for the first time in a while am speechless

i recently just got into jamai raja . last month because i loved sid and roshni i tried reading the updates to catch up but i stopped. and decided to continue where i met it . am the type of person who watches and tries very hard to stay away from spoilers no i make it a point to stay away from spoilers and so unlike everybody else i was in the dark. for the last two weeks my cable has been off and am like a lost puppy after my parents to pay for it and because i follow too many shows i can only keep up with recent ones. then yesterday i discovered that dstv africa just started a new show and guess what its jamai raja not only are they starting from the beginning but its also dubbed in english⭐️ lord was i happy i swear to you i was bouncing and my poor one year old brother jumping with me(he loves copying me) 👏. i was so excited that when i went online i decided to read a telly updates( i read while i watch as i don't speak Hindi) of this show because the last time i watched it , sid just discovered he and roshni are not really divorced and to me their future was looking good .they where finally getting on the right track.🤗. so i start reading and am feeling beautiful , sidni are finally together and they are happy and have a son and the talking about moving to London ( i think to my self LIE😲 something will happen and make them stay so series can continue but not a bad way for it to end) . am bubbly and happy and my day was just made . all the talk about mahi and their son juts went over my head (firt clue). then the accident happened🥺. i star panicking🤬 when roshni wouldn't wake up 🤢,but then she opens her eyes 😊 .i felt so much relieve it was on believable. the next minute girl says she was seeing her MOTHER!! .and I WAS TO THE NO YOU ARE NOT.😡🤬(all i could think was don't lave us dont make sid raise your son alone) as if it wasnt enough she decides to ask sid to come with her and before i could say" sid don't you dare"😡😡 he answered he could see it too😭🥺. i think my heart stopped and i realize this was actually happening.but then i remembered mahi and i thought maybe they will bring back roshni and sid in mahi and their son but i learnt nia sharma is not coming back. as of now am pissed and cant think straight other than 😒.and yes am that attached to couples i ship.please excuse me while i go cry somewhere.😭😭😭

Watch jamai raja season1 it was best and full of sidni scenes and yeah zee tv and cvs brought stupid leap bcuz of it nia didnt wanted to continue after leap and thats why they made sid roshni die in name of Eternal love

Imagine our situation dear, even we all know that nia is quiting and sidni gonna die and we mentally prepared ourselves. Yet had a sleepness night with crying all over the night due to sidni memories.