FF- Hum ho gaye apke (UPDATED) PART 6- Page 15 (20/4/14) - Page 2

PART 2:

Jodha ran out of the kheema tears pelting down her cheeks, her mind no longer functioning and her heart seeming like it had shattered into a million pieces. She finally slumped down against a tree. She buried her face in her hands and sobbed. He was right she couldn't hide her feelings any longer, she had to face it, that she had fallen in love with him, with the shahenshah- e-hindustan, Jalal. Something in her heart told her that he loved her too but even if that was right it wouldn't change anything, everything was ruined. She felt miserable as though she had committed the biggest gunah possible. Faintly she recalled what Ruqaiya had told her when she had come to meet her after she had recovered from the poison. "Hum aapko jo chaye vo denge, sivaye jalal ke" Jodha knew Ruqaiya loved her audha, her izzat, but more than anything she loved jalal, and if Jodha took that away from her then she would be shattered, she would be broken. She cried to her heart's content, for she was helpless, she had committed the gravest mistake possible... She had fallen in love with her husband.

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Back in the kheema Jalal's condition was similar. He stormed out of the kheema seeking refuge by a nearby lake. Ya allah ye humne kya kar diya? Humko ho kya gaya hai? Unki aankhon mein ansoon kyun aa gaye? Kya woh humse mohabbat nahi karti, lekin agar nahi karti toh woh humare saath itni kush kyun lagi. Jo bhi ho raha tha us mein unki bhi to razamandi bhi thi, woh bhi chati thi ki hum unke pass aaye, unhe mohobbat kare... Toh phir kyun ro rahi thi woh?? He questioned himself. He remembered the way she had closed her eyes, the way her breaths had deepened, if she had wanted she could have pushed him back, but she hadn't, she had allowed him to remain holding her hand, she had allowed him to come closer to her, they why had she looked like she was in despair before fleeing from his kheema? He sighed and pressed his fingers against his temple. "Ya allah in auratoan ko koyi nahi samajh sakta" He sighed. One thing was certain though. He loved her. Jalludin Mohommad Akbar had fallen in love... With her.

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Jodha wiped her tears off with the back of her hand, she had to steel herself against what she had to do now. It wasn't going to be easy but somehow she had to manage, for Ruqaiya. She was going to distance herself from Jalal, she was going stay as far away from him and slowly he would forget her and move on, after all he had many wives, she wasn't anything special. The thought caused tears to pool into her eyes but she blinked them away, she was done crying. She was a Rajvanshi, and Rajvanshi's were generous in giving. The only difference was that she was giving Ruqaiya her life.

She walked back to the campsite, her body weak from the crying and the lack of food. She saw that that the diya's inside the kheema were blown out and so she assumed that both Ruqaiya and Jalal were both asleep. She laid down on the chadar that Jalal had used earlier. She pulled off her dupatta from around her and used it like a blanket to insulate herself from the chilly night, and then closed her eyes with a sigh.

Back inside the Kheema Jalal couldn't sleep knowing that she was out there in the cold, alone. He waited for Ruqaiya to fall asleep and then gently tiptoed outside to where his Begum lay sleeping. The sight of her shocked him to the core. She looked so frail in the windy night. Her hair was open and hung straight beside her, she had used the thin dupatta as a blanket which wasn't much aid for he could see her shivering while she slept. She was curled up so as to not lose body heat and her lips were bluish purple. He extended a hand and felt her forehead and realised with a shock that she had a fever. Yeh apne kya kar dia Jodha Begum, bemar pad gayi? Ab hum kya kare? Ab to hum majbooran aapko chuna padega aapki marzi ki khilaf, khair hum karenge kyunki humare liye aap ke siva aur kuch mahene nahi raktha, kuch bhi nahi. Aap humare liye bohoti keemti hai, aur hum aapko kho nahi sakte.

