'Confused about the numb pain'(Part VI) ends - Page 6

Originally posted by: bhoomikauttam

thanks MAhak for all the effort u put in to reply me every tiem with so much precise abt the story abotu what u liekd and encoruagign me throguh out.. thanks der for makgin me feel i had doen a ebtter job..thanks and thanks is too less a word to express what i felt readin gur replies verytime.. luv u

i too love u always.....and thanks for liking my replies......

Tc

Bhoomi

Originally posted by: adi_gupta

bhoomi
i want to thank you
you will ask why then i will tell you
bhoomi first time when i read your story when i was broken that time iwas also broken
while reading this i feel very good
that day new beginig start

Hi,

That makes me feel so nice that my story made u feel good.. thats what ff shoudl be all abotu right, makign one feel glad and gettign something nice to carry on in u. I am very happy that my work made u feel nice and happy.. I hope u keep been happy al through.. thanks not to me at all.. as i am a medium but whatever ones feel is all through God... so God wanted me to write this so that it could reach u and make ur day..😃 nice philosohy na.. hheeh so thank u for replygin and thank u for lettign me know my story are read by u and u feel good to read them... i have replied before to u as well i gues... i do recollect...

and this was becoz of your story ..........
after that all time i searched your written story
let me feel the love.........
and your every stroy ...........
give me strength.............

awww thats so sweet to hear.. if it give ur strength than i guess ur words now i giving me strength never to feel i am writign which isnt as good to share with us.thanks for makign me feel i shoudl conitnue such effort.. and soemone somewhere is wanting ot read them..and appreciates it...

bhoomi thx for writing this type of story......
i have comment before reading this ........
bhoomi i have one request plz pm me when ever you write any new story..................

Originally posted by: sumaiya wahid

This was the prefect ending of the story.....I'm glad at least Virat understood his fault n am more than glad that Swarna just didnt forgive him....actually I donno if he shud be forgiven or not....may be it cannot be said until going thru it....well watever it is I donno....hehe. But I felt u portrayed the last part exceptionally well.....the way u put Swarna's part....it was incredible....just brilliant Bhoomi. I just love the way u wrote it....thnx for this beautiful story dear.

Originally posted by: adi_gupta

why girl always cope with everyone .........
this question always bothere me.........
here swarna trying frm seven years .

yes u r so correct.. and i cant understand why things situation sna dmentality doesnt change even if the coutnry had progressed to any length..still there is this set up of bahu not askign mcuh btu listenign more.. Swarna did so much for 7 yers but Virat didnt think abt her sacrifice at alll , his family included parents and sister sfirst.. then whay marry and make soemone part of it when actually u really dont take her as.. she isnt here to just give child as the next generation....

or uski sister inlows ko or koi kaam nahi hein ...agar koi unki family me aisa kare tab ??????????
kya girl ko koi ghar nahi hota ,how rudely virat said this ""I earn the money, I know where and on whom to spend. You are not earning this money?"

agar vo swarna ko samja he nahi sakta to is relation ka kya means hein..marrige to bus pyar or understanding per hoti hien ..........

U have rightly said , its weird with the dominant nature and the attitude that he is strogn as he earns and it is he who shoudl dectate terms this is also the fualt o f the paretns for givign such upbrigning where Man shodul give the money in the hands of the wife to decide right she is takgin care of daily house chores... but i suppose all want theri space and none shoudl have control thats what hsi sister did havign control of the famly so that Swarna deostn get that..

i cna't understnad virat kaise pyar karta hein ,kya swarna ke feelings ka us per koi effect anhi hein......usee sirf apne sister ke parvaah hein.kya swarna kuch bhi nahi.

I guess Swarna at time shoudl have had made things clear to him and not for a large portion just take things inside her and hurt herself...

"He wanted to show Swarna the state she will be when he will leave her. He wanted to show her what actually loneliness means. He wanted her not to use the surname of their family whom she insulted and argued with"
bhoomi i believe ke dus me se atleast five boys to aisa he sochte hein ko girls ka koi wajood nahi hein ,aisa kyo hein na ke boys ke her baat right hoti hein i mean is world mein or girl ke bahut kam....
here swrna agar vo pershaan thi to virat ko usse puchna chayia tha ke ,tum kyo ro rahi ho ....kya problem heim.per nahi vo to ye show karna chatas hein ke child ke custody swarna ko dekar usne koi ahsaan kiya hien.......

Yes men belive in standard set of emotions as their duty towards wife.. they think if they melt with the tears of wife they may become hen pecked hsuband joru ka gulam.. Virat is amogn those who think that khud ko mahan bhi dikhaoo and show Swarna her psotion too..he wants both and thats why didnt take the custody.. He doestn know upar upar sey theek hai and ok ok bolkey pyaar dikhega ..he needs to give time to her , take her out of the mess and give her the individuality seh deserves... not a workign woman so what she has self respect too...

