SS: ~Ehsaas~updatd chptr 14 on page 81 - Page 33

Jalal: -(he almost roared like a wounded tiger this time...) SHENSHAH...SHENSHAH JALALUDDIN MUHAMMAD naam hai humara...aur aapke liye ...hum sirf shenshah hai...jalal nahi...

(Maham was way too shocked and flabbergasted to handle the situation...for the first time...she was afraid of jalal somewhere...she already had committed the biggest mistake of her life...by taking jalal for granted...as she was under a false illusion that jalal could never cross check her at any cost...she had already said all that she could...now there was nothing left to justify as she had herself confessed all her crimes unknowingly...now it was jalal's turn to return the favor...to take out all his frustration...)

Jalal: - (sternly with disgust) aapko kya laga tha...ke aap zindagi bhar humare jazbaato ke saath khelti rahegi aur hume kuch pata nahi chalega...haan??...kya laga tha aapko...ke jalal to bevkoof hai...ahmak hai...jaisa chahegi use apne haath ke kathputli(puppet) banaker nachayegi aur wo aapke isharo per nachta rahega zindagi bhar...hum mante hai...(now a bit sad but yet loud voice)....mante hai hum...ke aapke humari zindagi per kai ehsaan hai...magar un ehsaano ki kimat aap humse is tarah wasool karegi...kabhi khwab me bhi nahi socha tha humne mahamanga...(now with tears in his eyes...deeply hurt)...Badi ammi kehte the hum aapko...is lafz ka matlab janti hai aap..."jo maa se bhi bhadker ho"...apni sagi maa se bhi badhker ahemiyat(importance) di humne aapko...aapki har baat...galat ho ya sahi...aankhen band karke bharosa kiya aap per humne...phir kyu...kyu itna bada fareb kiya aapne humare saath...bachpan se janti hai na aap hume ...phir to aapko ye bhi malum hoga ke hume dagabaazi aur dhokebaazi(betrayal) se kitni nafrat hai...phir ye sab jante hue bhi aapne esa kyu kiya badi ammi...kya isi din ke liye hume aagra ke takht per baithaya tha aapne...taki ek din hume aapka ye ghinauna(disgusting) chehra dekhne ko mile...jis bte ko god(lap) me kilaya...jis bte ko apna dudh pilaya...uski ajanmi aulad(unborn child) ka katal karte hue aapke haath zara bhi nahi kaanpe...itni neeche kaise gir sakti hai aap...humne to apko khuda ka darza diya tha aur aapne humari hi zindagi ko jahennum(hell) bana diya...kyu...kyu mahamanga kyu...boliye jawab dijiye...

Maham: - (busted out at once...more loudly than ever) kyuki hum nafrat karte hai us rajwanshi ladki se...aur us napak rajvanshi ke liye humari nafrat...aapke liye humari mohabbat se kahin badhker hai...jab se wo aapki zindagi me aayi hai...humari to haisiyat hi badal gayi hai aapki nazro me...aap badlane lage the jalal...humari baato ko katne lage the...humse jirah (argue) karne lage the...jo jalal humse puche bina apni shamshir tak nahi uthata tha...aaj wohi jalal bina humse maslat(discussion) kiye bade bade faisle lene laga hai...haan...humne mara aapke walihat(heir) ko...humne ruswa(disgrace) karna chaha us begum jodha ko...kyuki usne humara jina haram kar diya tha...uski wajah se...sirf uski wajah se...aaj humara eklauta beta aadham salakhon ke piche hai(my only son aadham is behind the bars)...uski wajah se hum itni taklif me hai...humara beta itni taklif me hai...jo haath uske sar per thapkiya dekar use sulaya karte the...unhi haatho ko apne hi bte per kode barsaane per majboor kar diya us begum jodha ne...humara bas chalta to use zinda jala dete...beintehan nafrat karte hai hum us begum jodha se jalal...aur jab tak hum use is mehel se aur aapki zindagi se dhakke dekar bahar bhi nikal dete...hum chain se nahi baithege...samjhe aap...hum us begum...(she was about to take her name again...when jalal prevented her by raising his hand to slap her...)

