SS: ~Ehsaas~updatd chptr 14 on page 81 - Page 49

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Jalal:- nahi mirza...aap jayiye...hum nahi aayege...hume kuch zaruri kaam hai...hum apne hojre me jaa rahe hai...(he thought to himself...."I know mirza...you must be thinking that what kind of husband I am...who dint want to visit his ill wife...but I have promised to myself that I will go to see her only when I will get to hear the news of her coming in conscious because I can't see her in this state anymore...")

(and with all these thoughts...he left from there for his room...without arguing any further...leaving his younger brother all perplexed and flabbergasted...)

Mirza: -(to himself) hume bakhubi ilm hai bhai jaan...ke is khamoshi ke piche aap apna dard chupane ki koshish kar rahe hai...kabhi khwaab me bhi nahi socha tha humne ke kisi roz aapka ye roop bhi dekhege hum...(now he looked up at the sky...)ya allah...tujhse ek hi dua hai...jisne humare bhai jaan ko ye nayi zindagi di hai...uski zindagi ki hifazat karna... (And with it he left from there for Jodha's chambers...)

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(All his way...jalal was completely lost in his own word... that was full of loneliness and solitude...all his culprits have been caught and punished but still his soul was not at peace...he just couldn't bear the fact that everything happened with jodha in front of his eyes...but he dint do anything...why the hell he dint ask to end the fight when he saw her injured and bleeding...why he couldn't sense something wrong when Benazir played her trick...where was his so called sixth sense and wisdom at that time when jodha was fighting her death battle in front of his eyes...if he would have done something that time...jodha wouldn't be this serious...be it unknowingly but somewhere he had played a very crucial role to lead jodha to this much critical condition...he had yet not overcome his remorse ...when he reached his room and entered all devastated from inside)

(As soon as he got in...the very moment when jodha came to meet him in his room for the last time...appeared in front of his eyes...that was the first time when she came to meet him to solve the misunderstanding b/w them...but he dint listen to her...he shut her up abruptly...and insulted her to extreme...the words he fired on her... started ringing in his ears...."hume aapki koi baat nahi sunni...koi safai nahi chahiye hume jodha begum...aur aapko kya laga ke aap hume ek khat likhegi aur hum apke paas daude chale aayege...nahi jodha begum nahi...aapki malumaat ke liye hum aapko bata de ke aap humare liye koi mayne nahi rakhti...aapko kya laga ke hume aapse mohabbat ho gayi hai...huh...kyu mohabbat karege hum...wo bhi aapse...aap humare liye mehez un mamuli begumo me se ek hai jo humari ek nazar ke liye tarasti hai...ab hatiye humare raste se...hume aur bhi zaruri kaam hai..."...how disgracefully he had uttered those demeaning words...)

(his inner self and everything around him was making him remember again and again those harsh words that he said to her...his mind was so much engulfed with this guilty feeling that he could actually visualize every scene...that how he left her there all alone...hurt and shattered...he could actually see the heartbroken jodha standing at the same position where he left her that day...his eyes were full of tears but behind those sheer pane of water...his distressed angel was quite visible to him...he walked up to her...not even for a single second ...his eyes left hers...but as soon as he was to touch her...she again slipped from her hands like sand...and in no time he was all deserted again...in the same way, she was that day...he closed his eyes with immense shame and guilt...and fell on his knees...sat on the floor taking support from the bed wall behind...he never ever realized that he could become this weak...he was feeling suffocated...exasperated...he could actually feel that what hell she must have been suffered from...he wanted nothing at that moment apart from her well being...he dint know what to do...he had so much there in his heart... He need to confess it to someone...this burden on his soul was way too heavy to carry for him now...he had started hating himself...cursing himself...he was all lost in his agony...when his eyes caught something that gave him a little peace...he saw the same "palna" that jodha had gifted him in meena bazaar..one night before...as a part of her pure blessings...that was put on the table beside his bed...though he rejected it at that time...but after MEENA BAZAR was finished...he silently slipped into Hamida's room while she was in deep sleep and found it put on the table...he picked it up and left from there...next morning though Hamida asked about it to him and everyone...but jalal pretended as if he dint know anything about it)

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(Jalal got up and moved towards it...he looked at it with a regretful expression on his face...touched it with his fingers then lifted it up carefully...a faint smile covered his face urgently...he caressed it with his hands...and in no time his eyes were again flooded with tears...)

