Blast from the Past Thread #26 ** Talk to me ** P 132, Ep 299 - Page 109

Originally posted by: indi52

episode 277

sometimes a thing is so perfect i just sit back and watch astounded, a happiness spreading. i still remember the first time i saw this teri meri sequence. i had no idea that was about to happen... asr was sitting with his back against a wall, despair etched across his visage and loneliness, when suddenly he seemed to go right into himself and then this appartion like thing rose from within and walked out.

i had of course seen such things in movies and somehow asr doing that was just not in any way asr. by now the lack of barun had started taking its toll and i think i was ready to throw up my hands and do a dramatic shrug to denote this episode to was a goner... when i noticed a crazy weird wonder yearning something in his eyes and the white linen shirt... billowing... also there were fairy lights.

think my post the next day said, he has stolen that shirt from my cupboard since i am a white linen lover and often in my floaty white shirts.

No, Asr can't wear a woman's shirt!
he looked like a sailor who had spotted a mermaid while lost at sea and scatterbrained from too much sun.

nice metaphor. he was looking like Romeo and Khushi was like Juliet.

i went looking for my piece on crooner and here is what i'd written to honeypriya, i feel exactly that even now:

hope you did read my note on the extra-logical space i roam with ipk.

this story pulls me somewhere else, makes me want to flow with it. you are right, its storyteller is different, touched by something way outside the normal span of television narratives. great writers often speak of how a character comes to life and leads the teller, has that happened with the story of ipk? does it call its writers to frontiers unknown and they follow finding the right path through sheer instinct and extreme skill?

i didn't see a dream there. i saw that flowing of two inseparables toward each other. she stood there on the spot where such dreams had started, a payal clasped on, and thought of him intensely. he lifted his head and left his body without volition as though he'd heard something and looked and there she was, in the colours of the surf, the waves, the ocean, the sky, and he in his pearlescent white went and merged with her. that perfectly poised streak of red on her forehead and the dance of ebb and flow told the tale of a man who longed for his mate, his patni, and a woman who grew from a girl to a woman only after he made a mark in her life. the words cascaded in perfect meaning and time stopped meaning anything. only three and a half minutes?

beautifully written.

i floated with them for hours. they were in my room last night, i counted my loose white linen shirts, had he taken one of them?

i am so with you on this neo-surreal heightening of the story. it is precisely that. the linking of dreams from her nightmare amid thorns with its scattered pearls, payal, key. we have been touching those clues in reality, in surreality. and why surreality seems not at all absurd is because those who have loved know it isn't.

beyond the oceans, beyond the skies, where galaxies swim in endless seas, love takes you there and says, come meet. to flow into the vast embrace of this emotion you have to give hard reality a slip from time to time, for that's where the emotion lives, nurtures, grows; sometimes so much it becomes a story, a story we want to hear again and again. and feel in our lives.

amazing writing.

for a while now, ever since the initial attraction between two people started to change colour and enter their beings, till love has found utterance in faraq padta hai and saansey ruk jaygi, we've been to extra real spaces with them. the dreams, the reveries, the hut with its magical trove of required things. i am spellbound by this daring stretch of imagination. grateful that someone was willing to take that risk.

(i have taken out a part i no longer feel the same about... shall chat about it at the end.)

sanaya looked beautiful yesterday. and i don't mean just physically. the girl growing up into a woman that i first witnessed on that walk from anjali's room to arnav and her room straight after his i love you, the one who fearlessly walked into her dream with him, extending her hand and silencing his remorse, she has grown even more into the woman who is his patni, in bangla a lovely word, stree. yes priya, i agree as yet an innocent wife, beautiful isn't it. oh she was definitely there with him today, and even after he returned to the cell and sat down, she took a moment before walking away slowly.

very good point you said. she became a woman when he said I love you to her. She was a childish girl and Arnav made her a woman.


his "khushi!" bridged surreal and the three dimensions that bind us. as she spun around, desperation in her eyes, she was a wife who can hear the call as she lands back in reality and their meeting is over for the moment.

hitchcock comes to mind sometimes when i look at the kidnap and the planning and plotting. all of this is just red herring, mcguffin, the real story is that pyaar. and of course, sanaya, is classic hitchcock leading lady, cool on the outside, smouldering within. so we had read way back in college. didi ki saut they might have wanted to call it but iss pyaar ko kya naam doon? wanted to get written. so happy the writers didn't resist.

this is what i scribbled and edited as i watched the scene this time.

a girl stands waiting by the water thinking of the one she loves... classic lover's demeanour and pose, a lost air, bereft... viraha. she is radha, she is heer, she is khushi by their poolside and he isn't there. what use is the balcony to juliet if romeo isn't going to climb to it... what use is the poolside to khushi if arnav ji won't bully her here and make her walk backward in terror, in desire, or kiss her, or slip on that payal.

the stars shine up there... i think of you... payal, make me wear that payal again... brush the lock off my forehead, touch my face, love me...
hold my dupatta in your hand draw me close... kiss me... i miss you...

She was yearning him as much as he was yearning her.

yet, he is not that far away, he can feel you thinking, he lifts his head, a baffling despair...

and from deep in him, a part does rise... that which nothing can shackle, nor harm, nor burn... na hannyate, it cannot be destroyed...

within us, the eternal part that is really truly us...

and before him she floats, also arisen... never to be held down or tied... she seeks him and he is here. he yearns for her and look, there she is.

this is the story of a love that perhaps should not be told, just felt. and danced to.

what might have been ridiculous... two actors never failed to make sublime.

This is the truth, but nothing else. If this scene would've done by SRK-Kajole or whoever else, it wouldn't touched our heart.

the wind came swishing like the breath of the universe, saansey... and wrapped space in its dream...

among hard naked bulbs, fairy lights gleamed... in a hard, heartless space filled with cartons and odd wooden furniture, ladders, ropes and remarkably unpretty things, the essence of two people met and merged and made love and everything was, in direct contrast to what was all around, absolutely beautiful.

it was a set and yet it was not...

a girl in white with trimmings of prussian blue stood with an air that said she was sad, she missed him, where was he...

a white shirt billowed, here, i was here all the time... sand and surf and oceans met, pearls dropped through the mingling...

where are you? i am here... your and mine, mine and your... our story of love is difficult...

why do you smile at me, girl in flying dupatta, always there you're always there, the touch of your dupatta near my bosom, my chest...

how her dupatta always knew how to find him... unerringly from that day at the mazar and so many times later... and when a dupatta flew from his hand, it had known where to land... where to find her.

the wind rises and calls the lovers to prayer, to belief, for this is a temple surely, a place sacred and precious and pure... (so those sham temple bells were perhaps perfectly placed here, who knows.)

walk, i will walk to you, lover, crossing barriers that i have carefully nurtured and held my world steady with... walls of reason, impenetrable, insurmountable, but see i walk through it now and over it... for the wind does call...👏

and i will come to you like a wave, the ocean or am i just a sad lonely girl by the water, missing my lover... yet here i am, come to you... reason? was there ever a need for that, did my heart ever grasp one, i was here even when reason said i oughtn't be.

teri meri meri teri
prem kahani hai mushkil...
do lavzon mein yeh bayan na ho paye

ek doojey se hue jooda jab ek dooje ke liye bane...

lovers meet and unite... feel and touch each other... turn and flow without any shame, any taboo, skin invites the feel of love, skin awakens and reaches... the flesh is as much a part of our essential selves, and our identity too.

I also mentioned it in my take that they were touching each other without any inhibition, as if the right was already established.

his arm reached out when she reached him and he touched her lower back with a sense of right, possessive, he jerked her close to him, slamming against her skin. she stayed there straining against him, her body arched...

the first time they danced to these words together, they both longed yet didn't know how to say it even to themselves... yet before everyone their desire did assert itself and take them away to a world where no one but they were present... there was an escape from the three dimensional even then.

now they both know what they seek, and their yearning gathers force creating a world where indeed no one but just the two of them embrace, circle, hold and possess and speak of love without saying a word... in a parallel realm. and the song plays.

he held her face in his hands not quite believing it was indeed she. and she was gone. he felt lost, but then she came running to him and held him tight... she told him she couldn't live without him perhaps. he turned and grasped her in the most tender and yet sensual embrace...

tumse dil jo lagaya toh jahan maine paya...

kyun khuda tuney aisa mujhe khab a dikhaya jab haqiqat mein use todna tha...

he smiled at her as he sang... why such dreams must be shown if they are only to be broken.

the walls returned and the naked bulb, he was alone. but "khushi!" he said out loud as though calling out to someone not too far away... and she did hear him.

Ofcourse she heard him and they also talked.

she did. every time.

however the first time i saw this episode, i had written some things which i no longer view the same way... at that point i had not seen the whole show and was still brimming with hope. i wrote:

"anjali got an obvious and clear moment to start getting curious. nice opening.

shyam at the poolside, i rather enjoyed, again great writing, there was his desire to be everything he isn't namely, asr. that's the feeling i got. if only a poolside and a chair and a few billion rupees is all it took to make an asr."

yes, anjali could have grown into a really interesting character, had they stuck to an idea and progressed it. she saw khushi and shyam together a couple of times, even noticed it, yet later these were not even referred to.

and no, this time when i saw shyam at the poolside, i just wanted to haul him up and throw him out. but it was a clever way of telling us just how badly he wanted to be as big and on top of things as his saaley saab. so he sat on asr's chair at asr's poolside and planned to swipe asr's money, property and yes, asr's wife.

