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I looked around to find my friend happily dozing off, I was bored of the movies available in the flight entertainment menu, I had just watched a movie on my Laptop, I dint want to watch one more, not just then. I looked at the time, another 11 hours to reach the destination, the 6 days had flown by pretty quickly. Cant say I was unhappy about that, I was sort of itching to reach back home. Strange as it may sound, I was actually looking forward to get back to my harrowing work schedule. I cant really say I understood my impatience to start working again. Ofcourse, the whole trip I had been to was also work, but somehow, I itched to go back to my regular work, I convinced myself. How is that possible that I wanted to get back to the 16 hours routine in the same sets for about 28 days a month against a rather enjoyable work schedule in a foreign location. Surely something was wrong with me..! Yet I couldn't avoid acknowledging the obvious. I did seem to prefer my routine work, strange!

I thought of my work ahead, the brief of the track I got seemed to be interesting. Thank God for that, I was getting really worked up with the kind of tracks that we were forced to be a part of. I hate it when we have no say in things as important as the track. Maybe its because only I felt this way. No, not at all, she felt the same way too. Infact she felt much worse that I did, she was the upright and righteous one, she couldn't stand the track, yet she acted so convincingly. She is a true natural. I am yet to see an actress as good as her, it is such a pleasure to work with her. I just love pulling her leg, bullying her, just irritating her in general. She is such a sweetheart she really makes life easier even during the most hectic of schedules. She has this calming influence on me. She brings a smile on to my face, by just being there.

There I go again, why do I go on and on about her all the time. When ever she is not around, I think about her. I guess its because we are always together so much that it seems odd not to have her around. I think we spend more together than your average husband and wife. TO think a regular office going husband and wife meet each other for 12 hours in a day. Before you jump to conclusions, I'm only saying..mujhe aadat si hogayee hai like the song goes. I am used to her, having her around is a normal part of my life. Chatting to her 12 to dozen, spending all the time with her in between shots, discussing scenes with her, simply hanging around with her, thats how I spend my day at work , not to mention the wonderful scenes we shoot together.

Ok,I have been thinking of her non-stop these 6 days !! Is it just because I was used to her? Or is it something else? I tried to brush the unwanted thoughts off my mind, it could be harmful for our effervesent friendship. Honestly, we have a past, with each other ie..I mean a sort of break-up. Nobody really knows what happened but we dated briefly and broke-up and it really took a toll on us, our relationship with each other had really detoriated. It took a lot of effort form our end to build back the trust and friendship. We were now just happy with each other's company. We were after all working together as an in-love couple, we couldn't afford to be sore with each other. Honestly, we had crossed that stage and had become pretty close as friends. I loved her very much and she loved me very much and thats all mattered. May be we were not in love, like a typical couple..but there was love for sure.

Love, it always boils down to that doesn't it? As much as I try to keep that one factor out of the equation, it hits me with a stronger force. I keep trying to avoid the very thoughts, but I cant help it. Howelse do I explain my strange behaviour? I think of her 24/7, every small thing reminds me of her. I am dying to meet her, just be near her. To think I get jealous if she talks of anybody other than me, I feel she is all mine though she is not (not officially atleast). I feel like doing silly things for her just to see that lovely smile on her face. I Want to laugh with her, have I told you, she has a melodic laugh just like her voice. That reminds me, I want to hear her sing for me, and I want to see her expressions as she hears me sing in my horrible voice. Why did I have to start off again, I am missing her terribly now. Like this one time she went for a short break, I felt suffocated without her, my life seemed to depend on her presence..atleast my happiness did. I wonder if she would've missed me as much, I am sure she would've. There'd be nobody there to keep her entertained like I do ..glad ..atleast she'll miss me. I dont know why but it makes a lot of difference to me to know that she will miss me.

Ok, let me be honest with myself now, I miss her terribly and am waiting to catch one glimpse of her face. I'm sure my fatigue will disappear the minute I see her. I know I know, You tell me its love, I know it is, but I'm not willing to accept it :) I'll just let it be.. for now..!