Jalal:- (in a husky voice) humne jhoot kaha tha jodha begum...jhoot kaha tha humne ke aap humare liye mamuli hai...ke aap humare liye mayne nahi rakhti...sach to ye hai ke us din hume aapka taufa sabse jyada pasand aaya tha...humesha ki tarah us din bhi aapne humare dil ko chua tha...magar hum gusse aur guroor me is kadar andhe ho chuke the ke aapki achaai hume dikhayi hi nahi di...aapki paak dua ko humne baddua samjha(I took ur pure blessings as curse)...hum humesha aap per bharosa karna chahte the jodha begum...magar jab humare apne hi humari kushiyo ke dushman ban baithe ho...to hum kar bhi kya sakte the...hum bhi unke behkave me aate chale gaye...hum aapke gunehgaar hai jodha begum...(he stopped for a moment as a thought came across his mind)...aap hume muaff to kar degi na jodha begum...(there was a hope in his eyes as he knew his jodha very well...that she was a divine princess with a king sized heart...she was indeed a queen with all the qualities...she was much more beautiful from inside more than she looked from outside...it may be she throw some tantrums or be angry with him at the beginning but after all he was adamant for her forgiveness...he was ready to bear each and every bit of all her taunting and tantrums throughout his life...he could do anything to make up for his mistakes...now he was eagerly waiting for jodha to gain her consciousness...he put the "paalna" inside the cupboard very carefully...where he used to put all the things that belonged to her...there was a special almirah in his cupboard that was meant for her gifts only(like her payal, the torn letter and now the 'palna")...it was at the lower left corner and even had a lock on it so no one can open it without his permission...)

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(It was about fifteen minutes since jalal was waiting for any news about her...but those 15 minutes seemed to him as 15 long ages...he was getting more and more impatient and restless by every passing second...he got up from the bed and started pacing fast back and forth in his room...unable to wait anymore...he decided to go to see her himself...but he remembered about his promise to himself that he will go to see her only when he will get to hear about her coming in conscious...he again stopped himself...and stood still at his position rubbing his hands in impatience...)

(Now it was about one hour and still there was no news about her...Jalal couldn't hold himself anymore...he moved out of his chamber thinking that he will not enter in her room but will wait outside until she woke up... )

(Jalal reached to her room but stopped outside...he peeped in through the jharokha*window* of the room... everyone had surrounded her...thus he was not able to see her face...Hakim was standing with his back towards jalal...thus preventing jalal's eyes to reach jodha's face...jalal moved his head sideways a bit out of anxiety...so that he can have a sight of her...but failed...he was about to step back...when he listened something that made him freeze on his position...suddenly jodha started coughing loudly...jalal's eyes sparked with immense happiness as he thought that she was coming in conscious now...he immediately turned to look at her...but what he saw...stunned him completely...)

(now hakim had sat down on the bed so as to check jodha's position...Hamida was continuously rubbing her hand in concern...but with that loud cough...a stream of hot blood made its way out her mouth and she was still again...the whole arena was engulfed by complete silence again...this shocked everyone present there including jalal...)

Hakim: -(extremely worried) ya khuda...ye kya ho raha hai...zeher mohra dene ke bavjood ye khoon... (But before he could complete his sentence...jalal entered the room almost running...but stopped at some distance from the bed...and roared on the hakim vigorously)

Jalal: -(with wet eyes...anger at its peak) ye sab kya hai...aapne inhe zeher mohra diya ya nahi...kya kar rahe hai aap utni der se...

Hakim: - zeher mohra diye hue to kaafi der ho chuki hai shenshah...lekin...

