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rkchandni

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Posted: 8 years ago

#181

Wowww
The accident.scene superb
The dairy scene.amazing cont soon

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RNpoint1857

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#182

Originally posted by: tiniminy
Just read the first chapter..story looks great and your writing is just flawless..i'am loving it..will read further chapters soonest..
Plz pm me whenever you update next and plz plz update ur RN ff- Desire.
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Just read the first chapter..story looks great and your writing is just flawless..

Thank you 😊

i'am loving it..will read further chapters soonest..

Sure 😊

Plz pm me whenever you update next and plz plz update ur RN ff- Desire.

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Will try to update 'The Desire' too 😊

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RNpoint1857

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Posted: 8 years ago

#183

Originally posted by: rkchandni
Lagi aaj Sawan ki fir woh jhadi h
Dabi aag seene.me fir Kal.padi h

Rajeev Ka b fav song h n Mera b
The whole part one is just remind me the entire Thier first rain scene on the road
That was an epic
It's speechless

Come 2 another part

Kash Aisa kuchh Sach me HOTA
U don't know why the hell the
Makers.were so hurry ki
SK k sweet love moments jyada dikhaye hi.nhi

But u made it
I enjoyed it totally
Thank God Piyush yahan nhi tapkaa

Loved it

Lagi aaj Sawan ki fir woh jhadi h
Dabi aag seene.me fir Kal.padi h

Rajeev Ka b fav song h n Mera b

Mera bhi!

The whole part one is just remind me the entire Thier first rain scene on the road
That was an epic
It's speechless

Yes that scene was indeed epic

Come 2 another part

Kash Aisa kuchh Sach me HOTA
U don't know why the hell the
Makers.were so hurry ki
SK k sweet love moments jyada dikhaye hi.nhi

Yes! 😭 Kash...

But u made it

Yes 😳

I enjoyed it totally

Glad to know that 😳

Thank God Piyush yahan nhi tapkaa

Lolzz... 😉

Loved it

Thank you so much 😊

Stay blessed!

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RNpoint1857

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Posted: 8 years ago

#184

Originally posted by: rkchandni
Wowww
The accident.scene superb
The dairy scene.amazing cont soon

Thank you 😊 have updated. Do check 😊

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RNpoint1857

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Posted: 8 years ago

#185

Part 3 :

Out of concern, her heart filled with so many emotions for him but hatred, she asks, almost pleads as if she is desperate to help him. She can't see him in pain for any longer,

"Main laga dun?"

"Nahi theek hai!",

he refuses to take her help, not because he would hate it if she would help him but because he doesn't want to bother her. Can he for once think about himself? Can he for once stop being so particular about making her feel comfortable in everyway possible?

Kashish extends her hand again, her brows creased, her eyes teary. It takes every ounce of her self control to stop herself from touching him, helping him up till this point of time.

The stubborn Kashish takes over the emotional Kashish again, and without listening to any of his opposes and denials she takes the medicine from him, almost snatches away out of anxiety.

Sitting behind Sujal, she presses the tube to bring out the medicine. She looks at his wound again, it hurts her a fresh again! Her heart starts beating fast. Out of hesitation, she ends up removing the cap of the medicinal tube than caressing his wound.

What exactly did she want to do? Did she want to sooth his pain by caressing it? Or may be kiss away his pain? Or did she want to inflict more pain into him, using some spectacular plan of hers? Does she want to convey this to him now?...

'Jissey nafrat hai usko,

pyar kaise karungi?

Kyun bhala uski khatir,

dil se anhein bharungi?

Ab to uski nakami,

zindagi ka maksad hai.

Itni ho uski tabahi,

jiski na koi hadd hai.

Uss pe hai meri nazar,

ho...

wo chaley jo bhi dagar,

mangu uski barbadi

Thodasa pyar hua tha,

kuch nahi baki'

~*~*~*~

As she puts the medicine on his wound lightly, he hisses in pain. That makes her to shiver as well. Sitting behind him, she looks at him with sorrowful eyes. Sujal shuts his eyes tightly in order to bear the pain.

'Mujhey to khush hona chahiye! Issi haal mein hi to dekhna chahti thi main Sujal ko! Issi tarah, tadapte hue! Fir main kyun khush nahi?',

thinks a confused Kashish, whilst applying medicine on Sujal's wound. How ironic it is, the one who wanted to see him in pain; bruised, is the one applying medicines on his wound! Is the one who is unable to bear his pain! Is the one who is shivering even at his minute hiss!

'Kyun kiya usne mere liye ye sub? Kyun usne mere liye apna ye haal...',

thinks Kashish.

And unable to control herself any longer, she ends up weeping!

Why today her tears are not out of rememberance of her ex-husband? Someone she can never forget! Where is that pativrata patni, Piyush ki vidhwa, Kashish Raheja? Why is she not taking it as a sin to touch a man other than her husband? How can she forget even for a moment, her motive behind marrying Sujal? Her motive of ruining his life? Come on, she is stronger than this! Piyush ki taakat, Piyush ki dharampatni, Piyush ka pyar, Kashish, can never fail him in anything! So what if the same Kashish failed her first lover Sujal in every step, post her marriage with Piyush! So what if it didn't take even a moment for her to consummate her marriage with Piyush, forgetting about Sujal completely, as if he doesn't exist at all!

He who loves her from all his heart; he who belongs to her till eternity, where is he wrong that he has to bear the loneliness forever? Even after getting married to her, with no force applied on her to marry him? Even for few moments can she consider this selfless man, who loves her completely, madly, as her husband? Can she give him all the rights that he deserves to get as her husband? Can she for once keeping aside her ego can understand the depth of his feelings for her?

