FF'Dream OR Destiny' Last Chapter 35, Page 111 - Page 55

Gulaal entered the I.C.U. Mota bha was lying there in a half conscious state. Gulaal felt her eyes burning, she was not able to bear this, she was not able to see mota bha like this, she was not able to stop herself anymore n ran towards mota bha's bed n clutched his feet n started crying, "Mota bha, mujhe maaf kar dijiye mota bha, aj ap ki yeh halat meri wajah se hui hai, mujhe maaf kar dijiye mota bha"

"Gulaal..." escaped from mota bha's lips. He called her in a very low voice, "Gulaal..."

"Ji, ji mota bha, main yaheen hun"She went towards his hands n holded them."Mota bha main yaheen hun, ap jaldi theek hojayiye plz"

MB: "Main theek hoon gulaal, tu chinta mat kar... bas thora thak gaya that oh socha araam hi karlun" he said with a faint smile on his lips.

MB: "Beta, tu theek hai na?"

G: "Main theek hun mota bha, ap meri chinta mat kariye, bas ap jaldi se theek ho jayiye, yahan sab ko ap ki zaroorat hai, hum sab ap k sath k bina adhooray hen mota bha"

MB: "Main theek hoon beta, tu kyun chinta kar rahi hai, bas yeh hospital wale toh jaldi jane hi nahi detay, main jaldi ghar ajaoon ga... Gulaal... aj toh yeh thori si tabyat kharab hui meri per kal ka kya bharosa..."

G: "Mota bha..."

MB: "Nahi beta, mujhay apni baat kehne de, aj toh main phir bhi theek hoon per ab umar ho rahi hai na, kal ka kya pata, pata nahi kal phir kuch ho aur main rahun na rahun..."

G: "Mota bha plz aisi baten mat kijiye, ap ko kuch nahi hoga"

MB slightly smiled because of gulaal being so much worried, "Han theek hai, maan leta hun per beta jindagi ka koi bharosa nahi hota, main ne toh apni jindegi men bohot utaar charhao dekhe hen, khushi gham, pareshani takleef, poora parivaar sab dekha hai, jindagi men bohot se pal aye aur gaye, kitne mausam gujaar liye is jeevan men per beta apni ankhon k saamne teri jindagi barbaad hote kaise dekh loon... nahi gulaal.. yeh nahi hoga mujh se..."

G: "Mota bha, main theek hoon, ap kyun chinta karte hen, haan thori pareshan zaroor hun ap ki tabyat ko le k per bas ap jaldi theek hojayiye phir sab theek hojayega"

MB: "Gulaal, beta, yeh baat mere man men kayi dinon se thi per kabhi kehne ki himmat nahi juta paaya, hamesha sochta tha kaise kahoon, lekin ab apni jimedariyon se peeche nahi hat sakta main beta, tujhe main ne hamesha apni beti maana hai, meri bahu hone se pehle tu mere dost ki akhri nishani hai, tu ne bhi hamesha mujhe apne baap ji jaisa maan aur ijjat di hai. Beta kehna bohot asaan hai k jindagi akele gujari ja sakti hai per aisa karna bohot hi mushkil, jindagi ki gari aik pahiye (wheel) pe nahi chalti hai, ise saharay ki jaroorat hoti hai, dekh gulaal, vasant toh chala gaya lekin us rishtay se bhi woh teri jimedaari hamen de k gaya hai, abhi kal jo bhi hua us se pehle bhi main ne socha tha k tu apna jeevan kisi achay insaan k saath gujaray lekin shayad kismat ko yehi manjoor tha beta k tu hamaray hi ghar ki bahu ban k rahay, tu hamari najron k saamne hi rahegi beta, main aur saru bhen, hum dono ne faisla kiya hai k kareeb ki tareekh ka mahurat nikaal k teri aur kesar ki shadi pooray samaaj k samne kar di jaye..."

G: "Mota bha, ap... ap toh samjhiye meri baat, main yeh sab..."

MB: "Jaanta hun beta, tere liye yeh sab asaan nahi hai, tu ne vasant ko hi hamesha apna sab kuch jaana hai aur phir kesar toh us ka bhai hai, tere liye usay apna pati maanna asaan nahi hoga, per yeh namumkin nahi hai beta, yeh rishta maanna tere liye hi nahi balkay kesar k liye bhi utna hi mushkil hoga..."

With the mention of kesar like this, gulaal again felt very angry n interrupted mota bha in between.

