Heyy guys...neend mein update kar rahi hoon..pata nahi kaisa hain.. a one very important thing... as we have moved to a new thread i guess many of the readers have stopped reading it or visting the thread.. coz my first post in the first thread has likes above 55 and here it was only about 30 😭... agar you guys dont like to read it and then let me know... If this update wont get more than 55 likes then i think I need to stop it here... waise bhi day by day its getting even more difficult for me to update.. so if you want this story to go on then plz hit the lyk button and dont forget to comment... ab bass ho gayi bakwassing.. you guys read on...
PART 11
I sat back there in the car...leaning on the seat and my gaze paused on the car ceiling... what did just happen? the heart that was floating in the air was again pushed deep down the dark sea... just few minutes ago everything inside me was screaming loud in desire for her... the urge for closing the gaps was taking over me... and when she herself closed the gaps then? Why did i draw myself back? She was my wife and most importantly the love of my life...and it was just a kiss... NO ... it wasn't just a kiss and it is never just a kiss ... it always held some meaning to it... sometimes it is to convey that we adore the person...sometimes it is to say we respect... sometimes it is to say we care..and so on... that time it was to say that i was there...i was there with her... it was to say i felt the same as her when she was too close to me. . it was to say that i won't regret it later... it was to say that i loved her ... i did adore her... i cared for her... and i respect her the most but
i didn't know whether i loved her or not...and whether i would have regret it or not... as soon as she entwined her lips with mine i felt she was whispering into my mouth whether i loved her or not? and i didn't have answer for that? i didn't know the thing that we posses was said to be love or not? i tried hard to search for those answers but like every time the darkness didn't let me see anything... and i drew myself back...I felt so guilty that i couldnt answer the questions she asked... and when i was struggling hard with all those confusions i didn't want her to suffer with it... so i stepped back... but i never thought that it might hurt her so bad... i could see her shattering again into pieces...and i hated that i was the reason again... it was getting impossible to watch her shattering like that...and i ran away... why destiny always played these games to us? why? The moment we felt things were getting better it always turned out to be bad like hell .. What she must have been thinking about me? How I wished she would have stop and ask me the reason I parted away...I stood there facing the dark sea taking the rain drops over my shoulders... just sometime before everything was in a beautiful harmony...the sea spreading its arms wide ... the pleasant rain and the billowing wind... the crazy things I did and the heavenly grin spread across his lips.. That seemed as if was a early morn dream.. How I wished I could have stopped the moment there.. His lips curved the heavenly grin that I urged for.. and when i touched that beautiful curve why did it disappear... I thought that heavenly grin belonged to me... But unfortunately he didn't realize what it meant when he parted away... My heart ached with a peculiar pain... My knees felt weak... I felt they might surrender soon to spread the shattered pieces of my broken self on the floor... The pain screaming inside struggled harder to get free from my throat... I gulped trying to push it deep down... Tears streamed down... They always accompanied me.. I wished i could have loved them the way I did to him.. They didn't left me alone .. Neither did they refuse to stay there with me unlike him...
It was more than half n hour... but she didn't turn up.. for a minute a thought passed through me of getting her back to the car... But the thought just passed... I didn't have courage to face that painful stare... but IT WAS TIME...
my gaze narrowed down on the only boat that was travellling in the sea... the waves kept hitting it hard... the boat struggled hard for existance...but each time it tried to move towards its aim the waves pushed it to other side... each time with higher and higher amplitude... my life resembled the aimless boat... i didnt know what i was doing? what i wanted to do? i wish i could have get any of these answer...but to my fate like every other time... i had a long trail of question which has no end... but somewhere deep inside me it was telling me IT WAS TIME...
She loved me.. she always did.. she stood there by me whenever i Needed her... I went on refusing but she accepted it every time... Even though i hated her in initial days she still loved me.. No one in this world could have understood me the way she did... and in return I couldn't even give her what she had right for... But IT WAS TIME...
I got out of the car in a swift movement... I didn't even know what my mind was planning to do... what i could feel right then was the blood inside my veins quickened... I gulped... Didnt know what i was going to do next... I saw her standing there at distance.. She had her back facing me... I slowly blinked my eyes.. didn't know what i was assuring myself for...
Didnt know how long i was standing there... But then i didn't have the strength to face him... The guilt in his eyes that i saw made me feel guilty even more... Was that all I wanted from him ?? A kiss?? No... No.. I just wanted him right there with me.. I shut my eyes tight... tears rolled down... I opened my eyes to sense him there behind me... I didn't want to but still i turned back... But he wasn't there... there at a distance the door of the car paced back and forth...
At the next moment i went back inside the car... Breathing hard i sat there in the car... the door of the car kept pacing with the wind back and forth... back and forth..
