It all started with 300 Rupees 32
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It was another day in his office. The same meetings, the same phone calls, the same people, the same routine. The only thing that was different was that he was actually looking forward for the evening. He wanted to go home, to her, to them, to his wife and his daughter. How much his life had changed within the matter of weeks!
He was a hollow soul who came to Mumbai for work; merely a way of keeping him busy, a distraction from his real life issues, a way to avoid the emptiness inside him. That's what he had done ever since she left him that unfortunate day – work, work, work and work.
He had done everything to keep him busy, keep him occupied, keep him away from spending time with his mind, his heart.
He could not spare a minute to himself, or his mind, or his heart…..
That would be too much for him to deal with…..
He made sure he worked so much that he didn't even have time to breathe. Projects after projects, meetings after meetings, business trips after business trips….
He had made a safe wall of work to shield him from dealing with his pain, the right way…..
He never thought that one day his work will give him the opportunity to meet his life again, his Khushi…..
And there it was, all over again……
He was too lost in this world when he heard "Mr. Raizada, phone call for you……"
He looked up and saw Roshni standing there across his table in his office, he spoke "take a message."
She looked at the phone and answered the phone again "Mr. Raizada is busy right now, I will have him call you back……I told him……okay……let me ask him again……."
She got enough courage to bother him again and said "Mr. Raizada, she refuses to leave a message, it's something urgent…….do you want to talk to……"
Before she could finish her sentence, he took the phone from her and said "hello?"
Roshni didn't know who it was but she knew one thing for sure, whoever it was, must be someone important to put such a smile on his face……
He spoke on the phone "yes ma'am" and he smiled again……
He finally looked up and said "Ms. Saxena, you can leave, I will check the files and get back to you." That's all he said and she walked out of the office, closing the door behind…..
"Yes sweetheart, what a pleasant surprise……you could have called me on my cell phone as well" he spoke with a beaming smile on his face, a rare but a sight worth watching…..
He heard "was that Roshni who answered the call?" He grinned at her question and replied "yes." She spoke "why don't you give her a cabin of her own where she can sit all day and do some actual work instead of trying to stay around you all day?" He couldn't help but smile at her irritation, yet again, he replied "she does have her own cabin, she was just here to discuss something about a project…….is that good enough Mrs. Raizada?"
She replied "I don't know, I still don't like her around you……..sorry about that. When are you coming today?"
He replied "When will Aashna come back from school? How was she in the morning?" He heard "She went to school after almost a week now, that's why she was little uncomfortable but she is very fond of her teacher, she was fine once she was in school……I told her teacher to call me if there was any problem, no one has called so I am assuming everything is fine….." He answered "good……so what's her schedule like when she is in school…..when does she come back from school?"
She replied in a frustrated tone "you would know if you lived with her……."
They were both quiet hearing her statement. He finally said "we have been discussing this same thing for the whole last week now…….why are you making this harder for me Khushi? Don't you know how hard it is for me to do all this? I want to live with both of you more than anything……you know that……but……"
She interrupted "I am sorry Arnav Ji…….I know…..you are right…..but I still don't like this…..I don't even know if it's necessary……..I don't even how I let you talk me into this……"
He answered "Khushi……I know it's hard…….I understand…….it's hard for both of us…….but it's not about us right now…..it's about……"
She interrupted again "I know Arnav Ji…….I understand that but I still don't know if this is the right way to do it……."
They had talked about this, over and over again for the last week, every day, all the time but he still wasn't able to convince her that his decision is right. He decided to change the topic, he said "what's for dinner? Are you cooking?" She replied "of course I am cooking, anything you want to eat in particular?" He was glad his distraction had worked. He smiled and replied "I like everything you cook sweetheart."
She replied "when are you coming?" He answered "do you want me to come now?" She finally laughed and said "I think you should do some work too, just like Roshni, but in your own cabin, don't work with her." He replied "yes ma'am, anything else?" She replied "yes, I love you." He answered "I love you too sweetheart."
He could barely concentrate on working after their conversation. The latter part. He didn't know who was this hardest on? Him? Her? Or Aashna? What if Khushi was right? What if he was not doing the right thing? What if this could mess things more? He blankly stared at that file while thinking about all this when he heard the knock on the door. "Come in." Sure enough it was Ms. Saxena. He said "yes Miss Saxena, do you need anything?" She replied "sir, Karan called, he wanted to schedule a meeting sometime this week now that Khushi is back after her long vacation……" She said in a sarcastic tone without realizing who she was saying it to.
