Maan was ashamed with the acquired knowledge. He didn't know where to go & hide his face wondering he never knew how to pleasure his wife, or the shameful fact he doesn't even know if she was until now! I mean how horrible a husband has he been.
Wat amused him more was her silence. She was still very silent & patient, totally unlike herself or wat he had learned or understood abt his beautiful wife. He remembered how t room used to echoed with her non stop rattling. Not that he spoke much but he silently heard all that like a background music. Uff her tons of questions. How impatient she used to get .. he smiled within. Her small small fights with her self to get the bindi right, matching bangles that used to fill the room, those jhumkas that dangled & danced in accordance to her gestures enhancing them.
Through out the evening he was silent lost in his thoughts. Even at the dinner he sat quietly lost. Lost in those days of their togetherness & the contrast now & how did it all happen. As usual she was quiet setting the table, serving him, silently nibbling her food & then clearing it. He tried to help which increased her work picking up the broken plates from the floor. She got worried & quickly picked them.
Latter in t room after they settled in their bed he didn't move or say anything at first & a small apprehension began in her mind,was he angry or disturbed? Did she doing or say anything wrong? and then she felt him rolling restlessly, unsure of his own feelings. He was craving to be in her arms. But the guilt with in him was not letting him go near her. More over it was new to him.. he was not sure any more if it was right.. like his wedding night. It was like their first time types & not sure how to do things, is it was right?!. It was more of primitive instinct that drove him then, than any acquired knowledge. Now under the lime light of his knowledge it all seemed wrong & he was shy, hesitant, nervous. Beyond his imagination was his confusion abt wat she would be thinking abt all this. How would she react? Does she know anything? Did she have expectations? Did she know abt all this all the while!!! his breath caught in throat when he heard t chimes of her anklet.
Then wat followed was again with t flow. He just bend close to her anklets.. & kissed them. Tum ne bahut dino baat pheni hain.. I missed them.. he whispered as his lips caressed her ankel ever so tenderly. She got up instantly feeling shy. She curled her feet pushing her night dress down embarrassed. He has never said or done anything like this. Not that she didnt like it.. off course she loved it. But she was caught off guard with those sensation. He drew apart for a moment & he searched her eyes & he read her shines & lay her down, covering her body with sensuous kisses. She closed her eyes moaning as his lips traced the curve of her cheek down to her neck, kissing & licking esthetically making her want those lips all over her.
She was taken a back when in a swift moment he pulled her up to a sitting position & taking his shirt off & then her night dress too in one rough move. Next she felt his broad strong chest touching her bare skin, his lips cascading exploring ways he never tried. He was nervous yet tried to be confident carefully gauging her response. Her moans became louder with the shock waves ran up & down her spine at the feel of his lips in all new places. She let out a gasp as he moved his hands up her inner thighs, continually kissing & suckling her neck. She was so lost in the feel he created that she failed to notice the crazy effort he was putting in to get it all right to seem right. It was all new to him as much it was for her. He was equally going crazy working his way into her. All the while his lips where nibbling on to hers.
He was getting little comfortable with her melting in his arms feeling those wetness differently. From her neck he moved slowly down her body tasting every part of her with his flirting lips. Sucking on her taut n*****s he making her breathless, slowly he traced a path with his tongue from her taut stomach down.
His trembling lips then placed soft kisses on her most sensitive area. Her eyes filled up. She felt her legs shake involuntarily as his tongue lapped the sweetness between her legs. She had never felt a sensation so overwhelming, never believed such a feeling was possible. Her fingers gripped either sides of the pillow as her whole body was quivering at his touch. Her body's responses were no longer her own. It was completely controlled by him. His touch shocked her senses, his kisses fueled her desire, his gaze touched her soul like never before. She was lost to him & a chill of fear ran down her spine.. as she felt her self losing.. exploding. She breathed heavily as she raised pulling herself away from him.. not understanding him, not relating to his this intimate touch, this passion, this side of her husband, why did he try to do all this.. fresh stream of tears poured feeling vulnerable.. she held the sheet close to her.. aap yeh sab kyun kar rahen Maan!! she asked before breaking down. Her resistance was breaking, her will to have a healthy relation with her husband was now being over shadowed by just being in his arms. The wall she had build around her was weakening. It also flooded her with t innumerable memories of lonieless that would consume her.
She got scared.. with this new feel of togetherness of them.. her want so unbearable it all bursted out t bottled emotions.. her hazels depicted t endless pain, helplessness.. aap ko aisen tho nahi lagtha.. her breath was heavy even now with t intimate touch.. she covered her mouth in embarrassment & gasped ki main divorce.. she couldn't even fathom t thought!!! did he think she wanted to divorce because of all this.. he closed his eyes painfully gathering himself. She tighten the sheet closer to herself as his moment away exposed her legs. Tears of shame flooded down her eyes with her exposed anklets.. I never stopped wearing them...she cried before hiding them under t spread.
It was all very odd to him as well. He doesn't even know how he managed to change & walk out leaving her perplexed. He closed t door & just sunk on t floor outside t house. He didn't want to leave but was forced to on hearing t elevator stop on their floor. He quickly took t stairways.
He drove to KM. He was walking straight to his room when pami's stern voice stopped him
Maan aap kanha se aa rahen hain?
aur yeh sab kya chal raha hain
khandan ki izad ka kuch khayal hain bhi ya nahi?
Aap aisen kisi bhi ladki ke saat.. she shied in anger
aap bhul rahen hain, ur still married to Geet. U can't be ..
pami was really angry after learning from her so called resources that Maan is been around with some girl in t same city not business tour. May be she had lot of complaints with Geet but all this she couldn't tolerate. She couldn't imagine her son getting so desperate that he had to seek a woman out of relation. Well she again cursed Geet to have left Khuranas to such a state.
Not hearing any response she tugged his elbow & forced him to face her. She was shocked to see her son so at loss.
She couldn't say a word
Maan probablity was at the verge of breaking down in her arms, but he has never done anything like that..
he helplessly turned his face away & coldly spoke
humne kuch galat nahi kiya ma
pammi was taken a back with her sons audacity. He just left to his room.
Pammi had a heated argument with Daadi cursing Geet for all t happening in their house. Maan clenched his fist painfully over t broken glass. First Geets words & then Pammi's .. there was limit he could bare. It was initial feel of failure & then followed t hurt he felt learning wat she understood of his efforts. Was his efforts seemed so shallow!!! suddenly there was this pain in somewhere deep so harsh & so consuming that t pain from t penetrating pieces of glass didn't seem to feel anymore. He was trying to give her happiness, instead filled those hazels with tears.. with pain, emptiness. It all felt so cold and lonely.
T moment he had stepped out she realized his vulnerable state. Geet was again pooled in the pain of despair & confusion to assail her. Anger and bitterness, sadness & despair consuming her like fire. She sunk down next to t bed clutching t sheet close to her. Did she just lose him all love again. Did it all end at the onset!!!
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Edited by muskanp - 12 years ago
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