her goosebumps. She doesn't know what she is feeling and why, all she knows is, she is soooooo very tired of everything, and just wants to believe he is Dev; all she knows is, she just wants to rest her head on Dev's shoulder and feel his strong presence next to her; all she knows is, she wants to drown herself into Dev and never ever emerge; all she knows is, she want to give herself to Dev in every possible way and show him how much he means to her; all she knows is, she wants to believe him and every words he says; all she knows is, she wants to make this night the most memorable one in their lives; all she knows is, she wants Dev just as much as he wants her. For love is playing havocs to her senses and everything else seems irrelevant and meaningless.
Nandani brings her nack to the real world, "You are about to enter your room Kaajjal, it was Dev's room, but from today onwards it's your room. Chalo come in", and Kaajjal steps in, O my God, Kaajjal is speelbound, "Dev has specially ordered this room and this arrangement for you Kaajjal. When we decided a marriage instead of engagement, o how excited he was, it was a sif he wanted to give you every happiness of this world." And at this Kaajjal looks at Nandani with surprise in her eyes. She thinks, "did Dev really did this for me, how would he know I love red roses if he wasn't Dev, only Dev would do something like this for me. O he is my Dev, he is none other than my Dev. and then Nandani leaves Kaajjal with a wink, "best of luck ;)." Kaajjal looks at her smilingly while she is leaving, and then she looks back at the room, this time more closely. Dev's room had always been with black colors, but today it was a beautiful combination of black and red. Red silk curtains, with black lining were draped around the windows; the bed was covered with black bed sheet, and red chiffon falls all around the bed like a curtain, the chiffon has been draped up from the sides of the bed to give an fountain like look, along with the chiffon, is another layer of dark red roses, draped in the same manner, so that the two seem one with different look and feel. These are the most beautiful roses Kaajjal had ever seen in her life. The head side of the bed is filled with small heart and oval shaped pillows with red and black pillow covers. This bed and the arrangements around it are the most beautiful Kaajjal had ever seen, it was as if this bed it telling her a tale of love and passion, a tale of desire and need, a tale of want and longing; it was as if this bed was telling her a tale of Dev and his love for her, both physical and emotional, and at this thought, Kaajjal could feel her heart jumping up and down. She could actually hear her heart beat, and she feels her palms getting wet and her lips trembling with a strange kind of feeling. She looks around the room again, and sees beautiful small bouquets all around the room, wall to wall, giving a complete picture of elegance and style. The bouquet is a replica of another, and they are making a border line for the wall.
Kaajjal looks at everything and have these huge tears in her eyes, so much love, Dev has shown her all his love through this decoration, how can I not believe he is my Dev, he is my Dev. Right at that moment the door opens, and Kaajjal's heart stops beating. She hold her breath and freezes at her spot, for that moment has arrived which will bring a new light into their lives and will give a new meaning to their love; for this is the night of union and becoming one.
Dev comes in and lock the door behind him; he sees Kaajjal standing beside the bed with her back towards him. O how I have waited for this moment Kaajjal, please don't doubt me tonight Kaajjal, for tonight is the night of our love, please have faith in me, trust me and my love, I am your Dev, and thinking this he takes a step towards her. Kaajjal's heart skips another beat, she could hear him and feel him closing that distance between them. With every step she could feel her self drowning into the need of loving him, touching him, being his and making him her's, and finally she could feel Dev standing behind her. Distance so close that only air could pass. Dev's intensity of feelings is exploding as well, they both stood there in silence for some moments but it seems like an eternity, neither of them moved, nor spoke, just stood their Dev looking at Kaajjal's back and Kaajjal looking at Dev through her heart's eyes and feeling him close to her. And then very gently, Dev puts his hands on her shoulders. And there, that touch drives Kaajjal crazy, that one touch loosens all her barriers, and she takes a deep breath of satisfaction and love. Very gently Dev slides his hands down her arms, so slowly as if it'll take an eternity, and then finds her hands and holds her hands and presses them, holding them tight, as if he will never let them go ever again. Kaajjal could feel that pressure, that tight hold, and with every gesture she is loosing her self. Very softly, Dev puts his head at her shoulder, as if bowing in front of his Goddess, never letting her hands go. Right then Dev senses a strange kind of sensation in Kaajjal, he could feel her body relaxing at his touch, and at the same time tensing at every gesture, what a beautiful combination of relaxation and tension. How Dev loved it, and for a split second a beautiful smile crosses his lips. And then, he very meaningfully presses his lips, in the big red wedding dupatta, tracing her neck's line. And Kaajjal, how she had longed for this one moment, how she had dreamt about being in the arms of her love and her God, how she has longed for this moment. Kaajjal senses a strange sense of enjoyment and passion, she loved to be touched by Dev like this, and never wants this moment to end. Dev is not oblivious to her feelings, he knows what he is doing to her senses, and very softly, leaving her hands, he moves his hands and drops them on her waist and then traces her waist to the center of her stomach. "O my God, why are you doing this Dev, why are you driving me crazy like this Dev, please hold me Dev, please hold me tight and close, don't torture me like this Dev, don't," but it seems as if Dev have other plans, he wants to drive her to a point of no return, where there is no more 'me' or 'you', just We and Us. Kaajjal rests her head on his head which is still buried in her neck, thereby telling her without a single word that I have given myself to you Dev, just hold me, and love me. Dev is now holding her so close and tight to him, that not even air could pass between them.