G: "Nahi mota bha, us k liye yeh sab kyun mushkil hoga, usi ka toh faisla tha na yeh, us ka apna faisla us k liye kyun mushkil hoga, use toh bohot khushi hogi k jo usne chaha wohi hua"

MB: "Nahi beta, main samajhta hoon k tujh pe kya gujar rahi hai, per kesar bhi isi daur se gujar raha hai, woh bhi utna hi pareshan hoga jitni tu hai, us ne yeh faisla ghusay aur jazbaat men aa k kiya hai, lekin us ka yeh faisla sahi hai gulaal"

Gulaal looked at him with astonishment in her eyes.

MB continued: "Han, main yeh keh raha hun, main ne bohot socha is baray men aur yehi samajh aya k yeh faisla sahi hai, is se teri jindagi sanwar jayegi beta, is se teri jindagi ki khushyan wapas aa sakti hen, is se hum sab ki khushyan wapas aa sakti hen, beta tu aur kesar aik dusray ko bohot achi tarah samajhte ho, aur main jaanta hun k tum dono aik dusray ko sambhaal sakte ho"

G: "Mota bha ap yeh kya keh rahay hen, ap jante hen kesar mujh se 4 saal chota hai, us ka yeh jazbati faisla ap ne kese maan liya mota bha, aj shayad usay andaza nahi k woh kya kar raha hai per agay chal k usay pachtawa hoga, aur tab is rishtay ki kya ahmiyat reh jayegi mota bha? tab usay apne is faislay pe bohot afsos hoga aur zindagi bhae woh isi afsos k sath rahay ga, aur is sab ka asar sab ghar walon pe bhi hoga mota bha, aur main akhir kis tarah maan loon usay apna pati, mujh se yeh nahi hoga, main ne hamesha vasant ko hi apna pati maana hai, us ki jagah koi nahi le sakta mota bha"

MB: "Main jaanta hoon gulaal, lekin tu aur woh pati patni toh ban hi chukay hen, ab kuch nahi ho sakta beta, ab toh bas poori dunya k samne is rishtay k baray men batana chahtay hen, maan ja gulaal, maan ja, vasant bhi yehi chahta hoga k tu khush rahay, teri jindagi sukh se bhari ho, aur mujhe ooper ja k tere maa baap ji ko bhi jawab dena hoga, kya kahunga main unse k main gulaal ka khayal nahi rakh paaya, uski jindagi apni ankhon k saamne barbaad hone di... gulaal, tu apne mota bha pe bharosa karti hai na, beta tera mota bha tere liye kabhi kaanton ka raasta nahi chunay ga..." with that he put all his strength together n joined his hands in front of her. Gulaal was taken aback, she quickly hold his hands.

G: "Mota bha... yeh ap kya kar rahay hen"

MB: "Maan ja beta, yeh apne mota bha ki akhri icha samajh le, maan ja gulaal, maan ja..." n with that he went into a nearly unconscious state.

G: "Mota bha aisa mat kahiye, ap ko kuch nahi hoga, ap theek hojayen ge aisa mat boliye, mota bha... mota bha... ap jo kahen ge wohi hoga mota bha... mota bha..." n she started crying bitterly.

After one week:

Rewa: "Bhabhi... mujhe pata hai ap ko kesa lag raha hoga, yeh sab ap k liye asaan nahi hai per ap yeh bhi jaanti hen na k mota bha ka faisla ap k liye kabhi ghalat nahi ho sakta... sab theek hojayega, hum sab aap k saath hen" n she put her hand on gulaal's shoulder to comfort her n to let her feel her support.

Gulaal looked at her with cold eyes, eyes which had no tears, no emotions, no feelings, they were totally blank as if the connection between them n her brain had broken, or may be her brain had refused to think anything now.

Rewa: "Chalye bhabhi, sab mehmaan bhi aa chukay hen, neechay sab aap ka intezaar kar rahay hen"

Downstairs, the house was filled with guests, it was all decorated beautifully, everyone was praising the decorations n the arrangements, right in between the lounge was the setup done for the mandap, it was also beautifully decorated witha combination of white, yellow n red flowers. All people gathered there were talking to each other.

Woman 1: "Wah wah, sajawat toh dekho kya khoob ki gayi hai"

Woman 2: "Haan woh toh hogi hi na, aakhir mota bha k ladlay betay ki shadi jo hai, per tum ne sab k chehray dekhe, un pe kitna tanaav hai"

Woman 1: "Han woh toh hoga hi na, kuch din pehle ki gaud bharai ki rasam men jo hua, toh ab aise khushi khushi thori ho rahi hai shadi"

Woman 2: "Per yeh sajawat aur intezaam oh dekho na, ise dekh k..."