As Sujal hears Kashish, weeping, it hurts him to the core. But he doesn't make any effort to comfort her, he knows his limits. He looks at weeping Kashish through the mirror placed in front of him. He doesn't make any effort yet, to rub off the tears. The tears which are so precious to him; the tears that he vowed to himself when he fell in love with Kashish, he won't ever let them come in her eyes, let alone fall! So why today did he not rub off her tears before they even fall down completely?

Sometimes it becomes necessary to hurt someone, to let them feel the pain, to know the depth of their feelings towards you. If they hate you, they will put all the effort in return, and do whatever is necessary to see you in pain. And if they don't hate you; if they can't see you in pain; if it hurts them too when you get hurt; if they love you or even if those feelings for you are blossoming in their heart gradually, they won't be able to stand seeing you in pain! How much they say that it doesn't matter to them if you are hurt, if you are crying; but deep down they do get affected! They do care; their hearts do clench when you hiss in pain. Is this what is happening with Kashish too? But then she guarantees that she doesn't love Sujal; she is only the widhwa of Piyush!

Is she in... Nah!!! What are we even thinking!

~*~*~

Resting her head on his back she continues weeping, louder than before, her emotion at its peak.

And how can it not affect Sujal, Kashish's tears? After holding his emotions for this long, Sujal's eyes well up too. And the unexpected happens! Something she wouldn't have thought even in her dreams! Something she would have considered as sin until today. She slowly places a sweet kiss around his wound, crying throughout. Her eyes closed, as she sinks in the pool of emotions. It wasn't a quick one, it was slow. It wasn't just a mere kiss, it held all her buried feelings for this man, which were reaching the surface of her heart again, afresh.

When she entered the room and saw him in his state of hurt and pain, did she think that this is where it's going to lead to, her giving him her love? Did she think even for a moment that she will cry today, not because of him, but for him? Did she think that suddenly she would want to shower on him, all her affection? Did she think for tonight she would hate herself for hating him? Did she think tonight will be... the night?

Edited by RNpoint1857 - 8 years ago

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Posted: 8 years ago

#186

Part 4 :

As he lets the feeling of the touch of her sweet lips on his skin to enter his heart, to reach his soul, he shuts his eyes, relishing the feeling; keeping a check on his racing heartbeat and increased breathing rate. Opening them slowly, he stares at her in the mirror and thinks,

'Mere liye behne wali inn ankhon mein koi jhoot nahi ho sakta!',

they say love is blind! But to what extent, only Sujal can prove it! Who is too sharp minded as a business head of 'RnG' company, but when it comes to Kashish - his love, he becomes naive! The thought that Kashish can even think about harming him, let alone doing it, is nothing but a joke, a pathetic joke to him!

'Ye kabhi bura dekh hi nahi sakti. Inn mein sirf pyar reh sakta hai! Jissey main hi nahi dekh paya!',

how can he not understand that one cannot see something which is not in front of him at all! Yes, Kashish hated him, for according to her he took away from her - her husband - her Piyush, her unborn child, her motive to live! He didn't misinterpret her, he guessed her right! But today why is she proving his judgement to be wrong? Why can he today see immense love for him in her eyes?

'Kashish ke upar shaq karne se pehle ye tak nahi socha ki Kashish ne apni jaan khud bhi to jokhim mein daal di thi!',

Sujal blames himself for considering her as a culprit, even if it was for a moment. He sinks in the pool of his guilt for he allowed himself on believing, or may be take in consideration that Kashish can hurt him!

'Har baar main kyun Kashish ko galat samajh leta hun? Kyun?',

he blames himself further.

~*~*~

"Kyun kiya tumne ye sub?",

she asks him. Doesn't she know the answer to her question? Or is it just that she is not ready to accept the truth? Not at least until she hears him confessing it himself to her? Is she scared that with the acceptance of the truth, why he didn't care for his life, she might somehow accept another truth, which she is trying to avoid? Is she afraid that she somehow might betray her former husband?

What kinda question is that, why did he do it? Probably because he was selfish enough to think about his life! A life which belongs to Kashish. But wait didn't she just read his diary? Does she still need an answer? Does she still need to be answered? Yeah probably because it is next to impossible for her to believe that someone can love her immensely, just like she loves her late husband Piyush!

"Itni sari chotein?... Kyun meri wajah se tumne...",

she asks, crying. Only if she would have got a word called love in her dictionary, would have known the meaning of it perfectly, then she wouldn't have to get into the difficulty of asking him the question! But no one can teach her the meaning of love as perfectly as Sujal can, with his immense patience and abundance of love for her! Can she deny that? Does she have the guts to deny that?

"Ye to mamuli chotein thi Kashish. Agar fir aisa mauka aye... to main bilkul aisa hi karunga!",

he declares. His each word uttered slowly, as he drowns himself into the sea of magical thoughts of Kashish. The remembrance of which has the potential to make him go numb out of astonishment at himself, that he can love someone to this extent, even without being loved back; and to electrify his nerves, because the mere thought of Kashish gives him strength. The fact that he is having the both contrasting feelings together at this particular moment, is a matter of amazement! Though the magnitude of which one is more, it's difficult for him to judge!

