Dii... I was saying that last up.. was the hardest to read bt I dunno that the future hold more pains than what we read in last update.
it must be really hard for u to pen.. as reading this itself make me take million pause.. than what must be ur condition wern u are penning this..
it require the real efforts and a strong heart to decide the path which may lead to destination bt had all elements wen crossing the way... either its love ,pain,emotions,sentiments,trust,defeat,success,pride,longingness,thirst of care and love and many others... TVK is the same journey which has millions of factors which had raced this story to a different level...
If I say IPKKND was a life which I had lived and nvr can have the same life again as it has taken away all along with it.. same I am feeling for tvk.. if IPK was my life than TVK is the heart that is nw beating in me to make me survive aftr IPK.. I wndr wat I ll do the day it will end...
Dii... for U...
Hum tho us roz he unke sath choor ho gye hote
The hum bs jinda ab tak gham mei nke rakh ho gye hote
Waqt bhe na de paya tha jo dard wo jate jate de gye
Hum tho us dard mei doob kar ab tak sb se ruksat le chuke hote
Naye roshni us andhere mei pher jo aapse mile na hote
Is dil ko aapse milkar ye naye umeed jage na hote
Karte na hum aaj bhe intzaar kise ke ane ka is qadar
Aapne aakar jo jindagi mei dastak di na hote
Nw about the update..
Again it was hard to read...
Why its like that sumtym sme ppl hav to suffer for the sins they are not responsible for... eithr in guilt or pain..
Arnav ... Evn he killd Adi bt he lost the biggest battle in his life to see the man in pain for the sins he committed.. bt no he was lifeless and atleast in peace than wat he may be, if was alive..
Arnav broke the promise of saving the Raizada clan.. bt a thought strike my mind is it raizada blood that Khushi is carrying so... the man who gave Arnav this prestigious life has someone to carry his name.. hw ill fated... yes it's the cruel part and nvr Arnav want this to be known by any prsn .. bt the fact is that it's the truth.. hw destiny playd so bad...
Evn Adi left this world bt has dne an unrepairable damage.. that can nvr be undo by any spell..
I feel more helpless wen read that Arnav killd Adi or say Adi is dead.. he was not deserving this easy death... I didn't gt a good feeling that evn he is dead bt still its haunting me.. dunno the exact reason bt yaa.. as I read the helpnesses of Arnav .. I feel more bad for him..
I dnt regret the thing that Arnav killd Adi .. bt may be the loss Adi did was such that evn his dead made no cost to wat he did..
Arnav is paying for wat he was nvr at fault.. his just mistake was that he didn't confront them that night.. bt as its logical and natural that no man can be this strong aftr seeing such a view to confront the prsn.. he startd loving ... he was broken..
To read his pain today.. I cried the worst.. it was the biggest tym wen I cant stop myself...
I was better on streets, at least no one would have got hurt or were unhappy because of me.
This line was the breaker.. I lost the last emotion I was holding... hw just someone's deed made him feel all hislife was in vain
Dii u knw nowadays I gt more of emotional than earlier so soon with small talks as tvk has giftd me bundles..of it ..
Arnav confessed to Anjali that he was the one to kill Adi.. I respect more the character u potrayed that his evry action make me feel that this man deserve the best and nw god plz... give him his share of happiness which he has been longing since his whole life..
His evry action shows that this man is god best saviour... who came on this earth to take the pains of an Angel and many others ..
Dii u made this characters the way we gt connected to them u are really a sweet angel ..
His pains are effecting us.. Khushi's condition is effecting us.. adi's death is effecting us.. Anjali's helpness is effecting us... nani's situation is effecting us.. dii wat have u dne... I feel they are my close one and I feel their pain... gosh .. to this extend... that its nw irresistible...
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Anjali... Wat shall I say.. she is the reason or not .. I dnt knw.. bt yaa I feel bad to see that the bro for whom she thought this much .. was today is the reason that she is in grief plus pain.. plus a guilt .. but as Arnav said her to be responsible for his death .. bt yaa I knw he didn't mean it.. bt I agree that if Anjali distanced him with Arnav doesn't maen that he must go on a path of evil... he was enough mature at tym to deal with things than he could hav concluded the right one no bt he.. was till than all lost in his revenge and crossed all boundaries..
Still I cant think of Anjali be responsible for this.. as she too was a teen and no child will like that their loved one's change their priorities.. it was a mistake of a nave heart.. she nvr did it intentionally.. but adi did..
Anjali s outburst on Arnav was natural as evn Adi was evil , a monster bt atlast was his bro.. and it was genuine she will mourn on his death and will hate evn for moments the person reason for his death.. bt as reality strike her she was all fyn .. and I like how aman was like a pillar standing beside her .. to easen her.. to console her.. Bt bst thing he was a bestest buddy Arnav has gt in his life..
Aman is a real gem... dii U evn made his small character that strong that we cant neglect the fact that he too sumtym playd a major game supporter..
Finally Anjali was out of the grief and maintained back her realation with Arnav...
Why I feel like Anjali will transfer all her shares on name of Arnav or his kid..dunno bt just as I feel like...
