-WAKE UP INDIRA!-

....indiraaa...

u kept lying on the bed..and u expect me to watch u all the while...just like that..

i can tolerate u making me cry all the time...trust me,im better off that way...

just dont make me quiver onto your still position ...and no reactions...u ve always charted your own destiny,na...uve always given a wake up call with your bravery ...Where have you gone,indira?...

as much as im at complaint with the handling...when i saw u still,everything else turned dark for me...

i couldnt tolerate u sleeping there,indira...u stayed still and i was left talking...and u know what i said,i said ,indira,wake up!...its not like u to sleep and stay still...arrey, u never have given yourself rest ...so,thinking of giving yourself good rest,huh! go on,get some rest would be my plea in a right mind but im not in it...not now indira...im not wiling to let you be...

im an emotional fool to do so...we are talking about a character...why is it that im being crazy for one...unfortunately,ive never viewed indira as one...as much as rati pandey lives indira...her prowess gave life to indira.blame it on her,today,i feel like indira is there ...when i see an angry young woman,i see an indira in her..when i see a struggling breadwinner ,i saw indira in her..im seeing indira everywhere...factually,a month ago,when i had to save a friend from a snatch thief,i had to use my slippers to beat him so that he lets go of the bag...i reminisced in confusion soon after that cos i was an indira there...is it a faulty part of mine that im not wiling to let go of indira when ive taken her in my heart ...or is it permissable to dismiss it as craziness...whichever way it is,dont expect me to watch you in that position,indira...

slap as many as u can,shout as much as you can,

just dont stay still that way..

Wake up,Indira!"

ill stray away all the logics aside regarding the baby, leap,return et al...i care less for that..

,what mattered was today...my indira ...her still position...as much as a lunatic i may be,dont ever expect me to watch her that way. and indira,wake up!roam around dreams in white have an imaginary stay in sn,be a ghost/wtv there,protect sn like u always do...sn is where your heart lies,na...be there..have your dreamy stay there ...but dont stay still like this...i cant watch it without u,indira...i really can't!..Jaane nehi denge tujhe!

Hey Moksha...😛 awesome post as usual 👏👏

Originally posted by: Angels_Sweetz

Oppsss Sorry Moksh..i dint knw tht u made this topic...hence replied in AT only

Anywys...Copy pasting it here too ...just for you.

Moksh- ur comment brought Tears to me! Beautifully poetrically Written!!! Ur Hearts talks its Emotions, which were just like a Reflection of Mine too!! Tht's how i felt last nite, when i couldn't sleep coz of Restlessness as my Mind was going on rewinding the Episode again & again, where everything else went blurr and the focus was Only on Indira...our Indira who was just Lying calm with Eyes Closed, without an Expression without any words from her. It Hurts me to see her like tht. I felt something similar as you.(though i cant give words the way u do) I just couldnt see her That way, her glimpses were flashing, her words were striking my mind. All i wanted was Indira to get up and be herself...as she alwys is!!! But tht wasn't the sole feeling i felt watching the Episode! My Eyes were all the while glued on Indira but i couldn't bear the things happening around her! I was feeling Angry & Restless tht it wasn't happening the way it should!

When ur loved one fell unconscious there and ppl instead of Rushing to Hospital asap, if they are wasting time, the feeling tht over powers you is Anger on them. Tht's how i felt when Rishi & SF wasted soo much time seeing Indira unconscious, & other side watching tht video! Dont they know how Critical the condition is..why were they Wasting time! I just couldn't understand. I felt my Mind shouting Take her to Hospital Quickly damid! Why are u all delaying!


And then, why was the Ambulance Parked soo far from the house! It should have been at her door! But No it was soo Far! My heart was paining seeing Indira being carried like tht. We used to see Her walk through those lanes, her Fast phase walk, the way she always does, ek side pe Bag liye Apne hi dhun mein chala karthi thi, we saw her taking her Papa to Hospital, and here now she is Unconscious and was being carried to hospital. My Heart was Hurting. I felt myself Running beside her but then we got to see Kutumb who stood there saying she will not go to Hospital as Indira will come back as she has Faith with some emotional line! NO Mother will stay back without going to Hospital.

Seeing Indira on Hospital bed i felt someone Squeezing my Heart. I was like "Get up Indira, this is Not the Place where you have to be! Tears rolled from ur eyes seeing ur Papa's such sight and now wht do u expect we would gothrough seeing you like tht! Just Get up & go Home. Ur Responsibities aren't over by giving money to SF. They need you not just money! U are their Strenght, u r their Life! They need you and soo do we!". But on the other side the Whole Hospital scene was Beyond tolerating level. Arey Indira was Sinking there and a bunch of Doctors came in, but wht did they do? They were Discussing as a Normal ward case! Wasn't a Critical emergency case? Wht did they do? What was Happening in tht room! Why was Rishi there! & how could they see Sonogram images of Fetal heart of a day's Pregnancy! And Doctors kya kar rahe the? i just couldn't understand wht were they doing tht was needed to Save her!!!



My Heart was Aching to see Indira like tht, but my Mind was getting angry with the Things tht were Happening with her! I was feeling Restless coz nothing was done to Save her as soon as Possible before anything worse can Happen, before her state goes into Complicated state! My ANGER & FRUSTRATION was over powering coz of the Delay, Carelessness, Inappropriate management & treatment. Nothing was done to get her Condition to Stability! I was Feeling Angry! My Mind was all the while shouting Save Indira Quickly, Do something to Save her as soon as Possible!

It was Hurting to see Indira Like tht...Eyes closed, motionless, still and Calm. My Heart was in Terrible pain crying for her!!! All that I wanted, wished and prayed was - Indira to Get up, talk and smile. But coz the things that were Happening around her, to her and for her...Anger, Helplessness, Restlessness and Frustration was Overpowering my Mind!!!!

Originally posted by: -moona-

Moksha - Fab post like always.

Originally posted by: diya25

Hey Moksha...😛 awesome post as usual 👏👏