SS: ~Ehsaas~updatd chptr 14 on page 81 - Page 50

Jalal: - (tears rolling down his cheeks...shocked) esa nahi ho sakta...nahi ho sakta esa...

(Hamida sensed it and tried to hold his hand...but jalal was not in his senses...he kept on murmuring the same thing...gazing at jodha without even a blink...Hamida cupped jalal's face in her hands...trying to make him look in her eyes to bring him back to his senses...shook him really hard..."hosh me aayiye jalal...jalal"...finally after much difficulty...she succeed in dragging him out of his trauma...but instead of responding to her...jalal looked at jodha with a final complaining angry stare and...turned with a jerk and moved out of the room...his gesture made hamida really worried...she quickly instructed Mirza to follow jalal as he was not in a condition to be left alone at this point of time...Mirza nodded in agreement and went behind him...as they came out of the chamber...Mirza held jalal's hand...then walked to stand in front of him...).

Mirza: -(with moist eyes) bhai jaan...samhaliye apne aapko...is waqt aapka akele rehna munasib(appropriate) nahi hai...aur aap bahar kyu aa gaye...aapko to ander rehna chahiye na...bhabhi jaan...

(But before he could complete his sentence...jalal burst out loud in frustration and anguish...)

Jalal: - naam mat lo unka mirza...wo kya samajhti hai ke humesha apni manmani karegi...tum nahi jante...wo ye sab sirf hume pareshan karne ke liye kar rahi hai...tumne dekha nahi kaise hans rahi thi wo hum per...mano keh rahi ho ke hum kuch nahi kar sakte...magar shayad wo ye nahi janti...ke agar wo ziddi hai to hum bhi zid me kam nahi hai...agar unhone humare paas wapas na aane ki zid pakad rakhi hai...to hum bhi unhe wapas laker hi dum lege...

(and he again turned to move out from there...Mirza was astonished at his state and words...he was going crazy completely...Mirza again tried to stop him by holding his arm...)

Mirza: - bhai jaan...ye sab aap kya keh rahe hai...kya ho gaya hai aapko...aapko khud nahi malum ke aap kya bole jaa rahe hai...aur aap jaa kaha rahe hai...

Jalal: - (now his voice became a bit low...) is waqt hume akela chor do mirza...hum unhe wapas lane jaa rahe hai...apne paas...

(and he left from there silently...Mirza was speechless seeing this side of his brother...even any blind person could clearly identify...how madly this guy was in love with his wife...and his strong belief to make her return to him anyhow...to get her back anyhow...was just beyond words...though Jalal had asked Mirza to leave him alone but yet he followed him silently all the way and finally they reached near the Dargah...Mirza decided to wait outside while jalal got in...)

(As jalal entered in the Mazaar*Mosque sort of*...his eyes fell upon the huge grave decorated with colorful flowers ...situated in the middle of the place...the aura around was itself filled with immense divinity...suddenly he was feeling much calm and composed...it worked as a soothing medicine for his bleeding heart...his temper and flow of emotions seemed to be resting down for the moment...his mind was feeling at peace for a while...he slowly made his way forward...and sat on his knees in front of the almighty resting beneath that huge coffin covered with certain sheer panes of silk clothing...he first bowed down his head...and put his forehead on the railing made around that grave as a gesture of observance ...then touched it with both his eyes one after another and kissed it with deep and beyond words dedication...he lifted up his head but his eyes were still downcasted gazing at the ground...)

Jalal: -(with his head still bowed down in turmoil...his eyes getting wetter by each passing second) aap soch rahe hoge ke aaj ye Hindustan ka shenshah aapke samne yu nazren jhukakar kyu baitha hai...jo insaan kabhi fakr(pride) se apna sar uthaker tere sajde me aaya karta tha...aaj uski aankhen yu sharmsaar(ashamed) kyu hai...(he stopped for a moment as the silent sobs coming in b/w obstruct his words from coming out...but he managed to speak further anyhow...because he had to do it...he can't lose his strength...at least not now...he continued)...sach to ye hai mere malik...ke aaj hum tere sajde me ek shenshah nahi balki ek fakir...ek gunehgaar...banker aaye hai...hume apne gunaah ka ilm hai...aur uske liye koi bhi saza bhugatne ke liye taiyaar hai hum...magar jo saza usne mukarrar(decide) ki hai humare liye...wo...wo hum nahi maan sakte...(now he raised his eyes to confront the reality...as he wanted to remove that burden from his heart once and for all...at least after this he will be able to gather the courage to face her...)