"Agar meri puri ye zindagi, tumhare upar aney wali - ek choti si kharoch ko bhi bacha le... to meri zindagi ko matlab mil jayega!",

says Sujal, earnestly. He doesn't rush his words. Why should he, when he is a man of immense patience? When he knows that Kashish won't go anywhere without listening to him? When he understands that today as much he wants to spend some time with her, like always, somehow Kashish also needs to stay with him as much as possible! No, not to rejoice seeing him in pain, but to give him support if he needs to be helped in anyway. Nay, not that he needs help, he is a man who would make sure that no one whom he loves, gets troubled because of him, especially if it is Kashish but how can he deny her presence around him, when this is something he had been craving for since the misunderstanding started brewing up between them? Which resulted into Piyush and Kashish's marriage! Followed by Kashish's betrayal of her love for him when she gave Piyush all the rights of a husband!

His words force her to think; puts her in a dilemma; makes her heart to beat faster out of the feeling of guilt.

'Maine jiski zindagi leni chahi, ussi ne mere liye... apni zindagi dau par laga di!',

thinks Kashish and cries more, unable to decide how can she possibly rectify her mistake! Although she understands that it won't be that easy to rectify her mistake. But wanting to sooth his pain desperately; to provide him at least some comfort, she doesn't realize when she bends down and places another kiss near his wound, this time with a little more force, with a little more affection for him.

The soft kiss triggers Sujal's emotions! Unable to control himself; unable to bear his feelings for her anymore, he turns to look at her, his brows creased; his eyes well up, unable to bear seeing her crying, he looks at her. Kashish, not having the guts to face him, keeps her head bowed, crying throughout.

Surprisingly, between Sujal and Kashish, the eyes, the meaning of looks, have changed many a times and have played a major role!

Once there was a time when Kashish used to hesitate to meet his eyes, out of shyness, that was the time when she was falling for him! When Kashish started loving Sujal!

Then came the time when Kashish didn't use to looking at him, out of hatred, that was the time when she was the wife of Piyush! When Kashish used to so called hate Sujal!

And today again a time has come when Kashish is unable to meet his eyes, this time it is neither out of love for him nor out of her hatred towards him, but out of the guilt that is strangling her to death, gradually!

Seeing her hurt, helpless; Sujal, ever ready to provide Kashish love, strength, like an emotional fool, holds her by her face and rubs off her tears; and tries to give her strength; the comfort. But how suddenly have the roles got reversed? A few moments ago it was the other way around, wasn't it? Wasn't it Kashish who came here to provide Sujal help, strength and god knows what else? But yet again today, it is Sujal who is providing her the comfort whereas right now he is in desperate need of comfort! How more selfish can you be Kashish?

(Thodasa pyar hua hai guitar tune begins)

They stare each other as he rubs off her tears, slowly. She doesn't stop him even for once, as if more than the fact that Sujal wants to give her the comfort and strength, it is Kashish asking him to provide her the same! The Kashish he is witnessing today is helpless, heartbroken, tired, in need of strength; in need of someone who can mend her broken heart! And who else can do all this for her, with perfection, except Sujal?

Edited by RNpoint1857 - 8 years ago

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Posted: 8 years ago

#187

Part 5 :

As he sees that she is in a desperate need of comfort, he lets himself touch her! No, it isn't a forceful act, he doesn't force her to come closer to him; to bear his touch; to go through the agony of feeling him - the skin to skin touch! It is rather the other way around!

It is rather Kashish, who pleads him silently to give her the comfort! Why otherwise Sujal, a man who has held his feelings for this long; who had accepted the fact that their relationship, even after marriage, is not a normal relationship like that between a husband and wife, would dare to touch her?

Holding her by her face, his brows creased, his heart aching on seeing her crying on his account, he looks into her eyes, asking for her consent.

But why would he do that? Isn't it because of her that he has agreed to take the next step in their relationship? Why does he want her to reconsider her decision? Is it because he is afraid of touching her for the first time in a way, that he had accepted he would never touch her like? Or is it because suddenly he is pondering at his decision of loving her? Is it because he hasn't accepted her as his wife? Or is it that her ignorance has perished his feelings for her? Or is it because he doesn't want her to get swayed away by her emotions and take an in-the-moment kind of decision which she might regret later?

If he would have got even the slightest hint of her hesitation, he would have stopped right away. But her gestures were nothing but that of encouragement!

Her pleading eyes; her increased heartbeat give him all the permission he wanted to get, before moving ahead! And as he gets the permission, he lets out a sigh of relief but it is almost negligible, it takes friction of seconds that his relief gets replaced by his fresh anxiety and excitement! And why won't he feel so? When you wait for something; for someone for a long time and you finally get it, after so many obstacles, it becomes hard to believe that you have finally succeed in achieving it. You get anxious and excited, the both! So it is but normal for Sujal to feel the same!

Gradually he covers the small distance which was left between Sujal and Kashish, something Kashish wanted him to do desperately! He very slowly reaches for her forehead. The slow pace that he maintains not only proves that he bears so much patience but also shows how he wants to feel ever bit of this precious moment! This, he is doing not for him, but for her. This he is enjoying because she wants it; she is enjoying it! This he is giving to her because she asked him! How can Sujal deny Kashish for anything? The only time he ever denied from giving her something, was when after getting married to Piyush she asked, requested him, to move on with his life!

But who could teach the innocent Kashish, that to move on with one's life one needs to breath? How could Sujal move on with his life when Kashish was the air he breathed in? The fragrance of her was like an inhaler which he needed to stay alive!

Who could tell her that to move on one needs purpose? How could Sujal move on with his life, when the purpose of his living was no longer with him?

Who could make her understand that to move on, one needs strength? How could Sujal move on with his life, when his strength - his Kashish, was the encouragement for someone else, was gradually becoming the strength of someone else other than Sujal, in front of his own eyes?

