VirMan SS/Winds of Desire- 10th chap updated! - Page 32

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Chapter 11

She traced the lining of the glass bowl turning it carelessly in her hands. After swinging it for a while, she went to place it on the counter but it fell down resulting into the beautiful bowl breaking into numerous pieces scattered on the kitchen floor. Startled by the sudden crashing sound I left the breakfast preparations aside and rushed to the other side of the kitchen.

As she tried to lift the glass pieces, one of them pricked her finger resulting in blood oozing out without a break. "Jeevika leave it, I'll tell Laxmi to clean the mess", I dragged her to the wash basin putting her finger under the running cold water.

"What's up with this clumsy behavior Jeevika, ever since you have returned from the wedding you're behaving put out, are you all right?", I asked checking her finger if there was any serious injury that need to be plastered. She shook her head as nothing despite of something bothering her very badly. The usually bubbly Jeevika was replaced with a detached and a gloomy one. There's a lot of change I could see in her behavior but she wasn't ready to tell me anything.

"Everyone was supposed to return tomorrow right? Then how come you're so early", I asked if she would spill the beans but she remained silent like before. Now it had started bothering me. What could have happened in the wedding that she's suddenly so quiet? I made her sit on the chair that was near the counter. She kept gazing at the window panes of the kitchen. Her expressions told me she was way too hurt, because of which she neither wanted to speak nor share her anguish. I got the first aid box, plastering her finger and then looking at her for a while.

"You didn't tell me how did the marriage go? I know you hate family gatherings but I didn't knew it would upset you so much", I tried to speak again but she wasn't paying any attention to my words. I put her finger away and took a deep breath.

"I want to leave", were the first few words that escaped her mouth after my so many efforts. I didn't quite understand what she meant. Her eyelashes were heavy with tears such that they could pour out any moment. Her before eyes which always spoke mischief were now down with some problem. The aura that her face held always was lost somewhere.

"Huh", I uttered a monosyllabic to earn a better explanation from her.

"I want to leave this house, leave everything behind and lead my life as it was before marriage happened to me", she trailed off at the last word with the wretched tears making their way down her cheeks. Hurt symbolizing in her eyes, words unsteady.

"What do you mean?" I tried the most coherent words that could come out of my mouth.

I searched for words as I sat back fouled-up. She bent her head down choking on the tears trying to stop them, but they were too stubborn. I wasn't able to see her in this position. I immediately poured some water in a glass to soothe her pain. She held the glass her hands trembling.

"Jeevika..." What happened? I tried again.

"I want some time alone Manvi", she spoke with great difficulty trying to catch a grip of her emotions. I looked at her that she would speak something at last, but she kept an expressionless face gazing at the same window panes. I slowly got up and moved away leaving her alone to kill the personal agony that is creeping up within her. She silently bent her head down and got up briskly, strode to her room rubbing the tear stains that were all over her face.

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"Viren", Jeevika called as I got seated beside her. There were fewer people today at the dining table as the whole family was busy at wedding. I saw Virat making circles in his plate lost in thought. Viren looked at Jeevika signaling her to speak while she kept her eyes down casted for the whole time.

"I'm leaving tomorrow", she replied solemnly tears trickling down her face. My eyebrows shot up and eyes went into an unbelieving gaze as Jeevika uttered those words. I had to stop this. What had gotten into her? Viren tried to be normal and looked at Jeevika drawing a long breath. I knew Jeevika wasn't happy with her married life and more or less Viren was similar to Virat. He was a man of few words, speaking when necessary, most of the time silent. They couldn't express any of their emotions quickly and take a great deal of time to talk to anyone freely. But Jeevika knew this better than I do, infact she was the one who told me how much similar these two brothers behaved. Then how could a person like her could give up so easily on the only person she loves the most?

I placed my hand over Jeevika's as a lone tear escaped her eye and fell on my hand. Viren looked at Jeevika helplessly and walked away to their room gaping in silence leaving the food in his plate away.

"Bhabi what happened", Virat asked Jeevika who was all in tears now. She wasn't ready to explain things. She looked at me in the eye and hugged tightly, crying out loudly. The pain reflected in every tear that escaped her eye. As she leaned onto my body for support it felt as if I could feel her pain. Virat viewed the whole situation alarmingly and looked at me confusion taking its place in his eyes. I assured him through my eyes that I would handle the situation. He heaved a heavy breath and walked away unwillingly.

