Part-22
The sun came creeping through the curtains in the early morning as the crashing of the waves could be heard almost clearly in the morning calmness of mauritius..Sujal and Kashish were sleeping soundlessly as Sujal's arm was wrapped around her waist...his head on the pillow beside her..whilst Kashish slept in his arms..under his hold...as the sun fell through the curtains..she opened her eyes..she lay there still when she moved her gaze towards Sujal..last night's events coming back to her as she remembered what happened..a tear slowly made its way down her cheek as she couldn't believe what happened last night was true..yet the sense of completeness she felt this morning..was different..something she never experienced before..she lay there still for sometime watching him and then gently.. lifted his arm..moving it to the side without waking him up..she rested it on the pillow..she sat up in bed as she reached out for the bedsheet...gathering herself together as she wraps herself up and gets off the bed..she turns back to look at him..and then finally lowering her gaze she heads into the washroom.closing the door behind her..she walks into the shower..letting the water run as she stood beneath it..her eyes closed as the water ran down her body..Sujal who was sleeping..heard the running of the shower and slowly opened his eyes,,,he ran his fingers through his hair as he sat up in bed..when realisation struck him..he lowered his gaze looking at himself..his clothes were on the floor beside Kashish's..his eyes grew wide in shock as he remembered what happened last night..it all came back to him as he remembered all the events of last night..he ran his fingers through his hair..not being able to believe what he did..he wasn't able to think straight..he quicky got out of bed and moved the covers..getting changed into his clothes...trying to keep his mind calm...when he looks at the door of the washroom..he closed his eyes in frustration and then looked around..picking up a pen and paper from the drawer..he wrote a small note saying 'I am Sorry'..placing it on the bed and then heading out of the door...leaving from there ...Kashish who was in washroom thinks for a while before coming out as she didnt want to face him after what happen between them..
Kashish: aaj nahi to kal muje iska saamna to karna padega...main kab tak isse durr bhagungi..
She stood there for a moment..deciding that she was going to face him...as it would happen one day...she couldnt avoid it forever...taking a deep breath...she opened the door carefully..incase he was still asleep...and walked out...but to her surprise...Sujal was no longer there...she looked around walking near the bed...when her eyes fell on the note...she picked it up and read it...tears started running down her cheeks as she fell to the edge of the bed holding the note tight...as she cried...feeling guilty for letting this happen...
Kashish: agar aaj hamare beech yeh nahi hota to muje itni taklif nahi hoti sujal...kyun kiya tumne aisa...kyun Sujal...kyun chod diya ab muje...jawab do Sujal..kyunnn..
She cried holding onto the bedsheet...her heart was in pain...she didn't know what to do...or expect...it felt as though everything was over...on the other side Sujal arrived at the beach as he got out of the car...falling down onto his kneels as he held his face in his hands...breaking down...not believing what he did..
Sujal: yeh..yeh maine kya kiya...I hate ..i just hate myself for doing ...I am sorry Maahi...please muje maff kar do...maine tumhe dhoka diya...ple apne sujal ko maff kar do...I am sorry Maahiii...
He was in tears...shaking his head in disbelief...feeling like he cheated on Maahi...he regretted losing control on himself...and for crossing his limits...both cried there hearts out...wishing what happened last night didn't...both were full of guilt
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Kahish sat silently in her room all day...tears had dried on her cheeks and it seemed like she had turned into stone..as she sat there still..without reacting..when her mobile rang..bringing her out of her thoughts..she lifted her head slowly to look at the screen when she saw Sia's name flashing..she answered the call placing it on her ear..
Sia: hi Kashish..kaisi ho tum..kahan thi itne din?
Kashish: kuch mat pucho tum Sia kuch mat ...sab khatam ho gaya...sab kuch..sab kuch mit gaya ab meri zindagi me...kuch nahi bacha...
Sia: Kashish...kashish yeh tum kya kehrahi ho...kuch hua kya..aur tum ro kyun rahi ho?
Kashish: kyunki main ab yaha nahi reh sakti...main wapas aa rahi hoon India...tumhare pass...apne ghar..muje nahi rehna ab yaha...
