CHAPTER 13
Today daadi maa wanted all of us to go for marriage shopping ... i know maan will be there , i decided to ignore him that is the best for everyone around me ...i know he will be hurt but don't i want that ...
we all went to shopping mall ... maan and arjun were in the front and i was with daadi at back ...Maan was looking at me from the mirror ... his eyes spoke diff language ... i did no mistake then why am i having a strange feeling looking into his eyes ... Throughout the journey i didn't look at him but i had the feeling that his gaze was fixed on me ...
We entered the mall ... daadi took me to bridal collection section and maan follwed us ...arjun was busy in phone ... Daadi was all excited in selecting dresses ... i tried to match her enthu but my mind was completely lost somewhere ... all the time i was steeling glances from maan
" geet this is ur marriage u need to chose not me " daadi complained and i smiled weakly
One of the staffs from botique took daadi to the another section for more collection ... myself and maan was left behind with two other staffs ... i pretended to look at a lehanga ...
" this is very beautiful choice mam " the staff started to explain abt the dress and material ... i didn't hear much
" i think ur would be prefers something else for u " the staff said
I immediately turned to see maan with a red lehanga in his hand ... i looked at him is he really helping my shopping that too for marriage how can he ...
Our staring section was inturrupted by the voice of a staff who said that she wants to take measurement ...
" madam take away ur duppata " she said
I took the duppata and placed on the table ... my bump which was hidden behind my duppatta became visible ... i could sense the staffs passing queer glances to one another and look at me in wierd way ...
" will u do the measurement rather than staring at my wife " maan said sharply standing behind me and placing a hand on my bump...
I looked at him he was busy threatening the staffs with eyes ...
" sorry sir " the staff lowered her head
" u better be " he said
At that moment my heart was filled with contenment ... that was the first time he had ever accepted me as his wife in front of others ... i felt proud ... i couldn't stop the blushing ...
My feeling didn't last for long as soon i was reminded that it was arjun whom i m gonna marry and not maan ... i again dropped into the pool of misery ...
Later shopping Arjun went to office asking maan to drop myself and daadi ... after few mins maan told that he recieved a call from arjun saying that he needs me and maan in office for some impt meeting ... so daadi went in a cab and i went with maan ... sooner i realized that we were not heading to office ... i looked at him questioningly but he didn't even look at me until he stopped in deserted place under the shde of a tree ...
" maan what are we doing ? " i asked
" exactly geet what are u doing ? ... this marriage and all what kind of joke is this " he asked
I know i have to answer his qus but never prepared an answer before ...
" this is not a joke ... i m marrying arjun this friday " i said
" don't dare to say that ... u can't be anyone else's but mine " he said gritting his teeth
" and who am i to u maan ? " i asked...i know he could never answe to this qus
" geet listen i know i have hurt u ... hurt u more than anyone can hurt another person ... but ... but i love u more than anyone can love the other " he said ...
Those words left me speechless for few moments ...
" love ? do u know what love is ?...after whatever u did to me how can u expect me to be with u .?... u know coz of u , ur betrayal my own family tried to kill me ... " i shouted in anger
He closed his eyes in pain i know it hit him hard...
" geet i know what i did is a huge mistake but i can do anything to rectify it ... i can't live without u geet ... for the first time after my mom i really feel the need for someone ... u may think how can i change just in few days but trust me geet my feelings are true ..." he said
I know each and every word of his true but will my heart trust him again? ...
" i will talk with arjun and daadi i will confess all my mistake ... i ll do whatever u want ... i ll even talk with ur family but i want u near me "{ he said looking into my eyes ...
" i understand ur feelings maan " i said after long silence
he looked at me with hopeful eyes
" but i can't be with u ... i can't trust u again ...u can never erase the pain i suffered those 5 months ... even when my family told that u betryed me i hoped that u would come to me someday and the day is here now but i can't get myself to surrender to u whole-heartdly ... u wanted punishment for ur sins isn't then this is ur punishment ... u can never get me and baby in ur life ... " i said not looking at him
I know if i look into his eyes no one can stop me from beaking down ...
I didn't encourage further talking and we drove in silence ...
I had no idea what i was doing ... All i know is Arjun and daadi has helped a lot at times of struggle and i m bound to make them happy ... I know this marriage will be difficult after knowing that maan is arjun's brother and still my feelings for maan are fresh but my gratitude towards them is more than anything... If not for daadi and arjun me and my baby would have died ...
Revenge is always not easy ... i know that seeing me with arjun will hurt maan that is what i wanted but now the thought that it will hurt him causes me pain ... maan and my relationship is like small chapter in a vast book ... We are meant to be together but not till last ... I m happy with whatever changes i see in him ... now i know he also feels the same way i do for him ... Whatever happens will be decided by god ... i m just walking in the path laid by god it is god's wish to catch me if i fall ...
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Edited by NANDY_BRU - 13 years ago
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