FF : I Feel Nothing. Updated Part 40 - Page 44

Khushi had fallen asleep in Arnav's arms...Looking peaceful...Arnav touched her soft cheek, unable

To get enough of her...he finally drifted off to sleep...

Arnav woke up early with the sun shining on his face...he was momentarily blinded as he sat up and felt the bed for Khushi...who wasn't there...Arnav trying to think rationally got up and checked the bathroom, checked the poolside...she wasn't there. He pulled on some track pants and a shirt and speedily walked out of the room, heading downstairs...he felt a twinge of comfort seeing Shyam's door securely locked...knowing that he wasn't anywhere near her...

Arnav strode into the kitchen...Khushi...busily preparing food..."will she never learn!" he thought to himself..."i have a house full of servants and yet she wants to do all this herself..." he smiled and cleared his throat...Khushi immediately looked up but got nervous and started fumbling around... "goodmorning beautiful..." Arnav said walking towards her, noting her simple dress and tousled hair...

"g..goodmorning.." Khushi said with a soft smile...Arnav cornered her in the kitchen and said, "i don't like waking up without you next to me...the first thing i saw was the sun shining...no where near as glittery and bright as you..."..Khushi was blushing...Arnav's heart was kicking into high gear...he couldn't believe that she was actually responding to him...his mind wandered back to the night before...where they had made love to the point of exhaustion...so much passion...so much heat...but she had been scared...how would she be if he made love to her. . .just because he wanted her and just because she wanted him...he stifled those thoughts for a moment as Khushi's eyes finally hit target with his...he quickly took advantage of the moment and startled her with a kiss...his arms went around her waist as he merged his body closer to hers...he was so tall that she had to look up for her lips to reach his...which gave his tongue better access to explore her mouth...Khushi started to break away..."Arnavji, someone will come..." she said worriedly..."you know Jaan, this is OUR house...we can do whatever we..." he started to say, but noticing her very cautious expression, decided not to push her...she was still hurting and he didn't want to jeopardize any progress he had made...he didn't know what would trigger more distressing memories and flashbacks in her mind...but he knew that as soon as they came, he would be there just as quickly to reassure her...

The day was going blissfully...loving looks to her...gentle brushes of her hair on him...his hands touching her skin whenever he was near her...he couldn't get enough...and today, Khushi wasn't flinching...he prayed silently that it would always be like this...but in the back of his mind, Arnav was terrified...he constantly watched her eyes for any sign of fear...

Akash and payal came to the poolside where Khushi was reading, and Arnav was gardening...Payal quickly distracted Khushi as Akash went to speak to Arnav...Khushi hugged her sister and said..."i...i have missed you..." Payal held Khushi's face and said, "i won't ever let our bond break...you are my sister. " Khushi felt tears starting to form and quickly changed topic...

Akash approached Arnav with a worried look..."Akash?" Arnav asked inquiringly..."Bhai...payalji and i are a bit concerned..." Arnav got slightly irritated..."Akash, i told you, looking you straight in the eye that i will NEVER hurt Khushi. EVER. I literally CAN'T hurt her again...my heart and mind and body won't LET me..." ..."Bhai! That's not what i mean...Buaji and Garima are going to visit soon...they should be here now...every time they have come in the past, Khushi has locked herself away in your room...she hasn't seen them since...since that night where they disowned her..." Akash quickly glanced toward Payal who nodded reassuringly...Khushi was chatting calmly with her sister, so Akash continued, "did you want to inform Khushi's family about the situation? Before letting them see her?"...Arnav felt like a dagger was twisting in his heart...He hadn't thought of this. Each time Khushi's family came to visit , he had already gone to the office...he didn't know that Khushi STILL wasn't reunited with her family...Arnav's eyes closed hard as he though to himself..."what kind of heartless shell am i! i have been so blind! my own need for her has been consuming me! i want her to forgive and accept ME! but have i even thought about EVERYTHING she has had to go through?...i will make this right...now."...his eyes opened and he said in a deep shaking voice, "Akash, try to keep Khushi out here while i talk to them..." and Arnav marched into the lounge only to see Buaji and Garima already sitting there...they had only seen glimpses of him over the last few weeks...and now Arnav Singh Raizada stood before them. He greeted them politely. They reciprocated. It was all so formal. He sat and began detailing all the horrific events that had caused this misunderstanding... Arnav took all the responsibility. While Shyam was being rightly blamed and condemned. The women remained quiet once Arnav had finished. "i am asking you both, as i am her husband...that you both ask her forgiveness for how you have treated her...i have. And am still trying to make everything up to her...she was devastated the day she lost you...and i did nothing then, so i'm doing it now...please right this..."

"why?" said Buaji. "However this situation came about, however it happened...it was still done without any rituals, without any blessing...and nothing will change that. Your wife is your responsibility. Please bring out daughter Payal to meet with us."

Arnav stood and stared in disbelief...anger rising in his chest he yelled..."Are you both mad!? Did you not HEAR what i just said to you!?... And you still blame her!? BLAME ME! BLAME SHYAM! DON'T put anymore blame on her! She's very fragile at the moment and your attitude towards her is NOT acceptable! If you want to be present in this house, you will give her the love and respect she deserves!!"...silence...then Garima spoke..."Arnav dear, we will act respectfully in your house. We will respect Khushi as your wife. But not as part of our family." Arnav, who was filled with disgust for these women standing in front of him...was about to storm out when he heard Khushi's voice..."Amma? Buaji?" Arnav saw Khushi's expression of greif and hope...he then looked to Payal who gave him an apologetic look ...Buaji and Garima both approached Khushi and said, "Mrs. Raizada. Namaste." then walked right past her to embrace Payal... Khushi just stared into space...no tears...expressionless..."oh God no!!!!" Arnav thought...He was beyond furious and screamed at them, "How DARE you!..." starting to go of on a tangent asking them how they could do this to Khushi when he heard Payal Scream..."Khushi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

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