Hey Sush!!
So when the episode ended, ASR's behavior left a bitter taste and I did not want to defend him because what he did today was wrong. All, but one thing and I'll mention that later. This isn't a defense, it's the other side of the coin.
But, then I was reminded of the terrace scene. ASR's heart broke into a million pieces that day and we felt it. His face dropped, he was shocked, he didn't want to believe his eyes and then he turned away heartbroken and in tears. (Probably some of Barun's finest performances were that week).

His heart broke that day because after the traumatic experience that left him so scarred and so insecure, he let himself "fall" in love, operational word being fall, because that was something he could've controlled had his guard been up stronger.

All his insecurities that were developed because of that traumatic incident and because of his sister's insecurities, surfaced again and he did what he did. If she kept quiet, hoping Shyam would change, he took action, hoping Shyam would change, blackmailed her to marry him and threw her out on their first night among other things.
But then, that was 3 months ago, he has lived with her for 3 months, observed her, learnt some more things about her, most of all has seen exactly why she is the way she is by living with her family and observing their values and lifestyle. Then why didn't he let all that information get the better off him today when he lashed out at her? Insecurities again. His insecurities about his di, his insecurities about being left alone again, about trust, all came back to haunt him, and he let it out, all of it. It was in the moment and when you're so seeped and insecure; your temper will get the better of you. And it seems to be a recurrent theme currently in his life, because he will still not trust what she's saying.
It takes two to tango, if he has been with her for 3 months, so has she, and neither one stepped forward to address Anjali's messed up marriage. Where he stands, he thinks right, she won't say anything because she loves Shyam. Where she stands, she thinks right, how would I tell you I do not love him if you don't ask me.
I did not like what he said on the terrace one bit and the throwing of stars was too close to home, he shattered her, Diwali night was revisited again today. And so were they roles, ASR's insecurities got the better of him today, sadly.
But then, he fought back, his heart fought back and he was conflicted, he had that brain vs. heart conflict yet again, and I am very hopeful of that Holi scene. Something tells me that scene will be a prominent feature in all his FB's once he's kidnapped and the RTR starts.
Now, unlike many, I will defend him on that one , perhaps not so acceptable, but one that would work "dead parents" line of his. He only brought her parents into in to make her react. He couldn't stand the Khushi who was ignoring the situation and ignoring him and what all he said. He wanted to know her side, he wanted to hear her side of the story and that would only be possible if he made her react in a way where she would speak up. He pricked her where it would hurt her (and him much more), but he got her to speak up and that's why right after he said that and she started fuming, there was that tiny glint in his eyes. He had done it. He even said "muhje batana zaroori nahin samjha", the jilted lover wants to compromise if it makes her happy, he just wanted to be included, he thought he could be because he loved her.
I know today belonged to Khushi, Sanaya and Barun and not ASR, but I had to give my 2 cents on ASR. He was wounded young and that has left him vulnerable, his guard is extremely strong, but his heart isn't and that is why he lets his insecurities get the better of him, because he trusts them and works to defend them. His life has been tough and he has had to face many challenges to get where he is, has always put everyone else before himself, except Khushi; he has taken her down with him. Khushi's love will be one of the biggest ones, he will completely breakdown before he embarks on facing that challenge.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yPCo9uDyk5Y
My heart went out to Khushi today, she was spectacular on the terrace and on the road, I had my W*F moment when she acted so coy in the middle, but that is her defense mechanism, as we've learnt. Sanaya and Barun were fantastic today and based on the new photos and filming spoilers posted, I am very hopeful on how this week will play out.
PS: Vee, it's the beard for sure. When he's clean shaven the buck teeth aren't that obvious!
PPS: I am going to maintain this post today and tomorrow because we all know tomorrow the forum will chant "Team KKG-SR". But I will maintain it for the next few episodes, adding whatever I feel fits!
Edited by sugar_babe - 13 years ago
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