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pixiegirl

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Posted: 10 years ago

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Jen, let me at the very outset put my fears out there, before I begin to write my comment...

You had mentioned in your previous update about a hospital confrontation... And I was hoping to see one here b/w Arnav & La, but since Aastha wanted to go home, I am assuming they left w/o Arnav meeting La, & nor did he seem inclined to meet her per se... So that leads me to the next logical conclusion that the hospital confrontation you were referring to was or is going to be b/w La & Khushi?!?!?!? Geez! Now, that's something I am not looking forward to at all...

I'll be frank (as I always am)... I understand Khushi is reeling under enormous guilt at the moment & blames herself for everything, but to see La pouncing on Khushi in person & blaming the whole fiasco on Khushi all over again is something I can really do without... Unless of course, you want to use that confrontation to show La repenting her actions & absolving Khushi of "some" if not "all" of the blame (which is highly unlikely given La's temperament)... Either way, it will be hard to swallow, to see Khushi being blamed first hand from a person who deserves only pity but no sympathy... But as always, I will trust your judgment & wait for you to write the story as you see it... 😊

So, all of a sudden Aastha has become the hero!! LOL I guess, parents are never appreciated for their sound advice, no matter how timely given & with the best of intentions... Their well meaning advice becomes a bone of contention for the self-centered kids... Only when a parent comes in to bat for them, do they win some gratitude & appreciation... :))) Sad to see such disrespect of parents' advice & opinion in our lives!! Parents are treated well as long as they are convenient to us, but one difference of opinion & lo, they become recipient of our scathing criticism...

Have I ever told you, how much I love your Arnav??? LOL I guess, I have... Well, if it is possible, I love him even more today... I loved the way he got irritated with Aastha when he learnt how she had intervened... He is such a principled guy, no wonder, his tough stance on the issue was hardly appreciated cuz, principles are such a rarity these days, the way to deal with them has been long forgotten... Principles have become worthless in today's world of me, my, mine... Principles come in the way of instant gratification you see... So glad to see Arnav shining like a bright star in this darkened sky... ⭐️

Poor Shashi, feel really sorry for him... Poor guy, did not & does not deserve what life has meted out to him so far... First, he lost the love of his life so early in life, then spent all his life raising two beautiful daughters to the best of his ability... Hoping at 23 & 28 years, they were old enough to stand on their feet & make the right choices in life... And when he thought, he could take a break & look for a companion for himself, he had nothing but trouble in store for him... You have not mentioned, but something tells me, his equation with his second wife wasn't so glorious after all... Where is she?? Is he already divorced?? Then comes this situation with La, first her hasty wedding, then the loss of his grandson, followed by her impending divorce... And just when he thought, things couldn't get any worse, his lunatic daughter goes & ups the ante with her suicide stunt... C'mon La, give your poor dad a break for goodness' sake!!!! 😡

If I had thought poorly of La before, well, guess what, I dislike her even more so now... How can she be so selfish is totally beyond me... What kind of a daughter is she?!?!?!? She is sick, there is no doubt about that, but putting your old dad through this much pain & trauma is absolutely unimaginable! To top it all, while he was just recovering from the biggest fright of his life at losing one of his daughter's, he had to learn an ugly fact about her unethical character!!! That must have been the last straw, quite literally. It was pathetic to see Shashi crumble in pain & shame at the thought of La duping Arnav to marry her with another man's child... My heart goes out to the poor man today, Gosh! If there's anybody I want to hug today besides ArHi of course, it is Shashi!!! Buddy hang in there, & let's hope & pray that God takes some mercy on you, & blesses your brainless daughter with some sense & sensibility this time! 🤗

On a side note, Jen, you had once told us that La was like one of us, she wasn't totally bitchy... But dear girl, the more you reveal her story, the more I am inclined to disagree with you... Sorry, but I can't relate at all to her being a normal, sane person. She is obsessive to the point of destruction!! All I felt was pity for her when she begged her dad to get better... I will take her resolve to get over Arnav with a pinch of salt for the time being, if you don't mind.

