'Intikhaab' A MaYur FF -Completed (Epilogue pg103) - Page 55

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The Abhi-Tanmay incident has brought a sudden quietness in college. Out of the principal's room, Nupur notices the curiosity in everyone's eyes whilst she searches for Tanmay. After a while she realizes where exactly he can be and ends up heading towards the library. Tanmay was seating outside the library on a bench lost in his thought when Nupur sits next to him and takes his hand in her hands and starts wiping his wounds with her handkerchief. As Tanmay looks at her watery eyes, all his anger and frustration disappears. He lets her clear the wounds and bandage it with her hanky. As soon as she is done, in the very same state of slience, she leaves.

Tanmay follows her on her way to home….keeping his distance from her. After the incident today, although his disappointment towards Nupur for keeping silent in the princi's room has somewhat been forgotten but his concern lies elsewhere now and he is waiting for the right moment to talk to her.

T: Nupur..! Nupur…ruko! mujhe tumse baat karni hai..suno to sahi
N: kyun hamare piche pare ho…kyuuunn? kya chahte ho humse?
T: mujhe pata hai k maine vaada kiya tha tumse k kuch nahi poochunga uss baare me. per aaj main majboor hoon..mujhe mere ek sawal ka jawab deti jaao
N: (no response)
T: Abhi ne tumhare saath itna zyaaditi ki..tumne usse roka kyun nahi? kuch kaha kyun nahi? tum to jaanti ho na Abhi ko? agar main sahi waqt pe na aata to woh na jaane kya kar jaata tumhare saath. na jaane kya…
N: kya? kya karta woh?
T: kya karta woh matlab? tumhe nahi pata?
N: haan pata hai!! pata hai kya karta woh per issme nayi kaunsi baat hai! woh jo mere saath karta woh to mere saath ho chuka hai. farq sirf itna hai k woh iss jism ko napaak kar jaata per meri to rooh bhi ab daaghdar ho chuki hai. yeh jism kya hai…iss rooh ka iss dil ka ek libaas hi to hai na. jab meri zaat se hi Khuda naraaz ho chuke hai to kya farq parta hai k iss libaas k saath isske baad kya hota hai. main hoon hi issi laayek! sab meri ghalti hai. maine…maine usse woh saare haq diye k woh mere dil ko…mere wajood ko iss tarha chooN sake k mere pakeezgi pe aaj khud mujhe shakk horaha hai. agar hum apne dil pe qaabu paa lete aur andhon ki tarha unn pe itna aetbaar na karte to aaj yeh hashar nahi hota hamara. kyun? kyun hum unnko sawal kare? jab k asli gunehgar to hum khud hai aur isski sazaa bhi ab humain hi bhugatna hai. aaj Abhi ne yeh harqat ki hai…kal koi aur karega aur tum! kya samajhte ho apne aapko!! tum bhi Abhi se alag kya ho? tum saare ek hi jaise ho! koi meri haalat ka mazaak ura raha hai aur phir tum jaise kuch hai jo faaida utha rahe hai. fiker mat karo…main aasan kiye deti hoon sab! koi nahi hai yahan pe…akeli hoon..apne zaat se naraaz hoon aur dil se majboor. lo…tum bhi apni dil ki tamanna poori kar lo..(and she throws her dupatta away)

Tanmay who was horrified to hear all this, struggles to find the right words. With his trembling hands, he lifts her dupatta and wraps it round her body and then with a whispering tone, he says:

"chalo…ghar pohuncha deta hoon"

Nupur who was also trembling in fury and rage, quietly follows him towards home. When they are nearly there, Tanmay turns around to leave when he utters a few words to Nupur