Woman 1: "Aray woh toh karen ge hi na, kya kya sapne dekhe honge betay k liye per us ne khud hi itna bara faisla le liya, ab majboori hai, shadi toh ho hi gayi toh ab sab k saamne karni hi par gayi"

Man 1: "Haan bhabhi ji, sahi kaha aap ne, aur suna hai devar bhabhi men dosti bhi bohot thi"

Woman 1: "Han han dosti toh thi, aray kya pata gulaal ne hi koi patti parha di ho kesar ko, us din toh bohot ghusa thi per dekho maan bhi toh gayi, wese bhi itna acha ghar, itna acha larka, kon chorta hai"

Suddenly they heard a voice.

Saru Fui: "Ji haan, sahi kaha ap ne, itna acha ghar aur larka kon chore ga lekin jab larki itni achi ho toh yeh toh us ghar aur us larkay ki khush naseebi hai k usay woh larki mile, wohi jab us larki ko na chorna chahen toh larki ko toh maanna hi hai na warna kehne walay toh kuch bhi kehte hi rehte hen, kyun theek kaha na main ne?"

They all became some what embarassed n said that yes what saru fui was saying was absolutely right.

SF: "Aray ap log yahan kyun kharay hen, dekhiye hamari bahu arahi hai, chalye mandap k paas hi chalye" n she smiled n left to go towards the mandap as gulaal had approached at the stairs with rewa on her side.

All the eyes were now stuck at the stairway, the bride had arrived, she was wearing a beautiful red lehenga dress, n the jewellery was adding to her beauty, it was like all these accessories n the dress were made for her only. The dupatta which was covering half of her head had golden borders which looked very beautiful as it complemented her complexion very well.

When it was announced that the bride has come, kesar also looked at her, all the evening n all these days he had been very worried, it was all very new for him n he was also having difficulty to suddenly accept gulaal as his wife, he had always considered her as his best friend n now the sudden change of relation was making him restless. Some moments before also, he was a bit restless n was thinking that what the future holds for them, but the instance he looked at her, his eyes forgot to turn back, he even forgot what he was thinking, he even forgot where he was standing, he was able to see only her, his bride. He was looking at her all mesmerized n his eyes followed her from the stairway to the point when she was brought near to the mandap, he had never been able to look at this side of gulaal. All these days from the start, he had avoided her, yelled at her, felt sad for her, had become her friend, they have shared the best moments together as being each others' friends but this was all different. He was feeling that he had never seen someone so beautiful in all his life, he was thinking that only her entering the place made it all beautiful, it was only her entry which made the whole place light up so beautifully otherwise before her arrival, the life felt very dull n dim for him. But now he could feel the happiness around... his thoughts were interrupted with pandit ji's voice.

Pandit ji: "Jajmaan, jai maala ka samay ho raha hai, var vadhu ab amne samne kharay ho jayen aur aik dusray ko var maala pehnayen"

With that gulaal was brought in the mandap n was made to stand in front of kesar while he felt a little bit embarassed n thought "Yeh mujhe kya hogaya, aikdam aise main kya sochne laga tha..." Raman bha handed over the var maala to him n rewa handed the var maala to gulaal.

Pandit ji: "Ab var vadhu aik dusray ko maala pehnayen"

Rewa: "Bhabhi, kesar ko var maala pehnayiye"

With that, gulaal's hands rose while still she was looking down, n she put the var maala around kesar's neck. Everybody started clapping, n then kesar also put the maala around gulaal's neck. Everybody sprinkled flowers on them, while gulaal was doing everything as if she was instructed to do it. She was having a very stern face with absolutely no emotions. It was like her heart had died n she could feel nothing. She wanted to run away from all the noise n these rituals but she could not n she had to stand there n do what she had never wanted to do in her life.

When the gat bandhan was done, when they took the pheras, she didnt really knew, she was doing all this without her wishes n so was walking like a puppet only. It was only when she heard the word sindoor that some flashbacks started to come in front of her eyes.

Pandit ji: "Ab var vadhu ki maang men sindoor bharay"

Sindoor box was brought near kesar...