Lastly, about our favorite couple... To say that my heart broke for both them today would be grossly understating the facts... Arnav's mind-numbing relief at seeing Khushi's call was heart-breaking to say the least. Khushi's distant, stilted voice said it all IMO... She is totally shattered. She is so numb with pain, she has turned into a zombie... Her numb brain recalled her promise to Arnav, & she called him back... But she knows it is over for her. I don't know how much more she can take... Was super glad to see her voice for self-preservation raise its head... I hope she listens to that voice & leaves Cleveland ASAP & does not head to the hospital for more abuse... She needs to get away from all this, just to preserve her own sanity... As I said before, even Arnav, realizes now that he needs to let her go this time, that she needs space & time to deal with all the demons in her head... He is willing to wait, but little does he know, it maybe a looonnnggg wait... Who knows when he will set his eyes on her next & where?? But I sincerely hope it is with a divorce settlement in one hand and a ring in the other & not a moment sooner than that...

About your writing Jen, it is flawless... The flow of the story is just perfect, with the right mix of everything in just the right places... As I have always said, & I'll say it again, your depiction of all the characters in this story is so real, it is hard to remember that it is fiction... Don't you hurry up the story line only it make it more romantic & hot. A story needs the right amount of pathos in order to stir up the right emotions in your heart... As you said before, the pain endured now, will only make the story that much sweeter when the time comes, so no worries, you're doing a fab job girl, keep up the good work & take a bow! 👏 👏

Edited by pixiegirl - 10 years ago

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Posted: 10 years ago

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Manasa

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Posted: 10 years ago

#73

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Jenny, let me make this as simple as I can - I think we are really fortunate to have writers like you who not only brighten our days week after week, but also make us laugh, cry and bring out emotions in us to make our lives a little more complete. So, with that said, you being embarrassed or saying sorry was like the flower saying sorry to the bees. I know that was not the best of comparisons but on second thought, maybe we are those bees who just want extract your sweetness and also want to make sure we do not damage you in the processJ.

Let me put the bees aside for now. Coming to story, I am relating to what you said at the end. There is so much grief, anger and guilt floating around all the individuals of the story, it is difficult to read so I can imagine how difficult to write would be. It does take an effort and for that we are very grateful.

This chapter was really about many hard realizations. Khushi realizing that the situation changes everything, Shashi realizing that he could have done a lot more for his daughters, and Lavanya at least saying the words which resemble a realization. I am still cautiously optimistic on the follow-up's based on these realizations, but there is always this smidge of suspicion and fear that is just not leaving my thoughts.

Khushi's thoughts were spot on, knowing what she knows. Her internal struggle between her heart and brain is a must for her strength and her progress. We wish she ends up making the right call for everyone's sake and most of all for her sanity.

I should really applaud you for taking the time and relating to us what Shashi is going through. Putting Manya aside for her emotional outlook, I feel Shashi is the only one who can convey the real message to Lavanya. With her physical recovery imminent, I think Shashi is the one who can help her recover mentally. But, It's hard not to feel for him whose best bet of finding sanity with the situation, was to cling on to the reasoning of his "daughter's mad love". But as fate would have it, his tryst with grief and anger could only turn into grief and guilt. I guess it's better late than never for him now to get his daughter back for his sake and as well for her sake.

Looks like Arnav and the rest of the gang are going through the motions and emotions in the best way they can. But I wish I could say the same thing about us bees. The anticipation of what's next t is becoming difficult to manageJ. Teaser or no teaser, shahad ya zehar, jo bhi ho tere haath se, hum tho kushi kushi peelenge!!!

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canapoem

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Posted: 10 years ago

#74

Jenny darling, I just cannot thank you enough for this wonderful story and an equally awesome update.

Poor Khushi, torn between the promise she made to Arnav that she will always be with him and her guilt which is telling her that somehow she was responsible for what Lavanya is undergoing today.