"Mayank ne kabhi tumhare zindagi me aake ek diya jalaya thee…tumne uss diya se apni duniya raushan ki. per na jaane kaise ussi raushni se tumhare duniya me aag lag gayi. aur ab tum uss duniya ko jalte hue dekh rahi ho per tumhe shayed yeh khabar nahi k woh aag ab tumhare daman pe bhi aa laga hai aur uss tapish me tum khud bhi ab jal rahi ho. tum shayed khud ko tabah o barbad karne ki faisla kar chuki halankein tumhari koi ghalti nahi. thik hai..tumhari zindagi hai to faisla bhi tumhari hai. per ek baat tumhe yaad dila doon k tumhare iss duniya me kuch aur log bhi hai jo tumse juray hue hai. woh shayed tumhare iss duniya me nahi rehte per tumne unhe itna haq to diya hai k woh iss duniya me aate jaate rehte hai. tumhare waldayen..tumhare kareebi dost jaise Diya yeh sab hissa hai tumhare zindagi k …tumhare khatam hone se shayed woh bhi khatam ho jaaye aur aaj tum yeh maano ya na maano per unn logon me main bhi shaamil hoon jisse tumhari zindagi aur tumhari khushi se barhke kabhi kuch nahi chahiye tha aur aaj bhi nahi chahiye…"

Without giving Nupur any opportunity to respond, he hastened his way from there leaving Nupur behind with the effect of his words. Tanmay's words has really touched her and as she walks her way into her home recalling those words, when suddenly she is greeted by someone with a big smile and an instant hug.

S: uff bacchi kitni bari hogayi hai aur kitni pyaari. bachpan me jitna dekha ya socha tha yeh to usse bhi kahin zyada khubsoorat nikli (as she brushes her hand on her head)

Is it the sudden approach of her or is it because Nupur was lost in her own thoughts, she just couldn't gather her mind to recognise this familiar face. Her curious look becomes obvious to Aparna.

A: kya hua? shakal kyun aisi banayi hui hai? pehchana nahi? teri Shilpa aunty! Sharma uncle ki patni aur Mayank ki ammi. ab yaad aaya!!

The name "Mayank" suddenly brings a chill on her nerves! But she manages to pull herself together and bows down to touch her feet.

S: nahi beta…betiyan maa k pair nahi chooNte..jeete rehiye. aapko duniya ki har khushi naseeb ho…
A: bas dua rakhna bhabi..na jaane kya hogaya hai isse. achanak se beemar hogayi aur tab se jo udaasi aayi hai isske chehre me…pata nahi kya sochti rehti hai. kuch batati bhi nahi
S: arre tum fiker mat karo Aparna…ab hum log aagaye hai na. chutki me yeh thik hojayegi…hai na Nupur?

Nupur smiles back at her as Shilpa calls her to come and sit by her.

S: accha aapko pata hai na k Mayank ki shaadi me zyada waqt nahi bacha aur humain itniii saari tayyari karni hai. ab yahan pe sab kuch to itna badal gaya hai k pehchan me bhi nahi aaraha kuch. per Diya bata rahi thee yahan pe acchi acchi shopping facilities hai khaas karke kuch traditional cheezen yahan pe bohat behtareen quality k milte hai. ab dekho Aparna, shopping to hum London me bhi kar sakte the per apne mulk me jo saadgi aur khubsoorti hai woh wahan kahan milegi! aur phir humnain socha k jis sheher me hamare buzurgon ki…hamari shaadiyan hui wahin per Mayank ki bhi shaadi ho chahe woh kitne bhi saadgi ya dhoomdhaam se ho, per apne mitti per ho.
A: bilkul sahi socha bhabi tumne. apni mulk aur apni zameen ki baat hi kuch aur hai. aur phir yahan pe aap ke saare apne hi to hai. tum dekhna kis dhoomdhaam se hum apna Mayank ki shaadi kerwaate hai
S: issi bharose pe to yahan aayi hoon bhabi k aap log sab yahan maujood hai. to Nupur beta..aap hamari madad karengi na? bohhat shopping karni hai…dulhan ka jora, saari zaroori cheezein aur gehne to main aur Aparna sanbhal lenge. Aparna tumhe yaad hai na Bashir bhai ki dukaan..kya gehne banate the..suna hai abhi tak hai woh!

Shilpa gets busy with her wedding plans while Nupur tries to make an escape when Shilpa asks again..