Life for me and u is not the same,
U want to end this and have me to blame,
I still can't find this to be the end,
I still love u and wants things to be the same?

i feel sad ke virat itna rude bhi ho sakta hien.

Is it wrong to be selfish in life sometimes?
Can't a woman have goals of her own at times?
A wife, a mother is these roles only fitted for a woman life long,
Can't they aspire desire for themselves in this journey along...


"When as wife, mother I had done my duties, as a woman as Prabha what's wrong in discovering myself too. If I don't have the courage to stand for myself I will never be happy to perform all my other duties too."
this word of prabha i feel very right .swarna have to srand for herself or for her children.

Yes Prabha is a strogn woman and her story was a process of discoverign inner self confidence in Swarna..adn thats why was included..I am glad most of my readers includign u have liked her spirit..and feelgin god i tried to have her side of story in this ...good to know u liked these lines.. and understood what i was trygin to potray..

so the dice turn ,now virat will see what he lost .kitna bura lagta hein jab hum apno ke hote hue bhi khud ko lonely feel kartein hien..kabhi saath sab hotein hein lakin phir bhi ek special relation ....now he will understnd the importance of swarna.everyword swarna siad is right ,everygirl when come to a new family she has some dreams but her dreams shatered by everyone.

bhoomi this is your another best work ......very connected to some time real problems in girls life.
i like every word of this.......

Thanks so much.. I think whatver i observed from life i felt to brign this out in this story.. initally and even in intro u wil find i have felt that it may be broign for my readesrs to read..but i got so much support from u al readers that i posted it in sped.... thanks for likign readign this story and appreciatign it too.thoguh there is least roamnce or loevy dovy scenes here.. thansk for appreciating such work. it makes me feel like writign more from my heart..and i hav some wodnereful readers here who understnad the depth of even such issues... thanks u have truly helped mee to know that such issue if i touch i will have readers too... i will keep writing some more if they come up in my mind..

virat is not a bad person ,i appricate his love for his family but he must understand swarna also ,whenever a girl marrige she needs support from his husband and other family members....so he missed to understand this.
plz pm me bhoomi whenever you write the next .......
i hope i don't bore you wiht my comments

hey bhoomi😊😊
just completed reading u r story,,oh it ended..hmm..ok...sorry i am late i didnt knew u updated until checked out here ..
its perfect ending n yes u did the justice..every time happy endings r what one expects from a story but in reality
that doesnt happen all times..one has to face reality too..no i am not talking about the shows 😆😆..
here swarna took the correct decision not to go back immediately when virat asked her,she has suffered a lot n he
understood just a part of her n only after he heard her in court,,what would he do or react if swarna never said?
what if he heard it after divorce?he would leave her n would have always blamed her...?
she was right in every thing she said n with the confidence she said!!!loved the part when swarna says about her feelings incourt,,,she had gone through so much n now its time she gives back....by saying her feelings n what she has suffered..
u have really showed swarnas character so nicely..we find most women like her in society..i only hope they take correctdecision like swarna fight for their rights!!!
about virat..its not that he didnt loved her..may be he didnt realised her importance n took her for granted...n thats where the relationship started breaking..he never waited for her decisions,he never involved her..he just wanted her to do chores n manage kids..like a nanny as swarna said now he is repenting...he realised his mistake but dont u think its too late..

"Marriage brought our union as a couple,
Brought us close made love to be unconditional,
We were together in good times and in bad,
Remember to have laughed when we were happy together,
Can't find the same tears when things were not that merrier,
Numb pain of loosing the closest relationship is undefined,
U want u cant U don't and u feel sad it couldn't it wouldn't,
Confused Complex and Contradicting mind and heart becomes,
Happy at times, sad at times and u search for more solutions,
Confused about the numb pain,
Love is inside u want to but u cant gain,
For lifelong the confusion and the pain will remain,
Marriage has every shade dark and light,
Better to hold on to each other closely tight,
Not let the other feel lonely ever,
Be there to share as two souls with one heart ever."⭐️

hope u would one day publish them all in a book..i would definetly like to read them-u r stories..u r poems,,u r quotes!!⭐️

Thanks to, Surya, Mahak, Seema, Sumaiya, Golu, Jyothi, Sookie & "Sri" 😃a lot for their continuous suport.
oh my god!!u took my name..aww!!so sweet of u dear..i am not that great too that u thank me..i should thank u for writing
such stories which r so real n happen in every day life of people...but people always prefer fictions n fantasies(even me too😆 hehe!!)

once again thanks..😃
hope u would PM me if u update any new stories..😊
great work,,keep it up..👏👏👏
good wishes..
sri:-)

Originally posted by: sri_4

hey bhoomi😊😊
just completed reading u r story,,oh it ended..hmm..ok...sorry i am late i didnt knew u updated until checked out here ..