Sia; Kashish...Kashish hua kya..tum kuch batao to sahi..sab theek haina...please Kashish batao...aisa kya hua..kahin Sujal ne tumhe..divorce
Kashish: woh bhi achcha hota Sia ki woh muje divorce de deta lekin nahi...aisa woh nahi kar sakta ab...main tumhe abhi kuch nahi bata paungi...main bas yaha se ab nikal rahi hoon...sham tak aa jaungi...
Sia: theek hai Kashish..par tum..tum please apna khayal rakhna..aur pareshan mat hona..sab theek hojayega..tum bas pareshaan mat hona..main aur Rohan airport par pohanch jayenge
Kashish: tum is halat me waha pe mat aana...sirf ...sirf Rohan ko bej dena...
Sia: nahin Kashish..is waqt tumhe meri zaroorat hai..aur main bilkul theek hoon..tum pareshaan mat hona..hum dono pohanch jayenge..
Kashish: thik hai...main Daima se baat karke nikalti hoon..
Sia: theek hai Kashish..apna khayal rakhna haan...bye...
Kashish cuts the call whilst Sia sat there worried..thinking over what must have happened..Kashish tried to compose herself..calling Daima..Daima who was sat in the lounge waiting for Sujal answered the call...
Daima: hello..kaun
Daima: main...main Kashish..
Daima: Kashish beta..tum..acha hua tumne call kardiya..main bas tumhe hi call karne waali thi..Sujal kal shaam se ghar nahin aaya hai..kya tumne usse dekha...usne tujse kuch kaha ki woh kaha ja raha hai...pata nahi kaha hoga raat bhar...
Kashish: woh...woh Daima...Sujal kal raat mere saath tha ...
Daima: kya!!.Sujal..Sujal wahan tha..yaani tum dono ke beech ab sab theek ho chuka hai?..
Kashish: sab kuch hoke bhi kuch thik nahi...
Daima: kya malab beta..main kuch samji nahin...tum kya kehrahi ho..kya Sujal ne tumse kuch kaha beta?
Kashish: kal raat sab kuch hone ke bad...woh muje subaah chod ke chala gaya...use woh galti lagti hai..use kal raat ke bare me pachtava ho raha hai...main kya karoon Daima...kya karoon...meri kuch samaj me nahi aa raha...
Daima just listens to her in shock..not being able to believe what she just heard...
Daima: kyaa...Kashish yeh tum...yeh tum kya kehrahi ho beta..Sujal aisa kaise karsakta hai...tumhe poori tarah se apnane ke baad woh aisa nahin kar sakta beta...tum fikr mat karo beta..ab bas bohat hogaya..main Sujal se khud baat karungi...tum bas rona band karo..aur pareshan mat hona..sab theek hojayega
Kashish: aap sujal se ek shabd bhi nahi kahenge...use kuch nahi kahenge...aapko meri kasam Daima..
Daima: Kashish muje aisi kasam se mat baandho jisse main poora nahin kar paungi..kyunki is baar main chup nahin rehne waali..woh tumhari zindagi barbaad nahin karsakta..tum uski patni ho..aur ab to har adhikaar se...tumhe usse ab apnana hi hoga
Kashish: woh muje ab apni zindagi me kabhi nahi apnayega kyunki kal hum dono ne milke Maahi ko dhoka diya...maine Maahi ke vishwas ko tod diya jiske liye main kabhi khud ko maff nahi kar sakti...isi liye main abhi aaj hi India nikal rahi hoon..
Daima; Kashish tum aisa kuch nahin karogi..aur tum ne Maahi ko koi dhoka nahin diya...yeh tumhara hakk tha..tum Sujal ki patni ho...aur agar usse yeh paap lag raha hai to woh kasoorwaar hai.,..tumhe ab waapis aana hi hoga
Kashish: muje jane dijiye Daima...uske saamne uske saath main ghut ghut ke nahi jee sakti ab..