Jalal: -(in a thundering voice) busss... (he was about to slap her but controlled himself and stopped his hand in mid...and looked at her with utmost disgust...)...bus...(now a bit low...pointing his finger towards her...gritting his teeth)...ek aur lafz nahi...khabardaar jo apni gandi zubaan se unka naam bhi liya aapne...kya kaha aapne...unhe humari zindagi se nikalegi aap??...magar wo to... (He clenched his fist tight and hit it on the left side of his chest...signaling towards his heart)...yaha...humare dil me basker baithi hai...yaha se kaise nikalegi aap unhe...haan??

(Maham was completely outraged...beyond words...her eyes widened in shock...it was much more painful than that tight slap that jalal was going to place on her face few moments ago... Jalal continues)...ese kya dekh rahi hai aap hume... (Nodding his head)...sahi suna aapne...hum...jodha begum se mohabbat karte hai... (He said it in a deterministic and challenging tone...that it echoed from every direction)...(now he continued a bit sarcastically)...aur iske liye bhi hum aapke hi shukraguzar hai...kyuki hume is mohabbat ka ehsaas karane wali bhi aap hi hai mahamanga...agar aap ye sab giri hui harkate na karti...jodha ko humse dur karne ki koshish na karti to sahyad hum kabhi samajh hi na paate ke hum unke liye kya mehsus karte hai...ke hum unse kitni mohabbat karte hai...ke wo humare liye kitni zaruri hai...shukriya mahamanga...hume humare jazbaato se rubru(aware) karane ke liye aapka bahut bahut shukriya...

(Jalal's words worked like a thousand volt electric shock for her...she felt her body almost burning in frustration...jalal had given her the biggest ever punishment unknowingly by saying that it was her who made him fall for jodha...tears flowed down her eyes involuntarily...she was just hoping it to be the worst ever nightmare of her life...but it wasn't...she felt her legs too heavy to stand straight...and as a result...she fell down in jalal's feet...)

Jalal: - (gritting his teeth) jee to karta hai ke abhi apni shamsheer se apke jism ke tukde tukde kar de...magar kya kare...chahker bhi itne khudgarz(selfish) nahi ban sakte hum...ye zindagi aapki kadradaan hai(I owe my life to u as u had saved it once)...magar iska matlab ye nahi ke aapko aapke gunaho ki saza nahi milegi...

(maham looked at him with teary eyes...jalal too had tears in his eyes as this was the most dishearten moment of his life...he composed himself and clapped his hands twice to call soldiers...two soldiers entered immediately )

Jalal: - (looked at maham with resentment)...humse kahin zyada aap jodha begum ki gunahgaar hai...isiliye ab aapki saza bhi jodha begum hi mukarrar(decide) karegi...isliye...humara hukm hai...ke jab tak jodha begum ko hosh nahi aa jata...inhe hirasat(official custody) me rakha jaaye...hukm hi taamil ho...

(He turned to left from there...but found hamida standing at the entrance...staring at him with amazed expressions...Actually hamida was looking for jalal in the whole palace...to inform him about hakim sahib's arrival...when suddenly the roaring voice of jalal drew her attention...and she made her way towards maham's chamber...only to find jalal ordering the soldiers to arrest mahamanga...Hamida dint get what happened as she couldn't hear the whole conversation...she immediately stopped the soldiers from arresting her...she went and sat in front of maham...and barged on to jalal...)

Hamida: - (almost shouting) ye sab kya hai jalal??...ye kya kar rahe hai aap...aap esa nahi kar sakte...aap...

Jalal: - (interrupting her in b/w) aap in sab se door rahiye ammi jaan... (He signaled the soldiers to take maham away...)...tumhe suna nahi humne kya kha...giraftaar(arrest) kar lo inhe...aur humara agle hukm tak inhe kaid me rakha jaaye...jao... (soldiers arrested maham and Resham and took them to the jail...hamida tried to stop them and maham...tried to ask her what happened...but she was way too devastated to say anything...she left from there silently with the soldiers without saying anything...)

