Blast from the Past Thread #9, pg 105, ep 108 - Page 100

Originally posted by: indi52

episode 103

khushi ulajh gayi.

khushi is entangled. in feelings and sensations that glitter like fairy lights and beckon her. but she's not supposed to feel like that, so how can she go to them. and let them glow on her skin, touch her heart, free her fantasy? how could she not listen to what everyone was telling her to do? so much is happening at home, yet why is spending all her time thinking of that laad governor. there he is giving her milk ever so tenderly, the look in his eyes is making her heart thump. and there she is, running across the cold hospital corridor and flinging herself into the warmth of his arms, the reassurance of his solid chest, and he is there.

he's there by her side as she weeps for her father, helpless, and his hand comes up and rests on her head... what is this, a promise, an assurance, a commitment forever? why does it make her feel better? calm her down? and why is his hand brushing against her back so delicate, so gentle, that she feels a shiver, his breath so warm and near that her breath is all in a tumble, a mess, racing? his eyes so intent on her, never moving away, why can't she look away? why does she want this moment to never end? but this moment can never end. for here is hamesha. isn't it?

devi maiya, want's happening to me?

khushi was never meant to feel anything of this nature for a man like asr. or so said her upbringing, and her own head by the time she was old enough to thing of such things. if anything she was meant to be attracted to a man who exhibited traits shyam did on the surface. an educated, pleasant man, with a great knowledge of the shastras, the cultural texts, polite, respectful of elders, modest, the sort that blends easily with people, environments, and doesn't dominate it, kind and concerned, certainly not so attractive both sensually and emotionally that you can't stop thinking about him.

marriage in india was never really about the one man one woman and helpless absolute love idea. there was always the reference of krishna with his lovely radha, but he was divine, even radharani for many is the incarnation of lakshmi come to unite with her eternal mate, vishnu.

for us mere mortals the plan was somewhat mundane. it was well thought out and tried its best to eliminate risk. very much a social construct. it was about matching two people similar in background and outlook, able to stay the long haul together, the families as much a part of this coming together as the couple. if anything, this crazy, heady thing called love was looked at askance. so exciting, so absorbing, so dhak dhak giving, how could it possibly be good for you?

even today, exactly like khushi, people ask, so yours' was a love marriage? even today it seems like the "other" way to find a life mate, the "arranged" still a norm across many parts of society. the difference now though is that certainly "love" marriage has an edge of aspiration to it.

which is the only reason perhaps khushi had even considered a thing called "pyaar." but in this also she had incorporated the image of the kind of person she would feel this elusive but precious feeling for. and that man was nothing like this arrogant, young devil of a rich guy with the most lethal temper, the deepest eyes, the gorgeous smile, who when he came near or showed her concern, made her heart just melt. her breath began to rush.

but for some time now, it is becoming impossible not to notice feelings inside her. that telltale tear the other day was a clear sign of how deep the feeling had gone. and now after his intoxicating nearness as he peeled off the layers of light, her head just refused to move away from his thoughts.

we live in layers perhaps. not always aware of each one. but the layers are always on, doing what they have to.

so at one level we are doing what we believe is what must be done, as is khushi. still aiding and abetting la in her quest to make her relationship with asr permanent. khushi is not pretending this whole thing, she is genuinely interested in the two finding happiness together.

yet, unknown to her, her instincts, her inner her is reaching out for eternity in its own way.

and her layer that is pure material, physical, is so immersed in the sensation of the man, it just can't stop and go inert and sedate again. that dhakdhak is its call.

i could feel those fingers on her back, her tremble within, she was electrified, and not by that simple alternating current running through the wires. was she entangled? or was she really wrapped in twinkling lights that sparkle in and around you when there's love and desire and their expectant upbeat air? why take off the lights? let them be. perhaps that's exactly what dm was doing, by not giving her easy, straight forward answers. stay a little entangled, khushi.

because asr is in not so different a place.

he has stood here by the pool thinking of her before. deep in the night, all by himself. once he stood with her payal in his hand... lost, khushi had returned on the day he thought she was gone forever.. hamesha. he stood thinking here of her, on a windy evening, holding the curtain away, its billow perhaps reminding him of her dupatta. it was the evening he'd brought lavanya home to be his live in girlfriend yet in his hour of solitude, his thoughts strayed to khushi.

