Blast From The Past! Thread #3 EP 52 Pg 147 - Page 83

Originally posted by: indi52

if 45 brought us here,


46 was turning up the heat further.


yesterday it seemed like a duel to me, but today i realised it was really a dance. an exotic, essential tango; desire its wellspring, need its reason for existence. everything raised the mercury, each move came with multiplied effect.

the most svelte and passionate steps had been worked out by the writers, choreographed by directors, but to heaven it was taken by the dancers, none else. how intensely, these fairly uncelebrated, idiot box actors understood and expressed an emotion, as they locked in an embrace poised for explosion through eternity.

if i look back at 45, it was all about movement revolving around that embrace wasn't it? their stage, an empty office on sunday, the area in spotlight: the storeroom, locked. he entered stage first. then she. and like people in perfect rhythm with each other, he knew she was there. she sensed he was. he moved out, she moved in, their eyes met, a flip a swirl, and she bit the rose between her teeth and careened away, looking back once to see if he'd follow. his music was his cue and he glissaded to her on a rage, a search, an incomplete conversation. she turned, and fell taking him with her, perfect harmony. and again a fierce embrace, stare, apart. he held out his hand, she turned away, he was provoked. he moved in.
and so it went on. till the dupatta added in its own wanton wayward steps, wrapping them in a whirl of longing, pirouetting, challenging, clashing, and when it all rose to unbearable heat, a smooth transition to gentle, tender, tremulous.

hold out the dupatta, look away, restore her sense of self, complete a circle, as life demands, as dance gives itself to.for a moment there was respite, but that intimate caress of the flowing fanciful dupatta, lingering across his body.

and the seething heat returned. so hot, he had to whip off his jacket and reach the water dispenser fast. but she was already there. hands reaching out, on the edge of an embrace, then a swift chicane and he's got the water first. maybe he needs it more? his eyes look skyward, intense, as the water is taken in long swallows, so much thirst. a glass of water quickly filled and held out to her without word, a concentrated stare in his eyes, what's he looking for? a roll of drums and "hume nahin chahiye." instantly, water is aflame. voluptuous heat. he flings the glass with force, perfect move, a high point in the tango. what will she do?
why, move in of course. without knowing, without understanding, but just by a woman's instinct, khushi has taken the lead today. she will lead this dance. however much we may say asr is the powerful one here. at this moment, the power is really with her. because he knows this feeling in him is something deeper, more compelling than anything he's ever felt. he possibly senses his elemental need for her from that evening at the guest house, if he hadn't already sensed it as he dashed out into the path of danger only to save her. how he'd held on to her then. longer longer eternally longer than needed.

sab kuch tod dijiye... haan tod doonga.

yes, i will break, the way you've broken into me. shattered my peace.
and he moves forward, she back, the stage sizzles. she's heaving with tension, that hurtling of her phone has thrown her beyond a point.

ek ek cheez tod daloonga taki har tutne wali cheez se tumhara kaan khule... aur tum meri baat suno. i will break everything one by one, so that the sound of things breaking enters your ears... so you hear my words. oh the plea almost in that "so you hear," asr doing all he can to make someone hear him? unbelievable. and beautiful.

she has no idea why she feels the way she does. a girl from a small town, with a sheltered middle class life, notions of love and marriage shaped by family and tradition. the idea of the group is hers. and in that there's no space for this inexplicable pull and surge, this entering of a man uninvited into her thoughts, her sensations. a man, from the moment she's met, she's perceived as money and power crazy, an atheist, rude, peremptory, arrogant, who has only hurt her. and after the night of the guest house she's convinced he's the worst kind of creature, who'd send someone to danger without thought.
yet.
she thinks of him. she wants to see him. her perceptions are coloured by nurture and tradition, but her response from within flows out from the woman in her. a woman waiting to become. and no one need doubt that. look at the expertise with which she takes him through the steps. not consciously, in fact, she's tired of the heightened emotions, utterly frazzled. and that temper soaring of his, echoes crazily in her. her voice is rising, her nerves shaking, but she doesn't give up. fire is answered by singeing flame. tango is really a duel of passion, of amore. a duel that we call a dance.

hum kuch nahin sunna chahte hain... hume bas yahan se bahar nikalna hai. i don't want to hear a thing, i just want to get out of here, that's all.

tum sunogi. you'll listen. (low urgent voice, a hint of coercion, and yet i hear again a plea, barun sobti never fails to add things you can't describe and how they thrill the senses)

hume bahar jaana hai... i want to get out (voice rising, wobbly, hysteria entering the fray, sanaya irani can change from girl to woman in a second with the most adroit use of her lovely voice. around asr, khushi is always woman, rarely cute girl in these early days. from the moment she set eyes on him, he aroused the woman in her, and she the tender sweet loving man in him. lovely, don't you think?)

main kah rahoon hoon... i'm telling you (through gritted teeth)

humne kahan na... hume bahar jaana hai... didn't i say, i want to go out!

