Chapter #1
Once the word 'love' sounded crap to me. When I had it, I never realized the value of it, and now, when I've lost it, I realized what it actually mean for me. Perhaps this is destiny! No, actually, it'll be wrong if I consider it as destiny. The real thing is, I'm getting the punishment of the mistake I had done years back when... I broke your heart into a million pieces. You loved me with all your heart and soul and I betrayed your trust and today I hate myself for that.
Mayank Sharma, who used to be the coolest dude of the college and the center of attraction among the girls, is now alone. Sole reason of it, umm well.. one big mistake, which changed my life forever! I wish if I had not done it. I just wish! Life would be different if we were together. But alas! At present, our togetherness seems only a DREAM! Really? Is it just a dream? Can't this dream be true? Can't it become reality - a beautiful reality?
Everyone says that you don't exist anymore. They say that you've left me forever but I know that you are still somewhere in this world. My heart is beating which is the proof that your heart is beating, too. I am waiting for you. I am waiting.. to tell how much I love you, how much I care for you, how much I respect you and your feelings. My heart is shouting to apologize to you for every single mistake I did. Please come back. Please let my faith win. PLEASE!
"Chachu! Prem uncle ka phone aaya hai.", Aastha, my 13-years-old niece, came and informed me, and there I came back from my trail of thoughts. I found a ray of hope. Maybe Prem wants to tell me what I want to hear since long.
With a lot of expectations, I headed downstairs to the main hall and picked up the phone.
"Prem, kuch pata chala?"
"Mayank, tera vishwaas jit gaya yaar."
"Matlab.. woh.."
"Haan! She is alive. Woh zinda hai!"
I felt my life coming back to me and a relief from the guilt I was going through since years.
"Par.."
"Par kya, Prem?"
"Mayank, she is in.. well, tu jaldi se yaha aaja."
"Kahaan?"
"Mental asylum!"
I was shocked hearing what Prem said. For a moment, my heart refused to believe my ears.
"Prem, tu hosh mein toh hai?", I asked in disbelief.
"Mayank, tu Andheri West waali asylum mein pohoch jaa."
Before I could say anything, Prem disconnected the call. Restless - that was all I felt. I didn't want to go there but Prem? Why would he call me to such a place without any purpose? I should go. Thinking that, I went out telling Aastha to have dinner on time if I was late.
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Rains! I was loving it. It brought back so many treasured memories I had spend with you. Even our first meeting was in the rainfall and now again, after a long wait of 5 years, we were going to meet again in the same weather. I wonder if you'd remember those days.
As my heart was saying all that to me, my mind was speaking something else as I entered the asylum. Fear took upon me and I was hell onto praying not to let the thing happen which was coming in my mind continuously.
"Mayank, tu yaha khade khade kya soch raha hai? Chal andar.", Prem came to me and took me inside. My heart started beating at an abnormal speed with every step I was taking, and there I felt numb when Prem pointed towards a direction. It was a dark room, and there I saw someone, hugging her knees and her face covered with her long hairs. It was indeed a heart-wrenching sight to watch.
I was feeling the same way when you used to be around me, but I didn't want it. I didn't want the person in that room to be you! Fearfully, I walked forward and slammed the door open.
"Nupur!"
"Kaun hai?"
It was your musical and innocence-filled voice. How could I forget it? After all, it was the voice which gave me peace and a soothing feeling of love and happiness.
"Main.. tumhara Mayank."
"Mayank? Kaun Mayank? Main kisi Mayank ko nahi janti."
I felt the earth being snatched beneath my feet. Tears formed in my eyes.
"Nupur.."
"Go away. Chale jaao. Mummy keheti hai ki anjaan logo se baat nahi karte."
"Anjaan? Main kabse tumhare liye anjaan ban gaya Nupur? Hum dono ek dusre se pyaar karte hai naa? Please Nupur! Meri ek galti ki itni badi sazaa mat do."
"Sshhh! Chup karo. Tum kyun mujhe aur meri teddy ko disturb kar rahe ho? Mera teddy abhi so raha hai. Tum jaao. Go, just go!"
Unable to tolerate anymore, I turned back and walked outside. I couldn't even see her face, or better I should say that I didn't have the guts to face her, and the reality? Well, was it true? I so wanted it to be a nightmare.
Just then, I felt Prem placing a hand of support on my shoulder and then what he said made me shocked. "Nupur has lost her mental balance, Mayank. 5 saal pehele usse itna bada trauma laga hai ki uska dimaag aab ek 7 saal ki bacchi ki tarah ho gaya hai." Tears gushed from my eyes at a roller-coaster speed. Such a cruel punishment! Why God? Why?
Edited by Bidz_cutegal - 13 years ago
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