again those layers it seems, the ones in which we live. our conscious self doing its own thing, our subconscious its own. we try to hear the voice of our most rational layer, but is it always possible? is it even right? he never meant to cheat on lavanya. in his wildest also he hadn't imagined there would be this compelling, convulsive attraction for this lucknow chat, samosa, jalebi, naan with bahut saara makkhan girl.

he had no idea that her tears would disturb the heck out of him, or to see her smile would mean everything.

of course, to preserve his image in his own eyes, his sardonic, smart cool layer would pretend it's all nonsense. he'd walk up to her perhaps because he just had to, but then would say in a mean little, boy voice

"itna uchhal kyun rahi ho..." why are you jumping so much? and cut into the girl's extreme joy (so much jumping, i couldn't even catch a cap). and then threaten her with familiar salary cut in the fear that his utterly telltale tender loving act would give him away to all, most importantly himself. he'd walk away of course after breaking up the party, but not without looking back when no one is watching. and let her obvious glee bring happiness and a sense of satisfaction to his heart.

she was under so much pressure, he had to do something to give her a sense of fun and lightness, her kind of happiness so she felt less hurt, lost, sad. so the tycoon sat with a packet of miss chamko detergent powder and slipped in two silver coins (uff too generous again and almost got caught for it)into the packet then sealed it carefully. oh, he also told the servant not to tell anyone. that was so faraq nahin padta, dear shatir asr.

and speaking of shatir, what happened to the fabled dimaag, when he saw the girl in tight unfashionable churidar with pompom and gota, entangled in gleaming fairy lights? he was entranced, his eyes never left her face, as she stood their glowing, enchanting. he forgot he had to switch off the electricity...mind not functioning of course.

another layer had taken over. he had to close the gap between them, had to look at her and let every bit of his desire and wonder show, had to hold her hand with authority and start taking the wires down slowly, turning her with gentleness, his hand so tender yet so right on her shoulder.

she never thought to protest, he never thought to ask.

his arm on her shoulder he turned her around, in my mind a rite from the bengali wedding ceremony, when a man stands behind his wife and puts his arm around her as together they pour beaten rice into fire. always a stirring visual, no matter how ordinary looking the couple.

something terribly sensuous about this man holding this woman from the back, his breath on her shoulder, she just sensing his body his breath his presence, he but moments away from burying his face in the crook of her neck, feeling her silken hair on his face and just inhaling her essence. perhaps all of that happened somewhere unseen and the excitement of that permeated this scene.

she could feel it, he could feel it. no one thought it was crazy to leave the lights on, too much was happening to even think of such things. tum theek ho? he had to ask her when the last wire was off. and again, are you sure?

neither was ok, how could they be. when anjali finally arrived and switched off the lights it was as though a spell broke. a fairy tale tried hard to return to reality

but seemed to fail.

it lingered in his "khushi ulajh gayi," in her instant tremulous look, and his absolute inability to look away from her as she left. di noticed how he kept staring. good thing she didn't see the look in his eyes. nothing would protect him then, she'd know his "saansey ruk gayi" girl is here. the one he can't stop thinking about, whose visage his eyes seek morning and night, whose every suffering he wants to take away instantly. and the next day when she tells them that's how you know you love someone, would he make the connection? would khushi?

but at some layer of his he already knows. that's why he stands there willingly lost in her thought, enjoying her touch, her feel, her very loveliness. enchanting fairy tale girl wrapped in fairy light, he wants to linger with her a while. just a feeling. not right. not wrong. no rational meaning, nor name. he gently reaches out and holds a light, such a lover like romantic gesture. arnav singh raizada ko kissi ladki se koi faraq nahin padta.

t

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in my darkest night

when the moon was covered

and i roamed through wreckage

and a nimbus-clouded voice directed me:

"live in the layers,

not on the litter."

though i lack the art

to decipher it

no doubt the next chapter

in my book of transformations

is already written.

i am not done with my changes.

these lines from stanley kunitz's "the layers" playing in my mind, especially when i see the expressions on their faces. something about living in layers, of transforming, and changes. when you meet the one you love and who loves you, the changes are entrancing, like those blinking twinkling magical lights.

