FF-Obsession,chapter29 and next thread-pg150,7oct. - Page 18

Abandoned...

"you should try chocolate mousse of this place,geet..its awesome..pari loves it"Maan said to geet in a chirping voice

.She was able to feel his happiness,contentment of his soul along with immense love in his eyes for pari.She was little reluctant about accepting the dinner invitation from maan this morning.She was fearing the moment when she would have to face pari and maan together."Jeaulosy" and "guilt of having endearment in her heart for a married person in the presence of his wife" were two factors which were forcing her brain to come up with an excuse to avoid this dinner. But her heart ditched the brain once again as temptation of being in his vicinity for an hour blinded all the rationality.Strangely She did not feel herself burning with jealousy witnessing the selfless love of maan for pari.Instead she was elated seeing him contend and so much happy.She could sit and watch him happy with his wife for her whole life without any complaint.

"i am not very fond of chocolates.." Geet replied.

"what???""what???" Both maan and pari said in unison.

"i said..i don't like chocolates that much..why are you guys so surprised???"She asked shifting her gaze from maan to pari

"geet is really different..pari.."maan remarked to pari while taking a piece of strawberry from her bowl of fruit salad.

"Doctors are like this,maan..and moreover she is psychiatrist.."pari replied with a smile.

"my little fondness for chocolate does not prove me an alien.."geet grumbled.

"but it does prove you a psychiatrist"Maan winked to pari.She giggled in response.

Geet dug the spoon in platter with a frown on her face.

"okay..okay..i am sorry..order whatever you want for dessert..."Maan said controlling his laughter."waiter..."

Sudden ringing of his cellphone disturbed the heavenly treasure of geet's eyes.She can see him laughing for eons.He excused himself and went outside to take the call.

"i will take pistachio icecream" Geet said.Waiter scribbled the order on his notepad and left the table..

"geet..." pari spoke after waiter left the table.

"hmm???"

"i need to give you something.."

Pari brought a piece a paper out of her handbag and slid it towards geet.It was a cheque signed by maan for geet.

"what's this,pari???"

"Your fees,doctor"Pari fidgeted with the fork in her hand."Actually i want to take this case back..maan is fine..i was a fool for sending him to you.."she said with an anxious voice.

Geet knew this was going to happen one day.Case would be over and her little time with maan would be snatched from her.All that she did not know was the hurt that she was feelingat moment would be that much intense.She felt like her insides tearing with sudden grief and emptiness.She took the cheque with trembling hands and put it in her hand bag mechanically.

"Thanks geet.."

"Its ok..pari"she managed to speak as tears chocked her throat.Waiter brought chocolate mousse and pistachio icecream.

"I am sorry geet for bothering you with my banters about something big in his head..i was indeed a fool"

"i have wiped that something big from his head..don't worry"Geet faked a smile while nibbling her food at higher pace.

"hey..dessert is here already"Maan exclaimed taking his seat back near pari."our appointment with gynecologist is on saturday..nurse had called to inform me.."

"ohkk..." pari said to him.

"you have done that for what we had arranged this small dinner party,pari??? geet is about to finish the dinner"maan asked.

"i have done dear..i have given her the cheque.."

Geet looked at the couple with lost look on her face.

"ok sweetheart..it was great dating you.hope you enjoyed as much ."Maan said to geet laughing hysterically.Geet felt sudden suffocation around her as she tried to control her tears.She needed to leave the place immediately.

"Excuse me..i think i need to leave little early..i suddenly remembered something important..sorry.."She took her hand bag and got up from the chair.

"Hey wait..."Maan took geet's hand in his.."Thanks for everything.."he said and looked towards pari.Pari nodded her head and mouthed thank you to geet.

It was impossible now for geet to prevent her tears form spilling..

"it all right..you guys are most welcome..."She replied meekly avoiding the eye contacts with both of them and sprinted towards the exit.

Chilled air collided with her bare arms as she dragged herself out of restaurant.Tears which were chocking her throat and soul spilled freely on her cheek.She was crying badly to lighten the burden of loss on her heart.She cried for ample time,oblivious to piercing gazes of people around.When her sobs faded,she decided to leave but could not stop herself from taking last glance of her treasure.

She came near the glass window and looked inside the restaurant.Her gaze found maan and pari feeding each other chocolate mousse with happiness emerging from their faces.Then she looked at pistachio icecream on the table.It was melted,distorted and abandoned.... just like her...

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Be ready at 10 in the morning dear..remember,,we have an appointment with gynecologist,,"Maan said putting the empty glass of milk on the side table.A smile appeared on his lips as he witnessed expressions on his beloved wife's face."why don't you like milk,pari??"

"because its yuckiest beverage in the world"Pari replied with a yucky face.

"But you have to drink it no matter how much yucky it tastes.."He shrugged his shoulders.

"hmm..."She replied trying hard to suppress the dry heaves.

He adjusted the pillow behind her and made her lay comfortably in the bed.She did not realize when slumber engulfed her as his fingers continued caressing her forhead. He looked at her sleeping face wondering what might be she dreaming about...