I leaned back on the seat.. closed my eyes' But the thoughts didn't stop' they didn't let me stay there for long' I didn't know what I wanted.. What I was planning do'.?? I knew nothing' But it was only one thing that mind kept playing again and again "IT WAS TIME"
I stepped out of the car' Stood there for a moment' she was ten steps away' The chain of thought entered another station'
I stepped ahead'
I remembered The first time I saw her.. Her streaming eyes searched for something deep down in my eyes' I hated her then because she always made me remember which I was trying to forget'..
Another step..
Baatcutter..She said this was what I used to cal her in the past' the appropriate name one could have ever give her' How I loved my every sentence interrupted by her' I thought it was always meant to be interrupted by her'
One more step'
I remembered the darkness of that night that made her hug me tight.. the wall that we painted together' the heavenly grin that almost took my breath away' the cuteness with which she made those n number of weird statements' And that night when she wasn't well' the first bit of information I recollected.. Her phone number'
One more step'.
a mere thought of losing her made me shatter in pieces' And when she wasn't around how I missed her like hell'.
Another step'.
The pain that she poured on the floor on the terrace tonight' those long fingers that played on that glass window trying to find something' the curve of her lips that stretched when she saw me before her' Her embrace that made thousands of butterflies fluttered all around my body'
Another step'
The twinkling sound of her ghongharoo that played in my mind again and again' the ends of the dori that I pulled apart.. the goose bumps she had on her bare leg when I touched her'
One more'.
The fake anger and the super cute arguments she did'.all those weird things dipped in her cuteness'..
One more step'
the loose hair strands that I always urged to pin behind her ears'. Her glossy lips that curved to uncover the heavenly grin'. And those chocolate eyes' they always made me forget everything around whenever I looked into them..' The pristine drops of rain which entangled with her hair' and the naughty drops that moved along the length of her neck'
I was mere two steps away from her.. still she had her back towards me.. she might have sensed me but didn't turn' Those two steps was both the simplest and the most difficult thing I would have ever done' I took deep breath and clenched my fist trying to control '. The rain was stopped by now and the moonlight shimmered the fresh sky bathed in rain' Her wet hair bear thousand of moons along their length' the pristine drops were still lingering there hugging those beautiful hair strands'.
"Kriya'" her name roughly escaped from my lips'
His husky voice kissed my senses.. I turned to see him standing there next to me.. He was a mere step away.. I looked at him' Despite of the strong urge I didn't say anything but turned back' I shut my eyes tight trying to get control over my senses' Just like every other times his presence around soothed my senses'. And somehow it felt great 'but on the other mind I kept looking for words to ask him'why he did that? What was wrong???
(Play this song along'its apt for the situation http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dLaEtqTSwxE&feature=fvwrel)
She turned back'. But I knew THIS WAS TIME'.. I pulled her closer and turned her to face me in a swift movement'. My hand gracefully encircled her slender waist' she struggled a bit with her balance'Looking deep down my eyes she rested both hands on my chest'And without losing a single second'.
He entwined his lips with mine'. I was taken aback with the sudden action' The moment was so quick that I hardly had time to think and react on it' His one hand clasped about my neck' For once I thought he was doing it for the sake of it.. but the damp touch of his lips said another story'. It wasn't the Rey that refused to love me'But was one who always loved me'. The grip around me was possessive like it want let me go' He was mine'always mine' and I surrendered '. He rubbed his warm lips against mine' Those warm lips radiated the passion that they held back for long.. . The hidden urge was pulsating from that kiss that bestowed the numerous feelings onto me'. I closed my eyes in complete ecstasy. He nudged my mouth open and licked my upper lip' The kiss intensified with every bit of second emitting thousands of sparks in the air around'. The feeling of longing, yearning was all enveloped in that kiss'. I stood there holding onto dear life as he nibbled my lower lip'.
The pure desire was running across my veins'. The numerous goose bumps that i did bear on my skin had lost count' They danced onto my skin rhythmically across my body'.
The intense kiss went on and on for didn't know how long.. we kissed hard and harder till we gasp for air' We slowly parted away '. The short breaths were talking too much while we kept looking into each other's eyes'. I was glad find the love back again in his eyes which I searched for so long' I was floating on the clouds'I felt thousand of musicians were playing violins on those waves' The moon light twinkled spreading the grin on our faces''.
"I love you kriya''" he said gasping some air'.
"I love you Too Rey"
And our lips entwined again''. I felt we longed to belong' we were back to the places we belonged to' The night was long indeed...obviously it would be' It did bear the most special and the most precious moments in its belly'. I loved how the night bestowed us with pure pleasure '''
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