Maan Singh Khurana was wrong!!!! is wrong !!! wrong in thinking why his wife divorced him.
All the possibility he came up with was wrong. ma.. forcing her .. them not having kid.. & now the most stupidest of the reason.. that he tried hard to believe & but was so shamelessly understood there was non in her life, her heart & her soul other than him.. only brought tears in his eyes.
She fluttered her lashes not understanding his tears his this different side. She felt a pang in her heart seeing a pool of emotions in his otherwise blank eyes. She pulled him closer & kissed those tears in concern. That only made him more miserable not able to understand why he was feeling so week suddenly. Why he felt like crying, all this was so new to him.. or was so not in his dictionary. He gulped hard to resist this urge in him & slowly raised after it felt like eternity. He was not used to be like this for long.. he needed to clean up, yuk he hated that sticky feel.. still he was in her for longer than usual, not able to comprehend his own act. Finally when his physical discomfort over took his emotional he excused himself to the wash room. He took her pink towel & wrapped himself. He walked & cleaned himself.. all the while trying hard to understand wat exactly they shared & how was is it so different from all this years.. dammit even their first time on their SR was not so, so .. he tried to name it.. nothing seemed to suit it.. {muskan offered magical (wink wink..) (GRR.. such word doesn't exist for him)}. He was so tired of his understanding for all these months.. he decided to just give in.
Geet blushed furiously initially & then felt little concern reminded of t tear in his eyes. She pulled the sheet closer to her neck, her eyes where feeling droopy. She was feeling indeed tired.. after all it was their first time such a long love making. She blushed again.. it was love making.. & she was actually in it unlike their hundreds of togetherness. She gave in to her contented feeling & snuggled onto the otherside. She didn't even realize when Maan came & sat next to her on the bed. Only when she felt the bed press, she became conscious & looked at him from corner of her eyes, overlooking her shoulder. He was holding her phone in his hand, facing his broad nude back to her. He took a deep breath "I looked into ur phone." He said shamefully admitting his deed.
She didn't feel a iota of pain or hurt instead felt happy atleast he attempted to know the reality. She just got up & hugged him from back. He closed his eyes. Her breath fell on his back as she spoke "aap mujhese hi puch lethen"
he instantly turned & held her arms.. "kaisen Geet?"
she felt intimidated with her nudity as her sheet slipped off exposing her upper part. She dipped her head. He pulled her into his arms covering in his strong broad chest. "Kaisen Geet?"
"I have been trying hard to find all the reasons behind this divorce & have been proved drastically wrong", he added painfully "beyond my imagination"
he pressed her closer dipping his head into her hair. She could feel his breath getting deeper
"how could I ask u something that I have been finding so difficult to believe myself". "Main ne bahut koshish ki main manlo.. lekin..! lekin!.." he struggled remembering the self fight he had every time to question her directly if there was anyone in her life. Though he tried a lot to believe it, but he just couldn't digest the whole thing. Probably thats why he couldn't ever confront her on that, like he did with his thought of kids being the reason, or his mama.
"I still couldn't understand Geet"
he dipped his head deep into her curls
"koi bhi wajhen humren risthen se badi tho nahi ho sakti na"
tears poured out of her eyes while her heart felt a pang hearing his words
kashmakash between them had no end, she felt
she fluttered her lashes trying to stop the tears that continued to pour wetting his shoulder
he definitely understood nothing.
His breathing became slow in her warmth & slowly they descended to lay in a comfy posture.
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It was dark when Maan woke up feeling empty around him. He looked around the surrounding & came to terms where exactly he was! He was still in her pink towel wrapped loosely around his waist, sleeping peacefully. Oh god.. wat is the time.. he checked .. it was around 6, he shook his head & looked out to make sure it was the same day or the next day. He felt like he was drugged. Finally he changed into the dress he came in with. He freshened himself. Just then Geet came in with coffee.
"U will feel better, aap ko iss waqt sone ki aadat nahi hain"
"aadat tho tumharen bina sone ki bhi nahi thi" he said blankly still meaning every word.
Geet felt choked with guilt she began to feel with in.
he had the coffee & left without saying anything.
This encounter left the 2 souls restless. Geet felt guiltier seeing his pain, which he failed to express. While Maan in his room in KM turned restlessly in his king size bed the whole night. All he could think abt was their moment together, her eyes that spoke volumes. His mind was clear there was no one her life, he didn't know was he supposed to celebrate the truth or dip in another pool of oblivion.