khushi! main tumse baat kar raha hoon... tum meri... khushi! i'm talking to you, you're... (he twirls in at great speed, ready to hold her and do a heady spin)...

but she's not stopping either. head to head, till the bitter end...

pehle aap darwaza khol dijiye. first, you open the door.


he's losing his grip. she's in command. he storms to the door and kicks it down. violence. the audience holds its braeth.

then a pull back and a controlled: ab sunogi? will you listen now?

and the choreography throws in a neat surprise. she rushes to pick up her things and then pauses just in front of him. delivers the final blow.

i don't need to listen to anything you say. you hate me, my ordinary status, don't you? you don't want to see my face, right (oh, those words he'd said before sending her off to the guest house had hurt. badly.)... then be happy now. for i'm leaving your sight forever. i'm going to lucknow. forever.

hume aapki koi baat nahin sunni... nafrat hai na aap ko hum se hamari aukat se... hamari shakal dekhna nahin chahte hain na aap... toh khush ho jaaiye... kyunki hum aapki nazron se hamesha ke liye door ja rahein hain... lucknow ja rahein hain hum... hamesha ke liye.
nonplussed, he looks at her. his face losing its tautness, almost flabbergasted. early notes of rabba vey trill in. why does she always reach places others never do? somewhere beyond the line he's set for the world, at his dimag. somewhere inside, just by his heart. his dil. only she.

winded, he blurts out, you can't leave like... khushi... khushiii!
tum aise nahi ja... khushi... khushiii!

she had lied to him. she'd made up the story of leaving on the spot. maybe because she couldn't take this confusing state of everything any more. who can blame her? only 18. but she had not left instantly. again the woman in her had acted with deliberate purpose. she wanted to know the impact of her words. something said to her as she gazed at him, this is what she wanted to achieve. she left.

neither was the same again that evening. the dance had drained both. exhilerating while it lasted, but now, a strange disquiet within. and those confounding memories. she's jumpy, insistent that they must return to lucknow, poor girl seems to be wanting the safety and security of her dear little but completely understood life back.

why is he thinking of the girl who says what she pleases to him, if "kissiki himmat nahin hai mujhe kuch kehne ki, and you know it." he's just asked his girl friend to move in with him, yet in a locked storeroom amid junk and clutter, the suave, nothing makes a difference arnav singh raizada is grappling with a girl to make her hear him out. what does he want to say? why is it so important?

jacket off, throw! anger, his best defence called upon. and he hears her voice saying she's leaving... forever... hamesha. as we come closer to him, what is that in his eyes, surely not confusion... and a glitter of tears? no!

khushi talks to dm, her solid constant companion, an orphan girl's need for something concrete maybe. her beguiling conversation is full of khushi-ness... i am talking too much today, aren't i? that's because today i'm a little too happy. hum kuch zyada bole rahein hain na, kyunki aaj hum kuch zyada khush hain.

but then why do your eyes and lips say otherwise, khushi?

45, 46, 47 changed the tone and colour of ipk, fantastic writing, direction, performance to bring the story to its next phase. everything got richer, passion made a formal entry. not just from him, from her. the sense of two people tied irrevocably together took on a more dense and heady feeling. there was a different bite in it. and hamesha walked in triumphant.
he lay there in deep sleep. then her voice. she's going... forever. no, you can't go like that... khushi, khushiii.
he jerked up and sat upright in bed. shallow erratic breathing.
why do i feel you in the pit of my stomach. why do i want to go where you lead me. listen to me, will you?

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Episode 48

Into the Lion(ess)'s Den

lion (l n)

n.1. A large carnivorous feline mammal (Panthera leo) of Africa and northwest India, having a short tawny coat, a tufted tail, and, in the male, a heavy mane around the neck and shoulders.

2a. A very brave person.

b. A person regarded as fierce or savage.

walk into the lion's den-To go into a situation that puts you in great danger or in a vulnerable position

RM- Shyam's deception continues. He answers Kushi's call, happy to hear from her. She asks him if he has a job for her and he says he is not ready but he always keeps promises so she shouldn't worry. He talks with her as his wife is standing nearby implying that she is his friend's mother. Anjali takes the scrap he has thrown to her and asks to say hi. He fakes a bad connection and disconnects the call. She says to him that it sounds like he loves her very much and she does love him also. He asks dreamily, "you think so? It is nice." The lion has escaped the hunter, feeds the scrap to his lioness and is safely in his den.

The doorbell rings and Mami goes to answer. Lavanya and Arnav have come home. Come in, Anjali says one minute. She has the thali and goes to start the arti. Our lioness stops her and say she doesn't come as bahu of this house all rituals happen after marriage. Anjali says that one day she will be bahu. Shyam says to Nani that she is our guest so do it for Anjali. Mami relieves the tension. She is our comic relief, it's a doorway not a waiting room! Di goes over to Lavanya and Lavanya says to her "Di, I just got here and you are leaving to go to temple? I promise I will go with you tomorrow." Anjali tells Lavanya it is a ritual greeting and Lavanya's reply is "Oh." Anjali starts the arti and Lavanya follows the thal around and around until she feels dizzy, she tells ASR. As Anjali is doing arti ASR is picturing his Kushi during Teej pooja. Oh that poor man! All he thinks about is Kushi and he is moving Lavanya into his home. Having Lavanya in the house, ASR, will not make you forget Kushi! Lavanya greets everyone and Nani doesn't respond. Lavanya looks at ASR but he looks away. She has entered into the Lion(ess)'s Den.