He heard what she said, he looked up to see her sarcastic face, he slowly put that file down on the table and got off his chair and spoke "vacation?" She had only heard about his temper, now she was about to experience it, live. She stood glued to the floor and barely replied "I mean……this project was on hold……just because of her…….that's why……" He looked at her with those pair of enraged eyes and said "her daughter was in critical care after an accident, does that sound like a vacation to you?" She couldn't even reply anything to that. She stayed put, without moving, without being able to look at his angry face. He spoke again "she has been up day and night trying to take care of her daughter all by herself, does that sound like vacation to you?"
He walked towards her now and asked furiously "Answer me Ms. Saxena, does that sound like vacation to you?" She almost shivered hearing his blatant angry voice and answered "I was just thinking about the project, it has already been so delayed which is not good for our company……..I was just worried about that….." He looked at her with enough rage in them and asked "it's nice to see how much interest you take in our company and how worried you are for our company but this project is worth more than a child's life? Is this what you are worried about? This damn project?"
He didn't even want to hear anything from her anymore, he quickly spoke before losing any remaining temper "leave." Leave had never sounded better from him than today. She took off as soon as she heard that word and saved herself from god knows what was coming next. Though she couldn't help but wonder why was he so pro Khushi? Why did he always take her side? Why wasn't he worried about their project and worried about Khushi's daughter. Not that she dared asking him anything but she couldn't help but wonder what is up with him and that Khushi…….
He checked the time and left the office as fast as he could. He got in the car and started driving. The more he got closer to her place, the more anxious he got. He couldn't wait to see her, see them, but then he couldn't help but feel anxious. As he drove, his mind started replaying what had happened that morning when he came face to face with Aashna the very first time. As nervous as he was already with the thought of meeting her, the actual incident didn't help at all.
He could never forget what he felt that morning…..
How could he be so nervous about meeting a four year old? Could that be even possible? After all he was Arnav Singh Raizada. But right now he was only a man, who was just a husband by the morning and a father by the night. To this angel, who didn't even exist for him until yesterday.
It was long day. And even a longer night. He would never forget that night. The night where he had first witnessed what she had been witnessing every day for three years. Every night. That feeling. That strange unwanted feeling.
It was the first time they had seen the dawn together, after sharing their biggest grief, biggest loss and their biggest regret. They barely had any sleep that night. The only good thing about that night was that they were together, after all that they had been through. Together.
He remembered how he was up before she was. He had turned to see the peaceful face resting on his arms. She looked serene. Though the dried tear drops were still visible on her face, she still had some kind of satisfaction on her face. She didn't look stressed, or worried, or upset. She was sleeping peacefully, in his arms, right next to him, with him.
He looked at her closed fist, he gently opened it, making sure he didn't disturb her sleep, he took her past, their past away from her hand and slowly and got off the bed. He put that haunting black and white picture away, making sure she didn't see it again, not first thing in the morning at least. He freshened up and slowly walked out the room.
Naina was in the kitchen making something. She saw him entering the living area, she asked him "do you want coffee? I just made it." He turned to see her and replied "no, that's fine, thanks." She looked at him in confusion and spoke again "you like black coffee right? I can make black coffee too." He was quite surprised hearing that, he asked "how do you know…..?" She replied "how else? Khushi told me. She hates black coffee and still can't understand how you can drink black coffee." She was chopping something while talking and smiling. He had no idea Khushi actually talked about him like that to anyone. He didn't know what to say, he just said "Is Aashna still sleeping?" She replied "yes, she should be up soon, this place has never been this quiet when she is around……" He saw her face, her eyes, she was clearly very fond of Aashna, anyone could read the tension in her eyes. She asked "is Khushi still sleeping?" He answered "yes, I didn't wake her up…….she was pretty tired and upset……" He didn't complete his sentence, he just looked around to see the place again, how different it was from the very first time he was there.
Naina brought his coffee and said "do you want anything else?" He replied "no, thank you. Thanks for the coffee." He took the coffee from her walked towards the pictures on the wall. So many of them. With Khushi and Aashna. He couldn't help but admire how adorable they looked together. A perfect mother and a perfect daughter. He looked more closely to all the Aashna's pictures, as if he was trying to know her by analyzing her pictures. Preparing himself to meet her for the first time.
Part B Continues……
Edited by karmachameleon - 12 years ago
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