He places a sweet and achingly slow kiss on her forehead! Kashish's heartbeat increases, not out of hatred that he dared to touch her, kiss her, but out of the ecstatic feeling that he gives to her after he accepts her request of loving her!

Love, he already does to her! But sometimes it becomes necessary to shower your love on someone not only by wording your feelings; not only by expressing your feelings by providing help or by showering gifts on the person you love. Sometimes without words, without material things one can still make the other feel loved! One desires to be loved that way! Sometimes to relax all the urges of a person, the only option remains is to heighten up those emotions, those urges to the extreme level!

After giving it to her, he looks at her to see how satisfied is she by at last getting what she desired to get? How happy is she on getting his love? Because who else can understand the best, the feeling of the denial one gets from his beloved, other than Sujal?

Getting the satisfactory result, Sujal holds her by her shoulders and slowly pushes her down on the bed and himself follows her, never ending their precious eye lock. As Sujal takes the next step in their marriage after dimming the light, the clock strikes 12 midnight!

Edited by RNpoint1857 - 8 years ago

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Posted: 8 years ago

#188

PART 6

Did Kashish ever think that the night when she'll take the leap of faith in her relationship with Sujal, would be the night when she should actually think about her former husband? Her real husband? How could she forget that the next morning she needs to wake up early, for the next day is an auspicious day? A puja arranged for her former husband, her real husband, Piyush!

Willingly or unwillingly, consciously or unconsciously, but she has done the justice to her relationship with Sujal; her marriage with him!Tonight marks the night when Piyush ki the widhwa, Piyush ki the dharampatni, has accepted her love for Sujal! Tonight is the night when she, to some extent has, let go of her past and accepted her today and her future. Tonight, right now she is nothing but Mrs. Kashish Sujal Garewal!

M - Dil pe hanse k liye hain,

Tumne jo ghum batein the.

He looks into her eyes with so much compassion, sitting next to her on the bed, as he pushes her slowly, lying her down on the bed. It doesn't matter to him that he is being treated like a puppet! Who is meeting all her demands and desires forgetting what he actually wants! He stays away from her when she doesn't want to even stand with him, without asking why not? He showers her with love when she demands to be loved by him, without asking why now?

Phool samjha unko bhi,

jo naukile kantein the.

He kisses her eyes one after the other, slowly, completely relishing the feel, as if they are not her eyes but some soft petals he is kissing! How can he forget that these were the eyes which used to shoot daggers at him since the time her misunderstanding and hatred increased for Sujal, post her marriage with Piyush? But then does it really matter to him at all?

Nafraton mein bhi teri,

Pyar tera chupa hai...

He doesn't fail to notice the war that is going on inside her. He just helps her to make her realize what she wants!

Ankhein kuch bolti hai,

Honth kuch bolta hai.

He looks into her eyes, the eyes which are pleading him to mark her as his own! Make her his own! And then he shifts his attention to her trembling lips, that justifies her nervousness! But Kashish getting nervous in front of Sujal? Weird!

Har galat fehmi teri,

ho...

Dil se niklegi tabhi,

Durr hogi ye udasi!

Understanding her nervousness and confusion too well, he places his index finger on her trembling lips. The touch there, makes her to shiver with pleasure! She looks into his eyes, her eyes teary with overflowing emotions.

Smiling, he shakes his head looking deeply into her eyes. Indicating her that he understands her completely and she doesn't have to feel nervous about anything. She doesn't have to move forth with this if she doesn't want to; if she is not ready yet! Because this he is doing for her, not for himself! Because he can wait, he can wait till eternity!

Kashish kisses the nape of his neck, slowly. Sujal shuts his eyes and feels every bit of the moment. Inside he is fighting a constant battle. He keeps reminding himself that it is not for him but for her! She wants to do this so she is doing it, but that doesn't mean she is ready for the reciprocation of the gesture! So he holds his feelings and realizes that she must be stopped before it gets too late! Because right now his feelings are still in his control, but god forbids but if it goes wild... he won't be able to stop himself!

Holding her hands, which are holding him by his shoulders, he looks towards Kashish, who is staring him throughout, her mind completely blank. She has entrusted her life to him. Placing them back on her either sides, he smiles and covers her eyes with his palm, urging her to get some sleep. He knows how important the next day is to her. Even if Kashish is losing the track, he would never let her do something which she might regret later. He somehow knows that when tomorrow morning she'll wake up, she will regret this night! He doesn't want her to make any in the moment kind of decision. He wants her all of her, with her presence of mind fully under her control. Kashish obliges him by doing as he wants. Sujal sighs in relief, he indeed had fought a battle, a big one just now, by keeping his feelings at a bay for her who means everything to him! But he knows there is always a right time for everything! They will get their share of right time too someday, till then he'll wait, he'll wait for her!

~*~*~

Next morning

As Kashish opens her eyes next morning and adjusts herself, she suddenly remembers that she needs to get ready, quickly. Her heart skips a beat, thinking that she must have got late in waking up. Getting out of her bed quickly she walks to her bathroom that suddenly Sujal comes out of there, wearing a cream colored kurta paired with white pajama, wiping off his hair with his towel.

(Thodasa pyar hua hai slow guitar tune begins as they stare each other)

The moments of the previous night flashes in front of Sujal's eyes. He quickly lowers his eyes, out of shyness, and blushes. Taking a deep breath, he looks at her, smiling he wishes her,

"Good morning!"

As he wishes her, he starts gauging her reactions. Eager to get any hint that the previous night is as much precious to her as it is to him! But to his surprise he gets none!

