Part 14:
On that night, all I could think of was the night after the unfortunate accident. Just thinking about the pain was even more painful, after 2 years. One may think it decreases with time. But for me, every moment without Mohan added to my pain yet I smiled through my pains. That's one of the many things Mohan has taught me. I couldn't keep him alive but I will always keep his memories alive. Nothing, no amount of happiness can wash away his memories in my heart.
When I woke up in the morning, it hit me a cold storm. That day, Mohan and Addu left the game and went to the parking lot. When I and Jaan went to call Mohan, he was leaving the place with the reason of work. Could it be that something happened at the moment? Addu watched Mohan leave and I clearly remember scolding him for standing like a statue instead of stopping Mohan. There have been many times since childhood that Addu didn't want Mohan in his life. Was that moment same as the before one? If so, then have I got my son back really? Or have I led to Mohan's sacrifice over my son?
Only one person could answer these questions.
By 10am, I stood outside the office of the lawyer I saw at the picnic. He managed Mohan's material worth. SO I took his appointment and here I am. I walked into his cabin. He welcomed me, "Hello Mrs. Bhatnagar, how are you?"
"I am fine. I want to know why you met Mohan on the day Mohan passed away."
"Mr. Bhatnagar called me there. As per his instruction I had prepared the documents and he called me to the picnic spot for signatures."
Documents? Signatures? Couldn't' be work related issue! Instead of coming to conclusion myself, I asked him, "What kind of documents? Couldn't the signatures wait?"
His answer felt like someone sucked the blood out of my heart. "Mr. Bhatnagar transferred all his property and material worth to his son, Mr. Aditya. I was there to take both their signatures. I left the place once the procedures finished. I am sorry for your loss."
Sorry for my loss? Previously I would say, "It's okay.", "Thank you". But now I realize I lost more than I thought I lost.
I lost my husband, alright! I lost my son. I lost the battle to prove I was a good mother. I failed in my duty as mother. I failed in my duty as wife. I lost my happiness, my family's heart and soul, I lost everything. I thought I got my son back but on that day... my son had set fire to all the relationship and burnt them to ashes.
This hurt me more than anything. This was the reason my son came home. Mohan brought (rather bought) me my son with all his worth, money and life.
I could never choose between Mohan and Addu.
Mohan, you can't make this choice for me.
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