GH- Payal says everything is packed and Kushi is having second thoughts; she tells Payal she isn't sure she made the right decision. She wants to receive a sign from above that her decision is right or wrong. Payal reminds her to take DM. DM drape falls; she holds her in her hands and pictures her demon flying in the air to capture her DM in his hands as he lands right on top of her. Breaths intermingled, bodies touching so intimately'she slams DM down on her desk closing her eyes in frustration. Why is this devil always on her mind?

RM- Lavanya is asked what she would like and the answer is juice no sugar, no ice. Mami the comic genius says "what a coincidence Arnav doesn't like sugar too. After the wedding they will not have to buy sugar in their house." Nani gives her a glare. La gives her pastries to Jai Prakash to serve. Everyone just loves the aroma of her cakes. Mami asks how they are made as she inhales the delicious fragrance. Lavanya lists flour, salt, eggs'.OH NO! Anjali says we don't eat eggs and Lavanya apologizes. Mami needs to take a bath. Lavanya says to ASR, "it is hot so I should change and go to the bathroom so where is your room?" Mouths hang open. ASR "I will show you." They walk away.

There is a roar, the cubs are frightened, the lioness roars again, "Hey there Ms. Kashyup!" The den is quiet. They halt. "What are you thinking and where do you think you are going? I am asking you a question!" she roars. ASR stands up for Lavanya saying she just got here and Nani can ask her all the questions later. Nani retorts, "I am not going to ask anything, I am going to tell you only. Lavanya WILL NOT stay in your room. I agreed to let her stay in this house to maintain the respect and dignity of this family I had no other option but I can not let her stay in your room before marriage. This is against our culture and our tradition." ASR replies,"Nani, you know very well how I feel about these traditions." " And you know my opinion on that. Tell me how you figured that Lavanya would stay in your room? You did not think of the respect or culture of this family?" Lavanya meows, "But Nani, the meaning of living together is that you stay together." Mami in the back of the den mews,"Hello hi bye bye I think Ms. Kashyup likes to play with lions!!!" Lavanya continues, "ASR and me in the same room'"ROAR!!!! "Forget it Ms. Kashyup! NOT POSSIBLE! Have you seen Chote, she argues with me already. I accepted this because of you but I see you will do anything I like. Jai Prakash place her bags in the guest room." Lavanya looks at ASR and walks away following Jai Prakash.

He is ready to fight against the lioness. Shyam holds him on the shoulder. The young cub begins. "Sorry jiju. Nani I don't think it was necessary to aggravate the situation any further. Lavanya has come as a visitor and if you continue in this manner then'" Protecting her pride and den she replies, "What then Chote?" "You already know the answer. I will leave this house. Lavanya and I will leave. I am not interested in culture or traditions. I have had enough and don't want to talk about this issue repeatedly." The cub walks away angrily.

Nani, Anjali, Shyam and the rest of the family are in shock. Nani continues that they wanted her to accept Lavanya into this house and see what happened. Anjali calms her saying she just got here and give them time to get use to the traditions of the pride. Nani agrees to a term of one month and if she is worthy of being a bahu of the pride otherwise she is out. She follows with a challenge, "And no one should dare defend him then!" She looks sternly at both Anjali and Shyam. She walks away to her lioness' den.

In ASR's room. The cub angrily removes his jacket, tie, rolls up his sleeves and Shyam enters. He tells his jiju that he is not going to stay in these conditions. Shyam says no problem. Calm down, you haven' t listened to Nani. ASR asks Shyam if there is no respect in the relationship he has with Lavanya if there is no marriage? Lavanya deserves respect, no? He says they want to stay together but don't want the conventions of marriage. Nani should understand this. Shyaam tries to explain Nani's point of view that the type of relationship he is talking about only occurs through marriage and she needs a stamp of approval from society unless she will feel shame. He doesn't care about anyone's stamp of approval.

The servant brings tea. Shyam's answer to calming everyone is a cup of tea. "Here have some." He takes a cup of tea.