He lowers his eyes and smirks silently, as if feeling victorious; as if he already had anticipated such kinda cold reaction from her! But the only thing that he didn't understand is that this time her cold reaction isn't because the moment didn't affect her but it is because she is confused that why did it affect her?

Giving her, her space, Sujal leaves for the puja.

'Ye kya ho raha hai mujhey? Main kyun...?',

she scolds herself, pissed off at her current state. Shaking her head, trying to clear her mind she heads towards the bathroom.

~*~*~

Downstairs, all are indulged in the preparation of the puja. Sujal, standing at a corner was discussing something with Lalit uncle, when an anxious Kashish takes her steps towards him.

But suddenly Sanjana interrupts her in her process to reach Sujal,

"Kashish bhabhi, Veena Mumma apko kitchen mein bula rahi thi!"

Kashish, whose focus is on Sujal, tries to reason with Sanjana to give her some time, she'll join them in the kitchen in moments. But she doesn't listen, completely oblivious to the reason behind her asking to grant her some time.

"Bhabhi Mumma tabse apka intezaar kar rahi thi. Agar unhe pata chala ki aap aa gayi hain, fir bhi aap kitchen mein nahi gayi to apka to nahi pata, par mujhey zarur bohot dant parhegi!",

tells Sanjana, smiling a little.

An anxious Kashish looks towards Sujal for the last time with a hope that he'll look towards her for once. But getting disappointed on not getting the desired result, Kashish leaves with Sanjana for kitchen.

As soon as she leaves, Sujal looks towards her, seeing her go.

(Thoda sa pyar hua hai slow guitar tune begins)

Sighing in relief, he continues staring her and thinks...

'Tumhe jitna waqt chahiye Kashish, main tumhe utna waqt dene ke liye taiyar hun. Tumhara sath paney ke liye main puri zindagi intezaar karne ke liye taiyar hun. Par main nahi chahta ki jis din hum humare rishte mein agey barhe uss din ya uske baad, tumhari ankhon mein iss baat ka darr ya dard ya afsos ho ki tumne jaldbazi mein ye faisla kyun liya? Ki tumne jaldbazi mein... galat faisla liya!',

and lowers his eyes.

~*~*~

In the kitchen

Veena gives her work to chop some vegetables. As she starts chopping the vegetables, her mind drifts to Sujal every now and then.

'F - Zindagi mein ye kaisi,

Ajab si ghadi ayi hai.

Saath mein tu hai magar,

fir bhi ek tanhai hai.

Kuch palon ka fasla,

kuch baatein karni hai.

Dil mein jo uljhan hai,

Tujhse baantni hai.

Intezaar ki ye ghadi...

Ho...

Mushkil bitani badi,

Raah teri dekhun saathi.

Tujh pe yakeen ho raha..,

Firse humrahi.

Thodasa pyar hua hai,

Thoda hai baki!

Tho...dasa pyar hua... hai,

Thoda hai baki!'

'Main kyun Sujal se milna chahti hun? Kya kehna hain mujhey usse? Kyun main aise tadap rahi hun? Kyun mujhse ye bardasht nahi ho raha ki wo iss waqt mere saath hote hue bhi... mere paas nahi hai!'

"Kashish?",

calls Veena, reaching her, placing her hand on Kashish's shoulder. The touch jerks her back to the present.

"Haan!",

she says, getting out of her daze.

"Beta agar tumhari tabiyat theek nahi lag rahi to tum mujhey ye de sakti ho. Main to bus ye soch rahi thi ki kitchen mein aakar kaam mein humara haath bataogi to tumhe acha lagega. Agar tumhe nahi karna to tum jakar rest kar sakti ho",

says Veena, holding Kashish by her upper arm, lovingly.

"Nahi Mumma, main ye kar lungi",

assures Kashish, looking towards Veena, smiling.

As she replies to Veena, Sujal happens to cross by the kitchen, and stops abruptly, listening to Kashish's voice.

Hiding behind a pillar, Sujal enjoys listening to her voice. Arching his head back, hitting the wall lightly, Sujal looks heavenwards with a sweet smile on his face.

(Thodasa pyar hua hai starting tune begins 'hmm... hmm hmm')

~*~*~

After sometime everyone settles down for the puja. Sujal sits in the second row to the right corner in front, while Kashish sits in the forth row at the left corner.

As she settles down instead of focusing on the picture frame of Piyush in front her, Sujal drags all of her attention. Looking towards him with a sorrowful eyes she focuses on the photo of Piyush.

(Kashish's slow tune begins)

Folding her hands, she closes her eyes to focus on the puja. But to her surprise, as she closes her eyes, the memories of the previous night flashes in front of her eyes. The thought of Sujal's proximity around her in the dark room sends the chills down her spine. How can she let those thoughts to enter her mind, especially today, at this moment?

She doesn't realize when her breathing rate increases. Her cheeks start heating up, feeling ashamed of herself, that she instead of thinking about Piyush, is thinking about Sujal, that too in that way!

She opens her eyes abruptly, out of anxiety, and starts searching him. As her eyes rests on him, her anxiety releases her. With great difficulty she succeeds in focuses on the puja, which ends with in five minutes after she sets her focus on it!

On the other hand, fully aware of the fact that she wants to talk to him, Sujal avoids her on purpose. He wants her to think clearly, and decide for herself. She has time to decide what she wants, until tonight!

~*~*~

They both happen to cross their ways. Sujal this time, couldn't avoid the eye contact! Not that he was afraid to look into her eyes, but he didn't want her to get emotional and decide, he didn't want to emotionally force her.

"Sujal mujhey tumse...",

she begins, only to get interrupted by him.