Aaj tak uski har marzi ke samne hume ghutne tekne pade hai...aap to jante hai na ke wo kitni ziddi hai...ek baar jo thaan leti hai use anjaam dekar hi dum leti hai...magar hum bhi kya kare...hum chahker bhi uski ye zid puri nahi hone de sakte...wo humse door jana chahti hai...wo humse itni nazraz hai ke humare paas wapas tak nahi aana chahti...aaj zindagi me pehli baar hume dar ka ehsaas ho raha hai mere maula... dar use khone ka ...usse juda hone ka ...hakim sahib kehte hai ke uske paas zyada waqt nahi hai...ke wo jina nahi chahti hai...magar teri marzi ke aage kiski marzi chal paati hai mere peer(word used for addressing the almighty)...aaj sirf tera hi sahara hai parvardigaar...tu chahe to kya nahi ho sakta...ab uski zid ko sirf tu hi tod sakta hai...HUMARI MADAD KAR MERE MALIK...HUME WO WAPAS DEDE JISKE BINA HUMARI ZINDAGI ADHURI HAI...HUMARI SAANSE ADHURI HAI...YE KAYNAAT(universe) ADHURI HAI...AAJ TAK JAB BHI TERE DAR PAR AAYA...KABHI KUCH NAHI MAANGA MAINE...BIN MAANGE PURI DUNIYA DEDI TUNE MUJHE...AAJ PEHLI BAAR TUJHSE KUCH MAANG RAHA HU...MUJHE MERI ZINDAGI LAUTA DE MERE MAULA...MERI CHAHAT LAUTA DE MUJHE...MERI DHADKAN LAUTA DE MUJHE MERE MALIK...AAJ TUJHE MERA SAATH DENA HI HOGA...DIKHA DE USE KE TERI MARZI KE AAGE USKI ZID KA KOI WAJOOD NAHI HAI...APNI REHMAT KA NOOR BARSA DE MERE MAALIK...AAJ HUM DONO KO MILKER USKI ZID KO HARANA HAI...MERI MADAD KAR MERE MAULA...MERI MADAD KAR...

(And with it he raised his hands towards the OMNIPOTENT...and closed his eyes saying that "AB YE AANKHEN TAB HI KHULEGI JAB WO APNI AANKHEN KHOLEGI...AAPKO WAPAS AANA HOGA JODHA BEGUM...HUM ITNI AASANI SE HAAR NAHI MANEGE...AAPKO WAPAS AANA HI HOGA... ")

(and with it he closed his eyes with a determination to bring his love back to him...and started praying for his beloved with the devotion and dedication that had never seen before...it seemed like the nature itself was joining him in his worships...as the atmosphere became utmost peaceful...only the words of his prayer were audible in the whole arena...his prayers had actually created the most divine and eternal environment all around...Mirza too prayed elevating his hands... outside the dargaah for his bhabhi jaan...)

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(Soon his prayers conquered jodha's soul...as she was about to leave this word forever...she stepped forward to reach the divinity...but suddenly a barrier was created around her and she was shocked to see this...she tried to cross it again and again but failed...at the same time, a huge sarcastic voice drew her attention towards it..."AAPKO KYA LAGA THA KE HUM AAPKO YU HI JAANE DEGE...")

(she turned with a jerk to look at the owner of the voice...and for her surprise...it was none other than her husband...JALLALUDDIN MOHAMMAD...he looked at her with a victory look on his face but with gloomy and moist eyes...she looked at him all annoyed...)

Jodha (soul):- aap vyarth hi prayaas kar rahe hai shenshah...aap hume nahi rok payege... (Your attempts are useless shenshah...you won't be able to stop me...)

Jalal: - (soul) aapne humesha apni manmarzi ki hai jodha begum...humne kabhi kuch nahi kaha...magar is baar...is baar aap esa nahi kar payegi...ise dekh rahi hai aap... (He singled towards the barrier in front)....ye humari mohabbat ki sarhad hai... ise laanghker aap us paar nahi ja sakti....(you have always done what you wished for...I never said anything to you...but this time..You won't be able to do that...you knows what is it??...it's the boundary of my love...you can't cross it and go other side...)