Originally posted by: supriya.arshi

@ArshiHamesha

EPISODE 97& Part 98

Nainital Trip Part-4

" Emotions ,feelings, and reactions are the driving forces which are binding humans in the circle of closeness where they find solace in each other.The pearls of emotions which Arnav and Khushi share since the day one are bringing them closer to this vortex ,the magnetic pull of which is not only getting stronger but also becoming inadmissible for them , especially for Arnav." - really well said 👏

- 👏 very nice

As in EPISODE 55 He threw those pearls of emotions and desires of khushi's dress which he kept secretly because these resting in the palm of his hand made him feel her , touch her , hold her , and above all dignify her purity, her beauty, her innocence, her honesty of her heart & smile but yet throwing em away why because the Walls of the great ASR's castle were weakening by the existence of one pure soul known as Khushi..." - Wondefrul writin here

Those pearls which represented Khushi's existence for him in his life as a part of hers which came to him that day by destiny are ready to become his destiny now👏.That destiny which does not run by him or her and is screaming its existence not only around em but around their families too to become a part of this vortex in these epi more than ever.

Scene1-Shyam and Babuji[SS -Rook and Pawn]

[SS-Slouchy Scorpion]

destiny is preparing a "Masiha" a protector[Arnav] , a shield for this family to live, flourish ,and brandish safely in the form of Arnav.

[Sorry guys couldn't bear the pain of a father so that's all I can write can't watch more]

Scene2-Anjali , Akash &Payal ,and Mamiji[ Rook,Knights,Pawn]

Anjali and Akash's concerns and affection towards Guptas is reflecting Destiny's moves regardless Mamiji's insecure attitude .Akash is making sure to be in the hospital for two reasons.One to crush the dream of Jijaji along with Arnav Bhai"lagta hai humare dono saley humari itni mehnat keh bawajood humain chain se dobara ghori charne nahin dainge"

"Second to be a protector of Payal as his looks were showing a determination of a promise which he made today with himself before leaving Payal." - thts sweet 😊

- really good edit 👏

Scene 3- Arnav and Khushi[King and Queen]

"Arnav's solance his hand on Khushi's forhead is just like destiny is showering her with endowment which is here to alleviate every single pain of hers by replenishing her paths with protection and joy.His distress has no limit as this pearl which he tried to throw so many times is resting in the palm of his hand today not only feeling his warmth but also giving him warmth of love and intimacy of hers which he wants to hold with both hands and that is a pure call of destiny." - very well written 👏

"Raba Ve rubs in where Her touch and brushing breath on his hand not only is evoking his desires for her as he touched her sweetness [jalaibi]through her hands with his lips and but also her lips are touching his sweet protectiveness which is always there unintentionally."😳

"Her warm touch is making him regret how badly he threw this pearl around last night . He ejaculates at the sight of her tears ,the pearls of love and care she showered at him unintentionally and today He is holding those pearls [tears] unintentionally again in the palm of his hands which have penetrated deep inside the Shell of ASR completely.Hats off to the creators and the original writers and directors especially Ved Raj and Nissar.[Why do I feel he was removing those tears from her face while thinking about it as this is his deep desire to evaporate those for forever]" -👏 very well said...this scene is so beautiful

👏 too good

Today King is bowing down to her queen upon her touch , her request and her unintentional desire which is melting him "lamha ba Lamha" [every sec] and then the pain ,the agony brings him to the edge of closing his eyes as he indeed hurt her again."I'm sorry Khushi...I'm sooo sorry!" as he is saying it for every reason which brims her eye or gives her pain .His indulgence over this innocent beauty was melting him this moment.👏

👍🏼

PONDERING Connecting Dots: He puts his hand from now on on Khushi to the hospital and to the very end either in love or hate but she is in the Shell of ASR's [Arnav] protection now and forever"Hamesha" ⭐️, especially in 101 where he wants to rectify his action for not saying "sab theek ho gyega" and then again in Mandir during forced marriage,by putting that Sindoor in hate but he was putting his hand regardless in hate, for his Di but also for his fear of losing her which in return was the protection for her from Shyam and his evilness.