(hamida looked at jalal with a question mark face...he shook him by shoulders...)

Hamida: - khuda ke liye hume batayiye ke ye sab kya ho raha hai jalal...ye sab kyu kiya aapne...wo aapki badi ammi hai...boliye jalal...chup mat rahiye...

(jalal ...who was trying to control himself...and was hiding his hurt emotions beneath the mask of anger...finally broke down...he started throwing things all around in frustration and anger...he picked up the flower vase and hit it on the mirror...it shattered into pieces...spread all around on the floor...hamida tried her best to stop him but he was way too enraged to listen to her...he started destroying everything that came in his range...he moved further but his feet landed on a piece of mirror glass by mistake and he lost his balance...but before he reach to the ground hamida supported him and sat with him on the floor...she tried to calm him down...and hugged him by placing her hand on jalal's head...jalal too clung to his mother like a little child in response and started crying profusely with pain... ...and finally the bridge of his patience broke in his mother's arms...the warmth of her embrace caused his temper to slow down...and he started sobbing silently... ...even hamida could not prevent her tears from coming out...her heart pierced seeing his son shattered...she never ever seen jalal crying like this apart from his childhood once...she took him in her embrace completely and caressed his back with love...)

Hamida: - (tears rolling down her eyes) kya hua beta??...jalal...kuch to boliye...

Jalal: -(he hugged her more tightly in response...and finally open up his emotions ...sobbing bitterly)...humesha humare saath hi esa kyu hota hai ammi jaan...humesha apno se hi dhokha kyu milta hai hume...kyu humesha hume apni baadshahat ki kimat chukani padti hai...hum jise bhi apna samajhte hai...wohi humare saath daga kyu karta hai ammi jaan...kyu...

Hamida: -(caressing his hairs)...lekin hua kya hai jalal...kya baat hai??...hum aapki ammi hai beta...aap humse keh sakte hai... (jalal told her about everything that happened...and what maham did to separate jodha from him...and all her wrongdoings...Hamida was shocked to listen about it...she never ever thought even in her dreams that maham could stoop so low...she consoled jalal...)

Jalal: - (with closed eyes...tears still flowing from his eyes...) hum bahut bure hai ammi jaan...kitni taklif pahuchayi humne jodha begum ko...kitni beizzati ki unki... wo bhi us aurat per bharosa karke jisne humare bachhe ko mar daala...jisne humare anpadh hone ka najayas fayda uthaya... humne bahut dil dukhaya hai unka ammi jaan...wo sahi kehti thi...ke hum pather dil hai...ke hum unke jazbaato ko nahi samajh sake...hum unse bahut pyar karte hai ammi jaan...hum unke bina nahi ji sakte(he said it without knowing)...agar unhe kuch ho gaya to hum khud ko kabhi muaff nahi kar paayege...kabhi muaff nahi kar payege hum khud ko...

(Hamida was happy and sad at the same time...she was happy that jalal was in love with jodha but was sad also that jodha is not here to listen this from him...she cupped jalal's face in her hands but jalal was still gazing at the ground...)

Hamida: - nahi jalal...ese nahi kehte...aapki koi galti nahi hai isme...galatfehmiya(misunderstandings) sabhi ki zindagi me aati hai...magar mushkilo se harker himmat ka saath chor dena...ye kisi pareshani ka hal nahi hota jalal...humari taraf dekhiye....(she made him look in her eyes and assured him)...kuch nahi hoga aapki jodha ko...bade hakim sahib ajmer se yaha pahuch chuke hai...wo jaanch kar rahe hai unki...sab theek ho jayega jalal...aap to humare bahadur bte hai na...aap ese kamzor kaise pad sakte hai...humne humesha apne bte ko jitte hue dekha hai...ese hara hua nahi dekh sakte hum aapko...agar aap hi ese tut jayege to phir jodha ko kaun samhalega...mat bhuliye ke aap ek shenshah hai...jiske naam se pura hindustaan kaampta hai...is tarah bikhar jaana shobha nahi deta aapko...chaliye ab aansu pochiye....(she wiped his tears with her fingers and placed a soft kiss on his forehead...)...aur khabardaar jo ek bhi aansu aur gira aapki aankhon se to...(and again hugged him with affection...jalal was feeling much relieved now...the burden seemed to be released from his heart a bit...he looked at his mother with a faint smile...)