The phone conversation between Arnav and Khushi, I could literally visualise Arnav's desperation and Khushi's dilemma.

"She needs time", he told himself, "She must be under shock right now...she needs time to get over it".

"I'll wait...".

The above sentences are just not leaving my mind. Does this indicate the future course of actions?

Does Khushi go away due to guilt and also wanting some time away from this mess and to let fate take its course of action?

When Arnav said he will wait, he WILL WAIT. He will wait till his divorce has been finalised and this mess has been cleared before he pursues her again.

Loved the way you have penned down Shashi and Aastha's talk. For once I am glad that Aastha told him the truth. More than Arnav or Khushi, Shashi knowing the truth will help Lavanya the most here.

Shashi was a good father indeed. Losing his wife at an early age and taking care of two young daughters alone must have been a tough job. Between balancing his professional life and taking care of the house and his daughters, I wonder if he noted that Lavanya was a person with a weak mind compared to Manya who had a strong innerself.

Was Lavanya more closer to her mother than her father in her early life?? Did she miss her mother emotionally after her death and even though she did connect to her father, was that not sufficient?

Human brain is the most unpredictable thing in the whole world. No one can ever predict how it reacts to different situations it faces and I am guessing Lavanya's weak mind is somewhere related to her mother's early death.

I guess she was clinging on to the emotional support her father was providing till she was 23 and once when her father remarried, a distance was created in her subconscious mind between her and her father. Outwardly maybe she was genuinely happy for her father, but deep down without her knowledge she had started feeling lonely and scared as days progressed. And as Shashi himself notes the phone calls or mails were not sufficient for her and her constant need for emotional support.

And at this stage in her life enters Arnav and she automatically latched on to him for her sanity and rest we all know what happened from then onwards.

Coming to Manya, she is more stronger emotionally than her sister and probably she never even knew that her younger sister was indeed in a mess.

After Lavanya's marriage with Arnav, looks like neither Shashi nor Aastha looked deeply into their children's married life.

Aastha was dealing with her own sorrow, the untimely death of her husband and probably Shashi was concentrating on his failing second marriage and Manya was more career oriented to slow down and take a notice of her sister's life.

Then Aarav dies suddenly and things change over night in everyone's lives.

Arnav moves out ending his marriage, Lavanya is unable to decide which is more painful, Aarav's death or the death of her own marriage.

Aastha and Shashi are clueless as to what happened in their children's lives as Arnav and Lavanya have built shells around themselves and do not want to allow anyone into their emotional lives.

Here Shashi made the biggest mistake. He assumed that Arnav was a jerk who destroyed his daughter's life and ditched her when she was in her lowest point in life. He did call Arnav once, and Arnav's kind of rude reply that nothing or no one can change his view on the marriage only strengthened his view on Arnav.

Probably he fed the same information to Manya and they both concluded that Lavanya's life was indeed destroyed by Arnav. They kept telling her that her husband is a big time jerk to have disowned her at this stage and how he was not worth her. But deep down Lavanya knew that her father and sister are wrong and the reasons they were giving her to move on were also wrong and this made her obsession for Arnav only increase because she knew that he was totally worth it. He was the best guy she could hope for.

Aastha might have told Shashi the truth to save her son, but now Shashi knows that their entire approach to the situation was totally wrong.

They always pitied Lavanya, saw her as a victim of her husband's betrayal, saw her as someone at the receiving end. But the truth was far away from their assumptions.

She is not the victim here. What she needs is an assessment to find out the reason for her deep rooted psychological depression more than plain pity. She needs assurance that her fears will be addressed and it will gradually go away with constant care and treatment. She needs encouragement to rebuild her life filling it with positive energy rather than negative energy like blaming Arnav. Shashi and Manya should also rebuild her self confidence which she has lost totally over the past few years.

If Shashi really wants to help his daughter, he should tell this truth to Manya too because the way Manya said that Arnav is not worth this - sentences like these will only increase La's obsession for Arnav because she knows he is totally worth it.