👏👏

-Today she is getting this warmth of his love and protection unintentionally but will crave and demand it after kidnapping where he will take her out of the pain of the insecurities forever "Hamesha" 😃 so caring

👏❤️👏

-"Today he is bowing down without bowing his head in front of this filmy girl for her innocence and her values unintentionally and later he will bow down intentionally in filmy style for all the good she has."

- i do love his expression here...but those two tiny pics...the body doubles runied such a beautiful scene...hate it 😡

Arnav,"Khushi...Tum ...Theek tou ho na"[Khushi are you ok] She just affirms as her moment is frozen in the mist of last night's events .His regretful voice tells her that car will be here but she is adamant I will go Delhi by myself which irritates him and makes him unfreeze her from the last night but a jeep of 5 goons stops .Love to see Khushi naturally walks beside and little back of ASR for protection and that speaks of her trust, her comfort and belief level with him👏👏. - u knw i would loved to see their convo here...nd how he would hav not let her go alone...couldn the goons come a bit later

They both look at each other to understand what's going on as one of them with his wavy hair style sends the non-style threatening signals to Arnav.Khushi connects the dots of her Lehnga Choli...Wavy style pushes and punches Arnav and drags Khushi by grabbing her wrist and when she protests , finally slams her head to the jeep.That is the moment which freezes for him as she is touched and physically hurt by someone else and he roars by slaming down all the others in the way to reach his target👏.He shoves him, punches him, kicks him, slams his head and has no control to stop as she sees it.."Arnavji bas kijye...bas kijye ...mar daleinge kya...."

Arnav in his rage ,"hann Mar daloonga ...iski himmat kaise huee tumhain ...and then her pearly controlled touch not only forces him stop right in the air immediately but also makes him to realize what was he doing...Amazingly she does not remove her hand till he comes to his senses completely ..is there any other proof they need that they are divinely touched soul mates ..." - i swear...they both knw they hav feelings for each other...why can't they just admit it !!!

Khushi in her deep dazed state,"what happened to you...he just pushed me and you'..." and my my my what a look he gives her by coinciding with Raba Ve.His possessiveness, fondness, devotion and fidelity is written all over this slow turn of his head along with tenderness, attachment, love , affection and pain in his one look.Seriously Barun is "Chalta phirta ASR" how can he say that anyone can be ASR...impossible👏" - did Barun say the??..how could he...he shld realise by now he made ASR for who he is today...along with writers of course

"Its impossible for her to inhale blazing glares of him filled with intensity which forces her to bring her gazes down but she can feel his daggers right into her skin as he is no mood to look away...The moment he looks away she gauges him to find answers of her million questions .But as I said he is his protector no matter what as this urge to protect her started from the very 1^st epi when she fell in his arms and its never ever going to diminish as "Hamesha sanmbhalata rahoonga" 👏⭐️ amazing...loved every word

- nice

PONDERING Connecting Dots: -His half eye as" eye of Horus " as he is a his protector no matter what in love or hate.👍🏼

Today he is beating up the goons for her safety and later he will beat but get beaten too for her safety.[Kidnapping ]

While driving back Delhi,the reverbration of events and her words bring him to the reality "Why did I react like that"...

Just like her chup ,her silence bothers him the same is with her as the level of trust and belief has been changed.His three hrs constant "placidity"is unbearable for her.Her blabbering.com is filled with apologies and plea to instigate him to speak whether its filled with scolding and taunting.Wow! ...What a journey "jab se aap humain mile hain tub se humari aukad aur haisiat ki yaad dila rahe hain..." and today it does not bother her at all and all she wants to just hear his voice no matter what to make sure he is alright⭐️.But he is having a war of his heart and brain over here as he tries every time to throw her out of his life but she is always there challenging him stronger than ever before...

👏 very nice

Khushi's concerns for his wounds and his health are written on her open book face as "Dekhiyeh aap humain daant lo...."Arnav politely, "just shut up"....and that brings a delightful smile on her face which assured her his safety as he is ok and not that angry that much.Delhi brought her joy as she is here near with her Amma and Babuji [stars] but fate still wants her away from the agony and pain for some more time with her protector away from the filth and slush which can smudge the purity of this pearl...👏 very well written

Khushi in fluster can't open her seat belt when he hastily opens it and throws it on her side.She gets down dissipatedly and he sees her in the viewing mirror by his side eyes but droves away by ignoring her dependence on him...

