~~~~~~~Part 15: U, Me aur Hum~~~~~~~
M: itni dair laga diye..
N: waqt pe hi aaye hai
M: to shayed main hi jaldi aagaya. kya kare…intezar nahi horaha tha. Anyways…thank you
N: kis baat k liye
M: iss mulaqat k liye
N: to phir shukriya to humain bhi ada karna chahiye
M: kyun?
N: iss maukay k liye..
M: kaisa mauka?
N: zindagi ka rukh badalne k liye…isse alag nazariya se dikhaane k liye aur har uss ahsaas k liye jo dil ko achanak se ek khushi de rahi hai
M: main yeh to nahi kahunga k mujhe apne sawal ka jawab nahi mila per haan shayed iss jawab ko sahi tarha se samajh nahi paaraha. Then again…aap ki yehi aada aap ko auron se alag tehrata hai
N: aap??? ab aap humain kab se aap bulane lage? :)
M: bas…yeh samajh lijiye aap k khaton me likhi lafzon ka matlab ab dhire se samajh aaraha hai. baat umer ki nahi…baat hai rishton ki aur un rishton me basi jazbon ki
N: wah…bas lafzon k zariye itna kuch samajh liya?
M: nahi…lafzon ki zariye shayed kuch hudh tak AAp ko bhi samajh liya
N: humain samajhne k liye aapko hamare saamne aana hoga :)
M: humnain kab aitraaz kiya? aur yeh pehli baar to nahi na k hamari mulaqat hogi. na jaane kitne baar hum mil chuke hai..
N: accha? kab mile??
M: lol…bachpan me :)
N: :)
M: seriously…hum mil chuke hai.
N: accha baba…hum mil chuke hai. maan liya baat aapki. to phir ek baat pooche? hum dikhne me kaise hai?
M: ermm…dikhne me aap kaisi hai?? saawan ki ghataon jaisi…hawaaon se baatein karti hui aur hamesha aapke aankhon ke saamne aake aapko pareshan karti hui lambe se uljhe se baal….agar uthe to qayamat dhaati hai aur agar jhuke to aasman bhi zameen se aa milta hai aisi gehri kaali aankhein…awaaz me jaise baarish ki rimjhim per aap ki khamoshiyan shayed aap ki awaaz se bhi zyada bolte hai. chehre pe woh masoomiyat jo poori qayenaat ko sharminda kar de. har ada…har harqat aapki ek nazaqat hai. khush kismet hote hai woh log jinhe aapka saath naseeb hota hai. kya hua…aap to bilkul hi khamosh hogayi! kya maine kuch ghalat kaha?
N: (embarrased) sahi ghalat ka to sawaal nahi paida hota. bas aapke baaton ne humain lajawab kar diya hai. aisi baatein to woh log bhi nahi karte jinnke saath..jinnke saamne hum hamesha rehte hai. aur aap ne humain ek sadiyon se nahi dekha.
M: aap k liye saadiyan honge…humain to aap hamesha apne aankhon ke saamne hi dikhte hai :)
N: aap ko to hum dikh jaate hai kaise bhi…humain to aap sahi tarha se yaad bhi nahi.
M: to kya hum aapko yaad dilaye?
N: uhu..zaroorat nahi
M: kyun ..? aap dekhna nahi chahti humain?
N: aisa kab kaha? bas filhaal to hum aapke yaadon se hi khush hai. woh dhoondhla sa chehra…woh baatein…woh larai-jhagray :)
M: yeh sab yaad hai ab tak?
N: thori bohat…jaise aap hamesha hamare khilone chheen liya karte the
M: main khilone nahi cheenta tha! woh aap hi to the jo hamesha hamare piche piche ghuma karti thee. hamare khilone se aapko khelna hota tha…hamare doston k saath aapko ghumna hota tha..itne saare demands!!
N: kya issi liye humain maar bhi parti thee? :)
M: shayed…per yaqeen maano jis wajah se bachpan me aapko maara karte the aaj ussi wajah k liye hum kuch bhi kar sakte hai
N: hum samjhe nahi kuch?
M: har baat ko samajhna zaroori to nahi na?
N: nahi…accha aapko yaad hai ekbar Abhi se aapki khub larai hui thee..
M: Abhi? haan woh Abhi…usske saath to hamesha meri larai hoti thee.
N: abhi bhi milenge na aap to usse ulajhne ki chances 100%
M: kyun? usski aadatein badli nahi hai kya ab tak?
N: nahi..aur bhi bura hua hai. hamesha humain pareshaan karta rehta hai
M: abhi bhi?
N: abhi bhi matlab? aapko kaise pata?
M: arre bachpan me jo larai hui thee woh yaad hai, larai ki wajah nahi yaad?
N: nahi…kyun kya hua tha?
M: kyunki ussne aapko chhera tha
N: lol…I wonder ek 5-6 saal ki larki ko ek 8 saal ka baccha kaise chher sakta hai
M: chhera tha! mujhe yaad hai sahi tarha se…He..
N: he what?
M: rehne do.. (Mayank was not willing to remind her that Abhi actually kissed her which made her cry and that's the reason why he beat Abhi up)
N: rehne diya. ermm..ab yeh batayye aap ka Europe tour kab khatam hoga?
M: samajh lo khatam ho chuka
N: per 3 mahine k liye gaye the na aap?
M: haan per kaam jaldi hi khatam hogaya. jis maqsad se aaya tha woh poora hogaya
N: yeh to bohat acchi baat hai. to ab kya karna hai?