I am glad that Lavanya atleast want to try now and she did feel guilty looking at her father's dejected face. I hope she continues on this recovery path and not go back again on her obsession.

Finally I just want to add that Lavanya did know that she was carrying Jason's child when she married Arnav. Did she try to contact Jason and tell him that she was pregnant with his child?

Even if he is dead now, I am sure he must have been alive when she married Arnav. He could not have died within few days of having sex with La. Did he know about the pregnancy? If not I feel sorry for him that he never got a chance to know that he fathered a child.

If he knew and did not care, then this again questions La's mental condition. Why did she sleep with such a jerk??

I guess Shashi with the help of maybe Dr. NM, really need to look deep into how La's mind works.

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anukap

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Posted: 10 years ago

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Oh jenny, thank you so much. Can imagine the pressure and stress you are going through. But you did a super job of telling us the story in such a beautiful way. Now that astha has revealed the truth to shashi and lavanya says she wants to move on, things will ease up at that end hopefully. But poor khushi, who at this time is so alone and confused. Wish her parents were by her side, hope they come to their sense soon. Arnav, poor guy, I guess by the time he gets to khushi she will be gone:(

You are doing great so take your time. Wish you the best. Cheers!

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kclovearshi

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Posted: 10 years ago

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Without a word, her father drew her in a hug, his heart wrenching when she cried, "I want to get better, Daddy. I want to get over him..."

Jenny, you made me emotional!! Can you believe you made me cry with those words? Oh God why in the world you did not make Lavanya evil?? why are you making me empathize with her? God why?

I hope with her new found resolve and the knowledge Shashi has now will help her overcome her need for Arnav. If not for her sake, I want Lavanya to be better for Arnav's sake..Khushi's sake..to absolve Khushi of her guilt..of ruining a last chance.

But where will this lead them now? I'm so confused about what Khushi should be doing right now. Should she listen to Arnav? Should she go far away to keep her sanity? Why is she not heeding to any of Arnav's assurances? Should she be heeding? Can she not wait it out? What would I do? What would any body do in her shoes? I'm not in a better place to judge her..Think she should do what's better for her at this time..what her mind tells her to do..She's been wrong'ed..she has a right to make her own decision..

Astha disclosed to Shashi - a right thing to do..I dont give a damn if Arnav didn't like it..Which mother sits there and take it? And after all this, Arnav didn't want his child's own grandfather to not know the truth? Ridiculousness to the nth degree. He is loyal to the turn of faultness, it's grating me now.

Astha & Shashi's confrontation - thums up. When I heard Shashi's accusation, I immediately went like wow, look at him but he accepted it-the hard truth, as soon as it was revealed.

Astha's thoughts when she saw the note mirrored my thoughts as to why she opposed Arnav-Khushi's relationship!! I knew she only acted in the best interests of Khushi and of course her son with whatever limited knowledge she had. I love her.

I beg to differ that Shashi failed as a father (may be its his niceness that is making him think that he failed). He was/is a wonderful father. It's no easy task to bring up two motherless girls that too so young..He letgo of his own needs and devoted his life to be a father and mother both..He only thought of himself when the girls moved out..which is totally understandable..and about not having person to person talk, I wonder how much of that would have helped Lavanya with her one sided Love for Arnav..We are our own person..what we do, our actions are a result of our own Psyche, so I think how Lavanya turned out is herself responsible for which in her own words, she couldn't help..

The only poistive in the chapter is that Lavanya finally admitted she has a problem and she wants to get better which I only surmise is that she is finally ready to let go of Arnav..Give my hugs to her Jenny 😳

Is it too late? only you can tell Jenny 🤗

(ps: dont you worry about being late, it only shows you are striving to make it perfect and as always this was a perfect chapter.. now I'm dreading Sujatha/Navin's actions)

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UV_Arshi

@UV_Arshi

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Posted: 10 years ago

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I don't know what to say...that hasn't already been said.

this phase is so...dark and painful...emotionally draining. I applaud you for writing it with such objectivity and managing to make it look effortless 👏

The first part was for me the most important and poignant. It brings forth the state of mind Khushi is in, the burden that she is carrying. One that is not hers to carry!