Daima: lekin beta kya durr chale jaane se koi hal niklega..kya tum kal raat jo hua usse bhool paogi?..kya ab tum Sujal ki banne ke baad usse durr rehpaogi..nahin beta..tum yeh nahin kar paaogi..aur ab Sujal ko uska farz muje yaad dilana hi hoga..woh galath hai
Kashish: daima muje jane dijiye...woh bhi yahi chahta hai aur main bhi...please Daima..
Daima: beta tum samaj kyun nahin rahi..tum yeh nahin chahti..main jaanthi hoon ke tumhare dil me kya hai..tum aise kaise ja sakti ho..tumhe ab Sujal ki zaroorat hai
Kashish: lekin use meri zaroorat nahi...
Daima: usse hogi Kashish...agar uske dil me tumhare liye koi jazbaat nahin hote to kal woh yeh kadam nahin uthata...woh itna aage nahin jaata tum dono ke rishte me..par woh bhi akela hai..usse bhi tumhari zaroorat hai..par shayad woh abhi samaj nahin raha...ek baar main usse baat karlun to main usse mana lungi
Kashish: nahi daima...aap use kuch nahi kahenge kal raat ke bare me sirf itna kehna ki main bas ja rahi hoon usse durr..
Daima: Kashish beta..aisa mat karo..main baat karungi na Sujal se..ek mauka nahin dogi apni Daima ko..
Kashish: main Sujal ko bahot achche se janti hoon ...woh nahi manega...woh abhi khud se gussa hai...
Daima: lekin woh yeh ghussa tumpe nahin nikal sakta beta..tum aur kitna sahogi..kya tumhe khush rehne ka koi haq nahin hai..beta tum kyun nahin ladti khud ke liye..kyun baar baar tum uski zindagi se chali jaati ho..kab tak tum apne is dard ke saath jiyogi...
Kashish: jab tak Sujal chahe main aise hi jiungi...lekin aap apna aur Sujal ka khayal rakhna..
Daima: math jao beta...hume tumhari zaroorat hai...
Kashish: Daima mere liye meri zindagi aur muskil mat banaiye..
Daima: theek hai Kashish...ab tumne faisla le hi liya hai to main kuch nahin kahungi...tum bas apna khayal rakhna..aur sab kuch theek hojayega..muje phone karti rehna..
Kashish: jee daima...main rakhti hoon...apna khayal rakhna ...bye daima...
Daima: tum bhi apna khayal rakhna...
Daima cuts the call as she settles down on the sofa..wiping her tears..thinking about Kashish' life..hoping for a change..she wanted to see her happy but it seemed like destiny way playing with her life...on the other hand..Kashish stood up..a fresh set of tears running down her cheeks as she walked to her closet to start packing her clothes
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3pm in the afternoon..Kashish was heading out with her bag..she walked out of her room slowly..walking down the stairs..every moment reminding her of last night..as flashes came back to her of the previous night..her heart in extreme pain..thinking about the moments..she gathered herself and walked out standing at the door..placing her bag on the ground she turned towards the door to lock it..placing her keys in her handbag..she turned around.and almost jumped in shock..she found Sujal stood there..leaning forward as he took her bag in his hands...Kashish just stared at him..not believing that he was actually there..she felt a sense of happiness overcoming her..she couldn't believe Sujal was coming to get her...she looked at him hopeful...when he stood there still..his back still towards her...
Sujal: kamsekam..main tumhe airport tak to chod sakta hoon na Kashish...
Kashish: airporttt!!!!...hmm..chalo..
Kashish just looked at him...as a tear escaped the corner of her eye..the small bit of hope she had..was also now broken...and then she realised that her thinking was correct..Sujal did not come to bring her back...she followed him in silence as he placed her luggage in the car trunk and settled inside waiting for her..she was about to open the front door...but then stopped her hand..as Sujal waited in the car silently..she opened the back door of the car and settled inside the car..her eyes looking out of the window as Sujal drove off..yet she couldnt help but look at him from the corner of her eyes every so often..her heart breaking each time..she lowered her gaze not able to look him in the eye..he made her feel as though last night was her fault..but she silently sat there..not saying a single word..they soon arrived at the airport as Sujal parked the car..he opened the trunk..taking out her luggage as Kashish got out of the car..he locked the car and walked a little ahead with Kashish following behind him silently...she watched him as he headed inside to the counter..buying her ticket..he then went ahead and got her luggage checked in..walking towards her he lead her towards the waiting lounge where she followed him without saying a word..as they reached the lounge they settled down waitin for the flight announcement..when Sujal looked at her passing her the boarding card...Sujal lowered his gaze as he took a deep breath..
