FF: You're not Alone(Part 12-Pg 34) - Page 8

Originally posted by: shay1990

I prefer Why Not Me 😃

Shay X

read all d parts in one go !!!! Wowww dats a Wonderfuly Awesum FF !!! such a unique n interestng concept 😳
Loved d way u've penned down d emotions f each n evry charactr!! Amazng indeed !!! u truelly r such a Brilliant writer 😳 d quotes u chose wr soo Beautiful nd jst so Perfect
plzzz post d nxt part soon...cnt w8 to knw hw d Arnav-Khushi relatnshp blossoms!!! m sooo damn eager to read d nxt part 😉

nd yaa... cmng to d hint... i like WHY NT ME !!! its Awesum n Perfectly suits d condtns!!! plzzz update asap!! 😳 😳

Originally posted by: sarunholic

read all d parts in one go !!!! Wowww dats a Wonderfuly Awesum FF !!! such a unique n interestng concept 😳
Loved d way u've penned down d emotions f each n evry charactr!! Amazng indeed !!! u truelly r such a Brilliant writer 😳 d quotes u chose wr soo Beautiful nd jst so Perfect
plzzz post d nxt part soon...cnt w8 to knw hw d Arnav-Khushi relatnshp blossoms!!! m sooo damn eager to read d nxt part 😉

confusing hint!

Originally posted by: meenaluma

nice story

pls pm me when u update next part

Alright People... I am terribly sorry for the late update... anyways I am back with my crap. I've worked hard on this... arnav's lines were written from the bottom of my heart coz he resembles me a lot in NOT BEING LOVED BY THE ONE YOU LOVE... anyways... So...please comment guys...The 'like' button doesnt help me to know on what u think about me and my work!Not proof-read... sorry about the mistakes. The lines in grey italics are from Grey's anatomy.

And yeah... This is for Mishtee123,nazibah and Chayma... will dedicate each to chapter to my regular commenting ppl from now on!

~ The Pain ~

"I am getting late for office..."

Khushi saw him leave as something nagged her that something was not alright between them. Between her and Arnav. She looked up at Anjali questioningly who nodded her head in a negative. She decided that she wouldn't force him to tell her what was wrong. She decided to take herself some time and give him some as well.

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He paced his room back and forth. He looked at the clock only to find out that it was 1.30 of the mid-night. Morning's happenings still flashing through his mind. He needed time. Time not to get away from the guilt he was carrying for the past few days. But to get away from the PAIN he had been carrying for the past few years. The PAIN of not being loved by her.

Arnav singh Raizada. The mighty one. That was what people called him. But what he was, was known only to his loved ones. Never on earth could one imagine that ArnavSingn Raizada loved music. That was the only thing that took away the pain that he always carried. It was true that he was not a man of words. But a man of pain and anguish he was. He walked upto his music system and turned it on to ease his stress. But it seemed as if that was not going to happen.

As if on cue,his player played WHY NOT ME by Enrique Iglesias. He wanted to turn of that damn thing. But his legs and hands wouldn't move.He stood there rooted to the place staring at the wall in front of him. The music started as he felt Enrique sing the song for him.

Escaping nights without you with shadows on the wall
My mind is running wild tryin hard not to fall

Yes. That was exactly what he was going through that night. The night that belonged to the day when Akash had proposed her and she had accepted it. He had paced the room in this very fashion. Staring at the walls as tears held in his eyes and tried hard not to break down.

You tell me that you love me but say Im just a friend
my heart is broken up into pieces

Trying hard not to break down. He had always known that she was never his. She would always tell him ' I love you Arnav' , but then he knew that for her that I love you was the one which you would tell your friend whenever they did something for you. She had always told him that they were 'FRIENDS'. But then, hardly had she seen Arnav trying to act normal when the truth was that his heart was broken into pieces.

Cause i know i'll never free my soul
it's trapped in between true love and being alone

The truth once again by Enrique. Arnav had known that he would never let her know what he felt. He was too scared to choose between true love and being alone. He couldn't afford to lose her and be alone for the sake of the love he held for her within himself. And he knew this very very well.

A lone tear escaped his eyes as the song continues to play with him,his heart and his emotions.

When my eyes are closed the greatest story told
I woke and my dreams are shattered here on the floor

Arnav had found this line written for him. He had always dreamt of a Happily-ever-after-life with her. But it was a DREAM. A dream that only God knew if was meant to be. He chuckled at his state as the tear rolled down his cheeks. He sat on the floor by his bed holding his knee against his chest. His dreams were shattered.

Why oh why tell me why not me
Why oh why we're meant to be
Baby i know i could be all you need
Why oh why oh why

I wanna love you
if you only knew how much i love you
So why not me

He picked up the photo that lay on the side table of his bed and sang along with Enrique.