It was disgusting to see Shyam by the poolside, though I am not sure it was the same pool by ASR's room or Anjali's room!😆

might have been great, but again, weak melodramatic dialogues and loud direction and acting.

one last thought: there were two palats by khushi in the episode. one to shyam and the other to asr... i wonder again was this mirroring thing done deliberately or it was just a coincidence.

Originally posted by: sohara

episode-294

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Arnav and Khushi' eternal heaven, by the poolside Arnav keeps flirting with Khushi. He deliberately blocks Khushi's way for some times. He glances at her with amusement and his eyes flicker with a lazy smolder in their depth. His warm gaze is lancing through her aura makes her face suffuses with rosy color.

She is very much aware of her charms and can see it's effect on her handsome husband.

He jeers her with his caramel eyes agleam with humor,

"wow Khushi Kumari Gupta Singh Raizada ko sharmana bhi ataa hai."

He makes her crimson more by his mischievous smirk. Khushi tries to veer her looks down, cause she can't look in his eyes in coyness.

Arnav takes a sudden step towards Khushi, making her instinctively walks backward, what she always does. He quips, with a naughty grimace,

"Khushi it's high time, when I move forward and you stop gong back. You have to learn to move along with me."

I love this dialogue, not because it is romantic, but because this one dialogue hold a promise and Arnav strong desire to keep Khushi with forever as his better half and promise her to treat her with equality. There won't be double standards between them anymore and he will teach her, guide her so that never ever she think that she is inferior to him in any sense.

Khushi looks at his eyes with shyness. His eyes glimmer and playfulness gathers as his smile remains steadfast at his lips. She smiles shyly as the familiar magnetism of his presence enamors every sinews of her body. She intends to leave, but again he blocks her. she looks at him with a question in her eyes. Finally he lets her go. She looks back with a sweet shy smile. He also smiles with satisfaction and their smiles mingle. Arnav stares at her gait and mutters,

"That's what I wanted, a smile on your face."

Khushi is his love, she endured immense grief and agony since she met him and gave so much in this relationship, now when finally they are together, he will always try to make her happy. 👏

While Khushi was cooking in the kitchen HP comes with a food tray; Anjali refused to eat breakfast. Khushi gets tensed to hear this. She also can't go to her room to request her to have breakfast. So she asks HP about nani and mami. But both are not at home. So Khushi doesn't find any other option but to go to Anjali's room with breakfast.

Oh Gosh, what a faux pas she did, now she will face the wrath of the raizada clan.

Forlorn Anjali is watching her pics with Shyam. She still is in denial that her husband actually is a good fellow. When Khushi knocks the door, she says that she doesn't want to meet anybody. Without pondering her words, Khushi enters her room with food. She tries to avoid Khushi. it seems her predominating thought rankling in her mind. She says Anjali with remorse that she knows she is extremely hurt and it's obvious that it happened because of her. She literally implores her to eat her meal.

"di, whatever anger you have inside you, be angry with me. But don't refuse to eat like this. To see you in this condition, Arnavji gets terribly hurt. You must know how much he loves you."

Aww how much she cares her Arnavji, she just can't see him in pain. How lucky is Arnav to get such caring wife!

Anjali still is silent, trying to be reticent with her. But Khushi continues,

"di, please don't punish you like this. There is a life developing inside your womb. Why you are punishing him! For the sake of him, please eat something." she begs her with teary eyes, tries hard to make her understand more,

"That what you wanted, you will have a beautiful baby who will make your life blissful with her lovely smile. Just forget whatever happened with Shyamji. That is your past, but this baby is your future what will always be with you. This is the ray of hope for a bright life. A new life is waiting for you di. Just think of your baby di and take care of yourself."

Khushi leaves and Anjali breaks down in tears holding her stomach. All her wounds are still raw and bleeding.

To see clutching her stomach I thought she will be more protective towards her baby. Cause right now the baby can be the reason of her survival and happiness. But I was wrong, Anjali actually is a relentless woman who thought to kill her unborn baby. How could she forget that she was carrying a child inside her womb. She can starve, but her baby can't. I think she was at her 7^th month. And in this stage a baby needs more food and nutrition. Anjali has become so blind in her husband's love that she was torturing her own baby. Khushi just said her the right words, she tried to make her understand, she didn't tell anything than could make her hurt. Later when the whole family including Mr. Raizada berated her with afflictive words, my inner rambling stumbled to a halt, why these people are so insensitive and unreasonable!

Akash and Arnav come back from the office. Arnav took doctor's appointment for Anjali and he requests Akash to take her, as he thinks she will not agree to go with him. He knows di is upset with him.

When Akash comes to Anjali's room, she was not there. He gets scared not to find her anywhere.

While Arnav was sitting in the living area, waiting for his black coffee, Khushi comes there with a crestfallen face. Arnav asks her why she is looking sad, is everything alright. Khushi was about to speak about Anjali then Akash intervenes, calling Anjali's name. Arnav gets worried; he asks him what's the matter. Akash says she is not in her room. Arnav thinks she must be somewhere inside the house. They start to look for her everywhere. mami and nani also come from the mandir that time. They also are tensed to hear Anjali's missing news. Nani starts to cry, what happened to this family, whose portentous eyes fell on them?

After searching her in every single place in the house, Arnav tries her number, but her phone is also unreachable. He recollects her pensive state after what happened with Shyam on the previous day. She said she wanted to stay alone and refused to eat when he took breakfast for her. Arnav's tension intensifies and he utters, "di where are you?"

mami is awe-inspiring where she can go!

HP let them know that some while ago he saw Anajli going out by auto. Arnav rebukes him, why he didn't stop her. Akash asks him did he hear where she was going? But HP was not so near, that's why couldn't hear where she was going. Arnav can't wait any more; he needs to go out to find her right now. Akash also wants to accompany him. But Arnav wants him to stay in the house. Nani convulses, in such a big city, where he will find her? Arnav is confident that he will find her and gets her back safe and sound. Khushi also wants to go with him. But nani admonishes her.

What the! This is too much. I just couldn't expect this from nani. Did she think she is guilty, that to see her face, their Anji baby will deny to come back home!

Arnav feels bad that nani retain her to go with him. So he gives her an assuring nod to listen to her. And my angel took it sportingly, didn't take it in her heart. She is really an angel. I wish if I could be like her. She tells Arnav if he gets any news he should let them know.

Before going out Arnav asks the watchman did he see Anjali going out? He saw he went out one hour ago, but doesn't know where did she go.

While leaving the premise, an autowala blocks his way, Arnav gets mad and asks the security to get him out. The man actually came to take his fare. Arnav thinks he can be the autowala who took Anjali the place where did she go. And his assumption is right; he took the woman with a limp to DN nursing home. But she left without paying him the fare. Arnav cowers to hear this and drives as fast as possible towards the nursing home.

Anjali is sitting in the corridor of the nursing home, recalling whatever happened with her life. Arnav slapped her husband and got him out from her life. And he said that he had to do it for her child. Her pensive eyes get murky with hurt and extinguished embers of defeated anger.

Doctor calls her in. She tells the doctor that she doesn't want the baby. The doctor is in utter shock that can't hear Arnav's phone call. Arnav is mad at the doctor for not receiving the call.

Wasn't it weird that when Arnav didn't reach her cell, he didn't try the land line number of the nursing home! Or why the doctor didn't have any nurse with her? Normally if we go to a doctor's office always a nurse accompanies the doctor who assists her to take weight, check BP and all. All the weird things happen in IPK.

The doctor is dumbfounded to hear that Anjali wants to kill her baby. Anjali says with pain and confidence that she doesn't want this baby and asks her what she should do to abort this child?. Doctor retorts her, whatever she wants it's not possible. To see her woebegone state, she anticipates that something is wrong. She asks her about her husband? And why she is taking such hasty decision? But Anajli is firm in her decision. the doctor can't fathom, she wanted this baby so much, then why she wants to abort the child now?.

mami is panicking where did Anjali go in this condition? Akash is calling all their know people, where anjali could go. But she is nowhere. Payal also is trying to help them to locate her.

Nani is consternating who went to her room after she left. So far she remembers nobody went to her room, then what happened to her that made her go out from the house. Oh nani, give your 2 years old baby Anji a pacifier .Mami also didn't go. Nani asks Payal, did she go? Mami doesn't believe her and she asks Khushi did she go? Nani says she didn't go, because she forbade her to go to her room.

Khushi is an honest girl and as she knows she didn't commit any crime to go to feed her, she tells with hesitation that she went to her room. To hear this, nani looks at her with darting eyes, as if she did a serious crime. Khushi says she went to talk to her. She can't complete as they hear Akash is talking on the phone about Anjali. They all scurry fast to him to know the matter. Akash tells them that Anjali is fine, she went to nursing home and bhai is with her. All are ambiguous, why she went to nursing home suddenly!

Doctor refutes Anjali, she can't support her in this decision, or it's wrong according to the law. Anjali is impervious, she already made her decision. Doctor also needs her husband's agreement too, cause she is a married woman and her family's decision is also important. Anjali gets more obdurate, if she can't help her she will go to some other place. She leaves. The doctor calls her incessantly to stay back, she can see, she is not in a good condition.

pause: I am asking again is abortion possible at 7^th month of pregnancy? The baby inside her womb is not just an embryo but a living human child. What of kind of mother she is that wanting to kill her own baby! She was not only weak, but she was inexorable. And an adult woman in mid thirties just made the whole family panicked like hell.

Arnav comes to the nursing home and starts to look for her like crazy.

Nani is upset with Khushi that in spite of her admonishment, she went to her room! Khushi tells her she was not at home and Anjali was not eating anything, so she thought to be with her. She goes to hold nani to comfort her. But mami gives her a contemptuous look and rebukes her to leave. She tells Khushi as nani was not at home she was here, then why she didn't ask her or tell khoon bhari tang. she is enraged and tells nani that she knew well that these two sisters only can ruin the happiness of the family, but can't do anything else.