Sujal; Kashish..muje tumse kuch kehna hai..kal raat jo hua..woh nahin hona chahiye tha..shayad jo bhi hua woh isliye hua kyunki hum dono ko kissi ki zaroorat thi...woh galti anjaane me hui hai humse...aur main jaanta hoon ke jo hua usse badla to nahin ja sakta..par meri bas ek hi request hai..kal raat jo bhi hua usse bhool jao..aur apni zindagi main tum aage badho..kyunki shayad main tumhe kabhi woh jagah nahin de paunga jo meri zindagi me Maahi ki hai...i wish you all the best for your future..and i hope you live a happy life..
Kashish: hmm...galti to huyi hai mujse...bahot badi galti...ho ske to muje maff kar dena kal raat ki galti ke liye...I am sorry maine phir se tumhe...maine phir se tumhe Maahi se durr karna chaha...isi liye mera jaana hi thik rahega...main bahot durr chali jaungi. lekin apna khayal rakhna...good bye Sujal...
Sujal:good bye..tum bhi..apna khayal rakhna..
He lowers his gaze looking down and then back up at her for a moment..whilst her eyes reflected pain..his guilt was killing her inside and she wished she could reverse what happened last the night..the most beautiful moment in her life had turned in to the most painful..and she didn't know how she would survive with this pain..as soon as the flight was announced..she turned away trying to stop her tears from flowing..as she ran towards the gates not looking back even once..she knew she wouldnt be able to go..or hide her pain if she brought herself to look at him..Sujal just watched her go..and then turning away he walked off from there..trying to overcome his guilt..he thought things would be better now that she left..
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Kashish walked through the gates as she headed onto the plane..tears falling from her eyes...as she found her seat and settled on it..she rested her head back against the seat..her eyes closed as she was in pain..
Aitbaar Nahin Karna Intezaar Nahin Karna
(Tears ran down her cheeks as she held on tightly to the edge of the seat..she was in pain..her tears increasing with each passing moment)Had Se Bhi Zyaada Tum Kisi Se Pyaar Nahin Karna
(She wondered why she loved him so much..when all she got in return was pain..yet she still couldn't help but love him so much)Ikraar Nahin Karna Jaan-Nisaar Nahin Karna
(She loved him with her heart, mind and soul yet she never got anything in return..she remembered the time he found out she loved him..and how he rejected her love and misunderstood her)Had Se Bhi Zyaada Tum Kisi Se Pyaar Nahin Karna
(She wished things were different and that he would have understood her..every time she felt cheated without being at fault..)Manzile Bichad Gayi Raaste Bhi Kho Gaye
(On the other side..Sujal quietly entered his house..walking in..Daima watched him from far..she wished she could have said something to him..yet she was bound by Kashish..he silently walked into his room with his head down..)Aaye Phir Na Lautke Jo Deewaane Ho Gaye
(He opened the door of his room...feeling Maahi's presence in the room..making him feel more guilty of what he did..)Chaahaton Ki Bebasi Doorio Ke Gum Mile
(He was missing Maahi..he wanted to apologise to her...as he felt he had cheated her..)Bekaraariya Mili Chain Yaar Kam Mile
(He felt restless turning away from the bed...clenching his fists.thinking about his act..wishing he could rectify his mistake)Bekaraar Nahi Karna Intezaar Nahin Karna
(Kashish sobbed silently..as she remembered the previous nights events..his words..being in his embrace all made her so weak)Had Se Bhi Zyaada Tum Kisi Se Pyaar Nahin Karna
(She closed her eyes tightly..as she thought of how she gave into him..yet she was helpless...she needed him the most at that point..she didn't know what made her grow so weak in front of him..yet she could never quite figure that)Koi To Wafa Kare Koi To Jafa Kare