Jodha: -(soul) huh...prem...prem ka arth bhi jante hai aap shenshah...prem karne aur use nibhaane me zameen aasman ka fark hota hai...kuch nahi jante hai aap prem ke bare me...prem ki to neev hi bharose per tiki hoti hai... (Love is built on the base of trust)...aur aapko to hum per bharosa tha hi nahi na...phir prem ki baat karna aapko shobha nahi deta...

Jalal:-(soul) sahi kaha aapne...nahi jante the hum ke mohabbat kya hoti hai...tabhi to aap per bharosa na karne ki bhul kar baithe...har insaan ko apni galti sudharne ka ek mauka to diya hi jaata hai...aap humse wo mauka nahi chin sakti jodha begum...ruk jayiye...sirf ek baar...humne khud se waada kiya hai ke hum kisi bhi kimat per aapko jaane nahi dege...is wade ko tutne mat dijiye...hume chorker mat jayiye jodha begum...hum akele ho jayege...bahut akele ho jayege hum...

Jodha:-(soul) lekin kyu mane hum aapki baat...aapne hume mauka diya tha jo hum aapko mauka de...aur waise bhi hum kya karege jikar...kiske liye jiye hum...kyu wapas aaye aapke paas...kya rishta hai humara...kya astitva(existance) hai humara aapke jivan me...kyu rok rahe hai aap hume...kyu...??

Jalal:-(soul) kyuki hum aapse beintehaan mohabbat karte hai jodha begum...aap humare jine ki wajah ban chuki hai...aaj tak khud se jhoot bolte rahe...apne jazbaato ko chipate rahe magar ab bus...ab aur nahi...aaj hum aapki aankho me aankhen dalker ye keh sakte hai ke hum aapse behad mohabbat karte hai...aur ye humara dava hai ke hum aapko jaane nahi dege...humari chahat...humari shiddat(desperation) aapko majboor kar degi...aapko wapas aana hi hoga jodha begum...aap hume tanha chorker nahi jaa sakti...bilkul nahi jaa saki...kyuki aaj wo do jahan ka shenshah (he pointed his finger towards the almighty)aapke saath nahi balki humare saath hai...agar humare pyar me zara si bhi sachaai hai...agar humari ibadat(worship) me zara si bhi gehraai hai to wo aapko kahin nahi jaane dega...

(and with it he moved towards jodha...took her hand in his firmly with a dignified look on his face...and pulled her towards him...with that sudden pull...Jodha took a deep breath at once which was quite audible ...as it caused her to snap out from her deep sleep...everyone present in the room were shocked for the moment...Hamida who was standing near the balcony...praying with his hands raised towards the sky...ran towards jodha at once...sat down beside her holding her hand...caressed her forehead...she sensed some movement in her hand and screamed out loud in excitement... )

Hamida: - hakima sahiba...jaldi aayiye... (Now she looked at jodha again)...jodha...beta...

(Hakima who had went out for collecting some necessary medicines...came in running...and sat beside jodha on the other side...everyone present there was tensed as well as excited at the same time...Hakima checked jodha's pulse which was turning quite normal now...she exclaimed out of amusement..."ye to karishma(miracle) ho gaya mallika e aazam...inki halat me achanak kaafi sudhar hai...hume lagta hai jald hi inhe hosh bhi aa jayega")

Hamida: -(extremely happy...tears flowing down her cheeks) ya Allah...tera lakh lakh shukr hai...tune meri bachhi ki jaan bakhsh di... (Now she looked at Salima)...Salima begum...jaldi se jalal ko paigam bhijvayiye...ke jodha begum ko hosh aa raha hai...