I don't have doubts that Arnav will do his best to make this okay or that they will get through this but at the moment it is not about that. This is about Khushi. This one incident and the following blame, accusations and guilt have done to her what nothing else could. It has made her question herself, blame herself. It doesn't matter whether it is right or wrong to do that, the significant thing is that it has finally broken through her self-belief. She needs time and space to deal with it. She deserves it to 'preserve her sanity' and to find peace within. Arnav and Guptas owe it to her to give her that, at least.

Arnav is trying to maintain his composure. He is holding on to Khushi, refusing to accept the gravity of the effect this has had on her. Even after she says, that this changes everything, he chose to think it is just a passing thought. Maybe Khushi is not the only one who could use some time for sorting things out.

I am glad that Astha rooted for her son (although, it's easier now that she knows the truth). I choose to believe she would have not revealed the truth if Shashi had not accused and blamed Arnav for everything. Maybe she feels guilty and angry 'cause that is what she did too, even if not to that extent. Arnav's reasons for not wanting Astha to reveal it are understandable. But the time to avoid it has passed. He needs to take a stand and clear out this mess. If not for himseld then for Khushi, at least.

Shashi seems like he was a good father to the girls. And it's understandable that he blames himself for letting things deteriorate to this extent.

Perhaps, there are too many factors here at play that have to affected Lavanya's psyche and eventually her led to the situation today.

I don't know whether to be glad that she finally realises the futility of her actions and obsession or to shake her and make her see the repercussions that it has had on so many other lives. She has had far too many moments of weakness, made far too many errors in judgment.

I don't know if I've managed to convey what I feel because my emotions are all over the place. I can only say that you have written it wonderfully!!

I look forward to as well as dread reading the next chapter!

Edited by UV_Arshi - 10 years ago

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kushiarnav1

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Posted: 10 years ago

#78

superb chapter jenny, u written very well...

shashi as a father how he tried to be a best father ,feel bad for him,sometimes how hard u try things will happen the way they are...

i hate lavanya, now also she wants sympothy😡thank god astha told everything to shashi, hoping he will manage everything...

manya see some light dear...

cheers..

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sman

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Posted: 10 years ago

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For once, Astha took a great decision on Arnav's behalf..loved it..

I always commented about Lavanya not having a mother..my guess came true..thats very tragic ..oddly, I felt sympathy for Shashi..!! But I have become stone hearted..!! I did not feel anything for Lavanya..she realizes her mistake now and wants to get over Arnav after completely ruining his life..!! what a lady..
Manya , you could have told your sister that no man is worth it when she was trying to get back to Arnav..where the hell were you?

Poor Kushi..she is leaving Arnav just bcos Lavanya said she ruined their second chance?? I can understand how she must be feeling..even I would feel like that if I was in her place..GUILT is the main thing which is making her go away.. poor thing..

In all this mess, only Arnav suffers for his mistake for one night..this happens in real life too.. I would recommend youngsters to read this story to learn something from it..

Lovely update Jen.. you are making new standards for yourself with each update..hats off

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MDTharun

@MDTharun

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Posted: 10 years ago

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"Don't you realize, Arnav..This changes everything". Arnav hasn't understood the implication of khushi's words , it is more or less a good bye note from khushi 😭. She is hurt beyond repair , her own mother did not understand her which made things worse .

Aastha has finally told the truth to Lavanya's father , it must have been very disheartening for shashi to hear that his daughter chose to hide such important truth . Arnav is angry with his mom for revealing truth to Shashi , Arnav will regret his decision to hide Aarav's parenting big time .

I want Lavanya to move on , she couldn't hold on to something which never belonged to her .

Edited by MDTharun - 10 years ago