ASR, the young cub, trying to find his way in the pride, tells Shyam, "This is my life, you know me, I feel different about marriage. I don't want to get married because of the pressures of society, anyway I don't believe in it. Each person has a different perspective and mine is just as important as Nani. I want to live my life as I want! " Shyam understands but it is important to respect the elders of the pride, just try once to do as Nani says. You will see the heart can melt an iceberg into water maybe then she will see your perspective. "I realized pretty quickly that you wanted to take control of your life and your future. Do not make hasty decisions you will regret later. Remember no person can take back his words or actions. Life is not a video player that rewinds when you want." This last sentence of Shyam hits him to the core. He stands, thinking about those words and images of all the terrible things he has done to Kushi come pouring back into his head. He sees himself breaking her pearl dori, letting go of her hand while holding her high above the boxes in his office and the letting her fall, he imagines him holding her frail wrist so tight at the guest house that he breaks her glass bangle cutting her and sees the drops of her ruby red blood and finally he hears her words, "You hate me don't you? You hate my status right? You don't want to see my face right? Then be happy because I will go away from you forever. I will go to Lucknow forever!" He is ready to roar in pain!

He stands, the cub torn, clenching his paws he lives in the Lion(ess)'s Den. Whose rules will he follow? Will he stay with the pride? Which lioness will be his or will he have both; one in his den and the other in his mind and heart?

Hey Cynthia👏👏👏

For the title👏❤️ Loved it.Black are awesome and purple are brilliant😊Underlined bold blue is way to go.Khushi's heart is telling her and holding her back as DM is giving her sign over sign.Loved this last one

Which lioness will be his or will he have both; one in his den and the other in his mind and heart?👏

Originally posted by: ArshiHamesha

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EPISODE 45&46

"Jo tum mehsoos karti ho woh mein mehsoos karta hoon"(What ever you feel I feel) has been started a while ago but acknowledgement and realization happened today regardless of denial .In Sheesh Mahal he felt uneasiness around him and he opened his eyes and found her all in distress in green.After punishing Red beauty in the rain he felt the urge to save her from the pain he gave her and then took the same punishment for himself as he can't get away from her distress also by closing his eyes in the rain but yet has no idea of what he is feeling and why.She indeed shook the foundations of Great Wall of ASR that day.Then he felt her presence in the shaking walls of guest house when he felt an urge to call her name as she is HIS Khushi.That day he felt her, touched her,inhaled her essence,and carried her by keeping her right next to his Heart.That day ASR vs Arnav both fell for KHUSHI whether they accept it or not.In Satsung ,near Wishing tree he felt the urge to stare at, to adore the innocent beauty who was taking over his life ,in Teej he pulled her towards his heart first before carrying her by keeping next to his heart.His heart is fully aware of every step she makes and every pain she goes through as HIS heart is fully surrendered to HER but Mind is still playing hide and seek.As he fell in Love first but kept denying even later she fell for him and was ready to accept but at that point he was overwhelmed as"mujhe uss baat sai koi farak nahin parta"(Diwali)[that kiss meant nothing to me]

On the other side Khushi just started all these TRAPPED FEELINGS for him but can't go along with it because of his complicated nature and previous experience which is no like roaming in a park for her.BUT his big steps have entered in her sweet heart too but she is afraid to acknowledge it.

The moment she entered a breeze of her presence touched his face.They both acknowledges it but she shakes it off as its SUNDAY but he can't shake it off because Khushi is here and he knows so while he whispers her name from his lips.He comes up to the window to see how strong his faith is and here she is HIS Khushi.

Anger is vanquished and concerns are lurking, why is she here.She walks slowly towards her chair and sits.He remembers how this RED BEAUTY took over his heart and she remembers how he was holding her and comfort her while she was holding him for seeking that too.

She closes her eyes to shake it off all these soft and uncomfortable feelings as he is watching again each and every move of her.Suddenly she opens her eyes to meet the least expected eyes which she just shook off like she got caught on a wrong foot.As he was reading her thoughts and she wants to get away from it but both couldn't get away from stare which gluing them at that moment.As always she takes the plunge and looks on the other side to break the stance but as usual he is not in a mood to do so.She fixes her bag's strap as she is fixing her Dupatta in this nervousness but can't resist looking at him.His constant gaze shivers her this time.

One more time she gives him a confused look when peon tells her that ASR told him to bring your stuff to your home like she is asking him,Why do you want to send it to me "Arnavji" instead of throwing out?She gathers strength and tells peon instead of him she knows how to do her work and can take her stuff by herself too.He calls her by her NAME "Khushi" only and that fears her and she looks up when says he wants to talk to her in his cabin.HIS cabin definitely previous experience ran into her mind and she totally ignores him and tells peon to show her the store room which is definitely surprising him as no one dares to do like this with ASR.

Pause here:He calls her by her first name and with a very concerned and gentle voice ever which is concerning her too.Why ?

Poor Khushi'mind is helpless infront of her heart as she keeps telling herself not to look at him and don't even care about him but again can't resist giving him one look.awww'I just love her for that.His constant gaze on her are piercing and sending tingling sensations which she does not want to bother to acknowledge as she wants her DM and that's it.Now DM will save Khushi'.

Pause here:Regardless he is Laad Governor and Rakshus since from the beginning but her mind can't refuse to accept the fact that he indeed saved her, helped her,and held her in every distress.It is indeed bothering her and making her day and night restless as he did not utter a word but she has thrown every stone possible at him.She can't get away from this FACT that something has indeed changed towards him but she is way too nave to acknowledge it at this point.