"Kashish abhi bohot kaam karne hain. Main tumse baad mein baat karta hun!",

telling her that, he stares her, waiting for her to accept the delay in their conversation. Waiting to get a hint of how is it affecting her, his denial? As he gets the hint that she has accepted it, although with half heart, his eyes turn soft, careful that she doesn't notice it and he leaves. He accepts - this wait, this agony, is not only hurting her, but it is killing him too with each passing moment but he knows the worth of this wait will decide his future, so it is indeed necessary.

Getting tired of fighting with her emotions, Kashish picks up a glass of water and drinks up half of the glass and leaves. Sujal whose was constantly following her movements, keeping an eye on her, since the time they talked, sees her leaving.

After getting fully satisfied that she won't return, Sujal reaches for her half emptied glass, and empties the whole of it, making sure to drink it from the side she chose to drink! Doing so brings a satisfactory smile on his face.

Edited by RNpoint1857 - 8 years ago

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PART 7 :

At afternoon

Moving to the dining table, Kashish spreads the table clothe on it, holding the ends of a side. Noticing that she is facing problem in spreading the sheet, Sujal goes to help her.

(Thodasa pyar hua hai slow guitar tune begins)

Holding the other ends of the sheet he helps her in spreading it on the table. Kashish stares at him throughout, with a sorrowful look at her face.

After getting assured that it has been spread neatly on the table, Sujal looks towards Kashish.

Staring him for some moments, Kashish lowers her eyes out of shyness, but the memories of the previous night refrains her from smiling!

Sujal, without saying anything to her leaves. This hurts Kashish, witnessing his cold behavior towards herself. Kashish doesn't move an inch from her position, deep in thoughts and unconsciously start playing with her bangles.

"Bhabhi!",

calls Sanjana, reaching Kashish, standing across her side of the table. Sanjana's first soft call, Kashish fails to hear. Finding her absent minded, Sanjana calls her again, this time a little louder than before to catch Kashish's attention.

"Haan!",

utters Kashish, waking up from her daze.

"Kya baat hai bhabhi, aaj aap badi khoyi-khoyi si lag rahi hain? Sub theek to hai na?",

asks Sanjana out of concern.

"Haan... haan Sanjana sub theek hai!",

assures Kashish, looking towards Sanjana, smiling.

Turning serious, Sanjana says,

"Mujhey pata hai bhabhi, aap kya soch rahi hain!"

Her words catch Kashish's attention, alarm her, as if she has been caught red handed!

"Kya? Kya soch rahi hun main?",

she asks hastily. Her nervousness visible.

"Aap Piyush bhaiya ke barey mein soch rahi hai na?",

asks Sanjana, sorrowfully.

Her question reminds Kashish yet again that more than Sujal's wife, she should be here as Piyush's widhwa!

"Sanjana!",

says Kashish, feeling sorry for her and embraces her into a hug.

~*~*~

At Night

Sujal enters his room and finds Kashish standing near the window. Very slowly he takes his steps towards her, staring her throughout. Reaching her from behind, he finds her crying. It hurts him, but he doesn't make any effort to rub off her tears. He understands that sometimes it becomes important to release your pent up emotions. If not Sujal, then who else will understand this? If not in front of Sujal, then in front of whom would Kashish show her true emotions, without any hesitation; without any fear?

The breeze entering through the open window flickers her hair. As he reaches near her, her hair kisses his face. Closing his eyes, Sujal inhales the sweet fragrance of her hair. She smells so Kashish! The Kashish he knew, the Kashish who was his employee! The Kashish with whom he fell in love with since the moment he saw her, only if he wouldn't have taken so long to admit it in front of her, then they could have got more time to create more memories!

Without uttering a word, Sujal reaches for the window to close it. Kashish, feeling his proximity around her, turns to look at him.

The look that Sujal gives to her succeeds in heating up her body! The cool breeze which a few moments ago was making her to shiver, is somehow giving her a soothing feeling now, cooling down her now heated nerves! Heated out of nervousness, out of fear, as she anticipates what the night beholds for them!

If Kashish is being affected by his presence, by the whole arrangement of the night, then Sujal is no where far behind her! He is being affected too! If Sujal's presence is warming her up, then Kashish's innocent fear, is giving him all the strength to move forth!

'Pyar se pyar hum, ab to karne lagey.

Apke pyar mein, jeene marne lagey.'

They stare each other, Kashish with her sorrowful eyes, while Sujal's eyes reflect how he is ready to give himself to her. To let her do whatever she wishes for! His heart is beating at it's own slow pace, he is all calm, as ever. He is totally at her mercy! Whatever she likes she can do, he won't stop her!

Kashish's eyes reflect how it is hurting her to see him this way, almost emotionless. It tells how she is still confused to take the next step. She understands that he won't stop her from doing anything tonight, because she wants it!

'Iss qadar apse humko, mohobbat hui.

Iss qadar apse humko, mohobbat hui.

Apki dhadkano mein, utarne lagey.

Pyar se pyar hum, ab to karne lagey'

Unable to control her emotions any longer, Kashish hugs him tightly. Sujal shuts his eyes and tries to calm down his breathing rate. He doesn't make any effort to hug her back. His brows are all relaxed, as if he is tired of waiting and wanting, and is in no state to decide what exactly is he feeling in this very moment - happy, ecstatic, thankful, puzzled or something else. In his mind he starts thinking about the innumerable moments that he thought he'll get a chance to spend with her, but didn't get ever!

Whereas Kashish, her mind for once shifts its attention from Piyush and focuses entirely on Sujal! Her heart beats faster as she feels him! She doesn't understand why she wanted to hug him desperately, but now that she has, she is feeling safe!