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She heard us last night
I earlier thought that it must be khushi who must have come haer by knowing about adi to console nani and anjali.. bt gosh it was nani...
She is the best one yaar.. I say.. she forgave Arnav for wat he did,,infact she is aking forgiveness for wat all he had to suffer.. who says only blood relations bound one.. no here nani's bond showd that love and care can also bound u to sumone that u require no blood to prove that the person is special and more lovable to u..
Nani is explicitly fantastic...
She is playing the finest role...
Dii u have put her spice in the proper way and to the exact point ... very well dii..
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Khushi ... evn hard she tried to show that's he dnt care for him.. his touches dnt matter her.. bt actually all amttres .. hw much he may have hurt her bt she can nvr stop thinking and caring about her..
Her fear of past to be repeated again also didn't let her to stop herself from caring about him.. that was awesme dii.. it showd that she love the man more than her life..
Her care part and the visit to the pride their X-home was a proof to it..
Wen arnav left her to doo wat she wish and nvr intruded showd to me that he feel that he was defeated ,, he lost.. Nw is just the ashes he is carrying..
I pity on her .. wer is she today..unknown of all the pain her husband is going through.. she can see his pain bt is unaware of the reasons.. god.. this is really hurting... I feel pity of her helplessness..
Nw itself I startd feeling restless with the thought that wat will happn wen khushi will knw about the cruel past.. will she leave Arnav.. will his fears come true?/
I hope no he can make her stay.. by more over that I feel that khushi must know about the truth as it can change many things specially the turmoils Arnav is facing by hiding the facts from her.. yaa it will be a divesting state for her but as I read .. I feel the need for the truth to be revealed .. as it can change many things.. in worst or for the welfare of their coming future..
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Are WE having a girl or a boy?
This lines if used by sumone else or Arnav sum othr day than it must not hav had the same effect wat it had today at this point in their life.. it was all khushi need that yes her man was there .. this was all she was yearning for.. his touches.. his care.. his affection.. for her and more over that for the kid..
I hope this was the last dusky night they have seen, nw their must be a dawn waiting for them together..
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I am sorry..I am sorry..I am sorry for everything I have done..for every single thing I have done...for not being with you when you needed me most. But I swear Khushi, Every smile I gave you was true as much as every pain I gave you. It was not fake, it never was...
O gosh.. this man has to pay for the things he is not responsible for... but his this statement atleast clrd this fact to khushi that yes his love in past was true. Not fake.. this can give her a satisfaction nd a new hope in this realtion... and also I feel a light heart here as in this dark atleast their came a ray of hope for Arnav. He dnt deserve this.. he too need the warmth ... and love of the lady for whom he changed his entire self and did wat he nvr expected in his life ..
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Anjali and Nani's visit was a good change.. and nani's stay with Arshi is a golden feed..
Arnav evn was in pain and grief but than too he cared for her...
Evry line which was related to Arnav was outstanding.. this character is nw gtng in me more and more.. I cant stop myself 24x7 without thinking about him..
Dii this was the wonderful painful emotional .. update...
Ekdum lajawab
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Nw about ur VM.. wow it was a wonder to watch it.. so much resemblance with the current track... it was looking like it was spl... picturised for this very ff.. the flow was tremendous.. dii u are real artist yaar.. u are fantastic..
Hw much more talents u hav dii in ur bucket..
One ques. Nagging my head wat about khushi last project she was to execute.. mean on 18.. is it to come.. ???
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For Arnav:
Tere kaise ye bebasi hai
Hai khata tere kuch nahe par pher bhe mile tujhe ye saza hai
Hai taro chand si raat
par kyu saath tere bs ye andhere raat ka saaya hai
milte ruswai ho jo khata
kyu tere ishq mei tere had se jyada chaahat he saza ban gye hai
mile jo dard tujhe saare
hai jo khamosh chaahkar bhe dil tera na kuch keh paya hai
hai ishq jaha mei aisa
ya tere he junoon-e-ishq ko mile aise bad dua hai
na tha tu kbhe aisa
haara haara tu aaj sb paakar bhe mayoosi mei jo dooba hai...
for Khushi:
Hu door tujhs emei ab bhe kahe
kyu pher pass tujhko he kehte hu
kehte hu yakeen nahe hai tujh par
Par tera he yakeen sbse jyada karte hu
Hai tu nahe rooh mere jo mujhme baste hai
par kyu saan rooh ki tujhse he chalte hai
jeete hu mei kaise ye na mei jan pate hu
Bs pass tera hone se he mei jee jate hu
Nahe mei saahil ki talaash mei koi
Bs tujhe he saahil tujhe he apna kinara kehte hu...
For Anjali..
Kar gye jo khata wo mere bs khata the
Chaahe na jo aaj waqt ki ye tasvir the
Mile hai saja mujhe bhe us khata ki
Cheene jo kbhe kise ki maine khushi the
Aaj aansu mere bhe bhar aate hai
Diye jo kise ko wo aaj mere aanko mei chubte hai
Kar bhe di jo usne khata maaf mere
Par us khata ki saza ,na milkar bhe saza ban gye hai...
Plz. Bear my extremely free flying thoughts...
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