(She wished that things would have been different..that he would accept her..she gave her everything to him last night..yet was left alone again..)Kisko Hai Pata Yaha Kaun Kya Khata Kare
(Sujal cursed himself for making this mistake..how would he face Maahi..how would he stay in this room..where he would always feel guilty for cheating on Maahi..)Aisa Na Ho Ishq Mein Koi Dil Ko Tod De
(Kashish felt heartbroken..her heart was shattered into pieces now..she felt like she wouldn't be able to take no more..after all she was human...)Beech Raah Mein Sanam Tera Saath Chod De
(When Sujal's eyes fell on the picture of him and Maahi on the dressing table..he walked upto it slowly..picking up the photograph..as he stared at Maahi's smiling face..)Izhaar Nahin Karna Intezaar Nahin Karna
(He touched her picture..tears falling from his eyes...knowing he gave Maahi pain by doing what he did..he knew she would never forgive him..he held it against his heart...wishing she never left him)Had Se Bhi Zyaada Tum Kisi Se Pyaar Nahin Karna
(He opened his eyes placing the picture down..not being able to face her..his restlessness increasing every moment..he felt suffocated...as he thought about what he did..he was in pain knowing Maahi would hate him for cheating on her)Aitbaar Nahin Karna Intezaar Nahin Karna
(He placed the photo down..and headed out of the room..closing the door behind him as he rushed out..not being able to stay there...on the other side Kashish was sat resting her head against the seat..looking out of the window..she sat there like a lifeless body..not being able to react or say anything..tears flowing from her eyes continuously..)Had Se Bhi Zyaada Tum Kisi Se Pyaar Nahin Karna
(She wished that she would change what happened...she wished her life was different..her suffering..her pain was becoming unbearable..and she wished the pain would leave her alone..as she had nothing left now..she was left lonely and heartbroken)***************************************************************************************
Late evening..Kashish Sia and Rohan were settled at Kashish's appartment..Kashish sat on the bed..holding onto her pillow...as she sat in silence..tears slowly falling down her cheeks..Sia was becoming worried seeing her state as she wasn't saying anything..Sia placed her hand over Kashish's as Rohan was sat there too waiting for her to say something..
Sia: Kashish..Kashish kuch tho kaho...please
Kashish: kya batau tumhe...kuch batane ko ho to kuch kahoon na main..
Sia: Kashish...tum kya kehrahi ho meri kuch bhi samaj me nahin aaraha..aisa kya hua ke tum waapis laut aayi?
Kashish: Sia...jo ..jo kal raat hua mere aur Sujal ke beech uske bad ab main uske saath nahi reh sakti...pata hai tumhe...jo pal meri zindagi ka sabse khubsurat the use woh...use woh meri galti manta hai...jo bhi kal raat hua uski jimedar woh muje tehra raha hai...kya yeh meri akeli ki galti hai...kya maine koi gunah kiya hai...kal raat to maine uski patni hone ka farz bhi ada kar diya..kal maine uski tanhai bhi bant dii to phir kyun muje kasoorwar karaya ja raha hai...
Sia and Rohan look at her in shock..
Sia: kyaa!!..Sujal ne..Sujal ne aisa kaha...muje yakeen nahin horaha ke Sujal itna gir sakta hai..woh kaise yeh karsakta hai...tumse woh aakhri khushi bhi usne cheen li Kashish..tum usse kyun itna pyar karti ho..jab woh nafrat ke layak hai
Kashish: Sia...agar muje pata hota ki muje itna dard milne wala hai to kya main use kabhi pyar karti...aur ab pyaar hone ke bad main kaise use nafrat kar sakti hoon...lekin kya mere pyaar ko kabhi manzil nahi milegi...kya woh hamesha apne pyaar ko pane ke liye tarsega...kya muje apnane ka uska koi hakk nahi...aaj main khud Maahi ki dushman hoke bethi hoon...agar aaj Maahi hoti to main shayad jee rahi hoti...lekin ab na main jee sakti hoon na hi main mar sakti hoon...kyunki ab Sujal ka pyaar mere ander nas nas me fel chuka hai aur main uske pyaar ko nahi mar sakti...nahi mar sakti ...