But this is not all, she aches for a reciprocation of the gesture. But on not receiving the same gesture, makes her anxious. She tightens the hold on him, hugs him to her more, only if more is possible!

'Ab nahi ho raha dil pe, kabu sanam.

Apki chahaton mein hai, jadu sanam.

Ab nahi ho raha dil pe, kabu sanam.

Apki chahaton mein hai, jadu sanam'

She gets away from him, a little, to check why is he not hugging her back? Is he angry? Is he hurt? She doesn't understand!

But who can explain to her, that Sujal can never get angry on his Kashish! Yes, he was once, after which he decided to ruin Piyush's life! Even though he declared that he had no feelings for her, what so ever, but that wasn't this Sujal! That wasn't the Sujal who once loved her; who still loves her! That was a new Sujal! A Sujal who got a new birth in the same lifetime, out of hatred, humiliation that he received from his dear ones, from his loved ones!

His calm expression confuses her! How can he remain unaffected? How can Kashish not affect Sujal? She looks at him in utter surprise, on receiving such a cold gesture from him! But what she discovers, surprises her even more! The desire, the need to love her is evident in his eyes. So why is he holding back his feelings and emotions?

Sujal understands why is she confused, but chooses to remain quiet, like always. He chooses to let her read him by herself, if she can, but he won't explain himself to her, not tonight!

'Ab hosh na, kuch bhi raha,

Khwabon mein, kho gaye.

Zulfon taley, hum chain se,

Bahon mein, so gaye'

Crying even more, she hugs him again, expecting for a reciprocation this time. The sudden attack, erupts his emotions afresh but how can his emotions ever win over a calm and controlled Sujal? He turns his hands into fists to control his emotions. He lets her to love him as much as she likes. He lets her to exploit him!

'Apko dekh ke,

anhein bharne lagey.

Apko dekh ke,

anhein bharne lagey.

Iss qadar apse humko,

mohobbat hui.

Iss qadar apse humko,

mohobbat hui.

Apki dhadkano mein,

utarne lagey.

Pyar se pyar hum,

ab to karne lagey'

As he succeeds in calming down himself a little, he looks towards Kashish hugging him, very slowly. He could feel his cheeks emitting heat, as he starts losing his self control bit by bit!

'Ek dujey ko aise,

tadpa gaye.

Dekhte dekhte hi,

kareeb aa gaye.

Ek dujey ko aise,

tadpa gaye.

Dekhte dekhte hi,

kareeb aa gaye'

Realizing that she must be forcing herself on him, Kashish gets away. Lowering her teary eyes, she continues crying, standing in front of him, helpless. She needs him; she needs to feel him; she needs to be with him, but she cannot force herself on him, it is so not Kashish!

'Cherhe zara,

mehboob ko,

aawargi kahe.

Chahey sada,

bus apko,

deewangi kahe'

Seeing how she is trying to get the reciprocation of her gesture from him, brings a little smile on Sujal's face.

Finding him making fun of her, makes her to cry harder, silently! She understands he is teasing her now. But is this the appropriate time to tease her? When inside she is dying to melt in his arms, here he is giving such a cold reply!

But what's the fun in love, with no tease?

She glares at him, accusing him silently, for being such a tease! What kinda manner is this, teasing, testing the one you love? But what's the fun in loving someone, without getting mannerless?

'Aaj to, hadd se agey guzarne lagey.

Aaj to, hadd se agey guzarne lagey.

Iss qadar apse humko, mohobbat hui.

Apki dhadkano mein, utarne lagey.

Pyar se pyar hum, ab to karne lagey'

Very slowly, Sujal trails the hair of her left side, with his index finger, moving it to a side. This little gesture, heightens up Kashish's emotions. He looks into the eyes of crying Kashish. For the first time, her cry is giving him pleasure! As her each tear drop is the evidence of her immense love for him! He is able to fathom her feelings towards him, after a long time.

Kashish ends up hugging him again, this time with a little more force than before, as the previous hug gives her strength that she can continue with this if she wishes. This time, she is dominating him with all her heart, because she knows, she can!

Ending the hug, Kashish looks towards him. Sujal shakes his head, indicating her not to cry, there is nothing to cry!

Kashish very slowly, as if afraid, that if this is a dream, then she might disturb it, and it would end, within moments, which she doesn't want, at all, holds him by his face. Her hands shaky, calms a little only when she rests them on his face.

Crying, she rests her head on his heart, somewhere, where she stays! Where she belongs to!

It is then, that her eyes falls on a bruise, adjacent to his heart. The look of it pierces her heart!

"Bohot dard ho raha hai?",

she asks, her focus now entirely on the hurt area.

Looking at it for some seconds, Sujal lets her know, uttering each word slowly, with full patience, to make her realize the depth of his feelings for her. He knows, he might not get another chance. He might not get a chance to enjoy the same relation with her as he is enjoying right now, before this precious moment ends, he wants her to know that what she means to him!

"Iss dard ke badle, maine tumhe wapas paya hai Kashish! Tum meri zindagi ho! Aur agar meri zindagi ki keemat ye chand zakhm hai, to ye keemat bohot kam hai!",

Sujal tells her earnestly, looking at her, all serious. Kashish, with her teary eyes, looks into his perfectly readable eyes and understands his emotions, as he utters these words. She gets surprised all over again on witnessing the depth of his feelings for her.

"Aur agar meri zindagi ki keemat ye chand zakhm hai... to ye keemat bohot kam hai!"