Even after 4 months of the whole divorce fiasco he stood at the same place as that very day, when she had given those papers to him. He felt as if he has been blind folded & left into a maze. After it felt like hrs when it had not even passed mid night.. he turned yet again & finally when nothing seem to sooth he got up & stood by the window slipping his hands in the tracks pocket lazily. Looking beyond the darkness seeking his answer & he saw nothing yet again. Wat went wrong between them suddenly!! Where did he fail? He had done all his duties as a husband! then...
Sunlight touched the horizon & he was still standing at that very posture wondering, why he couldn't he sleep. Why he felt so disturbed especially tonight. ok.. may be because he had slept in the afternoon. Another logical reason to his irrational behavior. The morning routine just followed. Work out, freshening up, breakfast ..9AM meeting. With a difference he was irritable & very tired. Even before clock stuck 4 he was out from office. He opened the apartment door with the spare keys loosened his tie..& just crashed on the bed.. Oh yes.. it felt like heaven. It did have her fragrance. It did carry the warmth of their togetherness from yesterday.. & it felt home. He didn't even know when his eyes gave in to the tiredness.
The day was same for Geet. Hectic work, grocery shopping & back to the apartment. She causally discarded her duppatta with the shopping bag on the dinning table & went into the room. She stood rooted at the sight. Maan was sleeping peacefully completely formally dressed even with shoes on. It was totally unlike him. She slowly undid his shoes & removed the loosened tie. She couldn't help but to look at him. He turned in his sleep. She got conscious & left him alone.
It was 10pm Geet checked on him. He was still fast a sleep. She finished with her kitchen work & slipped next to him after changing into her night dress. It seemed so natural to seek his warmth. She cuddled into him & to her surprise his hand tucked her closer lazily roaming around her. She shied & turned to hug him. He pulled her even closer while his fingers slipped into her inners in his sleep. Soon their cloths were discarded yet into a different act of unconscious love making. Partially awake !!! partially a sleep. It felt more like a dream, until they met their raging breath mingling with their sweats.
Maan was taken by surprise with his own act. Did he just have sex with his wife in sleep. Was he dreaming!!! wat the hell is wrong with him!!! hell with wrong & right!! dammit.. it all felt just perfect.
He cleaned himself & laid next to her not bothering to think to much into it. Its all been beyond his understanding. First this divorce.. then his unexplainable uneasiness all these months.. & now he felt peace only around her, she just filled him with overwhelming feel of warmth. Every time they came close it didn't seem to just satisfy him physically but a contentment he couldn't describe in words & he knew it was only in her embrace he felt like that.
It seemed so odd.. how he had to call Nakul next day to get his cloths to their apartment.
Every one at KM thought Maan probably was traveling. Question was not raised initially. Pami did call up & check with Maan if he was fine & when he was returning. For which he gave vague answer. First he was not sure wat was his mom talking abt when he was in Delhi itself. When he did understand he thought it was not required to explain anyone since he was with his wife. Moreover he himself had no clue wat he was doing. ideally things seems sorted out & he should ask her to come home, instead he is not even thinking on those line, his mind seems to feel that apartment as home, all these didn't make sense, like all the thinks happening around him for last few months.
It took him a little bit of research from his side to understand her side of physical needs. He was very conscious trying to research abt it in office. But his curiosity was killing him. He rushed back to his apartment & spend a good number of hrs learning something that he was supposed to know especially being married. Common he is supposed to know all this. How silly or ignorant has he been. He would have not gone deep into it, had he not seen that contentment in her face that day. How she ached for his touch, how she was so much into it. How she was holding him, instead of just lying their! Moaning his name instead of some occasional raised breath. Until now he thought he had been a good husband but learning he failed the very basic thing in their relationship has made him rethink his understanding.
When Geet came back from office trying to look for her key, part of her wished he was their like yesterday & part of waked her.. how silly at her expectation were. Well as she wished he was very much there & to her surprise he almost jumped out of his skin seeing her. Her eyes went on the laptop that he shut suddenly as he saw her. He would never do anything like that. & then there was this sudden silence in the room.
Maan was ashamed with the acquired knowledge. He didn't know where to go & hide his face wondering he never knew how to pleasure his wife, or the shameful fact he doesn't even know if she was until now! I mean how horrible a husband has he been. Still no where close to reality!
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Edited by muskanp - 12 years ago
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