Hi Sri,

Yes it ended and when i write an ff i post each part every day..many time post the hwole story in a day. Thast the reason i dont Pm for updates only when postign a new ff..😃.

its perfect ending n yes u did the justice..every time happy endings r what one expects from a story but in reality
that doesnt happen all times..one has to face reality too..no i am not talking about the shows 😆😆..
here swarna took the correct decision not to go back immediately when virat asked her,she has suffered a lot n he
understood just a part of her n only after he heard her in court,,what would he do or react if swarna never said?
what if he heard it after divorce?he would leave her n would have always blamed her...?
she was right in every thing she said n with the confidence she said!!!loved the part when swarna says about her feelings incourt,,,she had gone through so much n now its time she gives back....by saying her feelings n what she has suffered..

Yes, i thought i shoudl not end it makign it look they made up again.. i felt the 7 years of relationship needs now more n more of understnading which may or may not be possible.. so had to end it there and make it look real till the end... I had always felt ending wotn be happy but satisfactory in terms and happy to kow u too felt it was a better ending..though not a happy one..

u have really showed swarnas character so nicely..we find most women like her in society..i only hope they take correctdecision like swarna fight for their rights!!!
about virat..its not that he didnt loved her..may be he didnt realised her importance n took her for granted...n thats where the relationship started breaking..he never waited for her decisions,he never involved her..he just wanted her to do chores n manage kids..like a nanny as swarna said now he is repenting...he realised his mistake but dont u think its too late..

but whatever hope one day they both gets united back..n the numb pain is healed!!!😊

Ye , thats what children friends and family hope in such instances... so its the couple who r mature and have goen throguh it to feel how and when it can be healed.. its a process of lots of giving ..

loved this line..

"It's not about finding solutions its about making the best efforts in searching for solutions at both then ends which can somewhere bring a cheer into the relationship"⭐️so true i feel..

Thanks dear for likgin the lines.. i just write in a flow and if that clikcs i feel glad abotu it...

u r poems r one i always look forward in u r stories..loved the last one..it summarizes all..

"Marriage brought our union as a couple,
Brought us close made love to be unconditional,
We were together in good times and in bad,
Remember to have laughed when we were happy together,
Can't find the same tears when things were not that merrier,
Numb pain of loosing the closest relationship is undefined,
U want u cant U don't and u feel sad it couldn't it wouldn't,
Confused Complex and Contradicting mind and heart becomes,
Happy at times, sad at times and u search for more solutions,
Confused about the numb pain,
Love is inside u want to but u cant gain,
For lifelong the confusion and the pain will remain,
Marriage has every shade dark and light,
Better to hold on to each other closely tight,
Not let the other feel lonely ever,
Be there to share as two souls with one heart ever."⭐️

Good to know u liked the last poem lines.. yes i have written them..and to summarise my work .. feels good when reader like u appreciate and like the wordings..it give me hope that it gave for what i wrote it.. it was poetic but came as i ended the story.. and soemtiems i wonder how i get them in mind..i guess when charcter with which u play u feel them and lines come throguh just in the flow...thanks Sri for appreciatign adn likign my work..

hope u would one day publish them all in a book..i would definetly like to read them-u r stories..u r poems,,u r quotes!!⭐️

Awwww so sweet of u to say this.. i dotn know if i ever could do this.. but such words from u make me feel really flattered.. i guess i have to learn a lot though.. no professional and very immature in my skill.. so i guess i woudl let my friends readers enjoy all this and give their comments.. i am content withi it..:) thansk for so much encoruagment... 😃

Thanks to, Surya, Mahak, Seema, Sumaiya, Golu, Jyothi, Sookie & "Sri" 😃a lot for their continuous suport.
oh my god!!u took my name..aww!!so sweet of u dear..i am not that great too that u thank me..i should thank u for writing
such stories which r so real n happen in every day life of people...but people always prefer fictions n fantasies(even me too😆 hehe!!)

I had ot thank u ... my readers are my inspiration n froce behind me pushign me to deliver my next story.. when i get replies comments .. i do feel to share more of my work..and somehwo concepts ideas struck and i post with speed as readers friends push me or else i am a lazy person.. all the stories r mor of the friends who have encoarugaed rather than my own..i feel.. the journey of writing posting the story in volves my readers alogn side with me.. 😃

once again thanks..😃
hope u would PM me if u update any new stories..😊
great work,,keep it up..👏👏👏
good wishes..
sri:-)