Jalal: -(cutting him short) lekin...lekin kya...agar zeher mohra de chuke hai to inki halat me sudhaar kyu nahi hai...ye khoon.... (His voice trembled a bit with fear)...ye khoon kaisa hai...aap log khade khade humara muh kya dekh rahe hai...khuda ke liye ese khade mat rahiye...kuch kijye...

Hakim: - humse jo ho sakta tha...humne kiya shenshah...duniya ka sabse kaargar nuskhahai ye zeher mohra is zeher ke liye...magar pata nhi kyu...inka jism zeher se lad hi nahi paa raha hai ...esa lagta hai mano inme jine ki chah hi baaki na reh gayi ho...hume bhi kuch samajh nahi aa raha shenshah...(I have done everything that I could...this antidote is the best possible treatment for this poison but dunno why...her body is not able to fight against this strong poison...it seems that she has lost her wish to live...even I m unable to understand all this)

Jalal: -(almost shouted like mad) hume bahane nahi...natija chahiye...(I want results not your excuses).aapko yaha inka ilaaj karne ke liye bulaya gaya hai...aur aap keh rahe hai ke aapko kuch samajh nahi aa raha...agar kisi cheez ki kami hai to hume batayiye...kahin se bhi leke aayege hum...magar inka ilaaj kijiye...inhe bachaiye...

(Hamida got up from the bed and moved towards jalal...held him by shoulders...trying to calm him down...)

Hamida: - khuda per bharosa rakho jalal...samhalo apne aapko...sab theek ho jayega...

Jalal: -(in a loud voice...with his eyes almost red ...looking at hamida) ye humare saath esa nahi kar sakti hai ammi jaan...is tarah hume zindagi bhar pachtane ke liye akela chorker nahi jaa sakti ye...kaise reh payege hum inke bina...humari khwahish ki tauhin nahi kar sakti ye (she can't disobey my wish)...humse door nahi jaa sakti...

(At the same time hakima sahiba was busy checking jodha's pulse rate...she sensed something and literally screamed out loud in worry...)

Hakima: - shenshah...inki nabz to girti hi jaa rahi hai...kuch samajh nahi aa raha hai...hume nahi lagta ke ab ye zyada der... (But she stopped not willing to say those unwanted words).ya allah...ab to tera karam hi inki jaan bacha sakta hai...rehem kar mere maula...karam kar mere parvardigar... (And with it she raised her hands to pray for her)

(Listening to hakima's word...everyone including Mirza, Rukkaiya, Salima, Moti and all others headed towards jodha's bed and elevated their hands in worship towards the almighty requesting him to spare their beloved queen's life...everyone approached forward except one person i.e. Jalal...as he started stepping backward...with an extremely terrified look on his face...blabbering continuously like insane)

Jalal: -(tears rolling down his cheek...shocked) esa nahi ho sakta...nahi ho sakta esa...

(Hamida sensed it and tried to hold his hand...but jalal was not in his senses...he kept on murmuring the same thing...gazing at jodha without even a blink...Hamida cupped jalal's face in her hands...trying to make him look in her eyes to bring him back to his senses...shook him really hard..."hosh me aayiye jalal...jalal"...finally after much difficulty...she succeed in dragging him out of his trauma...but instead of responding to her...jalal looked at jodha with a final complaining angry face and...turned with a jerk and moved out of the room)

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Awesome superb update👏👏

Feeling bad for Jalal 😭 Hope jodha wakes up soon

Plz continue soon

First of all a Big Hug to you My Pallu Jaan.. 🤗 Thanks sooo much for giving us this marvellous Update!!!!😳

This was WOWWW!!!!!!!!!!👏👏👏

I loved the chap !!! Beautifully written.. How do you write so well yar..

I so much loved how Jalal remembered what all he said to Jodha..and how he repented... marvellous!! I felt bad for him..😭😭

Kya likhti hai yaar tu.. Awesome update!

Baap re meri saaseint ham gayin after reading the second half of chap... khoon muh se..😲 I know you making it suspense wala na..😛 Eagerly waiting for next chap!!!

Dhaasu faadu dhamakedaar update!!!!!👏👏👏👏👏

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