"Jeevika, what's bothering you"? I asked softly stroking her hair. She retreated from the hug and slumped back into the chair adorning one of her earlier expressions.

"I'm not happy with my life; I just can't keep expecting Viren to love me back. He loves me whole heartedly but he never shows any of his it. I know it is because of the lack of love he didn't get when he needed it the most. He was left out in his childhood, more to say he grew up himself despite of having his parents. Those made him form a shell around him and keep his feelings away from everyone, but what about now? I try every time to show how much I love him. But he just doesn't react. I don't know what's up with him but my patience has exhausted. I never felt so left out ever in my life before marriage. Why doesn't he accept that he loves me too, he keeps holding back his feelings. I...I..." words trailed away as tears formed in her eyes again.

"I tried to change him so much but I can't...I can't! I have failed. I have failed the biggest exam of my life", she kept moving her hands burning with pain. I tried to soothe her but nothing worked. I let her speak, her heart out.

"It's my entire fault; I failed to reciprocate his feelings. I love him Manvi, but why is he holding back? Is this my fault? I'm...I'm", she sniffed trying to hold her tears back.

"Have you told Mom?" I asked the obvious question.

"I don't have the courage to put this before her. She'd be broken. I've promised her before my marriage that I would love Viren so much that he would break the shell around him and let his feelings flow but I failed big time. I can't tell her", she looked away.

"Take some rest and think again with a fresh mind. Do you really think you'd be happy after taking him away from your life? The vacuum that would form in your life would be unbearable Jeevika. You're in a fix right now. Take some rest and think once again over this", I suggested helping her to her room.

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"Is she okay now?" Virat asked anxiously as I stepped into the room feeling blue.

"Nothing's okay Virat, we need to do something", I replied sitting on the bed, lost in thought. He retaliated confusion and neared me waiting for an answer.

"They are broken, we need to join them", I answered deeply studying his expressions. He knitted his eyebrows closer and confusion flashed in his eyes again.

"Even when joined, there appears a mark which remains forever and chances are very few that it doesn't breaks apart in the same place again", he replied heaving a breath. He was true. Jeevika was broken to such an extent that even I didn't know joining would do any good.

"But we can do something, the solution is just around us, we just need to figure it out", I said this time more confident.

"So, what are you going to do? He questioned with uncertainty.

"I don't know, but we can't just sit back and watch when somethings alive is on fire", I spoke striated.

He nodded his head deeply and rushed to the bed lamp on his side, switching it off, he muttered goodnight while I still kept awake. I was sitting now in the less illuminated room with only the bed lamp of my side glowing thinking hard to do something which could bring them closer, understand their differences and leave happily.

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Tell me how's it. And about the villain part in the previous update-

Suppose a person you marry tells you to leave the other day. What are your reactions? Don't you consider him rude, obnoxious and kind of a villain? We are used to the usual sweet and caring Virat so this doesn't let us accustom to something different. We are not able to perceive an unideal husband here. It's just an example, nothing to do with anything personal. Don't hit me with anything hard if you disagree with my opinion, soft flowers are welcome though😆.

it was lovely poor jeevika.so virman in mission to unite virika😃.

nice update after a long tym bt still u updated thanx for that

it seems lyk theres a change in jeevika's character bt thats nice to see her openin up to manvi lyk that i hope she gets viren's love back n viren realises wat she means for him n that virman do actually do sumthin for them to be bak together do update soon if u can😊

Nice Update...~! U have kept things realistic here...Which i love...many say love changes the person..specially those who have made a shell around them...bt thats rare...in most cases nothing great really happens...So its good that Jeevika stood forherself n has a say in her life...even though she is broekn...but again maanvi had a point the Vaccum created is very hard to handle...Every decison has pro's n con's..We need to think n take that leap of faith...:)

Hey,

awesome update
Its with lots of sadness
I guess to gt virika close virman will gt togthr..tht will be fun
Thanx alott for the pm

Wonderfull updt...expressing ur feeling is really important in every relationship...i hope manvi make this realise to viren n virat too...cont soon