Mami's paltry remark is unbearable.

Anjali is trudging slowly towards the corridor. God knows where her demented thought is taking her! The doctor is still calling out her name incessantly. Arnav is also in the corridor of the nursing home and looks aghast; did he hear the doctor or did he see Anjali!

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Originally posted by: sohara

episode-292

Arnav gets Shyam out of the house by grabbing his collar. There is a befuddled expression suffuses in Anjali's eyes and she gives her last look at Shaym. The whole family is perplexed, what's happening!

After shutting the door, Arnav begs sorry to Anjali, he knows she is hurt, but he trusts Khushi. He is confident that what Khushi is saying is true.

Anjali totters in her place and finally faints. Arnav runs to catch her and so as the rest of the family.

Anjali's sense comes back in her room. The family enceindres her with tension. Arnav goes close to her, but she looks decadent and wretched, but her inside is convulsing in excruciating pain. Arnav and Khushi both look at each other with bafflement.

Mami tells Anjali to take rest, as the doctor said so. Anjali looks at Arnav with acute pain in her eyes, as if silently asking why you got my husband out of my life without my permission! Arnav's gaze falters ruefully; he wants to talk to Anjali. But nani wants to talk to Arnav first. Whatever happened, because of that there is a question raised in her mind. And she needs the answer from him. Arnav says in constrict voice that he will give the answers of all her questions, but before that he wants to talk to his di.

All goes out and Arnav sits on the bed beside Anajli. Before leaving the room Arnav gives Khushi an assuring nod, as if he is saying her not to worry, he will fix every thing. that's what I missed in his eyes when Shyam was humiliating Khushi.

"di you have to trust me. I could not see you in pain any more. I had to think of you and your unborn baby. di, till today, in every raksha bandhan, I promised to protect you. And today is the time to fulfill all of those promises; that's why I didn't have any other option left but to throw Shyam out from the house. I'm sorry di."

Arnav is in contrition for hurting his beloved did so much. He lies down on her lap, tries to give her some comfort. But Anjali seems just petrified in incisive pain that she even doesn't respond to his words.

Khushi who was standing outside, beside the door, breaks down completely to see the siblings sinking in an abyss of pain. Her heart slams painfully against her ribcage. She slides down to the floor, must be cursing herself, as she thinks she is reprehensible.

the floodgates opens and Anjali ebbs in the sweet memories of hers with Shyam. How he used to lift her in his arm, fed her, embraced her by saying that her place is in his heart. He brought the cradle for their unborn baby so lovingly. So many memories envelope her mind, how can she forget those!

Nani and mami also are in inexplicable grief. Both are crying remembering Shyam, his social niceties, his cordial behavior, and reverence to elders. He likes almond kheer, what nani used to make for him. Shyam used to give mami gifts and respected her a lot. They just can't believe that such a sweet person can be so vicious or they can't accept the fact that shaym is actually an evil person.

But they shouldn't have any doubt, after how he humiliated khushi in front of the family. No gentle man can behave so heinously with a woman even if she is bad.

Akash is also sitting with a grumpy mood. He is so exasperated on Payal that he doesn't even talk to her.

I can't blame Akash completely as Payal hid such a big thing from him. But how he continued the mental torture on Payal and blamed Khushi was annoying.

NK espies everybody, the whole house is mourning, the whole ambiance is melancholic and he feels a tug in his heart.

Khushi is till outside Anjali's room, looking derelict. She is crying for the unfortunate thing what just happened because of her.

I felt a pang of pain for this young orphan girl. She has been bearing so much! She just came from near death, but nobody was even asking her or even thanked her for rescuing Arnav from the kidnappers. Arnav should take her to the doctor first, as she had a head injury. I was thinking as Barun was not available for some more days, why they didn't take Khushi to hospital to procrastinate the time!

Inside the room Anjali is recollecting how everything has changed in a moment. Khushi's accusation against Shyam, what Payal just revealed about his engagement with Khushi and next moment Arnav's slap. Silent tears are rolling down from her eyes in excruciating pain. Arnav is holding her hand, lying down on her lap. But anjali is stagnant as if God bereaved her completely. Arnav gets up to see tear in her eyes.

"I want to stay alone, please leave me alone." Anjali says without emotions. Arnav can't understand what to do. and Anjali repeats again,

"Arnav, just leave me alone."

Arnav perturbs to hear his name from Anjali's mouth. She never calls him by his name, always calls him chottey adoringly. In Bengali it says adorer daak.

She stands up and gets Arnav out from the room by holding his hand. Arnav is pleading her not to separate him from her, she has to listen to him, and she just can't do this.

Khushi stands up in embroilment. Akash, mami, Payal, NK, Akash, nani all gathers in front of Anjali's room again. But Anjali is incorrigible and says, she just wants to stay alone. She is not even looking in anybody's eyes. She shuts the door. All start to bang on her closed door.

"Please leave me alone." Anjali cries out.

mami says Anjali bitiya, but no avail, cause Anjali is impervious, she just says, "hume kaha naa, i want nobody. I just want to stay alone."

All prefers to leave her alone. While leaving, nani's look goes to Khushi's crestfallen face. She goes to caresses her. But mami seems harbored so much acrimony against her that she doesn't even want nani to love her.

I wish if mami had a daughter, then she couldn't be so harsh to an innocent girl!

Akash is livid; Payal pleads him to listen to her,

"You have to trust me and Khushi, cause we are telling the truth."

Akash asks her why she didn't tell it before. Payal wants to say, the reason. But Akash is not ready to hear anything,

"Such a big thing, and you didn't tell me"

He leaves with anger.

Payal leaves her thought to pacify her indignant husband, but she just can't evade her thought to support her sister, when she is in pain and anguish; she hugs her with so much love.

I really loved seeing this sisterly bonding growing again. After her marriage it was just lost.

Poor NK just watching everything with heavy heart.

Anjali stands in front of shyam and her portrait, she is crying with enormous pain. she can't accept why all of a sudden her perfect world became so complicated and painful!,

"I can't live without you. rehe nahi payenge apke bina" her voice constricts with so much tears that she even can't utter words from her mouth. She feels completely mortified as her and Shyam's life have taken divergent path.

Anjali is still in denial that Shyam actually deceived her.

By hugging Payal, Khushi tells her that she can't see Arnav and Anjali like this. She can't see them in such state. Copious tears are rolling down from her eyes..

Arnav finally enters in his room, still in his dirty clothes.

Go man, first take shower then think.😆

He is in compunction. he mutters,

"I hurt di so much! I never wanted her to suffer like this. But it was important to bring this truth to everybody. But I can't see her in this state. I just can't see her like this"

The sad music in the bg makes the air more gloomy.

Oh my man, he pretends to the world that he is heartless, but his heart is just soft and tender like a baby. Oh my bachcha come to me, I'll love you more than Khushi.

Khushi has changed in her pristine white night suit. Clad in white she is looking opalescent. While wiping her hair, her look goes to Arnav, who is standing outside facing the pool. Khushi recollects the horrible event that occurred today, especially Arnav's slap on Shyam for humiliating her. She dithers, recalling Arnav said he trusts her. her heart suffuses with gratitude.

HP brings coffee for Arnav. Khushi takes the tray from his hand and saunters slowly towards the pool. Walking towards the pool, she struggles to shake off a vague disquietude in her heart, which almost felt like guilt. Her hands are quavering in agitation and her heart is thumping to intrude his sanctuary, as she knows very well that he is vulnerable now. A sudden wave of despondency and hesitation hits her, washing away all her courage and energy. Arnav turns back sensing her coming. An uneasy, feelings crackles between them. She keeps the tray on the end table and turns to leave without saying anything. Arnav holds her hand to make her stop. She turns towards him slowly and comes closer with tiny steps. Rabba ve in piano plays in the BG to depict their turbulent mind. Arnav gazes down at her tenderly. There is a soft glow glimmers in his eyes. He keeps his hand on her arm and she just can't control herself any more, crushes on his chest with myriad emotions. She clutches him tight and tears escape from her eyes and rolls down her cheek leaving long shiny tracks in their wake. She cries with all her pent up misery finally finding a release. Arnav also muffles her trembling body in his arms, caressing lovingly. He holds her back with one hand and her head with another. He can feel her pain, her anguish, her turbulence. The reassuring strength of his encircling arms, makes her even more emotional.

"kiyu khwabo mei tere saye " the sad Rabba ve plays in the BG makes the moment more surreal.

Khushi lifts her head from his chest and looks at his caramel pools. Genuine trepidation is flashy from the hazel of her eyes. He also looks at her with eyes swirling with emotions too deep for her. He fondles her beautiful face and caresses her tendril gently as he is so longed to touch her like this. As an intense protective tenderness rushes through his heart, he lifts the fragile doll in his strong arms and strides towards the room. He knows she must be weak and tired after a strenuous vulnerable day. Khushi snakes her arm around his neck, tries to seek comfort in his nearness. Both just stare at each other with eyes full of emotion and myriad love.

Again I am repeating, how perfectly she fits in his arm, as if made for each other. Never saw such perfect looking couple in my life. May be that's why I still can't accept them with any body else.

Arnav crosses the threshold of the room carefully and even more carefully he puts her down on the bed as if the porcelain doll will break in mere carelessness.

After putting her down and covering her up with the comforter, he stands up to go back by the pool. He is tired, but his mind is so disturbed that the sleep eluded from his eyes, even after spending horrible two weeks in the hostage.