ASR back in action with BG score.How dare she can do that.She has to listen to me today as he follows towards the store room.

Khushi with her monologues with DM,"This is not my fault and how do I know that Laad Governor is here on Sunday to bother people.You know I don't want to see his face" Seriously Khushi...then why are you sad by defying him...

ASR,"Tum apne aap ko samjhti kia ho"(What the heck you think of yourself)

She startles at his angry voice and loses her balance and falls down.He catches DM in this process and falls at the top of her.AS Arnav said,"jahan Khushi ho wahan multiple dhamake to honge"(There is always a disaster where Khushi is)But must say WHAT A GREAT FALL.His anger melts down every time when he sees her face like he found his lost peace in her innocent beauty.He can't lose the opportunity for not adoring her beauty by inhaling her essence and first she did not mind either. but soon she feels so uneasy in his close proximity.hmmm...But she does notice he saved her DM...But DM is smiling at both of them as she is way to happy with this brilliant move of hers...

As the biggest villain in IPK ,Phone rings and they both hit the reality.He gets up and offers her hand but she refused and that irritates him more than ever as he closed his fist.He controls his anger as she is talking (with Shyam) on her phone and his look is saying who are you talking to.I saw possessiveness right there today(myPOV)

He loses his control the moment he hears"Hum to yahan ek minute bhi nahin rukna chaahte" .It ignites his rage over her.She ignores him and collects her stuff in hurry so she can run away from him which is not gone unnoticed by him.

"bhaagne ke elavah aur kucch aata hai tumhain? vaise tumhara mun kabhi bandh nahi hota, phir ab kyun taala laga hai?"(You don' know anything but running away from me and why are you not talking as you were never quit before.)Bingo'That exactly is bothering him'.her "Chup" and at the top she does not want to hear him because she is running away from him all this time. He says calmly,"uss din bhi mein tumhain kucch keh raha tha, aur tum bina sune chali gaye, mujhe aishi batamee.."(I was saying something the other day and you did not let me,I can't tolerate'.)She again does not let him finish'That's it ASR is completely running out of equanimity at this point as she tries to get out he slams the door so hard ,the knob falls down.

"mein tumse kucch keh raha hun Khushi Kumari Gupta, Jab mein tumse baat kar raha to chup chaap khardi raho aur suno" (When I am talking to you then stand quietly and listen)That's it he is calling her with complete name his anger has no limit right now.But one thing is certain he wants to talk to her at any cost and definitely running out of patience for that as her phone rings again and the moment she picks up he takes it from her hand and throws it on the floor. "maine kaha tha na, mein tumse baat kar raha hoon, Let me finish! mein" (I told you I am talking with you,let me finish, I'..)Her fear turns into tears and his anger turns into pain as her tears melt him down.Simple he can't see her crying.awww

Pause here:Khushi,"Hum jantain hain 'hamara eik ansoo aap keh dil ko hazar bar chot punchahta hai"(My each tear gives you pain through your heart)Since Sheesh Mahal these tears always leave an effect on him,but that day he shakes it off but in guest house when these tears touched his skin and he felt the heat of them its impossible to ignore these now.He steps forward as he wants to ease her pain but he couldn't so he turns around and this is not gone unnoticed from Khushi this time.His concerns for her are raising turmoil in her too.She shakes it off and tries to bang the door to open it.

Arnav,"Stop you can't open the door".Khushi,"you stop telling people what they should do and what they shouldn't.I can understand what should I do and what not"Arnav,"You can't listen but you can think before doing anything."Khushi,"I just want to get out of here and I will.A small cute nok jhonk '...

She turns and opens the window and a gust of wind touches both of them with love and her Dupatta flew over Arnav's face as its waiting for that moment.Once again her essence touches his face so lovingly but his sheer gaze at her through it makes her so vexatious after realizing what just happened.She quickly turns around and covers herself with her hands which is not gone unnoticed by him as he wants to put her respect,her chastity on her but she moves forward and does not let him do that which again makes him a bit annoyed.But the in his next move he wins my heart as he returns her respect by lowering his eyes.

Pause here:LOOP closed from Sheesh Mahal where her Dupatta was under his feetmeaning he did not give a damn about her respect, her chastity that day and today he is returning her with respect.(For pic see Ami analysis)

She puts on her Dupatta but Her Dupatta does not want to leave him as she is defying but Dupatta saying "I love you Arnavji". ...She wants to disaffiliate from him but Dupatta does not agree with her at all just like in guest house...,just like in Satsung...She pulls it from him nervously while his eyes are just burning her core.