PONDERING Connected Dots:He threw her out from his car after Janmashtami in the night with hate and today he is doing the same but with the fear of over whelming and uncontrolled emotions & desires for her which are driving him crazy and insane.Today he threw the belt and during Rakshabandhan he stopped the car to put the belt on her by hovering on her to give her Dhak Dhak..👏

She walks home and as her protection is off and she is very much vulnerable to get hurt👍🏼 as the news of her Babuji which removes ground under her feet as Her Star Babuji got a heart attack .Khushi's pain has no limit...The pearls[tears] which Arnav kept in the palm of his hand and trying to remove by caressing her face are back as these pearls her tears are not going anywhere..👏👏 very well said

Symbolism and Connection: Khushi's reflection as she is looking at it ,she is misunderstanding him and had no clue of his inner turmoil, while her constant gaze on his car's mirror looking at him shows her dependence and belief in him.[as Egyptian views it shows your inner desire and belief]

Arnav comes home in hasty and clumsy way and Om prakash couldn't convince him otherwise to listen to him .Straight to room ,bag is thrown away in his anger filled with beclouded thoughts ,again reverberated moments of beating up goons and her concerned words bringing Lava out of him as he slams the closet door and moves away along with blazing ASR tone

Then "aagar wo hum pe haath uthate tou"......While on his recliner with closed eyes as not only her touch but her concerned words are sedatives for him,"kal tak mein us se pareshan tha. Tou phir aaj kya ho gaya hai mujhe"[I was annoyed by her until yesterday then what happened today]

PONDERING CONNECTING DOTS:

You were Upset [Pareshan ]with her ---hmmm

You were upset with her ------

-when you were saving her in guest house ,couldn't resist admiring her and losing your heart while marking with her blood

-During Berserahi didn't mind following her to talk and then admiring her during puja and yes being upset why didn't she talk to the Mighty ASR

-During Teej feeling upset by having urge to save her as this is your right

-In office you were upset when she left you to Lukhnow for "Hamesha" and due to that you couldn't sleep or do anything except staring at her door and threw those pearls and then again back to square one you are upset with her ,you must be joking Mighty Yummilicious ! ASR 😆 too good

Lamha-e-Fikeriya[Thinkable moment]:As in EPISODE 55

"Eik saye ki tarah cha gaye hai dimagh peh...Baar baar usi ka khial usi ka chehra...jaise challenge kar rahi ho...nahin mein har man ne walon mein se nahin hoon'

Acceptance of raving emotions in the wilderment of this ocean is blustering with ASR BG tone but each word shows the honesty and depth of the ocean of his raging emotions ,those pearls, which he has thrown out but was he successful with that then or even now by throwing her out of his car ..hmmm...just beautiful yet painful thought

ArshiHamesha really well written review👏⭐️...i hope u arnt bored with my same old " well written , very nice, too good" comments

Wonderful connection to the future scenes...i really loved tht one bold highlighted para...its really amazing 👏

nd i hope u knw tht i don like commentin on shyam...cuz tht creep..will fall even lower than my words...

Love is bigger than hate...so i like commentin on wat u write abt Love , connections nd bonding 😃

Originally posted by: DurgaS

News update: 27/4/13

Galloping sounds from the thread startled the investigators putting them into action immediately. It was found that the reviewers are racing ahead to complete their reviews to catch up with the current episodes. A different type of galloping sound was heard when they found Indi hopping between episodes in random order. Leading the pack is Cynthia followed by Sohara and Indi. But, all are vary of Anita who, though seems to be invisible, but is capable of covering all episodes in a jiffy. Cynthia's posting of back to back reviews has flabbergasted BarunDiwani who is trying hard to catch up. ArshiHamesha too is close by.

But, it was found, that all are cheering each other, encouraging those who are behind and generally having a good time. BarunDiwani though quite behind has decided to not speed up her pace too much, as she wants to enjoy the journey and revel in the joy of the same.

Suddenly, the investigators realised that this was not a race but a wonderful IPK journey which everyone was participating in and enjoying at their own pace and all were having a good time, irrespective of their positions in this journey.