But Khushi holds his hand to stop him. She also needs him badly by her side. She knows how she spent the last fifteen days, when he left her in the crux of the moment of a terrible misunderstanding.

Khushi clutches his hand and pulls him towards her. He sits down beside her and again caresses her beautiful face and her errant tendril lovingly. He rests his palm on her creamy candent cheek and she holds it with her slender hand. His gentle touch comforts her so much that all her woes relegate to oblivion and drifts her into somnolence,

pause: I also wished if he would've lied down with her, snuggled close to each other. I'm not telling that he had to make love to her where he is terribly upset with his di, but it would be great if he would've spent some time with Khushi too.

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Originally posted by: sohara

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sorry no time for making edit. so posting an old edit from my collection.

Episode-295

Doctor is calling out Anjali's name incessantly and Arnav is also searching her like crazy.

Arnav finds the doctor on the corridor and asks her about Anjali. She thinks she must have left. But nobody saw her going out. Arnav gets awe-inspiring to hear this, where did she go!

Anjali comes to a room where all the operation equipments are kept. She recalls how Arnav got Shyam out of the house and next moment she remembers how happy she became when she got the news of her pregnancy. "There is an innocent life is developing inside you."...Khushi's words are reverberating in her ear. A chaotic mlange of turbulent thought deranges her. Her heart squeezes with sudden realization as her face blanches and her eyes turn murky with undecipherable grief.

Anjali picks a surgical scissor. Fortunately Arnav sees her from the window. To see her like that a tremor runs through his vein. He runs inside to stop her and throws the scissor from her hand, she is flagrant, blabbering she doesn't want this baby. Doctor and nurse also come there right then. Anjali is muttering, she doesn't want this baby. Arnav tries to control her and the doctor says not to, because she is not in her sense. Arnav is confident that he will be able to pacify her and they can leave.

Anjali says, she doesn't have any other option beside this. She can't envisage the future when the baby will be born, his face will remind her his father's face whom everybody hates. Her eyes get turbid with frustration to think who will love that baby! He will be left alone in this world. She is frenetic in excruciating pain and uncontrollable anger. Arnav tries to tame her, he will fix everything. Anjali gets madder, if he asks him about his dad, what she will say; she doesn't have anything to answer.

So it's her indirect demand to Arnav to bring Shyam back, so that she can show her baby that this is his father. She wanted Shyam for her baby or for herself?

Arnav says, he is with her always. But Anjali looks so incorrigible as if she is not listening any thing and gets more berserk in anger,

"koi nahi hai, aur humari bachcha bhi iss duniya mei akela rehe jayega...there is nobody and my baby will be left alone in this world."

Arnav tries to hold her, but she is cantankerous in anger that doesn't even let him touch her.

"I have to do it, leave me" she is not even looking at his eyes and finally gives up. She wilts down in his arm and Arnav hollers doctor.

Pause: What did she plan to do with surgical scissor, to kill herself or to kill the baby! If she had a plan to kill herself then she could do it at home. Why in the hospital! I guess this is all her drama to bring her husband back.

By the way, how she could abort the child with a surgical scissor! She said she had nobody. How could she deny her brother, who gave his whole life for her service, ensconced her like a father! Anjali is a selfish woman! She just wanted her nefarious husband, her baby was also not important to her. I never saw any mother wants to kill her kid, because nobody loves his dad. Selfish lady became so demented in her fiend husband's grief that forgot that her brother was kidnapped and could be killed also. Or Arnav gave importance to his selfish sister so much that didn't care of his selfless wife's intention. He became judgmental and cursed Khushi for nothing.

Yes this was all her drama. She acted very clverly, she knew that everyone will search her and they will eventually learn that she is in hosptital and in no time her chotte will come to save her where she will shed some tears and manupulate him to bring shyam back. The whole scene was pathatic. She was indeed blind in the love for her husband. No body matters, not even her child. I didn't like a bit when Arnav again treated khushi as his pounching bag and took all his anger on her without thinking a bit what he was saying.

In RM mami's tirade continues against two innocent sisters. She thinks they will piece piece the peace of their family. When Khushi tries to make them understand that her intention was not that, mami berates her even more. nani tells her to keep quite, right now she can't think anything else beside Anjali. Mami is scared whether anjali does any mayhem to her or not. She prays to God to take care of her. Nani tries to comfort her, that chottey went to bring her back. she also prays to God that she brings them back at home safe and sound.

Mami's concern for her daughter like niece was good, but her demeanor to Payal and Khushi was too mean.

Arnav brings an emaciated anjali home. She looks decadent and her eyes are turbid with sadness. All heave a sigh of relief to see her. Mami gestures Payal disdainfully to move form here. Khushi says a silent prayer to God for bring her home safe and sound. Nani asks, what happened to her, where did she go? Arnav replies she needs rest. He knows she is still upset with him and will not like his presence, so he tells Akash to take her to her room. But Anjali is so weak that wilts again. So Arnav has to pick the big lady in his arm to take her to her room.

After laying down Anjali on the bed Arnav intends to leave, telling her to take rest. But Anjali holds his hand gestures him to stay back.

Khushi did the same last night. But the difference was Khushi ust wanted his company without uttering anything and Anjali complained like an obtuse person and tried to annihilate his morals, ethics and wish.

Arnav helps her to sit. Anjali holds his hand with her both hands and says with constrict voice,

"Ye sab kya ho giya chottey, kaal tak to sab theek tha. to phir achanak yeh sab. hume kya hogiya, hum dono ko kya hogiya. (what happened chottey? since yesterday all were fine, but why suddenly what happened to me? what happened to both of us? )

She breaks down in tears. By holding her head on his chest Arnav tries to pacify her again. Anjali pleas him,

"will you do something for me? Make everything aright like before. You always can fix things. So fix everything this time also. My husband, used to be with me. chottey please bring my Shyamji to me."

Her voice gets more thick and dense. She begs him again to bring Sjhyam back. He is so helpless, just requests her to calm down.

Anjali says again, if he wants then everything can be fixed.

"At the beginning everybody was so happy! Then what just happened? Why everybody has become so upset? Where is the sound of the laughter gone? I don't know who is responsible for all this? I don't know who casted an evil eye on our family? Chottey, will you please bring my happiness back? Will you fix everything like before?"

He can't answer her plea, because he can't lessen her pain. If he could he would replenish her life with merriment again. He just looks at her with bafflement. Anjali holds his hand on her cheek as a gesture of plea. But he apologizes, " I'm really sorry di."

Both the sibling hugs each other to comfort them.

Anjali is such a moron. She was oblivious that she was requesting her brother to bring the person who kidnapped him! She only wanted to live in her delusional world of happiness. because she is scared to face and accept truth.

Mami knocks at Arnav's door to incite him against Khushi. Arnav is still embroiling thinking about Anjali. Mami tells him not to worry, as Anjali fall asleep. Arnav asks her weren't they at home when Anjali went out? Mami tells him that nani went to temple and she was looking for Laxmi. She strictly admonished Payal not to go in Anjali's room, but she doesn't know when phatti saree?

Arnav is confused

Mami says it's all happened because of Khushi, she went to Anjali's room. Sasuma forbade her not to go, still she went there. "Why she needed to go there and whatever she could tell her that compelled Anjali to leave the house! Or moreover in such condition!"

To hear this from mami, Arnav's handsome face is now marred by intense anger. He just didn't recover from one bouts of extreme panic, now mami's goad makes him flagrant in rage. His spirit sinks again when he remembers what just happened with Anjali, what mayhem she wanted to do with her!

Arnav goes out from his room in rage to find Khushi. When he found her near the study, she was looking extremely upset. Arnav grabs hold of her hand vehemently. She is eerie, what happened! His is so outraged that drags her along with him and brings her straight by the poolside. His face is dark with anger and the fire in his eyes causes her heart to jolt with a touch of fear. She again asks him what happened.

Arnav asks her peremptorily, "what happened to you? When everybody forbade you then what was the need to go to di's room or talk to her? why khsuhi?' he screams at the top of his voice makes her shiver..
'I just wanted"

He yelps more, not ready to hear her excuse. He tells her scornfully with a steely glint suffusing his eyes, "you don't know, what is her condition? What she has been going through? She thinks everything has happened because of you. Still you went to go to meet her? Why damn it?"

OK, so Arnav also thinks Khushi shouldn't come in front of Anjali. Oh yeah maul her like rest of the family for her infringement. She did an infringement for meeting your precious di. He also became cretin like his family. It was always my complain that Arnav was kind of responsible for Anjali's immaturity. He always tried to ensconce her, never wanted her to face the harsh reality of life. But a pragmatic man like Arnav should be a little less realistic with Anjali. Who knows it better than him that life is not a bed of roses or it's not perfect how people want to make it. The meander of life is never smooth; it is coarse and sometimes really difficult. Arnav already knew about Shyam's truth and he also knew that someday it would come in front of Anjali. So he should make her mentally prepare for this, rather than treated her like an immature kid. He knew Anjali was kind of rigid that time, but at least he could listen to Khushi's side rather snubbing her disdainfully.

You are so right, Arnav acted so immaturely. Yes, he is tensed but he isn't the one who is tensed, everyone is feeling guilt and pain for Anjali grief. And Khushi too believed that she was indeed responsible for all and especially Anjali distraught condition and she was willing to do anything to bring lively di back. Khushi had successfully supress that thought for a long time until Arnav voice it, shaping her fears and guilt into reality.

'Please forgive me. Arnavji" khushi stammers, she is also in compunction.

