I'm feeling anxious today..no update, no nothing...I want to write..I want to share.
This is a poem that I'm writing right now..I won't edit it..it's just words from the heart.
I don't know who he is..
an impending presence in my life, or perhaps an absence,
He is there- in every breath of mine, in every heartbeat..
Who am I? who is he?
An image, a pair of eyes that speak to me,
That look deep, and then veil their own depth,
a blurred vision,cleared for a second, and then...disappears
Who was it that moved through the sheer curtain of mundane daily happenings?
what was that tinkle, that beat, that fluttering..
was it my heart, my soul or his laugh, his soul?
I search for you..everywhere..anywhere..nowhere..
are you lost searching for me too?
Or do you know where I am..have you always known?
waiting for me...like I wait for you..how can we ever meet..
if waiting is all we do?
Come to me..my heart flies to you
Come to me..my soul reaches out to you..
my eyes search for yours in the emptiness of crowded rooms,
my heart beats to your rhythm as you breathe..somewhere..
perhaps alone..perhaps lonely..
how long will this madness continue..
will I ever find peace..
knowing what you are to me..
but not knowing who you are..?
an image- clear, pristine..gets lost in the haze,
I try to search..but I cannot see through the daze
I come back..back to the senses of the mundane,
realize that perhaps, you were never even there..
but I cannot stop my heart from beating to that unknown name, known rhythm,
the rhythm of our love..our unjoined hearts..
joined once before..
perhaps only to part?
I have been in love before,
every time I go back to that heartache..
I feel lost again..all alone..no one has to know..
but then I close my eyes, and you whisper to me..
you will come one day, you promise me..
the pain lessens, disappears..he was not you..
no one is..no one is me for you..
despite the pain we both go through,
despite the lives we go on living..
that moment of awareness is approaching..
it will engulf us into a bubble,
you hold my hand, you caress my face,
I move my fingers over the hard panes of yours,
we close our eyes, and just allow ourselves to fee..
bound for a second..bound for an eternity
But I come back..back to 'reality'
I chastise myself from making up dreams..
but then...was it a dream?
you're there..somewhere..aren't you..
I'm not reading it again..LOL..
Sorry for the mistakes..just what I feel these days..
Honest comments and opinions please
love to all
Geet
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