Here's wishing that this camaraderie of the racers, oops blasters, continues for ever, hamesha.

p.s. The blasters, at present, are eyeing at a destination, yet to be reached in their journey, where there's a poolside, a boy in trimmed haircut and a girl in a red saree. 😉

News updates

Originally posted by: wiwy

Hey friends

Missing you all very much. Missing the IPK world.😭

Real world is worrisome. My dad was slated to have an angioplasty next month but he had to suddenly go in for the operation yesterday. He is okay. But is having some insurance problem which I cannot solve unless I return to Kolkata tomorrow. So am a bit disoriented and troubled.

Have not been able to read anything on the thread beyond page 78-79. There are many fantastic posts,analyses, pics and gifs and there are many superb answers to my riddle! I love it when people have a ball over my riddles! But I don't know whether I will be able to read all the answers before Monday. Horizon's answer about ASr's coffee and Shiva's poison was awesome.⭐️ All the 'gandi bachchi' answers were hilarious.😆 I think my answer falls in that category too! Durgey thanks for the PM. Yes you are almost there! In fact anyone who has found some similarity or other between coffee and ASR is a winner!👏

Will post my answer in the first few minutes of Monday as promised.Going back to real world.

Barun, if only I could hug you!😭

Originally posted by: ArshiHamesha

awesome analysis, indi. love the way you brought comparison of Shyam and Arnav.

The horror of shyam's character starts way back because now I am connecting the dots ,when he beats up the doctor for Khushi he was Janooni there which I did not pay attention but his constant honey tongue works around these Guptas to get their attention and of course his own purpose so they totally fall for that..and as you mentioned he won this time and I was thinking how he won most of the time since from the beginning. He is a psychopath and these epis are showing it all and now I can connect why the heck he is like that but I always felt something is missing ,his character was not explored the way it was woven did not come out according to that size.Such a talent and got wasted ... He played scary games really well and surely made us hate him.

I know ASR and Indi's love for him but as I liked this character for so many reasons as I mentioned many times I hate honey tongue person and love the person who blows fire but true to his heart and that's what he is. He does not care about what people say about him or think of him. He is an atheist and a pessimist but his mom's training is always reflects in him. He is very down to Earth but he does not want anyone to know it as he is generous to hospital as an example and many more.Very unusual personality as people who always very religious but have no fear in their heart are the worse in my eyes but the person like him who has no belief but committing no crime ,isn't he better than others...Yes he is in my eyes...Actions speak volume and he is a man of action...

How can I leave my Khushi ,she is the pillar of this family however she is holding way too much burden than her age and that's what makes her more strong ,yet she is a human and needs protection and strength too after all she is being doing this since from he beginning like "jiji ko iss ki aadat nahin hai magar hum adi hain" Payal is not that strong but again just like ASR she is mini version of him.

nainital is where she became his own in ways no one can clearly fathom.

Indi, surely your analysis made that epi even more worthy. This is one of those epis that could avoid my multiple watching, barring the last 5 min, as Shyam's psychopathic behavior and Babuji's pain under helplessness were too painful to watch. Brilliant comparison of Shyam and ASR.

Not much to add, but always thought that Sanaya's body language for Khushi was impeccable. It added so many layers to Khushi's character, like you mentioned here, the way sits on that seat helplessly praying for some strength, ofcourse it was the direction too. It never looked overboard for some reason and these two could make the pain and tears so realistic which meant to me as much if not more than how they excelled in romance.

@Arshi, loved your comments to Indi's analysis esp, the ones in red!

Originally posted by: supriya.arshi

Episode 103

Title Credit : Cynthia

Buaji think jus cuz Shyam hasn done anything wrong...he is Mr.Perfect...🤢
i say just cuz you havn seen him do anythin wrong...doesn mean he is Mr.Right!!!!

i really loved Garima here...she actually left it to Khushi's choice...Buaji has gone mad😡!!!

Arnav's knws somethin is Botherin Khushi 😳



Episode 104

Lavanya's humor is awesome here 😆 i do feel bad for here...whn ASR says he came down to check on Khushi...she din't miss tht!!!

Anjali is so happy to talk abt her love...Loved Arnav's expression whn Khushi said her marriage...i think his heart skipped a beat 😉





Any1 else Missin Sweet Nani..i surely am!!! nd Anjali is lookin really pretty in both these epi...i really do lik her Mehendi

Hav a gr8 Weekend 😃