She walks to get some water as he is bound to speak to her today gets close to her to intimidate her while taking water.She pulls her hand as she found it awkward and refuse to take water from him which again ignites the fire in him.Pause here: He was a bit rude or he thinks he has a right on her as he drinks first and gives her water in the same glass ,but she is not unconscious dude'...(I am confused ')

In return of his glare,Khushi, "aise kya deckh rahai hain aap, gussa aah raha hai to nikaal dijiye, jaise aap hamesha karte hain "tord dijiye kisi cheez ko jaise apne hamara phone torda tha'.laghe haaton ye darwaza bhi tord dijiye, kyun keh hum yahan se nikalna chahte hain, sab kucch tord dijiye!"(Why are you looking at me like that,if you are angry the break something just like you broke my phone,and at the same time break this door too because I want to get away from here.) Khushi despises him in all matters today.

Pause here:Why do I have a feeling she wants him to get angry as his "Chup" is bothering her too because his softness is creating unbearable havoc inside her and she is way too scared of these raging emotions )

ASR BG score is on'ASR, "haan tord dunga (yes I'll break everything)" He flares at her by throwing the cup "Eik eik cheez tordta rahung taakeh har tootne wali cheez se tumhare kaan khulain, aur tum meri baat suno (I will keep breaking things so with each breaking thing your ears will open and you will be ready to listen to what I have to say)" .You can hear his agony and desolation in his voice regardless he is angry.Hats off to Barun...👏👏'

Argument is changing its coarse now with intensifying exchange of dialogues in between both. Khushi, "hum kuchh suna nahin chahte, hamain bas yahan se bahaar nikkalna hai"(I don't want to hear anything .I just want to get out of it) Arnav, "Tum sunogi"(You will hear),He slams the box and makes her more scared. Khushi, "humain bahar jana hai"'(I want to go out)

Arnav, "Mein keh raha hoon'"(I am saying') Khushi, "humain bahar jana hai'"(I just want to go out) Arnav, "Khushi mein tumse baat kar raha hoon, tum meri taraf..."( I am talking to you Khushi look at me) Khushi, "Pahele aap darwaza khol dijiye"(First open the door).He retreats banging the box one more time and turns to break the door.After breaking that he turns with rage ,"Ab sunogi ( will you listen to me now)?"

Pause here: He can't see her in distress and he saw her in pain as door was closed,to ease her pain he slams the door.Even in his anger he has concerns for her which she can see too.

When she asks him I just want to get out of here why it seems to me she is referring getting out of his thoughts as these new rising emotions are making her so scared and suffocated.She can't take it anymore She just want to get out of it.

By grabing her things in a rush Khushi,"Hamain aapki koi baat nahin sunani, nafrat hai na aapko hamse, hamari aukat se, hamari shakal dekhna nahin chahte na app? to khush hogaiye, kyun keh hum aapki nazron se hamesha ke liye door ja rahe hain Lucknow jaa rahe hai hum, hamesha ke liye."(I don't want to listen to you.You hate my face,my status so be happy I am going to lukhnow for forever).Words are no where to be found for Arnav as he is looking at her lifeless after hearing all of this as he felt the same after her resignation.She is feeling the same as she knows she hurted him.But she is scared with all of this more than him. They both share same pain and disbelief while looking at each other.Khushi leaves as she can't take this pain any more and can't give him time so he can come up with something new either.Arnav"Tum aise nahin jaa saktin Khushi'KHUSHI(You can't go like this Khushi) as he wants to say Don't go to lukhnow Khushi..,just don't'.

Pause here:Why do I feel so much pain here bringing tears to my eyes as his mother left him and he is hiding this pain behind his rage and confusion because he was unable to stop her. And here Khushi'...at this moment only'

Khushi indeed has left an enormous impact on him...

On the other side Shyam is playing his hide and seek with Anjali.Love Anjali dialogues though"Kis larki se inhain kab pyar hua"(How he fell in love some girl)..hmmm interesting...You have no idea gal waht he is up to...Did not like Shyam showing concerns to Khushi while she was in the office."Humain aapki bohat yad aati hai"(I miss you so much)arggg'.😡😡

Love Mamiji's moves dealing with neighbors when Naniji couldn't handle them regarding with La and Arnav'.Mamiji is bitter but loves her home and family' Love her dialogue though "same boatwa mein travel kart ho"Shyam is in this whole fiasco convincing everyone to bring La in even it is against all the odds as he does not want Arnav to leave the house."aapki nazron keh samne rahain gey"(They will be infront of your eyes.hmmm..interesting

Pause here: His honey tongue is trapping everyone in as he is doing this for his own good.If Arnav leaves so his money and he has to take Anjaji in his home too so who will be loser'.THINK'.

Khushi tells Payal her decision to go to Lukhnow.She is in deep pain as she is holding tightly the statue of DM which is reminding her HER Arnavji,Today Delhi is bad as compared to the other day when Delhi was not so bad as she is talking to Payal.hmmm'.."Humari Zindagi mein sab Khuch achanak hi hota hai"...(Everything happens in my life suddenly)hmmm'Pyar to aise hi hota hai Khushi'.Buaji is sad as they both are deciding to leave'which in return makes Khushi more sad'.