Jalal: - (he held her hand) aap thik keh rahi hai ammi jaan...hume khud ko samhalna hoga...hum aapse wada karte hai...chahe kuch bhi ho jaaye...aapka beta kabhi kamzor nahi padega.... (Now he asked with a little care)...jodha ab kaisi hai ammi jaan??...wo

(he was about to ask further when a baandhi came in with salima's message that hakim sahib had called them immediately as he had something very important to tell about jodha...jalal's heart skipped a bit...he wondered what would that be...if anything happened to jodha...nooo...he stood up at once...but his leg was bleeding because of the glass that struck in his feet...hamida held his hand...)

Hamida: -(worried) zara ek pal thehriye jalal...aapke pair se khun beh raha hai... (She removed the glass from his sole and tied a cloth around it...and they rushed to jodha's room*till now she had been shifted to her room*...though jalal's leg was injured but yet he almost covered all the way running literally...extremely worried...finally they reached to jodha's room...hakim was sitting beside jodha...and moti and others standing near them...jodha was still unconscious and hakim was checking her...she was looking more week and pale from the last time when jalal saw her...he quickly moved towards the hakim...scared like hell...)

Jalal: - kya hua hakim sahib?? Jodha begum theek to hai na...inhe hosh kab tak aayega...

Hakim: - (looked at jalal with a disappointed look) hume aapse akele me kuch baat karni hai shenshah...agar aapko etraaz na ho to...

(he looked at hamida...and she understood...she order everyone to leave the room...now there were only three persons in the room apart from jodha...Jalal, hakim and hakima sahiba who treated jodha before...)

Jalal: - (anxiously) kya hua hakim sahib?? Esi kya baat hai jo aap sabke samne nahi kar sakte the...

Hakim: - mamla bahut sangeen(serious) hai shenshah...begum sahiba per humla...mehez ek ittefaak(coincidence) nahi hai...balki ye ek sochi samjhi saazish ke tahat...katal ke irade se kiya gaya hai...(it was preplanned and done with the intention of murder)

Jalal: - (he was shocked beyond words...his eyes widened) aap kehna kya chahte hai hakim sahib...saaf saaf kahiye...

Hakim: -(she signaled hakima to move jodha's head to show him the mark again) ye nishaan dekh rahe hai aap...kisi ne badi hi berahmi se war kiya hai in par...aur ye kaam kisi jaanver ka nahi ho sakta...kyuki agar ye humla kisi jaanver ne kiya hota...to jism ke baaki hisso per bhi zakham hone chahiye the...magar jaisa ki hakima sahiba ne hume bataya...ke garden(neck) ke alava...aur kisi bhi hisse per esa koi ghaav nahi hai...

Jalal: - to aap kehna chahte hai ke ye kaam kisi insaan ka hai...

Hakim: - beshak shenshah...jaha tak humara tajurba(experience) hai...ye kaam sirf ek hi insaan ka ho sakta hai...

Jalal: - kiska?? Jaldi bataiye hakim sahib...kaun ho sakta hai wo shaks...

Hakim: - zeherdoshi(vishkanya) shenshah...ek esi aurat jise khaas taur per inhi kaamo ke liye taiyaar kiya jaata hai...tabhi janbujhker(purposely) ye humla is tarike se kiya gaya hai...taki kisi ko shaq na hone paaye...haatapayi ke bhi koi nishaan nahi hai...hume pura yakin hai ke ye kaam ek vishkanya ka hi hai...

(jalal was flabbergasted...and clueless about all this...suddenly he remembered about the conversation with salima about vishkanyas...so she was right...but how is it possible...if she has attacked jodha so smartly...then she has to be someone from the palace itself...someone that was very much familiar with the palace surroundings...someone whom jodha knew very well...but who??...)

Precap:- hakim mirza arrival...jalal got to know about abul mali's mission and benazir

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