"tumhare maafi mang ne se kuch change nahi hoga Khushi! You can't even imagine in what situation I found di today. Only I know what I had to do to stop her! So that she doesn't harm herself. If I would've reached there just one minute late." he can't control any more to even utter the dreadful act what she was about to do.

Still It's unfathomable to me what she was trying to do with that surgical scissor.

Khushi embroils to hear this; trepidation is flashy from the hazel of her eyes. Arnav asks her in hostile accusatory tone, what she told her that she...

Khushi says she just told her. Arnav relents her a bit, so he asks in a softer tone "what was the need to go to her?

"Because I also care di, like you do.I love her like the way you do' And have prove enough that she care for Anjali even more than her sister but time and again everyone raised questions on her.

Arnav veers his look, he even doesn't want to hear her excuse. Khushi continues,

"I went there to talk, because I somehow felt whatever happened, happened because of me."

'ha hua hai, yeh sab tumhare bajase hua hai...yes it all happened because of you" Arnav vociferates and makes Khushi tremulous in fear.

So Anjali and mami both became successful to manipulate him against Khushi.

He turns around and says with despise,

"the time you came, since then. tum mere zindagi mei ayi kiyu? Mai tumse milahi kiyun? saab kuch kitna acchcha tha! Aur sabse important baat di khush thi. saab tumhari galti hai Khushi, Tum nahi ati to shyam aisi harkat nahi karta...Why didyou come to my life? Why did I meet you? Everything was so perfect. And most important thing is di was happy. All is your mistake Khushi. If you were not there then Shyam wouldn't do such act!"

How Arnav was so sure that if Shyam wouldn't meet Khushi, he wouldn't go to any other girl! Can't expect it from ASR's mouth. If Akash would've said this I would perhaps excepted.

Yeah this was too much. If there would be any other girl instead of Khushi in shyam life then his di condtion would even more worst than her current one, Anjali who can't bear an short affair of her husband, may be she even had killed herself if she got proff that he was living a happy with "Other woman" There is no guarentee for a man like shyam .

Arnav's every words are piercing Khushi's heart like million needles, tearing her asunder. She just stares at him with excruciating pain and bafflement. Arnav says more afflictive words to her,

"aur di peheli bhi tarah khush hoti... And di would be happy like before. you are the biggest mistake of my life Khushi Kumari Gupta. Kash mei tumhe kabhi milahi nahi...I wish if I would never meet you"

He leaves after spurting out all his pent up frustration. Khushi is startled; her eyes get imbued with tears. Her heart slams painfully against her ribcage. And the sad piano note of rabba ve intensifies her pain even more.

Arnav's disdainful words are reverberating in her ear drum. She crumples down by the poolside with indecipherable pain, thinking of her capricious destiny which is mocking at her. 😭

I know Arnav is penchant to Anjali, though he says two most important persons are Khushi and Anjali. But his obnoxious behavior towards Khushi didn't prove so. Arnav could be indignant but why so much affliction! Doesn't he know Khushi can't do or wish evil to anybody. She had every right to talk to Anjali to clear her doubt about her. Or anjali is not a baby that everybody has to pamper her! I can understand her situation; she has been going through a terrible mental trauma. But because of that nobody can support her immature act!

And this is worst that every take her actions as an immature acts or as joke like she is nobody and have to mind to think sensibly even Arnav who profess to love her unconditionally. Arnav was angry because she didn't obey his rule and took decision on her own to talk to di which wasn't at all wrong for her but was wrong for Arnav. He shoudl have trust Khushi decision to talk to di even without taking his decision. Where did "move along with me" went?

Arnav is in his driving seat,. he is disturbed, to abate his demented mind, to release his frustration, he needs some solace and driving in the dark street gives him solace or help him to think rationally. There is a clamor going on in his heart. His mind inadvertently wanders into the realms of kaleidoscope memories. Anjali's act, her words reverberating in his mind, she wanted to kill her baby, because everybody hates his father. She thinks she is alone in this world and her kid will be left alone in this world. The horrible night of their parent's death haunts him again. He utters di with scorching pain. nani warned Khushi not to go to anajli's room and mami told him that she went to her room in spite of nani's admonishment. He becomes mad at her temerity, but he also dithers to think that he loves her. His mind ebbs back in the memory of his confession to her, then how she desperately tried to find him and rescued him, how he met him in the warehouse and became so intimate in the hut. She almost lost her life to save his life. Then all his scathing words what he just told her gnaw at his conscience. He realizes that he made a mistake by saying all the excruciating words.

'What i just did!"

A sudden moment of realization leaves a wave of bitter self-recriminatory anger in it's wake.

When his heart is shrouded with pain and misery, it always found it's easy way to hate. But now after Khushi's entry in his life with the cleansing rays of optimism and merriment dispelling that shroud, it is difficult to harbor hate in his heart or moreover for the girl who is his oxygen to breath and his nourishment for soul.

[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nFKJc5E1nCc[/YOUTUBE]

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Originally posted by: Horizon

Indi,

Watched that VM Wicked atlast... great work.

Haven't heard the song earlier.. but loved it.. super sensuous.. went ad listened to the original loved the voice and its modulation..

Tremendously mixed up VM.. that starting guitar bit of this song almost seemed inspiration to that entry helicopter BG score... absolutely, great catch you seemed to have leapt across episodes effortlessly.. from Teej Morning to farm house...loved the intermixing of his flirtatious most lines from Payash wedding days. Glad to see that shot from the initial office where he scared life out of her wit that blazer undoing..rings bells??😊

great job Indi.. loved it.. you seemed to have included almost all historical sequences..very asrish as I said in my other comment...that voice, feel, overall suiting very aptly.. thank you, i love "very asrish".

On another note, I absolutely loved the first male version of "Kyon Khwabon pe tere" , immensely touched the first time when it played on that terrace in Lakshmi Nagar. It is only the high pitch female version I detest.

Originally posted by: aarwen

Episode 294

She was a little lost, worried about di, his health, everything else happening in the house. Even when repeatedly they came in each other's way she did not catch on the hint of a smile appear on his face. Then her eyes found his and she realized he was blocking her way deliberately.
The wind had found a reason to blow happily. The poolside was a joyful witness of her first playful interaction with her husband, after they have been through hell and back together, after he declared he believed her, after a night of torture seeing di in agony and being forced to let her bear it alone.
No, he is not angry with you, and surely when you are in front of him how can he not smile in wonder and that inherent naughty raizadaness that we go completely crazy over. As long as your are with him, every pain is bearable, there is strength and joy in your presence in his life.
ASR let love come and claim him today. He allowed his heart to feel happy. The sight of her safe and sound, taking care of him, in his room, is enough to give him a moment of respite. And he lets it come to him.
Most probably this lightness, his attention, was least expected by her. It is almost like how Khushi Kumari Gupta would deal with a problem... making jilebis was her way.. Flirting with his wife, is his way.

The smile does return on her face, which he claims is what he wants, but Mr Raizada, in case you did not notice, the smile returned on your face as well.
He gauges her reaction, a playful amused smirk on his lips. His dear jhalli girl, all grown up serious one minute and then transitioning back to the coy, inexperienced, in love, new wife. Flustered because of him, unsure of how to deal with a playful husband. "Wow Khushi Kumari Gupta Singh raizada ko sharmana bhi aata hai.." .. A husky pride in his low tone, that he gets to make her shy.. She is his.. he knows it. And revels in it.
The talkative girl has no words.. But jab tum chup hoti ho tumhari aakhen bolti hai Khushi Kumari Gupta Singh Raizada. He moves towards her.. Wonder what he wanted to do? From habit, a dance step that is well practiced by now, she falls in sync, stepping back. Unsettled. You can almost feel the breath leave her in nervous anticipation.

Only this time he does not want her to move back or move away from him. It's high time she stopped going back. She should move forward with him... together. No mincing of words.. No flowery words.. In short simple sentences ASR speaks of what he is ready for.. He is ready to face the future.. with his wife by his side.
And though she says not one word, her lowered eyes and shy smile tell him all he needs to know. That she is as thrilled as him, and ready to be right next to him, in this wondrous journey of life.
I cheered loudly the first two minutes of 294. And as he blocked her way one last time I declared to myself everyone needs a little teasing and flirting to brighten up their lives.

Wish the lightness had prevailed and persisted for the remaining minutes of the episode. The rest left me disturbed and upset and for once even the suave Mr Sobti could not save it.
On Anjali's anniversary many many episodes ago a fresh young girl had spoken about what a marriage truly meant. She was just a stranger, on contract to serve sweets in the function, yet her words were not interfering, but beautiful and heart warming. Today however the well intentioned caring Khushi came across as a bit preachy to me. She meant no harm, only the very best for her di, but still maybe it was the timing. It irked me.
ASR is pragmatic enough to realize di might not want to go to the doctor with him. And without much ado the younger brother steps up to take the responsibility of di. Quite often one doesn't need to talk much with someone you are comfortable around.
Then started the panic of the missing di. Nani was again a little off character, atleast to me it felt that way. Perhaps, her worry for her granddaughter made her lose control. And mamiji was unforgivable and rude towards the Gupta sisters. Though grudgingly, I have to admit she did have a point. It might have helped Anjali more if Khushi had brought mamiji to take care of her.
There was one split second which was profound.. Khushi wants to accompany Arnavji.. And nani stops her.. ASR consoles her with his hand on her shoulder. A subtle but powerful gesture. He is a man of action. No point in arguing and hurting nani in the present state, he knows his wife is sensible enough to stay back, but he also knows it must hurt her. And so in that gesture I saw him support her. Tell her he understood, but he needed her to stay calm and be strong.
Another lady was anything but strong, however. Anjali's decision to kill her unborn child, the very child she has longed to hold in her arms, is not just a symptom of bad writing, but a result of decades of women all over forgetting to live for themselves. We love with all our heart, work with all sincerity, and in the midst of this we tend to forget ourselves. Our worth as individuals is what that gets lost. Sure it is extreme in Anjali, who was brittle from inside. And sure this course of story was uncalled for. Still she has needed validation of her worth in the adoration she thought she received from her husband. And the very things and the very life that was precious to her lost its meaning when she thought she was alone. She was no one alone, and that is the most heart breaking tragedy.