S: to beta Nupur, kal tayyar rehna. hum saath chalte hai shopping karne.
N: woh aunty hamari tabiyet sahi nahi hai. aap Diya ko le jaaye woh aapke saare kam kar degi
S: kya hua hai aap ki tabiyet ko..batayye? aap ko kuch nahi hua hai bas thori si udaas aur bohat bored lag rahi hai aap. shopping k mood me woh bhi thik hojayega. aur Diya bhi to chal rahi hai na hamare saath. per Mayank ki shaadi hai aur usski best friend na ho shaadi ki tayyari me aisa kaise hosakta hai? to thik hai…kal se sab kaam shuru…ok?
N: (is still reluctant to go)
A: Nupur..beta aunty itne saalon baad yahan aayi hai aur aapse itne pyar se keh rahi hai. manaa nahi karte. tum fiker mat karo bhabi, Nupur tumhari har madad kar degi. jab tak shaadi nahi ho jaati Nupur se aur hamare ghar se tumhe jo bhi madad chahiye bas ishaara kar dena.

Nupur couldn't bear to stand there anymore and retires to her bedroom. Weeping her heart out…her self conscious is on rise again constantly taunting her..

N: ab yeh din aagaye hai. jahan tujhe usski dulhan banna tha wahan tu usski shaadi ki shopping karegi, usska ghar sajayegi, mandap me diye jalayegi aur suhaag ka saij bhi sajayegi. kya baat hai! apni bewkufi ki sazaa jo tunay khud k liye muqarrar kiya tha Khuda ko laga k woh kam hai isi liye ab yeh sab bhi horaha hai.
N: hum kya karein..kuch samajh nahi aaraha. yeh sab humse nahi hoga!

Then she recalls Tanmay's words…and she thinks about them the whole night. She realises that there is no escape from this. How long and how far can she run away from this? How much can she hurt herself and how much more pain can she bear? Is there any other way? Is there…?




The story is heading towards its end now. As promised, readers will choose the right ending for me. So what to do and how? You have to put yourself in Nupur's place and decide what to do! Should she actually have faith in her childhood feelings which could be "childish and immature" and may not be reliable at all but still should she take that risk and hear Mayank out? Beware guys…truth can be much more bitter than it is now! Could it be that Mayank was actually fooling around? He has known Simran for quite sometime before deciding to get engaged…please recall it was their decision to get married so no force was applied from parents' sides. Could it be that he did not comprehend Nupur's emotions over an electronic media and thought just to kid around with his childhood friend? it may as well be that Mayank doesn't even want to recognise her when she confronts him (when he lands in India for his wedding) which will add more humiliation on Nupur's part. Or it may as well be that Mayank truly loves her but he has to continue with the wedding but still wants to keep the relationship going with Nupur…a proposal to be his extra marital affair? Any such offer for Nupur may break her down a lot more…so you as readers will give me as a writer, an upper hand where I can take Nupur down. Then again, on a flip side, Mayank could be the genuine guy who actually wants to marry her but whats the explanation for Simran? What if living in UK, he has already established a physical relationship with Simran and now asking Nupur to marry him..could there be any other motive? Can Nupur forgive and accept him? Please do think about it and give me as much logic as possible so that I can build up the story.

2nd option is Tanmay. We don't know anything about him but so far he has done nothing but to protect Nupur and always tried to make her happy. He has never shown any other intention in their relationship but a pure friendship. If you choose Tanmay, I may lead the story where Nupur begins to like Tanmay (love may not be the right word) and hence give her life another chance. Tanmay loves Nupur, very true but he has never let her see his feelings or expected anything of her. In fact Nupur has no idea about how he feels about her. But then again, living a life with someone whom you don't love, would it make you happy? well..you don't have a choice either, do you?

I guess I am looking for an answer to a universal question that I myself, could never answer…SHOULD LIFE BRING YOU TO A STAGE WHERE YOU HAVE TO CHOOSE BETWEEN THE TWO, ONE WHOM YOU LOVE (who may or may not love you) AND THE OTHER WHO LOVES YOU (whom you may or may not love), WHO WOULD YOU CHOOSE? Intikhaab kijiye Nupur ki zindagi ka…

Rules:

1. Please make your decision via comments and be very clear..MAYANK or TANMAY and then if you can elaborate why?
2. If you are not comfortable in writing a comment on this, please PM me and vote
3. You have only 1 week from the date of this post to vote
4. I will publish the final results AFTER the ending of this FF (so that not to kill the surprise)
5. Last of all, voter list below contains readers from the LIKE list from part 15 to date. I believe these readers are in a strong position to vote as they have been close to the characters and are well informed of all circumstances. But if anyone cares to join outside the list, please feel free to.