Getting this opportunity at last, Sujal lets her know how she means the world to him. But will he ever get tired of all this? Will he ever stop showing his love to her? Will he ever refrain from showering his love on her? Will he for once stop being selfless? What exactly is he made up of? Does he not feel pain when get hurt? Oh yes he does! But his pain is confined to only the times when he sees tears in the eyes of his Kashish!

Very slowly, Sujal picks up a drop of Kashish's tear on his index finger, his brows creased, as if the little drop of tear is inflicting in him a great deal of pain. This salty water is giving to him many bitter moments which he'll have to endure not only at this moment, but for the rest of his life, whenever he'll recollect the moments when he hurt his Kashish! Kashish focuses her attention on what he is doing!

Looking at the drop of tear, Sujal lets her know,

"Mujhey dard issey hota hai!"

Knowing not what to say, Kashish looks back towards him, crying profusely.

"Issey kabhi apni ankhon se girne mat dena!",

he tells her, almost warns her lightly.

M - 'Bewafa tum nahi ho,

Bewafa hum nahi hai.

Apni kismat mein shayad,

Ghum hi kuch kam nahi hai.

Teri ankhon mein hai chahat,

Ye hai ehsaas mujhko.

Dheere dheere puri hogi,

Jiski hai aas humko.

Humpe barsega gagan,

ho...

leke chahat ki kiran,

har khushi legi angdayi.

Maine wada kiya hai,

tera hai baki.

Maine tujhey apna mana hai,

o mere saathi.

~*~*~

Holding his hand, getting emotional, Kashish places it on her left cheek, urging him to touch her! Requesting him to let her feel him; his touch; his warmth. She leans on his hand. This he considers as her gesture to let him know how she wants to be with him in this particular moment! How she wants to forget the world, and live with him, this moment at this place which now for her is nothing but heaven.

Heaven - with the air filled with his fragrance. A place laden with his love and emotions.

Sujal, who attentively gauges her each gesture, understands what she must be going through. How her heart is filled with a turmoil of emotions! But he decides to stay quiet and lets her to decide, how to handle her emotions. He lets her to do as her heart desires.

She looks back at him, getting straight. Still holding his hand, as if afraid, that if it is a dream, it might end as soon as she'll let go of his hand.

She doesn't want that to happen, her eyes are giving away her fear and need.

F - 'Tum to ek aina ho,

dil mein jo hai labon par.

Tumko samjha hai maine,

ab tere paas reh kar.

Kashish stares him, with her teary eyes. Her lips tremble out of nervousness. Sujal focuses his attention on her trembling lips. Why this nervousness? Why this hesitation, in front of her Sujal?

Teri palko taley hai,

pyar ka aashiyana.

Dheere dheere hua hai,

dil tumhara deewana.

Unable to bear seeing her crying, Sujal bends towards her, slowly, giving her time to accept all this. Very slowly, he kisses away her tears.

The touch of his lips on her skin, sends chills down her spine and warms her up too in moments!

Mera humsaya ho tum,

ho...

dhoop mein saya ho tum,

tumse khushiyan hai payi.

Kashish, to whom, Sujal was someone whose mere presence was intolerable, savours his scent. She bathes in the warmth being emitted by his body. She chooses to keep her eyes shut, in order to bear this hyper tension prevailing between them at this moment, which is the result of their closeness.

As Sujal kisses away her tears, he gives to Kashish, a feeling of uneasiness. But for Sujal, the uneasiness that he was feeling till now, soothes as he feels her properly, for the first time, since they got married!

Dil ne aitbaar kiya hai,

tum pe humrahi.

Thodasa pyar hua hai...

Very slowly, Kashish covers his eyes, as it becomes unbearable for her to stand under his constant gaze. His gaze does magical things to her inside. The increase in her heartbeat; her sharp and constant intake of air; the welling up of her eyes every now and then; the glowing of her skin are some of the results of his constant gaze.

Sujal, has he no shame to give her all these feelings, all at the same time? But can we blame this poor soul who himself is not standing unaffected? Only if he would have had the energy to show to Kashish, how exactly is he feeling! Only if he would have accepted the fact that he has all the rights to touch her; to love her; to make her know how much he wants her; how much she means to him, then the whole scenario would have been the exact opposite! But had it been the opposite, would it be called - The eternal love story of Sujal-Kashish?

It is different, therefore it is special, isn't it?

Sujal doesn't protest for not letting him see her. How can he remain quiet on getting denied from seeing his Kashish? Why didn't he protest? Why didn't he deny from closing his eyes? He rather submitted himself to her wishes! This is the depth of his love for her. This is the depth of his trust on her. This is the depth of his craziness about her. This is what Sujal is, when he is with her! With his Kashish!

And as he closes his eyes his heartbeat goes blank. He doesn't have the energy to tolerate this tension that's bottling up inside him, he needs to relax, if he doesn't wanna die out of anxiety. And relax, he does. He is at her mercy.

He doesn't anticipate. He lets himself go with the flow. He lets himself trust her, that she would handle it properly. She wouldn't shatter everything, she wouldn't turn this moment, into nothing but another dream that he dreams every night. No, not tonight, not when they are this close! This cannot be a dream. This she cannot convert into a dream. This she cannot let go like that! He trusts her with this! Tonight she can't ruin this moment, when she was the one who chose this to happen, at first place.

As for Kashish, she doesn't understand what is she doing; why is she doing? The only thing that she knows is she wants to feel him. She wants to be closer to him. She wants to believe that everything is normal between them. She for once wants to get the feeling that she is his wife, his ardhangini!

Edited by RNpoint1857 - 8 years ago