She felt herself weightless and floating in air.She looked around herself to find mist covering everything.Air was cold.Silence was so prominent that she could hear her breathing and heart beat clearly.Suddenly she felt herself being pulled towards something.She tried to stop herself but pull was too strong .After struggling for some time,she let herself go towards the object.As she got nearer to object pulling her,a silhouette of woman became prominent.She was in white which was mixing her effectively with the mist around them.Her hair were long and open. But her face was obscure.

"who are you???"

"don't you know me,pari???"

"no.."

"you know me very well,its just you are trying to avoid me these days"

"why would i avoid you??"

"Because you are scared of me now.."

"now???"

"yes...you used to love me earlier..."

"why are you pulling me???"

"I am not pulling you..You yourself get pulled towards me everytime.."

"Stop it..."pari screamed

"I can't.."

"who are you exactly"pari asked in a whisper still being pulled towards her frantically..

"poem.."silhouette replied.

Her eyes widened with shock.She was now with in extreme vicinity of silhouette..she looked at her face which was becoming clearer as the distance decreased..

"you look like kavita.."she mumbled

"Is there any difference,pari???"voice echoed in her ears as she felt herself being merged with the silhouette.She closed her eyes in surrender letting herself drown in silhouette and then she heard anxious voice of maan calling her...pari....

pari..pari..maan patted her cheeks in order to wake her.She was mumbling something in her sleep which he could not understand.Her whole body was covered with sweat.

"Pari.."he almost yelled shaking her sleeping body from shoulders.

She opened her eyes and looked at anxious face of her husband.

'what happened pari??? you had some nightmare.."

Her throat was immense dry to answer anything.She quickly hugged him.He cocooned her trembling body in his arms and rocked her back and forth till her breathing got normal..

"you ohk now???"He asked with worry mixed in his voice.

She looked in his eyes and nodded her neck in yes.He kept her in his arms till she was sleeping again..

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Pitpatter of the rain was audible from window as clock struck 2 of the night. She pulled out of his hug and looked at her sleeping husband.Her hands brushed few strands of hair from his forhead.She let out a deep sigh as her feet moved towards her laptop.She covered the laptop with old newspaper and hid it in farthest corner of her cupboard.On her way back to bed,she pulled out the internet wire from the system.."no nightmare can touch me now..."Her whisper broke the silence of night as anxiety left her eyes and heart...She could sleep peacefully now...

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Geet shivered as raindrops touched her face.She was standing near the window of her clinic when sudden blow of air mixed with rain drops kissed her face.She should be at home at that time of night but she did not want to go.Her clinic had become territory of her memories with him.Was it her imagination or his scent still lingered in the air..Was it her imagination or his laugh was still audible to her ears.. There was a storm outside so was in her brain.She shut her eyes to discard the memories of her last dinner with maan and pari..but it was impossible.She did not know when it would be possible for her to shut the memories of that case.She felt herself dwelling in darkness...Darkness which engulfed her insides the moment pari paid her the cheque was now accompanied with darkness in her surroundings due to power cut..She needed light in clinic as well in her life...

She pressed her cell phone to flash some light. Digital clock on the cell showed 2am in the morning..She was standing near window since 11 pm..three hours were gone..day was changed from friday to saturday in all calenders of the world.."saturday.."She mumbled,,"They have an appointment with gynecologist today.."How much she tried,his thoughts were impossible to ignore for her..She had managed to find emergency light with the help of cell phone.It was kept on the top shelf.She switched on the light and milky light filled the dark room.Suddenly her eyes caught something pink on the shelf..She searched more carefully.It was a diary.."diary???"She mumbled to herself.

"There is a pink colored diary in one of these boxes..you should read that..I have made a collection of my favorite poems...

pari's words reverberated in her ears..Her heart did not want to miss a single chance of being a part of maan's life either it was through being his doctor or reading his wife's diary.Moreover there was a chance to find any poem which pari might have dedicated to maan..She opened the diary and flipped the pages.There was a poem on each page.The thing which caught her attention was the ink used to scribble them..Some were written in blue ink...where as some were in red ink..though number of red ones was less..She decided to read the red one's first...

Smile which lingered on her lips at starting was soon faded away..With each word her heart beat rose..Sweat covered her body inspite of chillness in the atmosphere..After finishing first poem.she jumped to second poem which was in red..She felt her breath chocking as she moved from one poem to another...The last poem in red was dated Sept.9,2012...just two days before the date,pari visited her clinic for first time..date on which she had told her about maan first time..Geet caressed the red words on the page with the trembling fingers..as she read the poem once again...

His eyes sees me..

but who is watching me..is someone else..

He speaks to me..

but who is talking ..is someone else...

There is suspicion in his eyes

But who is suspecting...is someone else..

He wants to trust me

but who is stopping him..is someone else...

I need to save him..

before..that something big in his head

changes him completely into someone else!!!!!!!!

-Entropy

She had never thought that one day she had to rectify such kind of mistake in her career..At first place she had never thought that she would make such kind of mistake in her life...mistake of "curing the wrong patient.."..She needed to talk to maan as soon as possible...