Thank You!

hey really sorry...
heartly sorry...
bt hv a strong reason for nt editing...
i kno m late for voting...
bt i'll vote for tanmay...
i mst hd luvd to xpln bt hv to lv...
i thnk ill edit soon to xpln resn...
m sorry..

sorry for double post...😊

well my vote goes to mayank.
firstly,cuz i think there could be another explanation of his behavior. what if mayank and simran was good friends and could understand each other very well and decided to spend the life together. then nupur enters his life and with time mayank fell in love with her. mayank couldnt tell her about simran before knowing nupurs feelings. so he proposed her. and eventually he was going to call off the marriage but the card reached nupurs house before that. and you know what happened later.
besides i still believe he deserves chance to explain. just think what if mayank was right and nupur misunderstood him and never gave a chance to explain. and she goes on with tanmay. still it'll haunt her all her life. still she'll feel cheated. and mayank on the other hand will feel not trusted by his love! then the lives of all four will be destroyed.
secondly, i dont consider tanmay as an option. when i started reading this ff i totally hated him just being a typical mayurian. but as the story progressed, i found out he wasnt someone that special. he has almost no effect on nupurs life. and even if he has some effect, thats only as a good friend. i find him no exceptional from dia except for he's a boy. he cares for her which is the basic rule in friendship- you care for a friend. and as you said he has not expressed any emotion for nupur, he doesnt qualify for the category of '' who loves you''.
as for your question about the intikhaab, well they say one should choose the one who loves them. but i dont agree with that. cuz i think its utter selfish. when you choose the one who loves you abandoning the one you love, you choose your comfort, your happiness over love. and love doesnt work that way. cuz either you love or you act selfish, these two dont go together.
and well yes nupurs decision could be childish and immature but love is childish and immature! the emotion named love doesnt exist in the real mature world. there exists want and need not love. love is mad and thats why it makes people go mad on it. love cant be explained or formulated and thus cant be maturated.
so once again i'd want nupur to give her love a chance and choose mayank ,cuz loves worth all the chances in the world.

My Vote Goes To Mayank

Originally posted by: -roshnee-

well my vote goes to mayank.
firstly,cuz i think there could be another explanation of his behavior. what if mayank and simran was good friends and could understand each other very well and decided to spend the life together. then nupur enters his life and with time mayank fell in love with her. mayank couldnt tell her about simran before knowing nupurs feelings. so he proposed her. and eventually he was going to call off the marriage but the card reached nupurs house before that. and you know what happened later.
besides i still believe he deserves chance to explain. just think what if mayank was right and nupur misunderstood him and never gave a chance to explain. and she goes on with tanmay. still it'll haunt her all her life. still she'll feel cheated. and mayankon the other hand will feel not trusted by his love! then the lives of all four will be destroyed.
secondly, i dont consider tanmay as an option. when i started reading this ff i totally hated him just being a typical mayurian. but as the story progressed, i found out he wasnt someone that special. he has almost no effect on nupurs life. and even if he has some effect, thats only as a good friend. i find him no exceptional from dia except for he's a boy. he cares for her which is the basic rule in friendship- you care for a friend. and as you said he has not expressed any emotion for nupur, he doesnt qualify for the category of '' who loves you''.
as for your question about the intikhaab, well they say one should choose the one who loves them. but i dont agree with that. cuz i think its utter selfish. when you choose the one who loves you abandoning the one you love, you choose your comfort, your happiness over love. and love doesnt work that way. cuz either you love or you act selfish, these two dont go together.
and well yes nupurs decision could be childish and immature but love is childish and immature! the emotion named love doesnt exist in the real mature world. there exists want and need not love. love is mad and thats why it makes people go mad on it. love cant be explained or formulated and thus cant be maturated.
so one again i'd want nupur to give her love a chance and choose mayank ,cuz loves worth all the chances in the world.

very well said...totally agree with u😊

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Neela ji...

After thinking a bit, my vote goes for Mayank...
He needs a chance...

Initially I might have thought Tanmay, but he is just a friend, he never said he loves Nupur, he just cares for her like a genuine true friend. Let him be her friend.