" I wanna Love you...

If you only knew how much I love you...

So why not me..."

He rubbed the part of the photo that held her image with his thumb as the tear drop fell on the photograph.

The day after tomorrow I'll still be around
To catch you when you fall and never let you down
you say that were forever our love will never end

He had tried to distance himself from her. Alas! He was always around her, to support her, to hold her from falling down, to never let her down. And then she would always tell him that they would be together forever and that their 'love' will never end. But the 'love' to which she referred was far more than the 'love' that he had and wanted to give her.

I've tried to come up but it's drowning me to know
you'll never feel my soul
It's trapped in between true love and being alone
when my eyes are closed the greatest story told
i woke and my dreams are shattered here on the floor

He had always tried to change the meaning of his 'love' according to her. But everytime time he tried to get over it he could feel himself drowning more into it. He was helpless. He wanted to get away with this feeling for he felt that this 'love' which he held within himself would leave him alone,devoid of Khushi and never in his life could he afford to lose her.

That was it. He couldn't take it anymore. He furiously went for the remote and switched the player off before he could lose himself. He buried his head in his arms as silent tears escaped his eyes. He tried hard to keep himself from crying but he couldn't. suddenly he felt a hand on his shoulder. He could recognize the touch even his dreams. He immedietly turned around and hugged her as Anjali carasses her little brother's hair in an attempt to calm him down.

" Why not me Di? Why not me? Am I that bad? Am I that bad that I don't deserve to be loved? Am I that ruthless a person? Don't I deserve to be loved Di? Why me always? Why not me Di? Why does this happen to me all the time? I have always loved her. Always. I don't know since when. I am so stuck up Di. The moment I come out of the guilt, I land up into this pain of not being loved... By her... Don't I deserve a happy life Di? Its hard for me to stay in front of her and act as if everything's fine. It hurts a lot Di... Its killing from the inside..."

His words pierced her heart. Never in her life had she seen her brother so broken and hurt.

"Sshh...Bas chote... Everything is gonna be fine... I promise..."

"It hurts Di... It hurts a lot" He said as he held on to her tighter.

"I know chote... Who can know that better than me. Kunal was..." She stopped midways not wanting to bring in her story in this mess. Arnav looked up to his sister on this sudden silence of hers. He wiped her tears feelingsorry for her.

"I am sorry di... I didn't mean to remind you of him."

"That alright Chote. That's an entirely different matter, we'll sort it out later. But now we need to work on you. You have to wim her chote...you need to bring her back. you have to move on in life." She said as she faked a smile in front of him.

Arnav nodded his head in a positive and buried his head in her lap . He knew what he had to do. He had to give her some time. And he knew he will.

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At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.

And he had taken her breath away. No matter how hard she tried to move, at the end of the day,Khushi found herself sitting in a corner of her room and looking at his picture. Her eyes filled with years. Tears of a broken heart. A heart she thought that would never be joined into pieces once again. She held his photo in her hand. It had her by his side with she trying to hide her face from shyness. A memory of the photograph flashed infront of her.

(Link to the pic)

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"Khushi... I need something..." Akash whispered in to her ears.

"What Akash?" she said as she fiddled with the vegetables that lay in front of her on the dining table.

"you know what it is..." he said in a devilishly dangerous tone as he held his cheek to her signaling her. Khushi widened her eyes as she realized what her husband was upto.

"No ways Akash... what if someone sees?"

" There's no around Khushi... And don't you dare scare me away by some stupid antic of yours."

She gulped in as she bowed forward to kiss him on the cheek.

"Gotcha!!!!"

They heard a familiar voice as they saw Arnav standing in front of then with a camera. Khushi burst out into laughter as Akash pretended as if nothing had happened.

She snapped nack from her memory as a lone tear escaped her eyes.

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Anjali walked back to her room trying hard to hold back her tears. She was too weak to break down in front of his brother. She opened her wardrobe and ruffled through the clothes. She opened the draw of her wardrobe and picked out a photograph. The photograph of a man. Her man. Her Kunal. Tears rolled down her eyes as she held the photo against her chest and sobbed silently.

"Why not me Kunal... Why not me?"

"Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. And as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most are those who don't know what they want."

And Anjali Raizada was one among them.

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OMG!!!! I AM DISCONTINUING THIS FF!!!!🤣

Kidding... why will I ose the chance of tirturing u guys with my crappy wiriting??😆

So...who's Kunal? Even I don't know that Guy :-P

This is my longest update ever. I've tried to keep the song sequence as real as possible.

I hope u all liked it...

please leave your comments...

Lots of love...

Yash

that was ok part ffor me .plz update next part soon.ur story is very unique