arshi ff: without you... thread #1, chapters 1-13 **completed**

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indi52

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Posted: 12 years ago

#361

^^^ thanks, basb,

appreciate your reading every update. hope you are having a good time. 😳

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Sunshine80

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Posted: 12 years ago

#362

OMG I jst can't believe it Raanisaahiba...seriously I was jst asking to set my expectations right to read further..I didn't mean it to say other way Di...
u know for us ASR is different that's why I asked u is this ASR something else..I am sorry.

Saying that...I did a small bhangra seeing ASR back😆..u know I am possessed by that demon🤣

That's absolutely beautiful words di..how u put their feelings...sigh...can't wait more to see how the story unfolds...and who is the one who called Khoosi bitiya to say..it's not an accident..wait and watch

Thanks for PM di...🤗..

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indi52

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Posted: 12 years ago

#363

^^^ chhotey, you know how much asr loves your bhangra.

you helped me... reminded me we needed to see all of him, so stop being apologetic.

and i realised how much i love entering his incomprehensible thick and timeless rage... that never leaves, not really... trp miley ya na miley.

see you soon. 🤗

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Putija

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Posted: 12 years ago

#364

ASR rude and hard bark worse then his bite but ah so soft inside cant see Khushi hurt though initially he fought and tried to ignore her and she too was very angry with rakshas but then Khushi's Devi maiyya had other plans 😉 ke sara sara

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riti4u

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Posted: 12 years ago

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indi di...finally read update..😃As mentioned by you ..we get to see darker side of ASR in flashback...but to me this darker side only makes his softer side so wonderful to read...I really loved the part where you expressed anjali's emotions... he has been her protector all this while...why cant she be.. I also loved how beautifully you made use of his mother's presence... around him...by that rose from her garden...as khushi said...to protect him... in the end ..we get to see... irritated ASR being calmed by his sweet and understanding wife...how i wish this was shown in the show too...eagerly waiting for next update🤗

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indi52

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Posted: 12 years ago

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whatever will be will be, the future's not ours to see... but woh toh apna future khud likhta hai... 😆 what a man, how brave you have to be to walk into his den and share a life with him... but oh when he's sweet who remembers the agony the terror the arrogance the insults... tum theek ho and i die. thanks so much for reading, my dear. missing your work these days.

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indi52

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Posted: 12 years ago

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riti,

you are so right... that darkness, that mystery that intensity that is his. no one does it better. and the wild man makes the sweet man knee quivering hot... as i was telling sunshine. his anger makes him who he is, even his love is expressed through it... love fear insecurity heart breaking pain, all are expressed through that gussa.

i needed to bring it up front... glad you enjoyed. my anjali will hopefully use the strength we all thought we saw in her...
please always read when you're in the mood... fiction can't be enjoyed otherwise so come when and if you like.

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DurgaS

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Posted: 12 years ago

#368

Ouch... ASR pushed Khushi, that hurt. Hope it hurt him too.

The lone rose from the garden, the dhak dhak, loved this bit. Who's calling Khushi and putting doubts in her mind? That's a mystery. Di and Jiji would definitely like to know. Anjali and management classes, is she giving or taking?

The third part, ASR worried about something, wonder what?

Interesting chapter, Indi. Looking forward to the next part for some answers.

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IssK.

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Posted: 12 years ago

#369

Originally posted by: indi52
^^^ isspkaur,

what can i say, you always leave me feeling happy. i have internalised him you say? i do hope so. i need to feel him in me.

and just look what places he leads me to... looking for ancient anger on google, i come to homer and illiad... then fearing that i won't understand a word i went there, and who should be vapourising all around him there but achilles. yes, even i felt as i read a bit, something terribly similar... can't say what, but that trapped rage... an ancient one. asr had such primal intensity in him... like the timeless tragic heroes that moved you to emotions everyday robbed you of.

i sense something tragic in him, no matter how happy he is with his paramour now. what life took remains taken.

i want to know his anger. i wonder if khushi would start reading his rage, and see the signs of his state of being he leaves there.

thanks for liking those lines. i see them growing into a real relationship, sometimes just perfect, sometimes a mess, all of it who they are what they are together and there is no other way they can be any more.

When you have it, it doesn't go away so easily. Can fade with time surely, but to imagine that "I'll turn a whole new leaf as soon as i have dealt with a cause or causes of it", that can happen in a tv series it's makers have given up on, among other countless, supercilious assembly line products that are thriving in the name of fly by night "creative expression". This is anger of course we're talking about, but it may just as well be for heartbreak, deceit, fear, vulnerability...all the feelings that plague us.

Anger is in the Raizada's grain. I don't think it went away because he fell in love or because they made him deal with the past in one broad stroke. You hit the nail on the head with "what life took remains taken". It comes and goes in waves, the feeling.. accompanied by deep sadness. You cannot decide when you'll be done with it. Can you even be done with it forever? I have my doubts. He built walls around himself for self defense. It helped him fortify, reinvent, and move forward. And has made him who he is. A man you want to soothe but instinctively know you can't change. Excess in any form irks him, throws him off-balance. Anger, ironically, restores balance for him. Keeps things in check. And subsides just as unexpectedly as it soars...that's his grain and Khushi must know it. She may joke about the 'gussa' or rebuke him even in retaliation, but in her heart, am pretty sure she understands some of it. For she has seen the gold that glistens in the fire of his rage... and she is hooked, line and sinker. Who wouldn't be. It makes him so lovable, so human...so divine actually!
(Did we just nearly celebrate anger? ...the emotion that "self-help" books declare as the "most negative" of them all, and command us to "manage" and ultimately get rid of?? Think we did but it's fine, and we must explore this further...anything for the love of the Raizada methinks ...and in any case, there is a LOT in this world to be REALLY angry about!!).

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indi52

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Posted: 12 years ago

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Originally posted by: DurgaS

Ouch... ASR pushed Khushi, that hurt. Hope it hurt him too.

The lone rose from the garden, the dhak dhak, loved this bit. Who's calling Khushi and putting doubts in her mind? That's a mystery. Di and Jiji would definitely like to know. Anjali and management classes, is she giving or taking?

The third part, ASR worried about something, wonder what?

Interesting chapter, Indi. Looking forward to the next part for some answers.

hi durga,

sorry to disappoint you, durga, didn't hurt the brute at all. 😳 the call was for khushi on her phone, di answered. di has started studying management...

thanks for liking rose and dhakdhak... see you soon with some answers.. or maybe questions? 😆