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Much much better than the last two days - very sad, but far easier to connect with, thank god!
I'm not sure if this is me, or a general opinion - but I prefer PooBaa knocking sense into Gulaal any day over Vasant. If its prejudice, then prejudice it is - the ME aired in between was about the only thing I made a face at.
But I'll move to the other things for now. Nur and I were talking earlier in the day when I said that although the recent series of FBs had been annoying and disappointing in general for how much from the past could have been used and wasn't - but I thought (in retrospection of course) that there was a trend about them.
For Gulaal, they are also sort of taking her flight of fantasy only to the period of having lived like a wife with Kesar - with strings attached of course - but that... she's always thinking of memories where either Kesar has been 'the hubby' or her 'the wife'... so maybe that's consciously done?! I think they're limiting it to the time Gulaal finally, with whatever resignation, sort of let Kesar step into her inner most circle, and the life they spent as a 'couple' (minus paap and chiii lol) then... because that is the phase recalling which Gulaal's realization should touch its peak, of how easy it really was letting him in, once she let go of her resistance, and how right it had seemed, despite whatever notions she had previously held... and how for that brief phase - even without her 'reciprocating love' in a sense, and at her darkest phase in general, she had managed to feel so light hearted, and found semblance of deep peace!
And on that note - Kesar's FB yesterday, while playing the tuntuna was of the scene where she asks him to teach her... insinuating a memory of a rare instance where Gulaal is actually going out of the way to please showing extraordinary willingness to accept him, even in a leading role...
Its almost like their FB's are not supposed to indicate the good and/or bad memories, but a trend of their wishful thoughts... of those respective elements in their bond that have remained mostly unfulfilled...
So anyway - watching today's episode sort of confirmed the idea to me. PooBaa's most important words IMO were - sach to ye hai, ke Kesar ne tere dil mein pati ki jagah bana li hai - it sort of when on to explain why her FBs were limited only to the recent month or so. That's been 'her phase' of slow but steady acceptance. And the only phase, where she was literally beginning to breath into her role of a wife again - with applying conditions as I said.
Again - Kesar's FB's when he was shown in the courtyard so shattered by Gulaal not coming to see him, and later at 'their home' - he was thinking of the few times she'd actually given him the position - fixing his kitchen, patting him out of his choking... he's been so deprived of her explicit attention - that its always been a void. He told her once before, that he was bothered by how her duniya no longer revolved around him - and even today when she tells him in the later dialog, kya mujhe tuje bhula sakti hu! - he says he knows it, but still... just like his telling MB - doosre ko pyaar sweekar nahi hai, sweekar being the key word - he understands consciously or subconsciously that he means as much to her... that his place in her life, like he used to believe in his innocence a decade ago - has indeed always been one class apart and unique - but just that understanding with almost a drought of emotional/verbal whatever confirmation from her has taken its toll on him - so his fantasies are all about having that place in her life - where he matters most, and first...
I have to add I'm glad when they were making him write a letter, they linked it back to all the others he had written. His line - tujhse apni baat main chitthyon mein hi keh pata hu - is a hit on more than one level. A) his confession of how she has been his confidante, when she knew it, and when she didn't. B) she knows what he means by the letters, and its about as much justice as we can get at this point to something as important as those letters were to the track at one time... it gave that end a formal closure. The fact that he goes to meet her next morning, gives her the tuntuna, but not the letter he gave MB is also, a following of his trend... he's never really 'delivered' his letters right, has he?! they've always reached her too late, through others...
I like how the CVs linked up a subtle detail like Mansi doing short buttons to spend her time...its almost like she would chose to do that duty ... reminds you instantly of all the times you've seen her do it for Kesar - and no one else, right?! This is where the Gulaal CVs have always had an edge, I'm glad to find it back in execution today - the subtle signs...
Most most most impressed by Neil's voice modulation through out the episode. so much strain to his voice - it wasn't husky, it was strained as if through held back tears, very affected by the barely held back avalanche of emotions.
Special shout out to his candid broken - woh nahi aayi MB... wo jaanti hai main jaa raha hu... fir bhi... - oh my heart went out to him </3 Both actors, fantabulous! And of course the final GK scene - a lot easier to connect with Mansi today, thank heavens... but I have to admit Kesar touched the chords far more. Maybe because he never had that lapse... maybe, because today was really his episode. I'm extra happy that we got to see 'their house' of a month through Gulaal's eyes, as much as Kesar's... I'm also glad that even in his deepest throes, Kesar made far less a picture of charity case today - hallelujah to that! Perhaps it had something to do with the fact that Kesar knew where she would be - and that someplace (oh thank god for the small mercies) was something EXCLUSIVE to GK... for good or bad, that was their place... [maybe I just got skeptical over the last two days, but I actually apprehended she'd gone to visit Vasant's tomb stone or some nishani like that... I'd have been very very disappointed... but when they showed the house, I was like, oh of course, lol, silly me!]
PooBaa telling Kesar Gulaal is tired and she will make them talk later - Kesar pulling of the phone, knowing that later was good as never... oh his expression </3 </3
Gullu rushing out at the sound of the mobike!!! Abe yaar ye bandi na!!! Needs to go see a specialist! Kal aya tha, perfect situation and location for isolated GK, but she had to hide, now she runs at the sound - lol! Oh btw, Gulaal telling PooBaa - nahi mil paayi main - was such an echo of Kesar telling PooBaa - main nahin ru paunga Baa, jitna rukunga, uta jana mushkil ho jaayega... sigh! Full circle there for me, both being classic themselves...
Highlight of the episode? - I think the kaunsi dor song selection?! What an excellent and meaningful segment of that tune to be selected for today - and for Gulaal, all the more than Kesar...
And Aakhri mulaqat?! Gulaal's shocked raised eye to that was foreboding enough... if I didn't know the ending already - if so much Indian fiction wasn't always getting happy ends... if this was real life... I'd be scared if I was Gulaal... And kuch bhi to humesha nahin hota - Kesar :((((( [ on a side note, reminded me of the show ending after one final episode... humesha is such a myth of a word!] ofc, I also saw the humesha phrase in more sense... GV had gotten together to be like that humehsa. Gulaal had taken up her widowhood to be like that humesha. Talli had woven her dreams to be with Kesu humesha. Kesar had thought Gulaal would be humesha - good or bad... so much to those words... coming at this point...
finally the accident - was I the only one who shifted in the seat watching the scene?! I almost couldn't see it, even though it was just a scene on a show... Oh Sunday !!!
btw - still disappointed with ME. I'm glad they showed us what we already know is happening, so it didn't prove too much a spoiler... but watching it just made me think for the nth time... why Vasant for the realization! I know many people think she needs this closure... I just think she got it ages ago... but anyway... if the ME proves to be even something effectively like today - albeit happier at least half way through - I'll let this show go with more peace than I'd thought over the last two days.
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jump right in people - second to last thread post, this.
xx
JZee
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ps: ignore formatting/grammar/typos... this was really long for a phone, I could hardly scroll and fix!
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