Oh my! Reet You're an awesome writer. 👏👏
Chapter 23 is always going to be treasured by me. I had read it the first thing this morning almost at the end of my night shift, actually was waiting to be free of any emerg calls to read this part in peace. But after reading this part I have made up my mind that how much ever I'm addicted to this story & your writing I'm NEVER ever going to read any part through the mobile, as then I'm left restless to vent it all out in a comment but can't do it as not reading through my laptop, so can't type a comment. I was so into the update that I was living it all and even whispered a NO during the rooftop scene with my trembling hands holding the mobile & a shiver passed through me dreading it all. Luckily I was in my resting cabin with none around or they would feel something's surely wrong.😉
Since then I've been restless to return home and type a comment as the whole part has been going on in my mind like a tape recorder causing a convoluted knot in my stomach which is now untangling while I type this. The whole update had me captured within it with a feeling of a vice like grip on my heart throughout with it just tightening in strength with each scene increasing with the intensity of feelings between the two, right from the union room till the scene just outside the hostel with two individuals brutally wounded for their past & deeds who are meant to be together but can't.
The union room scene was well described & was needed for a reality check for all, be it Geet, Arjun, Dia or even the students. The students were helpless without her, knew only she could help them but yet didn't leave to tarnish her & dishonour her with unjust remarks. What I liked was Arjun declined to take her place because he knew he would do no justice, none could as it was only Geet's right. The students agreed to ask for help but yet they had their own doubts. Sanjay knew she wouldn't refuse. But then they themselves pushed that selfless Geet away from them, like a disease, an epidemic was spread amongst them preventing her to enter and be with them. But now when they wanted her they asked help but yet with their own pride. So when she rejects they again back bite comments. I loved Su & Dia's fitting reply to them all. They showed them a mirror of their own ugly selves. They are far selfish & wronged than her yet just caused she had the guts to confess & bare it all that doesn't give them an authority to point fingers at her forgetting that they themselves are stained & she cleared the muck off them. Though she said college wasn;t hers any longer yet she couldn't leave what she had started & went to help them only if they asked for it.
Their conversation outside was so heart breaking. She was asking him why while he was bogged down by his own web of lies. He is a complicated riddle to her & he can't even solve it to her as she will break down further. He accepts that he can't see her suffering alone yet he shivers remembering the nightmare she created for him. He can't forgive her but yet can't see be humiliated. Dia comes in here but realises she has no space in them. I was pained by Geet's indifference of seeing Dia's touch on Arjun. She feels so dejected & loss of any expectation that now nothing matters, jealousy is very farfetched as she feels she's a taboo to even feel any emotion other than hate, hurt & pain. Numbness she seeks.
Another blow to her dejection & loss was realisation of Su also at the verge of leaving her. It must have shattered her so deep loosing on that last thread of support, that she must have felt her defences crumbling and accepting that she's really the unwanted & tainted to be having any love & relation with her. I felt choked when she realises that nothing such would happen if her father was alive. Yes indeed! If her father were alive she would be safely tucked in his cradle of love & in the embrace of her Maan, away from harsh realities of life, and also the unpredictability of life.
Her plea…. "Please god increase my tolerance level, kyun nahi ho rahi mujhse…. Will this night ever end…" was so stabbing I felt for that lonely child in that adult Geet, who wants to endure it all bravely without breaking down but it each time is increasing than her capacity to suffer silently breaking her bit by bit so much so that finally she does accept that she's lonely and is destined to be so by singing that song (Loved it… so gelled in and apt to the scene at the neem tree…) "Raat hamari toh…. Kitne dino ke baad aayi hai…." that now her only friend is the Night. But then she will dread this very night following morning. She associates herself with the dark night as she feels she is all dark within not deserving any light as she herself ruined her light, her love.
His inner thought describing her was of such beauty that I fell in love with those lines. ❤️ - Broken beauty clad in pale blue long ankle length dress. – Her loneliness was splendour of earth, looking ethereal. All these description was like a premonition of the storm awaiting them ready to taint her & bruise her forever. I have told you before Reet how I love your inclusion of nature with the scenes, it gives a feeling of watching & living it all. That description of her – Long wavy hair left open almost touching ground (That she the loved by all is now pushed to the ground yet she holds an inner beauty) Frill of her dress was lying on dust (That soon she will come face –face with harsh tainting…) this all was so leading & the words you used here made me jittery for what's coming next, so well woven together showing the flow of your thoughts. 👏👏👏
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