M: bas ussika faisla karne k liye to bulaya hai aapko yahan?
N: kya? iss baat se hamara kya talluk?
M: bohat gehra talluk hai ji…sahi waqt pe sab samajh aajayega. bas abhi k liye itna samajh lo ke zindagi ka ek ahem faisla lena hai aur woh faisla aap ki razamandi pe munhasir hai
N: hamari razamandi? kis baat k liye?
M: ke hamare baaki ki zindagi kaise guzarna hai…
N: aapko lagta hai ab hamari bimari lag gayi hai..uljhi uljhi baatein karne ki :)
M: nahi Nupur…aaj hum bilkul suljhe hue hai. In fact zindagi me pehli baar aaj shayed main itna saaf saaf soch paaraha hoon aur iss liye shayed aaj main apne zindagi ka itna bara faisla lene jaa raha hoon. per isse pehle k main iss faisle ko usski anjaam tak pohunchaoon mujhe aapki salah aur faisle ki zaroorat hai
N: kaisa salah..kaisa faisla?
M: Nupur..yeh sach hai k hum dono 10 saal ek doosre se door rahe per iss se bhi bara sach yeh hai k maine apne zindagi ka pehla 12 saal aap ke saath aur aap ke paas guzaara. yeh 10 saal shayed uss 12 saal per bhaari parh gaya ho..shayed zindagi me aage barhte hue humnain apne bachpan ke saathi ko thori dair k liye bhula diya ho…per woh yaadein..woh vaade jo dil ke gehrayi me kahi chupe hue the unhe shayed yeh zindagi ki raaftar dabaa nahi paaya. aakhir unn yaadon ne apni jagah humain dikha hi di aur aaj unhi yaadon ka vaasta dekar hum aap se ek sawal karne jaa rahe hai. agar hamari soch…hamari samajh sahi hai…agar hum aapko itna sa bhi jaan paaye hai in dino to humain yaqeen hai aap ka jawab bhi wohi hoga jo hum sunna chahte hai.
(after few minutes of break..)
Nupur…humain apni bachpan k saathi se phir se mohabbat hogayi hai. I have fallen in love with the very person who was always in my heart since she was born but for many years I failed to notice her…for many years I ignored her existence. But now as I look into her eyes, I see those hidden feelings…those tears that were shed in a separation so long. I am not sorry that I kept her away from myself for so many years but I am grateful to my heart that it did not betray me at the end and today I stand before you on my knees…Miss Nupur Bhushan..will you marry me?
N: (no response at all)
M: Are you there?
N: jee…
M: I know…this may come as a shock to you but trust me I have no time to spare. aur mujhe yaqeen hai k aap ka faisla hamare khilaaf nahi hoga.
N: (no response)
M: main samajh sakta hoon..aapne abhi tak humain dekha bhi nahi aur hum aamne saamne mile bhi nahi aur aise sawaal usually ek doosre k saamne …ek doosre k saath kuch waqt bitaane k baad liya jaata hai. agar aapko aitraaz hai to..
N: nahi…humnain aisa kab kaha?
M: to phir waqt chahiye aapko?
N: kis baat ki waqt?
M: shayed aap humse milna chahte ho.. dekhna chahte ho..shayed aap ko lagta ho k humain ek doosre k saath aur waqt guzaarna chahiye woh bhi face to face…?
N: Mayank hamare yahan to do ajnabeeyon ki ek hi mulaqat me shaadi hojaaya karta hai aur hum ladkiyon ko to aisi hi hidayet di jaati hai woh bhi bachpan se. yeh to hamari khush kismati hai k humain aap ka saath naseeb horaha hai jisse hum bachpan se jaante hai. jinhe humnain hamesha apne kareeb mehsoos kiya hai. aur baaqi rahi jaanne pehchanne ki baat…jitna hum aapko jaante hai shayed hi koi aur aapko jaan paayega aur yeh baat hum iss balbutay per keh rahe hai kyunki humain khud per yaqeen hai…hamare dil per aitmaad hai.
M: to phir ma-baba ko koi aitraaz hoga?
N: unnko kyun aitraaz hoga? aakhir woh bhi to uncle-aunt se utna hi jurre hue hai jitna k hum ek doosre se. balke unhi k wajah se to hum mil paaye hai
M: to phir kya jawab hai aapka?
N: humain alfaaz nahi mil rahe hai aap k sawal ka jawab dene ka
M: to phir…khamosh rahe. aap ki khamoshi me hum apna jawab dhoondh lenge
N: :) (remains quiet)
M: mujhe jawab mil gaya hai Nupur. Thank you..I am the happiest man on earth today.
And this is how both Nupur and Mayank make the biggest decision of their lives…to be together for the rest of their lives. A decision that was purely driven by their hearts and from memories of moments from their past.
-Neela~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
mera kya hai main to samundar ki maneend hoon
seenay me takraatay hue dard ki lehron ka saahil hoon
door tak jaate hai unn qadmon ki nishaan
mit bhi jaaye to teri pairon k niche ki zameen hoon
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P.S. I think I was in a trance when I wrote this part. I have never been so submerged in my thoughts and my fear for someone very close to me. Then again...whilst writing this conversation, I found myself very close to the very person, safe and sound. Good or bad, I don't know but whatever has been written above would not have been possible if that shadow was not breathing in my heart all along. Thank you Jaana...I miss you!
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