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Gulaal: "Vasant, yeh kya, tu mere liye kesar laaya"

Vasant: "Haan gulaal, aur saath hi kesari sindoor bhi laaya hun tere liye, main chahta hun tu yehi sindoor lagaye aur yeh hamesha teri maang men saja rahay"

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Kesar stretched his hand to take some sindoor...

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Vasant: "Aaj se hum pati patni hen gulaal, main bohot khush hoon"

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Kesar took some sindoor in his hand...

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Gulaal received a call n the person on the other side told: "Hamen afsos se kehna parh raha hai, vasant ji ab is dunya men nahi rahay"

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Kesar was bringing his hand towards her forehead...

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Jamna Kaki: "Gulaal, yeh chooriyan toh ab tujhe torni hi hongen, yehi likha tha teri kismat men, widwaa hogayi hai tu, widwaa ... !! " n her bangles were broken n some blood started flowing from her hands where the bangles cut her hands.

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Gulaal closed her eyes.

Kesar put the sindoor on her forehead n filled it with it.

The difference in both the situation was that in the past, gulaal had become a widow n now she had become a married woman. In both the situations, she was helpless, she was doing what was written in her destiny, n in both the situations, the red color was very significant, in the past, it was the color of blood n disaster n today it was the color of sindoor.

Pandit ji: "Aaj se ap dono pati patni hue, ab sab se aashirvaad le lijiye"

All the people there started congratulating the family members n even paan ba was not able to say anything as it was mota bha's wish. Rewa n Kanchan came forward to help gulaal stand so that she n kesar can go n take the aashirvaad of elders. They both moved towards the sofa where mota bha was sitting, he was still not very well so in all this ceremony he was sitting there n watched them n gave his blessings. They both took his ashirvaad n mota bha kissed gulaal's forehead n hugged her, there were no expressions on her face.

MB: "Sada khush reh meri beti, sada suhaagan reh" n he hugged kesar n said: "Khush reh beta, gulaal ki jimedaari aj se teri hai, is ka khayal rakhna, meri duaen toh hamesha tum dono k saath hen"

N they took aashirvaad from every elder of the family including saru fui n paan ba, saru fui whole heartedly gave them her blessings put paan ba only gave her blessing to kesar but gulaal didnt feel bad about it as now these things didnt really matter to her.

Everybody came n congratulated both of them n then gulaal was sent to their room while kesar was still downstairs to attend the guests.

Rewa n kanchan had taken gulaal to her room, while they reached upstairs, gulaal started walking towards the room where she used to stay all these days when she was stopped by rewa...

Rewa:" Bhabhi... kahan ja rahi hen ap"

Gulaal looked at her with question in her eyes as she was not able to understand her question.

Rewa: "Bhabhi ab woh ap ka kamra nahi hai, ap ka kamra toh ab yeh hai"

n she pointed towards kesar's room.

Gulaal was taken aback as she had not thought about it the whole time, now she had to accept it that her room, her place in this house had changed. She moved towards her new room.

Rewa n kanchan took her to the room n after she sat on the edge of the bed, rewa consoled her for sometime n then they both left for downstairs, now gulaal was all alone in this new place. She moved her eyes around the room, it was the same room where she had come before also, to call kesar, or to wake him up but now things had changed, this room was now hers also, now, she has to live here as being kesar's wife. In some days things had totally changed, her life totally changed. Her status was of vasant's widow, now her status was of kesar's wife. She was living alone all these years in her room but now she had to share it with a person. She observed the room again n there she saw the side table, a picture had always been there on that table, a picture of whole of the family, mota bha, paan ba, kesar, rewa, raman bha, n vasant... she had seen this picture alot of time before also but now it was not there. May be somebody had put it away from there. She quickly stood up n started searching for it n found the picture in one of the drawers in the almirah. She caressed the part of the picture whr vasant was standing, tears filled up her eyes, "Vasant..." escaped from her lips.

She looked at the picture n had a very determined look on her face, she took it towards the same side table on which it was always kept. She put it lovingly on the table n wiped her teard n took a decision.

"Nahi ... !! Jo hona tha woh ho chuka, per ab bas !! theek hai k aj mujhe meri marzi k bagher kesar ki patni bana diya gaya per yeh sab sirf logon k liye, bahar main kesar ki patni kehlaoon ya nahi lekin yahan is kamre men, kabhi nahi !! yahan sirf tumhari gulaal rahegi vasant... sirf vasant ki gulaal !!

n with that she took some clothes from the almirah n moved towards the changing room.