(Salima nodded in a yes with a wide smile on her face and went outside to inform the shenshah...On the other hand...Jalal was still in the dargah...with his eyes closed and hand raised in worship...continuously murmuring the prayers...entire night he was just like this...not even for a single second his prayers got interrupted by anything...he was praying for his possession with full devotion...when suddenly a shiver ran down his spine as Jodha took that deep breath...Jalal's heart started beating so fast like an engine as he sensed something unusual...his raised hands started trembling with those sensations as Jodha's hand moved in Hamida's...though they were at different places but their souls have been united the moment when jalal had held her hand and pulled her back to life...Jalal's solemn requests started coming out from his mouth with double speed...finally his heartily dedication and determination had bound jodha to come back to him...even god has to bow down in front of his will power of getting his beloved back...the volcanic horrifying night had passed away at last and a pleasant and serene morning...full of hopes and blessed atmosphere was waiting for both of them...the first ray of the glowing early sun reached upon their faces...through the sheer pane of transparent curtains of clouds...and as the sun rays fell upon their bodies... both of them opened their eyes at the same time with a content faint smile on their faces...Jalal in the Dargah and Jodha in the room...)

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(Jalal lifted up his eyelids with a startle as he felt immense strength in himself at once...a lone tear rolled down his cheek followed by a wide happy smile...As jalal came out from his long praying session...at the same time Mirza entered the Dargah...calling his name out in excitement..."Bhai jaan...Bhai jaan..."...he quickly reached to jalal's side and sat beside him...put his hand on his shoulder...but jalal continued to bow down his head until Mirza's words reached upon his ears..."Aapki ibadat rang laayi bhai jaan...khuda ne aapki dua qubool kar li...abhi abhi harem se badi ammi jaan ka paigaam aaya hai...Jodha bhabhi jaan ko hosh aa gaya hai bhai jaan...unhone apni aankhen khol di hai...wo thik hai bhai jaan...wo theek hai...")

(Jalal...unable to bear the load of this extreme happiness...just intertwined his hands with the most ever gratified expressions on his face...and bend down...put his forehead on the ground...thanking the Omniscient for supporting him...for giving him back his life...his love...the emotions that he had been controlling...now busted out loud as a huge cry...he cried his heart out in happiness...he felt as if he had won the biggest battle of his life today...he felt like a real triumphant...Mirza held him by shoulders as he elevated his head up...and hugged him tightly to console him...Jalal hugged him back to assure him that he is fine now...Jalal broke the hug and looked at mirza smilingly...wiping off his tears...Mirza too gave him a content look...."Ab to chalege na bhabhi jaan se milne...hume pura yakeen hai ke wo bhi isi besabari(impateintly) se aapka intezaar kar rahi hogi...ab chale..." ...Jalal nodded his head in a yes...and stood up after thanking his Allah once again...and they left from there for Jodha's room...)

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(On the other hand...as soon as jodha opened her eyes...she found herself surrounded by almost every royal lady of the palace including hakim and hakima...though she came in conscious but still she was feeling week...thus blinking her eyes at regular intervals...Hamida placed a loving kiss on her forehead...with a cheerful smile on her face...Jodha smiled back at her...she tried to get up but Hamida stopped her...)

Hamida: - are aap lete rahiye beta...abhi aap kamzor hai... (but jodha requested her with her gesture that she wants to sit...Hamida held her hand and with other she helped her in getting up and sit...she adjusted the pillow behind her and jodha sat down taking support from the bed wall behind...Hamida again put her hand on her forehead with concern in her eyes) ab kaisa mehsus kar rahi hai aap beta...??

Jodha: -(with a faint smile and low voice) hum theek hai ammi jaan...aap chinta mat kijiye...

Hamida:- aap nahi janti beta...hum sab kitna dar gaye the...ek pal ke liye to laga ke hum apni sabse pyari bahu ko kho hi dege...magar shukr hai khuda ka...jo usne aapki jaan bakhsh di...

(Jodha was listening to Hamida's words but not wholeheartedly...as her eyes were busy searching for someone...there was a longing in her eyes...that was restlessly searching for that someone special...Hamida noticed it and smiled...suddenly a heartbreaking sadness crept over her face as she dint succeed in finding that person around...she thought to herself..."dint he come to see me??...dint he get the news or is it that he don't want to visit me...doesn't he care for me??...is he still angry with me??" with all these thoughts...her face got covered with even more dullness...and she lowered her eyelids in disappointment)

(A storm of questions was roaming around in her mind...when finally...finally her eyes caught him standing behind everyone ...probably at the farthest corner of the room near the entrance...looking at her without even a blink with his eyes storming with enormous tears within them...and finally their eyes met ...And to add in their pleasure...it was not a dream...but reality...)

Precap:- Akdha hug😳

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