The writers could have shown ASR's di a strong woman. Somehow that would have felt more in character with the smiling sophisticated smart woman we met in the beginning of IPK. The woman ASR had called on stage, full of pride and love. But both the children of Ratna Mallik had suffered scars from their parents death. For one it was visible, he wore it almost like a talisman, it propelled him to achieve, to fight for survival. The other hid it behind shrouds of belief in the almighty and goodness of people around her. For the brother, the more people tried to break him, the more he took charge of life refusing to give up. But the sister, she broke down and lost herself when faced with the unthinkable.

By the way, a trivia, and thanks to google I checked this, in Indian law a wife does not need consent from her husband if she decides on an abortion.

Originally posted by: sohara

episode-294

Arnav and Khushi' eternal heaven, by the poolside Arnav keeps flirting with Khushi. He deliberately blocks Khushi's way for some times. He glances at her with amusement and his eyes flicker with a lazy smolder in their depth. His warm gaze is lancing through her aura makes her face suffuses with rosy color. uff.. i can't get enough of lazy smolder Sohara..

She is very much aware of her charms and can see it's effect on her handsome husband.

He jeers her with his caramel eyes agleam with humor,

"wow Khushi Kumari Gupta Singh Raizada ko sharmana bhi ataa hai."

He makes her crimson more by his mischievous smirk. Khushi tries to veer her looks down, cause she can't look in his eyes in coyness. haha she has no idea how to handle him in this mood.

Arnav takes a sudden step towards Khushi, making her instinctively walks backward, what she always does. He quips, with a naughty grimace,

"Khushi it's high time, when I move forward and you stop gong back. You have to learn to move along with me."

Khushi looks at his eyes with shyness. His eyes glimmer and playfulness gathers as his smile remains steadfast at his lips. She smiles shyly as the familiar magnetism of his presence enamors every sinews of her body. She intends to leave, but again he blocks her. she looks at him with a question in her eyes. Finally he lets her go. She looks back with a sweet shy smile. He also smiles with satisfaction and their smiles mingle. Arnav stares at her gait and mutters,

"That's what I wanted, a smile on your face."

Khushi is his love, she endured immense grief and agony since she met him and gave so much in this relationship, now when finally they are together, he will always try to make her happy. such a sweet thought Sohara.

While Khushi was cooking in the kitchen HP comes with a food tray; Anjali refused to eat breakfast. Khushi gets tensed to hear this. She also can't go to her room to request her to have breakfast. So she asks HP about nani and mami. But both are not at home. So Khushi doesn't find any other option but to go to Anjali's room with breakfast.

Oh Gosh, what a faux pas she did, now she will face the wrath of the raizada clan. I don't think going to Anjali was the big mistake but trying to convince her to eat was trouble. Khushi was definitely showing care and was well meaning but in such a state if someone tries to explain things it usually almost always makes one more angry or upset. all these scenes troubled me. and mami was awful!!!

Forlorn Anjali is watching her pics with Shyam. She still is in denial that her husband actually is a good fellow. When Khushi knocks the door, she says that she doesn't want to meet anybody. Without pondering her words, Khushi enters her room with food. She tries to avoid Khushi. it seems her predominating thought rankling in her mind. She says Anjali with remorse that she knows she is extremely hurt and it's obvious that it happened because of her. She literally implores her to eat her meal.

"di, whatever anger you have inside you, be angry with me. But don't refuse to eat like this. To see you in this condition, Arnavji gets terribly hurt. You must know how much he loves you."

Aww how much she cares her Arnavji, she just can't see him in pain. How lucky is Arnav to get such caring wife!

Anjali still is silent, trying to be reticent with her. But Khushi continues,

"di, please don't punish you like this. There is a life developing inside your womb. Why you are punishing him! For the sake of him, please eat something." she begs her with teary eyes, tries hard to make her understand more,

"That what you wanted, you will have a beautiful baby who will make your life blissful with her lovely smile. Just forget whatever happened with Shyamji. That is your past, but this baby is your future what will always be with you. This is the ray of hope for a bright life. A new life is waiting for you di. Just think of your baby di and take care of yourself."

Khushi leaves and Anjali breaks down in tears holding her stomach. All her wounds are still raw and bleeding.

To see clutching her stomach I thought she will be more protective towards her baby. Cause right now the baby can be the reason of her survival and happiness. But I was wrong, Anjali actually is a relentless woman who thought to kill her unborn baby. How could she forget that she was carrying a child inside her womb. She can starve, but her baby can't. I think she was at her 7^th month. And in this stage a baby needs more food and nutrition. Anjali has become so blind in her husband's love that she was torturing her own baby. Khushi just said her the right words, she tried to make her understand, she didn't tell anything than could make her hurt. Later when the whole family including Mr. Raizada berated her with afflictive words, my inner rambling stumbled to a halt, why these people are so insensitive and unreasonable!

Akash and Arnav come back from the office. Arnav took doctor's appointment for Anjali and he requests Akash to take her, as he thinks she will not agree to go with him. He knows di is upset with him.

When Akash comes to Anjali's room, she was not there. He gets scared not to find her anywhere.

While Arnav was sitting in the living area, waiting for his black coffee, Khushi comes there with a crestfallen face. Arnav asks her why she is looking sad, is everything alright. Khushi was about to speak about Anjali then Akash intervenes, calling Anjali's name. Arnav gets worried; he asks him what's the matter. Akash says she is not in her room. Arnav thinks she must be somewhere inside the house. They start to look for her everywhere. mami and nani also come from the mandir that time. They also are tensed to hear Anjali's missing news. Nani starts to cry, what happened to this family, whose portentous eyes fell on them? somehow nani's behaviour also felt off in this episode. Would she be such a wreck and say such things I wonder.

After searching her in every single place in the house, Arnav tries her number, but her phone is also unreachable. He recollects her pensive state after what happened with Shyam on the previous day. She said she wanted to stay alone and refused to eat when he took breakfast for her. Arnav's tension intensifies and he utters, "di where are you?"

mami is awe-inspiring where she can go!

HP let them know that some while ago he saw Anajli going out by auto. Arnav rebukes him, why he didn't stop her. Akash asks him did he hear where she was going? But HP was not so near, that's why couldn't hear where she was going. Arnav can't wait any more; he needs to go out to find her right now. Akash also wants to accompany him. But Arnav wants him to stay in the house. Nani convulses, in such a big city, where he will find her? Arnav is confident that he will find her and gets her back safe and sound. Khushi also wants to go with him. But nani admonishes her.

What the! This is too much. I just couldn't expect this from nani. Did she think she is guilty, that to see her face, their Anji baby will deny to come back home! I just didn't like nani and mami in this episode.

Arnav feels bad that nani retain her to go with him. So he gives her an assuring nod to listen to her. And my angel took it sportingly, didn't take it in her heart. She is really an angel. I wish if I could be like her. She tells Arnav if he gets any news he should let them know.

Before going out Arnav asks the watchman did he see Anjali going out? He saw he went out one hour ago, but doesn't know where did she go.

While leaving the premise, an autowala blocks his way, Arnav gets mad and asks the security to get him out. The man actually came to take his fare. Arnav thinks he can be the autowala who took Anjali the place where did she go. And his assumption is right; he took the woman with a limp to DN nursing home. But she left without paying him the fare. Arnav cowers to hear this and drives as fast as possible towards the nursing home.

Anjali is sitting in the corridor of the nursing home, recalling whatever happened with her life. Arnav slapped her husband and got him out from her life. And he said that he had to do it for her child. Her pensive eyes get murky with hurt and extinguished embers of defeated anger.

Doctor calls her in. She tells the doctor that she doesn't want the baby. The doctor is in utter shock that can't hear Arnav's phone call. Arnav is mad at the doctor for not receiving the call. Oh I missed this. Had he called her?

Wasn't it weird that when Arnav didn't reach her cell, he didn't try the land line number of the nursing home! Or why the doctor didn't have any nurse with her? Normally if we go to a doctor's office always a nurse accompanies the doctor who assists her to take weight, check BP and all. All the weird things happen in IPK. sadly nothing was very sensible at all.

The doctor is dumbfounded to hear that Anjali wants to kill her baby. Anjali says with pain and confidence that she doesn't want this baby and asks her what she should do to abort this child?. Doctor retorts her, whatever she wants it's not possible. To see her woebegone state, she anticipates that something is wrong. She asks her about her husband? And why she is taking such hasty decision? But Anajli is firm in her decision. the doctor can't fathom, she wanted this baby so much, then why she wants to abort the child now?.

mami is panicking where did Anjali go in this condition? Akash is calling all their know people, where anjali could go. But she is nowhere. Payal also is trying to help them to locate her.

Nani is consternating who went to her room after she left. So far she remembers nobody went to her room, then what happened to her that made her go out from the house. Oh nani, give your 2 years old baby Anji a pacifier .Mami also didn't go. Nani asks Payal, did she go? Mami doesn't believe her and she asks Khushi did she go? Nani says she didn't go, because she forbade her to go to her room.