ASR with BG score enters home with rage and defeated look.He goes to his room afer telling his Di he is tired.While talking to La and taking off her jacket, "Kisi ki himmat nahin hai mujhe khuchh kehne ki, and you know it" but flash backs of her refusing to listen to him just boiling his blood in his veins.He takes off his vest furiously as her flashbacks of defying him making it not better.But flashbacks of her telling her going Lukhnow is distressing him as someone is snatching spirit out of his body.

Love this parallel scene as he is disappointed,She is not happy either.Talking to her DM in the middle of night"Luknow wapas jana hamari zindagi ka sub sai aacha faisla hai"(This is the best decision of my life to go back to Lukhnow) Then why aren't you happy?"Hum Khush kyun nahin hain"(Then Why I am not happy???)as you said...

He can't get away from those words even in his sleep today"hum aapki nazron se hamesha ke liye door ja rahe hain Lucknow jaa rahe hai hum, hamesha ke liye."'' "Tum aise nahin jaa saktin Khushi'KHUSHI!!

He jumps with elusion in his sleep while calling her name "KHUSHI"as this name is guarding him over night too...He just can't let her go...but couldn't say it...uhhh

As ""Jo tum mehsoos karti ho woh mein mehsoos karta hoon"(What ever you feel I feel) has been started a while ago but acknowledgement and realization happened today regardless of denial...

Pause here:This is going to take a nasty turn with "Mujhe Farak nahin Parta"'but even in this defying stage they both will move forward while breaking each others' heart million times but as DESTINY is bound to make them one and they will be but we have to wait''...uhhh

Audios until next time

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Originally posted by: cinthiann1758

I came to quickly post and see this all i have to say is OMG!!!!

So we have a consensus that I don't have to behave as far as ASR/Barun is concerned! 👍🏼 I have to warn you that too much ASR might be detrimental to your health and state of mind! Will try to control myself a little bit and not to spam too much!! 😉😆

Originally posted by: cinthiann1758

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Episode 47

How Can I Feel This Way?

The demon is watering his plants. How can that be? Someone who takes great care to nurture plants can't be a demon. Can he? As he is watering his precious babies he has images of Kushi playing in his head. He sees Kushi standing there without her dupatta, he gently hands it to her averting his eyes, conscious of how uncomfortable she is feeling being so exposed to him. Images continue to frolic in his head he sees her tears flowing, he feels hurt as if each and every drop is coming from him. When he envisions her telling him she is going out of his life forever it's as if he has been stabbed in the heart. His breath has been taken away. Why do I care so much that she leaves? He asks himself. He doesn't even want to think about it. Why, he asks, why? How Can I Feel This Way? The water continues to pour without him realizing.

GH- Payal is cooking asks Kushi for the butter and Kushi is just rolling, rolling, rolling the roti without even hearing her. Her mind is elsewhere, on HIM, that demon, again! She sees him falling on top of her in the store room where they were so close they could feel each other's breath. She tenses as she remembers him standing so close to her that she could smell his scent like sandalwood and musk. He was sternly insisting he had to speak to her'"let me finish!" and finally the tone of the images changes and she sees him gently handing her dupatta over her shoulder with his eyes facing the floor. He made her feel comfortable. How can this demon be like that? One minute a beast and the next a Knight in Shining Armor. How Can I Feel This Way? Payal taps her on the shoulder, she jumps saying "yes, I got the tickets, our train leaves tonight."

The plant is saturated by the overflowing water; Anjali comes and asks ASR what he is thinking about. How Can I Feel This Way? "Nothing." Anjali tells her to come and sit with her. She asks him what happened, why does he look so worried. Does it have anything to do with Lavanya? His answer is always, "Di, please." She continues that she hasn't pushed the issue and all she wants to know is if he is happy? He answers, "With whom?" Who do you think Mr. Arnav Singh Raizada that she is going to say Kushi? Nooo, Lavanya silly. "How do you feel about Lavanya coming to this house? Everyone has agreed, but you how do you feel about it?" He looks down. He tells her he hasn't thought about it. She tells him he should think about it and it's an important decision. She asks him if he is doing this to prove Nani wrong. He gets insulted, "You think I would do that?" She says, "Hah." "Di, please!" "Chote when you were a kid you had a huge ego. " He narrowly looks at her. "Why are you looking at me like that? I know that if someone challenges you, you don't like that at all. Anyway when you get angry your brain doesn't think clearly and you make the worst decisions which you then regret." "Enough, Di!" Too close to the truth for comfort, hey ASR? "I don't take all my decisions with my ego, (No?) and this is my life and nobody should interfere in it, especially if it is a big decision in my life. I will always say that Lavanya is the right girl for me. (Not really) She always listens to me and I am not interested in marriage. She understands me", (true). Anjali asks but what about him, does he understand himself? He just looks at her. Maybe she has a point.

GH- Payal asks Kushi why she looks so worried and why does she want to leave and go to Lucknow so fast. She says she always does what she wants to do and Kushi agrees. The phone rings and Kushi goes to answer it.