Dev than turns Kaajjal around, very gently, while his hands are still around her waist, and all of the sudden Kaajjal feels extremely shy, she has never felt before. She is unable to even lift her eyes and look at Dev, Oh this passion is driving her crazy. She bends her head down, and Dev senses her shyness, And this shyness drives his crazy. All of the sudden without any warning he crushes Kaajjal to himself and holds her extremely tight and close to her. Without speaking a single word, Kaajjal could understand his every sentence, it is as if he is saying, "ab mujhay chor kay kabhi na jana Kaajjal, bas meri hi rehna, sirf meri," and Kaajjal couldn't resist and hugs him back, with the same passion, same feeling and same love. For a long long moment they are lost into each others arms, just holding each other and standing still, feeling each others presence and warmth. Its Kaajjal who lifts her head this time first, and looks at Dev. they both look into each others eyes, and Kaajjal lifts her fingers and traces forehead, his eyes, his cheeks, his chin, his neck, and his lips, and then she lifts her self and this time traces the same pattern with her lips. She kisses his forhead, his cheeks, his chin, his neck, and then she comes to a stand still, o my, how can I do this, and Dev senses it in her, and smiles in his heart, and keep looking at her, he is enjoying this moment to the max and loves to see kajjal's jatpatahat. kaajjal musters up all her courage and tries to move forward and reach the destination of this trace, but, O man …. And at that moment Dev takes the lead and very softly lifts her bent head up with a finger, and looks into her eyes, "I have waited for this moment for soo long Kaajjal, I want to touch you, hold you and kiss you, say u want it too Kaajjal, say u want it too," "yes Dev, I want it too, just as much as you want it," and that's all that Dev needed to know, and while Kaajjal is still saying something lovely which Dev had no clue about, he presses her to him, and looks at her lips, she stops talking immediately and holds her breath, for that one beautiful moment is here, when they are about to become one, and very gently Dev brushes his lips on her's, as if a feather is touching her lips. But this gentleness couldn't last long, for passion is building and desire is getting stronger and stronger, Kaajjal moves her hands up and touches Dev's cheek with her fingers, almost caressing it, and unintentionally telling him, 'I want more Dev, I want it all', and Dev is done holding back. He lifts his head, looks at Kaajjal one more time, and this time sees a look of submission on her face, a look that's begging him "I belong to you Dev, have me any way u want, touch me, hold me and love me …drown me in you and your love Dev, Please." And that's it, Dev once again claims her mouth, but this time softness is replaced by hunger, gentleness is replaced by desire, this time Dev has claimed her like his private property, and he is just not ready to let her go, not yet. Kaajjal's initial shyness is also possessed by a strange kind of desire, and Kaajjal moves her hands around his neck and hold him tight, she lifts herself up, and brings him down to her, and presses herself to him and return his kiss with the same passion. Dev's hands are now off her waist and touching her all over, that urgency in his touch, is driving Kaajjal crazy. Kaajjal is hanging on to him like he is her savior, and Dev is holding her and touching her in a way never known to her. She never knew such passion existed, she never knew she could touch these heights of desire and need, she never knew, but Dev has brought her to a point of no return, here she is totally at the mercy of her master, who can have her any way he wants. And as Dev is about to lift Kaajjal up in his arms and do all the other things this beautiful night had dreamt of, they hear a knock on the door.
"In gods name, who the hell is here, at this time," and Dev tries to ignore the knock, but someone knocks again, and Dev is just worried about NT, he just can't trust anyone with mom, especially Karan and Ameesha. Very reluctantly they break their zealous closeness. Devs looks at her face and sees an unbelievable passion on her face, he had never seen before, her whole face was telling him her story of how much she wants him. Kaajjal has her eyes closed and her head lifted up towards him, after a few seconds, Kaajjal comes back to her senses, a little though, and slowly opens her eyes, "main dekhta hoon kaun hai, tum ruko" he kisses her on her cheek before leaving her, and moves towards the door. He opens the door with a curse on his lips, and is frozen to see Karan there. "now what the hell he wants" he asks himself.
Episode ends ….
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