PART-3
Maan quickly got up n decided to go home n inform his mother about a new lie regarding his business meeting,when he reached home he saw his mother hugging n blessing his sister happily advicing her to takecare of her in this situation,to be careful n have healthy diet, ,on asking about the talks he got to know that his sister was pregnant.he saw the couple n saw how arjun was hugging her,thanking her for the best gift she gave him in his life,he saw how in a lovely way arjun asked annie what special she wants n how annie went on gaga about all the plans that she has about there baby, while hearing the word he once again was drowned in his pain,he quickly changed the topic n told his mom about his urgent meeting that was held out of station n left the house to start his journey for searching geet.maan sat in his car thinkinga about what his mother told him back home,his sister was pregnant n he should be happy hearing it but sadly he can't be when he has snatched that happiness from geet twice,now this word PREGANANT use to haunt him.not only this one happiness nut all those lil lil happiness,her lil dreamz that could have given her soo much of happiness
He remembered the first time how geet has told him that she was pregnant how happy she was than but he wan't ready for it n he snatched that happiness from her,not only once but twice n poor girl could do nothing but cry on the death of her unborn child
Maan was once again taken to the memories of past when 6months back he got that diary n how it shooked his exsistance
He remembered how he went to his room n started looking in there cubord,drawers n everything n anything where who could find anything related to geet which could give him a clue about geet's whereabouts but sadly there was nothing no contact details...but while searching for that book he came across a diary..pink coloured diary
"its a week to our marriage n m still trying to understand my hubby,he seems quite serious,he doesn't talk much,neither that romantic types but may be this all happenes in movies n stories only not in real life,well whatever it is but its fine,ilike him he is good so what if he is serious types n doesn't talks much but still i think he is good at heart..."
"My mother in law keeps taunting me but today i was really sad it all went overboard i was soo hurt with whatever she sai,when maan came i ran to him crying thinking that ill share my pain with him,after all he is my husband n i was soo sure that he ll understand me but i was wrong i was soo soo wrong,he slapped me,he slapped me telling me to stay in my limits,what wrong i did i don't know,if not him than whom should i have gone to in this big house,he is my only source,my only soulace,but he hurt me soo much"
"Did i really asked for too much i didn't asked him to go n fight his mom or anything all i wanted at that moment was a shoulder to cry,someone who could console me tell me that it wasn't my fault i wan't at fault but i guess i really expected a lott from him,i cried i cried so much having no one to console me n decided to not talk to him till he comes n appoligises to me"
"Its ben a week now leave about appoligy he didn't even talked to me,but than today m soo happy that i have decided to talk to him.u knw why m soo happy m soo happy coz m preagnant,m going to be a mother n we r gonna have a baby soon in our family,let maan come ill tell him this news n m sure he ll b also happy knowing about it"
"I lost my baby...naa naa i didn't lost he took away my baby from me,i told maan n seeing him asking me to come hospital i felt cared,i felt he cared for me n baby i was soo happy,but my happiness was short lived,maan broke may dream,he asked me to abort the baby,he didn't even discussed it with me,leave about discussion he didn't even asked me but told his decision about aborting the baby,he said he wasn't ready for it n i m still too young for this responsibity,may b he is right may be its too early to have a baby but still he should have atleast asked me about what i felt"
"It's our first year anniversary today n i have got a special gift for maan i have got a pen n card for him n when he ll come ill wish him in a special way"
"Maan's didn't wished me,even after i asked him for my gift he gave me nothing n we had a fight he told me he is not like that he doesn't belive in such things,was wishing his wife on the anniversary is too much to ask for m i expecting too much from him?? I didn't asked for any big gift or any valuable jwellery,had he bought a simple rose for me n would have wished me it would have been enough for me but sadly he denied,he denied outrightly..u know it hurts"
He keeps on telling me how childish i am,how i need to grow up
"M pregnant again,u know god has been soo kind to me to have gifted me with this beautiful gift again,m sooo happy today,though m nervous buti know maan would be happy to know this after all its quite sumtime to our marriage now"
"I can't belive that your face still comes
Back to haunt me,
I still can't belive that i still awake from my dreams in freash tears
Even though i really knew you in
Reality
I knew you through my body.You were my soul n you wre torn away from me.
You were my heart and you were
Ripped away from me.
O m finding it hard to grasp unto reality,
That you are no longer inside within me.