Khushi is an honest girl and as she knows she didn't commit any crime to go to feed her, she tells with hesitation that she went to her room. To hear this, nani looks at her with darting eyes, as if she did a serious crime. Khushi says she went to talk to her. She can't complete as they hear Akash is talking on the phone about Anjali. They all scurry fast to him to know the matter. Akash tells them that Anjali is fine, she went to nursing home and bhai is with her. All are ambiguous, why she went to nursing home suddenly!

Doctor refutes Anjali, she can't support her in this decision, or it's wrong according to the law. Anjali is impervious, she already made her decision. Doctor also needs her husband's agreement too, cause she is a married woman and her family's decision is also important. Anjali gets more obdurate, if she can't help her she will go to some other place. She leaves. The doctor calls her incessantly to stay back, she can see, she is not in a good condition.

pause: I am asking again is abortion possible at 7^th month of pregnancy? The baby inside her womb is not just an embryo but a living human child. What of kind of mother she is that wanting to kill her own baby! She was not only weak, but she was inexorable. And an adult woman in mid thirties just made the whole family panicked like hell. So i checked this up in google.. and no it is against the law even.

Arnav comes to the nursing home and starts to look for her like crazy.

Nani is upset with Khushi that in spite of her admonishment, she went to her room! Khushi tells her she was not at home and Anjali was not eating anything, so she thought to be with her. She goes to hold nani to comfort her. But mami gives her a contemptuous look and rebukes her to leave. She tells Khushi as nani was not at home she was here, then why she didn't ask her or tell khoon bhari tang. she is enraged and tells nani that she knew well that these two sisters only can ruin the happiness of the family, but can't do anything else.

Mami's paltry remark is unbearable. Mami was really unbearable. though I do think if mami would have gone to Ajnali perhaps Anjali would not have reached this extreme decision, still the way mami treated Payal and Khushi was very wrong and insensitive. And never was she shown to feel apologetic about it.

Anjali is trudging slowly towards the corridor. God knows where her demented thought is taking her! The doctor is still calling out her name incessantly. Arnav is also in the corridor of the nursing home and looks aghast; did he hear the doctor or did he see Anjali! more like where the clueless writers want to take her..

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Episode-295

Doctor is calling out Anjali's name incessantly and Arnav is also searching her like crazy.

Arnav finds the doctor on the corridor and asks her about Anjali. She thinks she must have left. But nobody saw her going out. Arnav gets awe-inspiring to hear this, where did she go!

Anjali comes to a room where all the operation equipments are kept. She recalls how Arnav got Shyam out of the house and next moment she remembers how happy she became when she got the news of her pregnancy. "There is an innocent life is developing inside you."...Khushi's words are reverberating in her ear. A chaotic mlange of turbulent thought deranges her. Her heart squeezes with sudden realization as her face blanches and her eyes turn murky with undecipherable grief.

THAT WAS A BIT TOO MUCH...THAT SHOWS HOW EVERYONE HAS BEEN RAISING HER AS A FRAGILE DOLL THAT SHE CAN'T BE A STRONG MOTHER...MOTHERHOOD MAKES YOU SO STRONG BEYOND IMAGINATION AND EVEN HUBBY SEEMS SECOND IN FRONT OF YOUR KIDS...A MOTHER IS ALWAYS THE STRONGEST AND ESPECIALLY FOR THE PROTECTION OF HER CHILD...SHE IS LIKE A DURGA MAA...LIKE A MOTHER NATURE ...THESE KINDS OF THINGS ALWAYS COME FROM WEAK WILL AND POWER PEOPLE ...HATED THAT ..

Anjali picks a surgical scissor. Fortunately Arnav sees her from the window. To see her like that a tremor runs through his vein. He runs inside to stop her and throws the scissor from her hand, she is flagrant, blabbering she doesn't want this baby. Doctor and nurse also come there right then. Anjali is muttering, she doesn't want this baby. Arnav tries to control her and the doctor says not to, because she is not in her sense. Arnav is confident that he will be able to pacify her and they can leave.

Anjali says, she doesn't have any other option beside this. She can't envisage the future when the baby will be born, his face will remind her his father's face whom everybody hates. Her eyes get turbid with frustration to think who will love that baby! He will be left alone in this world. She is frenetic in excruciating pain and uncontrollable anger. Arnav tries to tame her, he will fix everything. Anjali gets madder, if he asks him about his dad, what she will say; she doesn't have anything to answer.

I JUST DIDN'T LIKE ALL OF THIS ...SHE WAS SO STRONG AND HER MOTHER DID INSTIL GOODNESS BUT MAY BE HER MOTHER WAS WEAK AND THAT IS WHAT THEY CONNECTED THAT HERE...SHE DID COMMIT SUICIDE ON HER WEDDING DAY AND THAT IS ANOTHER THING ... SO ANJALI IS LIKE HER...THAT IS THE ONLY THING COMES IN MY MIND.

So it's her indirect demand to Arnav to bring Shyam back, so that she can show her baby that this is his father. She wanted Shyam for her baby or for herself?👏

Arnav says, he is with her always. But Anjali looks so incorrigible as if she is not listening any thing and gets more berserk in anger,

"koi nahi hai, aur humari bachcha bhi iss duniya mei akela rehe jayega...there is nobody and my baby will be left alone in this world."

Arnav tries to hold her, but she is cantankerous in anger that doesn't even let him touch her.

"I have to do it, leave me" she is not even looking at his eyes and finally gives up. She wilts down in his arm and Arnav hollers doctor.

Pause: What did she plan to do with surgical scissor, to kill herself or to kill the baby! If she had a plan to kill herself then she could do it at home. Why in the hospital! I guess this is all her drama to bring her husband back. By the way, how she could abort the child with a surgical scissor! She said she had nobody. How could she deny her brother, who gave his whole life for her service, ensconced her like a father! Anjali is a selfish woman! She just wanted her nefarious husband, her baby was also not important to her. I never saw any mother wants to kill her kid, because nobody loves his dad. Selfish lady became so demented in her fiend husband's grief that forgot that her brother was kidnapped and could be killed also. Or Arnav gave importance to his selfish sister so much that didn't care of his selfless wife's intention. He became judgmental and cursed Khushi for nothing.

I JUST SAID THAT ABOVE...SHE IS BASICALLY SELF CENTERED , ALL HONKA DORI , HAPPY , MERRY GO LIFE PERSON AND THAT IS WHY SHE NEVER COULD DIGEST ANYONE'S FIGHT OR LIKE THAT ...SINCE FROM THE BEGINNING SHE WANTS EVERYTHING PERFECT IN HER LIFE AROUND HER AND THAT IS ANOTHER THING...JUST LIKE ARNAV HER PAST HAS RUINED HER , HE WENT OPPOSITE AND SHE WENT TOTALLY OPPOSITE...HE BECAME SELF MADE IN ANGER AND REVENGE AND SHE JUST REMAINED IN THAT WEDDING MODE...A GIRL'S MARRIAGE DAY ALL THINGS HAPPENED AND THEN SHE GOT HER CHARMING PRINCE WHO WAS BEYOND HER IMAGINATION ...KEPT HER HAPPY RANI SAHIBA ABD NOW SUDDENLY HE HAS BEEN THROWN OUT FROM HER BEAUTIFUL HALLUCINATED LIFE...SHE CAN'T ACCEPT THAT REGARDLESS SHE HAS BEEN PROVIDED SO MANY CHANCES TO LOOK INTO MATTERS OF HIM BEING ARNAV'S ROOM MILLION TIMES...

In RM mami's tirade continues against two innocent sisters. She thinks they will piece piece the peace of their family. When Khushi tries to make them understand that her intention was not that, mami berates her even more. nani tells her to keep quite, right now she can't think anything else beside Anjali. Mami is scared whether anjali does any mayhem to her or not. She prays to God to take care of her. Nani tries to comfort her, that chottey went to bring her back. she also prays to God that she brings them back at home safe and sound.

Mami's concern for her daughter like niece was good, but her demeanor to Payal and Khushi was too mean.😡

Arnav brings an emaciated anjali home. She looks decadent and her eyes are turbid with sadness. All heave a sigh of relief to see her. Mami gestures Payal disdainfully to move form here. Khushi says a silent prayer to God for bring her home safe and sound. Nani asks, what happened to her, where did she go? Arnav replies she needs rest. He knows she is still upset with him and will not like his presence, so he tells Akash to take her to her room. But Anjali is so weak that wilts again. So Arnav has to pick the big lady in his arm to take her to her room.

OK , I DISAGREE WITH U HERE...SHE IS HIS MOTHER LIKE SISTER...I KNOW THERE WAS A HUGE THING ON THE FORUM WHEN THAT HAPPENED BUT WHY? IN REAL LIFE A LOT OF TIMES THINGS HAPPEN AND YOU TAKE CARE OF IT...LIKE MY OLDER ONE PICKED HIS GRANDMOTHER..[MY MOM] BECAUSE SHE SAT ON THE FLOOR AND COULDN'T GO BACK TO BED...SO THIS IS LIFE...THAT'S HOW I SEE IT...I KNOW U ARE ANGRY AT HER ...ME TOO BUT THIS ACTION IS JUSTIFIABLE...

After laying down Anjali on the bed Arnav intends to leave, telling her to take rest. But Anjali holds his hand gestures him to stay back.

Khushi did the same last night. But the difference was Khushi ust wanted his company without uttering anything and Anjali complained like an obtuse person and tried to annihilate his morals, ethics and wish.

THIS IS WHAT I JUST SAID WHY?BECAUSE REGARDLESS SHE TOLD ARNAV ..MOVE ON...SHE NEVER MOVED ON FROM HER FANTASY...AND HER PAST HAS LEFT HER HANDICAPPED MENTALLY...