He laid down next to her and gingerly opened his arms and brought her into them. She buried herself closer in her sleep, burrowing herself closer into his chest to shield herself from the harsh cold. His arms tightened around her petite form and his heartbeats rose. He was touching just her bare skin for the dupatta which she had wrapped around herself had fallen off due to her movements. He could feel her bare waist under the tips of his fingers, and he felt his desires increase. In the naked moonlight he could see the silhouette of her curves, he could feel the softness of her skin under his fingertips and he felt his urges plummet. Mashallah! Khuda ne aapko kitne phursat se banaya hai Jodha Begum, aap to beintehaan khoobsurat hai. Yeh kaise saza de rahe aap humko apni aap se door rakein??? Just then she snuggled closer to his chest in her state of unconsciousness and mumbled "Hmmm... Shahenshah" His face lit up with a smile as he stared at her lovingly. It made his heart soar when he realised that his love, his Jodha was dreaming about him. He picked up her dupatta and spread it across their moulded figures and closed his eyes peacefully falling asleep almost instantly.

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Jodha opened her eyes at the crack of dawn and was shocked to discover him beside her, holding her. She blushed at their position before remembering her resolution the night before. She tried lifting his arms off her so that she could get up, but found his grip much too strong. She continued trying and suddenly found herself being rolled over. She shut her eyes tightly and when she opened them she found herself under his body, pressed to the cold ground, for they had rolled right off the chadar. She looked at him reflexively and saw him mumble something unintelligent with his eyes still closed and nestle into the crook of her neck settling down again. Her heartbeats fastened as she felt his breaths against her bare neck. Something soft was pressed against her shoulder and she guessed it was his lips. His arms were still wound tightly around her waist and she could feel the muscles from his arms and shoulders pressing into her torso, where he held her. The places where he'd made contact with felt warm as if the sun's rays were warming the skin. Jodha closed her eyes and let herself sink in to the pleasure he was offering but as soon as she closed her eyes an image of a broken Ruqaiya flashed in her mind. She opened her eyes in shock and tears filled them again, why was her life difficult? She grit her teeth and pushed against the Shahensha's chest, partially angry with him for making her feel this way about him. He muttered something but then settled down again. She pushed him another time, this time with more force and pressure.

Jalal opened his eyes to find something pressing against his chest. "Sone dijeya naa Ammijaan" He muttered mindlessly.

"Shahensha kya aap hum par se utt sakte hain?" Came Jodha Begum's melodious voice. He immediately opened his eyes and found her so close to him. "Shahensha?" She said softly again, casting her eyes to his hands on her waist, when he made no move. Sighing inwardly the Shahensha rolled off his begum, freeing her from his clutches. He sat up, blinking at the sun rising. He turned around to look at her when he found he couldn't look away for his begum had no dupatta draped over her. He knew he should look away but certain urges made it impossible for him to. She blushed a deep red and turned away from him, fixing her dupatta before turning to face him.

"Aap... Aap yahan?" She asked not looking at him. He frowned at her question.

"Kyun... Kya hume yahan nahi hone chaye?" He asked her.

"Ji haan, aapko toh Ruqaiya Begum ke saath andar hona chahiye tha" She replied still not meeting his gaze.

"Hum ek Shahenshah hai Jodha Begum, humme jahan mann lage hum vahi pe hi hote hain" He replied.

"Issilye hum ne kaha hai ki aapko Ruqaiya Begum ke saath hona chahiye, akhir voh aapko bohot chati hain" Said Jodha

"Accha... Aur aap nahi chati humme?" He asked, his voice turning husky. She looked up in shock at him.

"Ky...Kya matlab hai aapka Shahensha? Khair hume kuch kam hai" She said quickly and turning in order to walk away. He shot out a hand and grabbed her hand, pulling her close to him, placing a hand on her shoulder. "Yeh kya kar rahe ho aap Shenshah, chod dije humein, koi dekh lega" She said.

"Hum aapke shauhar hai Jodha begum, haq banta hai hamara" He said smirking at her and freeing her hand. "Aur vaise bhi aap hamara matlab jaanti hain" He whispered.

"Hum aapko nahi chate hain" Jodha insisted. He chuckled softly.

"Aapko toh thik se jhoot bhi bolne nahi aatein, kyunki agar aap humme nahi chatein toh aap kab ka jaa chuke hoti, humne aap ka haath kabka chod diya hai Jodha Begum" He said softly. Jodha saw he was right, she blushed then walked away quickly. Aap kab tak khud ko aur hamse jhoot bolengi Jodha Begum??? Khair hum intezaar karenge inshallah woh din door nahi ki jab aap humse aapni mohabbat ki istaqbal karengi...