Sia leans forward and hugs Kashish..as she tried to calm her down..her own tears flowing seeing her pain..
Sia: Kashish..please aisa mat karo khud ke saath...tumhari koi galti nahin hai..galti to Sujal ki hai..ke usne tumhara istemaal kiya..agar uske dil me tumhare liye koi jazbaat nahin the to uska koi haq nahin banta tha ke woh tumhe is dohrahe par laa kar khada karde jahan se tum waapis nahin jaa sakti..kitne dard dega woh tumhe...uska koi haq nahin hai ...
Rohan: Sujal ki himmat kaise huyi tumhe kasoorwar thehrane ki..Kashish main usse baat karunga..aur usse samjaunga...uska koi haq nahin banta hai..woh har baar tumhe ek nayi chot de kar chod deta hai...koi haq nahin hai uska...
Kashish: Rohan...use samajane ka koi matlab nahi..kyunki aaj muje airport chodne bhi woh aaya tha...aur usne pata hai kya kaha...isko ek hadsa samaj ke bhul jao...kyunki woh bas ek kamzor lamha tha jo nahi hona chahiye aur woh...woh kabhi muje dubara apne samne nahi dekhna chahta...aur sach kahoon...ab main bhi usse durr rehna chahti hoon...ab main khud se ladte ladte thak gayi...muje lagta tha ki ek din woh mere pyaar ko samjega...lekin nahi...woh kabhi nahi samjega..aur na ab main use samjana chahti hoon.
Rohan: lekin Kashish ab baat bohat aage ja chuki hai...usne tumhara istemaal kiya..aur yeh main hargiz bardaasht nahin karsakta..Sujal itna gir sakta hai maine kabhi socha nahin tha..sab kuch hone ke baad woh tumhe apne saamne dekhna nahin chahta..sach to yeh hai Kashish ke woh tumhara saamna nahin karsakta..galti uski thi..aur uski sazaa woh tumhe deraha hai..aur galti bhi kya..yeh koi galti nahin thi..tum uski patni ho..aur tumhara uspe poora haq hai..aur yeh baat usse samajni hogi...
Kashish: nahi Rohan...ab use uski galti ka ehsaas khud hone do...tabhi use samaj me aayega ki usne kya khoya hai...aaj ke bad na main kabhi Sujal se koi rishta rakhugi na hi tum dono..
Rohan: Kashish yeh galat hai...muje kuch to karne do tumhare liye..please Kashish...main tumhe is tarah se nahin dekh sakta..tum jaanti ho na Kashish hume kitni takleef hoti hai
Kashish: aur agar tumne Sujal se baat ki to muje aur bhi takleef hogi...please Rohan...muje ab akele jine do...
Rohan looks away not happy with her decision yet decides to leave it..
Rohan: theek hai..jaisa tum chahti ho..par tumhe humse ek vaada karna hoga
Kashish: vaada...kaisa vaada..
Rohan: tumhe Sujal ko bhool ke aage bhadna hoga...tum peeche mud kar nahin dekhogi
Kashish: mere pass piche mud ke dekhne ke liye koi waje bhi nahi...
Rohan: theek hai..to main kissi se kuch nahin kahunga...ab tum araam karo..Sia..hum aaj yahin ruk jaate hain..Kashish ko tumhari zaroorat hai
Sia: thik hai...tum samne wale guest room me so jao...aaj raat me yahi pe rukti hoon..
Rohan: theek hai..goodnight...
Rohan leaves the room closing the door behind him whilst Sia tries to calm Kashish down..wiping her tears as she settles her down..staying with her..she knew Kashish needed her the most that night..and she wanted to be there for her...the night passed away slowly..with Kashish not being able to sleep..eventually she fell asleep for a few hours as the early morning approched...
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