Arnav helps her to sit. Anjali holds his hand with her both hands and says with constrict voice,

"Ye sab kya ho giya chottey, kaal tak to sab theek tha. to phir achanak yeh sab. hume kya hogiya, hum dono ko kya hogiya. (what happened chottey? since yesterday all were fine, but why suddenly what happened to me? what happened to both of us? )

She breaks down in tears. By holding her head on his chest Arnav tries to pacify her again. Anjali pleas him,

"will you do something for me? Make everything aright like before. You always can fix things. So fix everything this time also. My husband, used to be with me. chottey please bring my Shyamji to me."

Her voice gets more thick and dense. She begs him again to bring Sjhyam back. He is so helpless, just requests her to calm down.

Anjali says again, if he wants then everything can be fixed.

"At the beginning everybody was so happy! Then what just happened? Why everybody has become so upset? Where is the sound of the laughter gone? I don't know who is responsible for all this? I don't know who casted an evil eye on our family? Chottey, will you please bring my happiness back? Will you fix everything like before?"

He can't answer her plea, because he can't lessen her pain. If he could he would replenish her life with merriment again. He just looks at her with bafflement. Anjali holds his hand on her cheek as a gesture of plea. But he apologizes, " I'm really sorry di."

Both the sibling hugs each other to comfort them.

Anjali is such a moron. She was oblivious that she was requesting her brother to bring the person who kidnapped him! She only wanted to live in her delusional world of happiness. THIS IS WHAT I SAID ABOVE AS THAT'S HOW SHE SEES IT.

Mami knocks at Arnav's door to incite him against Khushi. Arnav is still embroiling thinking about Anjali. Mami tells him not to worry, as Anjali fall asleep. Arnav asks her weren't they at home when Anjali went out? Mami tells him that nani went to temple and she was looking for Laxmi. She strictly admonished Payal not to go in Anjali's room, but she doesn't know when phatti saree?

Arnav is confused

Mami says it's all happened because of Khushi, she went to Anjali's room. Sasuma forbade her not to go, still she went there. "Why she needed to go there and whatever she could tell her that compelled Anjali to leave the house! Or moreover in such condition!"

To hear this from mami, Arnav's handsome face is now marred by intense anger. He just didn't recover from one bouts of extreme panic, now mami's goad makes him flagrant in rage. His spirit sinks again when he remembers what just happened with Anjali, what mayhem she wanted to do with her!

THAT WAS ONE STEP TO BRING CONTRACT THING ON THE TABLE...A FIGHT IN BETWEEN THEM... ACC TO ME THEY HAVE FAST TEMPO FOR THIS ...I THINK BECAUSE BARUN PUT HIS PAPERS DOWN...

Arnav goes out from his room in rage to find Khushi. When he found her near the study, she was looking extremely upset. Arnav grabs hold of her hand vehemently. She is eerie, what happened! His is so outraged that drags her along with him and brings her straight by the poolside. His face is dark with anger and the fire in his eyes causes her heart to jolt with a touch of fear. She again asks him what happened.

Arnav asks her peremptorily, "what happened to you? When everybody forbade you then what was the need to go to di's room or talk to her? why khsuhi?' he screams at the top of his voice makes her shiver..
'I just wanted"

He yelps more, not ready to hear her excuse. He tells her scornfully with a steely glint suffusing his eyes, "you don't know, what is her condition? What she has been going through? She thinks everything has happened because of you. Still you went to go to meet her? Why damn it?"

OK, so Arnav also thinks Khushi shouldn't come in front of Anjali. Oh yeah maul her like rest of the family for her infringement. She did an infringement for meeting your precious di. He also became cretin like his family. It was always my complain that Arnav was kind of responsible for Anjali's immaturity. He always tried to ensconce her, never wanted her to face the harsh reality of life. But a pragmatic man like Arnav should be a little less realistic with Anjali. Who knows it better than him that life is not a bed of roses or it's not perfect how people want to make it. The meander of life is never smooth; it is coarse and sometimes really difficult. Arnav already knew about Shyam's truth and he also knew that someday it would come in front of Anjali. So he should make her mentally prepare for this, rather than treated her like an immature kid. He knew Anjali was kind of rigid that time, but at least he could listen to Khushi's side rather snubbing her disdainfully.

YES BUT AS I SAID SHE IS WEAK BY WILL AND THAT'S WHY NANI NEVER WANTED HER TO LIVE ALONE AND IF U REMEMBER IN THE BEGINNING PEOPLE USED TO TAUNT HER WHY IS SHE HERE AND NOT IN HER OWN HOME...THIS IS WHAT HAS BEEN BUILD UP..YES HE SHOULD'VE AND THE FAMILY SHOULD'VE MADE HER STRONG SLOWLY ...IF U ASK ME I ACTUALLY HAVE SEEN OPPOSITE...PEOPLE WITH DISABILITIES HAVE MORE WILL POWER THAN ANY ONE...THIS IS A WEAK PLOT AND NOTHING ELSE...HER CHARACTER HAS BEEN SABOTAGED

'Please forgive me. Arnavji" khushi stammers, she is also in compunction.

"tumhare maafi mang ne se kuch change nahi hoga Khushi! You can't even imagine in what situation I found di today. Only I know what I had to do to stop her! So that she doesn't harm herself. If I would've reached there just one minute late." he can't control any more to even utter the dreadful act what she was about to do.

Still It's unfathomable to me what she was trying to do with that surgical scissor.

TO HURT HERSELF AND THE CHILD AS SHE THOUGHT BECAUSE SHE WAS NOT IN HER SENSES...it is very true to nature because emotionally a weak woman can't take this from her partner and Shyam did that...damage

Khushi embroils to hear this; trepidation is flashy from the hazel of her eyes. Arnav asks her in hostile accusatory tone, what she told her that she...

Khushi says she just told her. Arnav relents her a bit, so he asks in a softer tone "what was the need to go to her?

"Because I also care di, like you do.I love her like the way you do'

Arnav veers his look, he even doesn't want to hear her excuse. Khushi continues,

"I went there to talk, because I somehow felt whatever happened, happened because of me."

'ha hua hai, yeh sab tumhare bajase hua hai...yes it all happened because of you" Arnav vociferates and makes Khushi tremulous in fear.

So Anjali and mami both became successful to manipulate him against Khushi.

He turns around and says with despise,

"the time you came, since then. tum mere zindagi mei ayi kiyu? Mai tumse milahi kiyun? saab kuch kitna acchcha tha! Aur sabse important baat di khush thi. saab tumhari galti hai Khushi, Tum nahi ati to shyam aisi harkat nahi karta...Why didyou come to my life? Why did I meet you? Everything was so perfect. And most important thing is di was happy. All is your mistake Khushi. If you were not there then Shyam wouldn't do such act!"

How Arnav was so sure that if Shyam wouldn't meet Khushi, he wouldn't go to any other girl! Can't expect it from ASR's mouth. If Akash would've said this I would perhaps excepted.

HE IS JUST MAD...OTHERWISE HE KNOWS SHYAM IS GHATIYA

Arnav's every words are piercing Khushi's heart like million needles, tearing her asunder. She just stares at him with excruciating pain and bafflement. Arnav says more afflictive words to her,

"aur di peheli bhi tarah khush hoti... And di would be happy like before. you are the biggest mistake of my life Khushi Kumari Gupta. Kash mei tumhe kabhi milahi nahi...I wish if I would never meet you"

He leaves after spurting out all his pent up frustration. Khushi is startled; her eyes get imbued with tears. Her heart slams painfully against her ribcage. And the sad piano note of rabba ve intensifies her pain even more.

Arnav's disdainful words are reverberating in her ear drum. She crumples down by the poolside with indecipherable pain, thinking of her capricious destiny which is mocking at her. WELL SAID

I know Arnav is penchant to Anjali, though he says two most important persons are Khushi and Anjali. But his obnoxious behavior towards Khushi didn't prove so. Arnav could be indignant but why so much affliction! Doesn't he know Khushi can't do or wish evil to anybody. She had every right to talk to Anjali to clear her doubt about her. Or anjali is not a baby that everybody has to pamper her! I can understand her situation; she has been going through a terrible mental trauma. But because of that nobody can support her immature act!😊

Arnav is in his driving seat,. he is disturbed, to abate his demented mind, to release his frustration, he needs some solace and driving in the dark street gives him solace or help him to think rationally. There is a clamor going on in his heart. His mind inadvertently wanders into the realms of kaleidoscope memories. Anjali's act, her words reverberating in his mind, she wanted to kill her baby, because everybody hates his father. She thinks she is alone in this world and her kid will be left alone in this world. The horrible night of their parent's death haunts him again. He utters di with scorching pain. nani warned Khushi not to go to anajli's room and mami told him that she went to her room in spite of nani's admonishment. He becomes mad at her temerity, but he also dithers to think that he loves her. His mind ebbs back in the memory of his confession to her, then how she desperately tried to find him and rescued him, how he met him in the warehouse and became so intimate in the hut. She almost lost her life to save his life. Then all his scathing words what he just told her gnaw at his conscience. He realizes that he made a mistake by saying all the excruciating words.

'What i just did!"

A sudden moment of realization leaves a wave of bitter self-recriminatory anger in it's wake.

When his heart is shrouded with pain and misery, it always found it's easy way to hate. But now after Khushi's entry in his life with the cleansing rays of optimism and merriment dispelling that shroud, it is difficult to harbor hate in his heart or moreover for the girl who is his oxygen to breath and his nourishment for soul.

[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nFKJc5E1nCc[/YOUTUBE]

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