Much much better than the last two days - very sad, but far easier to connect with, thank god!
I'm not sure if this is me, or a general opinion - but I prefer PooBaa knocking sense into Gulaal any day over Vasant.
I really loved that she did it - much needed for Gulaal and best person was PooBa who had maintained that all along and today I loved it when she drilled it into our "Miss akhroat" that 's what I feel like calling Gulaal for her thick skinned , thick shelled approach to Kesar , no matter how much he bangs his head against her...
But I'll move to the other things for now. Nur and I were talking earlier in the day when I said that although the recent series of FBs had been annoying and disappointing in general for how much from the past could have been used and wasn't - but I thought (in retrospection of course) that there was a trend about them.What a brilliant observation - you are bang on for both Kesar and Gulaal - afterall fantasies are made up of what we dont have in our real lives...especially for Gulaal, I realised after you mentioned , it is this blissful home and hearth and a "husband" is what she had been missing (and also not having a kid, as per her phera FB) ...that is what was most evident in her mind, though in our minds the stronger imprints were of the intensely "romantic" moments with Kesar - he telling her she was wronging the woman in her , that she will have to accept his love one day, that she cud stay back in the house only if she fell in love with him , etc...
and Kesar's strongest need was to be the centre of her world...that his place in her life, like he used to believe in his innocence a decade ago - has indeed always been one class apart and unique - but just that understanding with almost a drought of emotional/verbal whatever confirmation...Somewhere he seems to know now that she loves him , but does not , or does not want to, accept..and that's what breaks him even more..and he has no energies left to fight it any more..."mein jaanta hun, par phir bhi tu rakh le" is like I know you love me , but you will need to be reminded of me ..you will not remember me by yourself, I know that..coz you never do, do you.
.I have to add I'm glad when they were making him write a letter, they linked it back to all the others he had written. His line - tujhse apni baat main chitthyon mein hi keh pata hu - is a hit on more than one level. ... he's never really 'delivered' his letters right, has he?! they've always reached her too late, through others...Beautifully put , this and every word in your post , it is beyond me to respond in writing to everything in your posts , but believe me , in my heart , I am responding to everything that you have written..
and as I sign off , I am left filled with only two things - your heart touching post and Kesar's heartbraking farewell scene - with tears rolling down his eyes, with the choke in his voice , with that forlorn expression that only Neil or Kesar can give ...it tore my heart apart...jump right in people - second to last thread post, this.xxJZee
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Jumping right in JZee , into this storm of emotions that you have created in addition to those existing after the episode...