RM- Di and ASR are still in conversation. Di tells him that these decisions should be taken by the heart and not the mind. ASR apologises and says that that's what makes them so different. He doesn't make emotional decisions. Anjali reminds him that when you love someone the decision comes from the heart. "You do not love someone if you do calculations. Love happens when it is ready. When you see the person, the one you love and your eyes are fixed on her." He pictures Kushi in the red saree, how beautiful she looked and how he couldn't take his eyes off of her. "If she feels sad you don't feel good at all. Every thought of them going away from you grieves you. He hears Kushi saying, "Then be happy because I will go away from you forever. I will go to Lucknow forever!" How Can I Feel This Way? He looks away, sighs, regroups, pull yourself together man and says "Di, I don't want to waste my time on these things." He gets up and Di grabs his hand. "Someday, one day you WILL waste time on this because'" "Yeah Di, I know, because someday there will be girl that when I look at her I will forget everything that happens around me after she appears, etc. etc. etc. Right? Can I go now? Oh, and one more thing, if such a girl appears before me, I will stay away from her because I will live my life not from my heart but from my mind!" Di answers him, "No Chote you will not be able to do that." Why he asks. "Because, if you stay away from her you will not be able to breathe." ASR pinches himself, as if he is dreaming this, "You are unbelievable! Di, you would stop breathing? I'll leave now"'.she is crazy he thinks. Anjali is very frustrated by her Chote!

GH- Kushi is talking on the phone with her mother who tells her everything about the loss of their store. Kushi is upset. She tells Payal that they should go to Lucknow ASAP. What are they going to do, they don't know but they will find a way to help.

Lavanya's apartment- ASR walks in and Lavanya tells him how happy she is that they will be living together. ASR says he wants to tell her something and she quickly says that she knows what he wants to say that they can't really stay together. He says relax, Lavanya. I want to tell you something, she looks worried, and he says my car is not parked in a good place so you have to hurry. Her face totally relaxes and she hugs him, "Oh, God I was scared. ASR I don't completely understand, I mean sometimes'.ASR do you really love me? I came to take you with me, actually we should hurry. She walks away from him mid sentence. He becomes irate he hears Kushi. He grabs her and turns her around. "When I talk to you, do not leave until I am finished. I want to tell you something. Lavanya apologizes and said she just wanted to get her bag. "What did you want to tell me?" He grabs her luggage, "Let's go." How Can I Feel This Way?

GH- Girls are packing and Buaji is sad. Payal sees her dress and is reminded of her broken marriage. She believes this is all her fault after all they took out the mortgage on the shop for her dowry and wedding and then it was canceled. Kushi says not to worry no guilt feelings either. They were lucky to have found out about Abishek and his family. "Tears, tears, tears do you girls think that if you spill many tears they can pay your parents debts?", Asks Buaji. She explains to the girls that going to their father's home will only put more stress and worry on their father. Two more mouths to feed. She says they are very much like their father both stubborn. Even if your father opens a small shop he will be worried about you girls. How will he handle the store and take away your tears. She asks Payal what Shyam has said about getting Kushi a job. You can get a good job with Shyam. Kushi quickly says she wants to be with her parents. Buaji says with Shyam's help we can find a solution to this problem.

Anjali and Shyam are in the kitchen and he asks if he cut the potatoes the exact measurements she wants. She says he is teasing her. She understands very well. He says you think he can tease his queen. He goes to taste the food she is making and she stops him, it may be hot. She blows on the food and feeds him. She then leaves to give Nani her meds. Shyam's phone rings'it's Kushi, 'Hello? Yes, I was just thinking about you, Kushi.' How Can I Feel This Way? He sees Anjali's reflection, Anjali is behind him'.

Originally posted by: sohara

Episode-48

Arnav brought La in RM. As usual Nani couldn't receive her cordially. Moreover she brought pastry made of egg, what outraged Nani even more. She was getting cozy with ASR in front of the family and was ready to live in ASR's room.She argued with Nani about live in relationship.I wonder being an Indian woman how cum La was not aware of Indian values and ethics. I was born and raised in USA, but never dare to dream of live in relationship. Anyway, ASR was mad at Nani's harsh behavior to Lavanya. ASR didn't love Lavanya. So why did he bring her in his house? Obviously not just to see her face! ASR sure had physical relationship with Lavanya. Later in the show when Sheetal track was shown, we couldn't accept that ASR could sleep with Sheetal. We sent multiple petition to stop showing it. I also signed the petition. Now I wonder how fool we were. ASR was not a saint or a virgin. Hahaha. Any way let's come to the episode. Shyam handled the situation cleverly. He made ASR agree with Nani. Gosh he has the power to manipulate people. When Shyam was talking about making decisions in life, Aranv repercussed the memory of Khushi. He clutched his hand in turbulence. Did he want to rewind the moments and get back Khushi in his life?

In GH Khushi and Payal was getting ready to go back Lucknow. The scene of her coalition with Arnav reverberated in her mind again. In some corner of her heart she was feeling hurt to go away from her Laad Governor.