I m finding it hard to understand that i
No longer have you
Growing inside me."
[Credit goes to: spy the lie (google)]
"I lost my baby once gain,maan once agin took the decision n once again m standing empty hand,all my happiness gone,i tried to fight his this dicision but heard none n once agin i lost my soul,m feeing dead inside me with nothing to live for,living a lonely life having no one around me to whom i can go n share the pain of death of my unborn baby,i sat in this room n cried whole night with no one to console me,today in this big mansion m feling soo lonely.in this one year of marriage i have got accoustomed to this lonliness,this pain,this hurt that i endure daily..."
"U must be thinking na why i share my all feelings with you n not with anyone else?/ coz i have no one to hear me,in this big mansion m all alone,maan is never there for me he has no time to hear my rubbish,childish talks,moreover i don't want to angry him,i don't knw if i tell him somthing n he ll again hit me,i don't want that to happen again,so its better this way,u knw daily my MIL taunts me tell me thousand of things but it doesn't hurt that much as much his silence hurts,staying in same room,being his wife i share no bond with him,its not like i didn't tried but i m afraid that he ll snapp.today i asked him about my job n in return got his hmmm...again that silence"
It hurts ,it really hurts...
"Its almost 4 years to our marriage n today i don't know what to say,or what to do anymore,today was annies sangeet n mom insulted me calling me barren infront of all guest,all were saying things but i stood there hearing everything hoping that may b now maan will say something,but he said nothing he stood there listening everything not even once trying to tell them the truth that it was he who didn't wanted kids,but i as usaual stood there motionless n left the place when things started getting overboard,i cried hiding in my hideout where no one can find me.coz i know no one is gonna be bothered about my tears my pain,what shocked me the most is maan ,he acted as if m no one to him n he never caed for me or my feelings.he stood there listening people talk about his wife but he said nothing,wasn't it his responsibility,wasn't it his duty to stand for my respect,my dignity,to protect me...but sadly he did nothing n here m all alone once again fighting my pain,hiding my tears my grief...today i sat wondering is this realtion even worth enduring soo much of pain"
"When turning back i see i see myself as a totally changed person to what i was 5 years back but now i don't know if i can bear this pain n lonliness anymore".
"isn't living among strangers alone is much easier that living among ur loved once n being alone??"
i don't know the anwer of my quesn but ill try to find it soon
I met advocate meera finally after thinking soo much but m still not sure about my decision so i left her office giving up on thinking about divore
Today once again meera called me n told me to go for divorce on mutual basis,i don't know if maan will agree or how he ll react
"I tried talking to him but guess he has no time for me or my talks"
Finally after the wait of 1 month today m gonna meet maan in his office
" i had taken maan's appointment to meet him at office,u knopw i had to wait 1 month to talk to my own husband n when got there he still didn't had time for me,he asked me to leave but today i had decided that ill have to tell him wht i was planning for soo long but guess what he didn't even reacted..i told him i need divorce i expected rvery type of reaction from him his anger,screaming may b hitting me but not the one he gave me his silence he reacted as if nothing happend n asked me to leave,was it such a small issue that all he has was to ask me leave he closed the door of his conference room on my face but today i realised that may b i,our this realtion matters nothing to him,after i took this decision i had been dying every day bit by bit just thinking about going away from him he had nothing to say about it,he actually closed the door on my face,actually he didn't closed door on my face but on our relation today i realised that how least important i m ion his life he actually made me realised my place our realtions place in his eyes...below below everything But still it hurts hurts a lot to think about my broken marriage my broken heart n my broken realtion" u must b thinking why i mentioned MY in it coz it was all mine juist mine coz had it been ours he would have felt the same pain,he would have reacted but sadly he didn't n with it he broke my last hope of continuing this realtion"
"I kept hoping may b now he ll ask the reason for this divorce but again i was hoping against my hope,he didn't asked me anything n himself decided that it was his mother who compelled me for divorce coz i can't have babies,he took me to hospital,but finally i told him he was wrong,it wasn't the reason n he left,he left as usal without saying anything without asking anything,leaving me alone standing there"
*Flashback Ends
Maan came out of his thoughts when driver told him that they have reached the hotel he looked outside n realised that it was already late night ,he got down still drowned in his pain n decided to go n meet the company owner next day in the morning
okh guys that's it for now
here is the Third part of kashmaksh n its pretty long more than 2000 words.
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