my teacher-(I) chap-22 pg 135 LINK fr 23 c index - Page 87

Reet. 👏👏👏

What an update I possibly can't get just words to describe what I felt reading it. It was as if I was a third person who was seeing it all happen in front of me, yet couldn't do or say anything. I felt for both the leads here. I love you for showing the vulnerability and fickleness of human nature here. None are demi-gods... but ultimately everyone is just a human being. Geet and Maan both have inner demons which so long they have avoided facing or tackling, which has lead them to their own destruction as losing out on the love of your life is as good as destruction of self because when that longing & loneliness gets to you whatever you've achieved or will achieve becomes futile if you don't have that person in life with whom you can share it.

While reading I was like each and everything you described was something I knew would happen & transpire between these two. It was as if the workings of my mind were out there in the part, with just the difference that you projected it all beautifully, much organised & justified. Love you for doing it so marvelously.👏

People need an excuse to talk. Matters are made worse by societal interference. Here you so aptly showed the changing preferences of people's perspective. How shallow their role modelling is, how fickle their support is, that every sympathy filled word or gesture is just a means to get more information that they can thrive on and gossip about, each person is used for extraction of maximum benefit as long as they can, that people are so dependent and spineless that they always need someone's back on which they can have a footing to face the world.

What I loved is how you showed that both Geet & Mann are not all the ones to follow the norms, they do belong to the category of people but yet they hold a spine in them. They have the courage to face the consequences of everything life dishes out to them. I know they have their own follies and insecurities but never one to back out.

The college crowd, the students, other teachers everyone sparing few were blind followers of the norm. Not once questioning their own conscience & self for what they themselves are. They just were in the waiting to blame someone; malign others name, and take advantage out of the whole fiasco. They wanted another face to replace the face of the victim and then the face of the guilty. Especially the scene in the mess during dinner, the library scene and the whole scene during the class showed the start of a difficult & painful phase.

All their taunts, sexual invitations, pointing fingers to her were quite stabbing. I understand she's at fault but then why are others involving in something in which they weren't there. It was matters between two why others are taking an opportunity and enjoying to make comments. But I guess Geet called it upon herself, by going out all public with her allegations. Yet does her acceptance of her fault make her vulnerable to listen to all that shit. From where did those sexual remarks come from? (Anyways I guess I'm too pissed off with these people interfering in others personal life to just have a gossip having no spine...)

In all o f this I loved that she was ready to face it all alone. She was ready to bear it all alone without involving others. Also that su and zaria stuck with her & didn't flee away. But in everything I feel it's again Geet's loneliness & inferiority complex featuring here. She finds herself unworthy & incapable of love, support & friendship. She feels she's so tainted & a taboo that if anyone comes in her vicinity she will ultimately hurt them and inflict pain on them with hate again subjugated towards her. Even Anant didn't support her as always and she didn't blame him. She can't see pass the haze of her unworthiness. "All life she kept her pleas within her" Its but natural when she got a love so beautiful & one who gives her so much attention she will feel fearful losing him. What must be more hurting for her than listening to comments questioning her dead father to whom she feels connected to yet carves for his love & presence in a scholarship. What stole my heart was that one inner voice of Geet --- "She had done a fatal crime lodging a false complaint but she couldn't possibly commit the biggest sin by letting him go through it ... He was her Arjun." This shows her start toward journey of repentance & worthy bearing of punishment. That feeling of broken picture frame, timid candle in hurricane, alone and helpless... was the ultimate dejection she could feel.

Dia again makes me bow down to her nature. She's a hero for me here in her own way. She knows it all, she is aware of both being at fault yet she knows the consequences of it all. Her not wanting people to see the crumbling & shattered Geet and advising Geet about it in her own harsh way was splendid character building there. Also she has never been following the norms neither when Arjun was blamed nor now when Geet is the puppet at everyone's mercy.

Maan had me in when he unconsciously accept his possessiveness about if same happened with him on having received fabricated news about Geet-Dev. I am dreading what will happen when he too will finally manage to see through his haze of pain, hurt, anger, and disgust he feels towards her... when he will realise he too is at fault even if it's not in equal proportion. I agree with Su's view too. I hope it won't be too late for realisation to sink in. Will love again be insufficient for them? Will inner demons be again an obstacle towards their own path of shattering. Will his love be able to conquer over his pain & hurt? I feel yes because love is illogical & unconditional but only this time the foundation should be stronger built with trust & belief with no scope for past & ego to play with it.

I want them both to feel that this matter is supposed to be between them with none having right to interfere & not to give even others power to it.

Special loved the Neem tree scene, scene after the class room fiasco, her own self loathing & pain & longing to see him just once if even from afar and mainly the early morning scene by his apartment.❤️❤️

Qs: What with Vikas now? What is Anant doing now? Dev??😕

What will happen to these two tainted souls??

Continue soon please... 😊

Please ignore the length... 😆