" Lines that hide behind illusions and circles that never come to cease - in short, patterns "--- Wow! I love this line..the patterns he asked for has some deep meaning I feel...isn't ? We think those are lines but there are mirages or illusions..and circles which never ends..aha! he is a very deep guy..lines and circles are connected to his life I guess...somewhere it reminds me of him and Khyati...
"He led me to the door set into the .??? this line is incomplete! I already told u how the room made me feel..I am looking for a visual...I don't think I would find any..would have to sit and draw if I want to quench my thirst for visual..The way Shyama felt what she wanted to do if she has a room like that --- you wrote her thoughts beautifully and it was neatly bought to an end "And I could see in his eyes, the moments he'd read; that he'd glimpsed at the image in my mind's eye, with me being a part of the view I'd taken in". God! Hasini how can you so beautifully string the whole scene and the thought and emotion of two characters in one line?? Amazing!
Am really surprised at her perceptiveness; how did she understand that it was designed by him? And What made her decide so quickly? The fact that he accessed her thoughts without an effort?? That should be welcoming right? Why she wanted walls up?
"Yes, I had dreamt of it as a child," he said, quick in his pursuing, "but I never imagined that I would make something of myself to materialize it." --- Here again we see a glimpse of Adi's core..his childhood dreams and his "no confidence in him (I guess Suyodh made him feel worthy, my wild guess), he is baring it out to Shyama with an ease.."
"Don't mistake me Aditya, But, I think my talents will fall short when it comes to that room. Its surreal and I don't want to sully it with the accouters that I dabble with."---- Shyama is too professional! (Rolls my eyes) but I do learn from her how to be diplomatically professional.
"That room, in my opinion, was a symbol of all that was denied to him. Of this, I could speak with a profound certitude. There was no telling how small I had felt inside that tower of his desires. ---- Was it because she felt so small that she declined? Vishwa's words comes to my mind -- Shyama needs a man who will be able to handle her..Adi is quiet proficient for that but she feels that she can't match up? and she is so small while with Arjun she feels she is equal or has an underhand? is her ego is playing here??
If I had believed that the Syamvar had been in that tight office corner, I had been wrong. --- Darling, in the office you didn't even look Adi properly or assessed him like you did now...then you were really reeling with the "Arrow"conversation of Arjun!
"It won't," he or his??? voice was firm with his insistence. (I am sorry if you feel bad for me pointing out errors, but since I felt you want to make the work perfect, I mentioned)
"It won't," he voice was firm with his insistence. "I have seen your work and I'm certain that you could only elevate the essence of the room, never diminish it." --- Man! he has done his homework and is very confident! And Shyama darling that an awesome confidence booster dose!
"Thank you for that confidence," I said wringing my hands,--- was she nervous????---- "but my current schedule does not permit me to take up ambitious projects 😊 like that room. Perhaps, another time. For now, let's focus on manageable capacities like the living and the family room." --- Somehow I feel that wasn't so smooth decline as she wanted it to be...Adi won't take it so nicely..
"When we didn't haggle over price, it was discomforting that he would have accepted even if I had costed him an arm and a leg.--- I feel again that this is to show a contrast between Arjun and Adi..
"I could't let go of designing the room, (Why? Why is this conflict?) but it had to be done ( Again i wonder why? what's her real reason?),
I said picking up my bag from where I had left it, by the entrance. --- Earlier also I noted this placement of bag-- was there any significance????...
"When you find a suitable designer to work on that room, would you consider painting it red? A fierce red, if you know what I mean." --- This suggestion made me smile..somehow red would be Adi's colour...the color of evening sun!
It was painful at best that he could freely give everything I had sought for years and yet, I couldn't bring myself to accept what he had to offer. We were too alike to be in the same space as the other.---even though my mind played "Why" again, I loved her feel and thought..there was a deep longing to hold on but a feeling of loss too, it took my mind to the picture where Kunti had to put her son Karna in a basket and push that basket to the river tide - the longing in her eyes to take back her son from the basket but her will forcing her to let go off the basket to the rhythm of river water...its difficult to explain that feel..I felt same for Shyama's thought..she was being offered all what she longed for but she got to let it go.
"Are you sure you don't want to revisit the scope of the current work order, Kushi?" he asked, his smiled hadn't faded, but they were far from being enthused - unlike the one he'd held when I'd entered his home. --- Aha!! he is taking rejection badly signs...may be over the years, when you are rejected of something you longed for again and again, it makes you a stone hearted person...yet you feel pain when rejected or denied!
"I like what you have proposed so far," he said, leaning onto the door. "Red is good" --- Aha! he is giving her a chance to re-consider while hoping and wishing..but he knows...sigh!
"I might not make this offer again, Kushi," his clasp was light, but his fingers slid atop my hand with a tangible unrelenting that lingered long after they had left. "Think about it."--- but he has understood! your next words prove that "His gaze softened with more disappointment over my choices, than the rejection that it stood for. ----- He might have known its Arjun and that means of course, he had been declined the love of a mother while Arjun had it and now again he is being declined love of a partner while Arjun gains it!! I can't help but say this -- Unfair world!
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