MY SERIES OF TALES- THOUGHTS-PAGE 24 - Page 6

Don't worry at all. Your Grandfather will be fine. I will pray with all my heart for him. We are all there for you.

pls dont worry he will get soon..................................i too will pray for him.....................take care

Very nice one shot. I loved it. Thanks for sharing it with me and sorry for not commenting earlier!

Your Grandpa would be fine soon. We're all praying for him.

And yes... I forgot when we chatted today... how's your hand? Do find time to care of yourself in your buzzzzzzzyyyyy schedule.

heyy

don't worry at all
ur grandfather is going to be fine
i will surely pray for him

dont worry ........he'll get well soon........
i'll pray for him

HEYY GUYSSS

I WISH I WAS A TEAR IN YOUR EYE

Autumn evenings always intoxicated me. The gentle cool breeze reminded me of my childhood days when I slid down the slope at the park and my hair blew against the wind. Then it reminded me of my teenage when I purposely kept them open in the wind to make them fly as I imitated some actress, then my internship when he always tucked my hair behind my ear and then today….my life and my fears…..

Having being settled in new york for quite some time now we are now familiar with cold autumns …so as I sat on the couch beside the fire I went through my past. These memories entangled my mind such that they prevented me from shutting the windows which caused the fire to blow out. This act went unnoticed by me and all I did was to suck onto the cup of hot chocolate from the past half an hour. I remembered how much I hurted him to reciprocate his unconditional and undescribable love.

Married to him for nearly a couple of years I still cannot get those incidents out of my mind. Misunderstanding him was a mistake I committed more number of times than the total days in our internship but never did he hate me in return. What I got was pure and unconditional love which once I had mistaken for infatuation, crush and lust but never love. Remembering my accusations I got traces of tears swell up my eyes.

Out of my trance due to the banging of the window I realized that there was someone at the door knocking …I don't know since when. I could just feel him around and I cleared the path of tears flowing down my cheek giving way to fresh ones.and I made my way to the door and yes it was him.

He sensed some sort of insecurity in my eyes and packed me in a rib crashing hug. I just wanted to stay in his arms. They provided me a protection which was unmatched by any power in the world. In those arms I, who defined imperfections felt perfect.

Breaking the close proximity he shut the door behind him and duming his laptop along with a few files on the couch he came upto me and cupped my cheeks in his warm hands. He continued with,"what happened baby, I sense something disturbing you." I slowly detangled myself from his grip and leading us into the dining hall I replied, "nothing jaan, why don't you freshen up while I heat the dinner and set up the table?"

He knew I was crying though not hysterically but something was hurting me. He said " come on ridhima…you can tell me what it is…." That was it… I could no longer control those flowing drops of pain. I went upto him and stood gazing in his eyes letting the tears swim in mine. As I sinked in the depth of those eyes I felt insecurities rise inside me… I don't know why… this never happened before but today after chatting with anjali di over the phone for an hour remembering our internship and specially this very day , 6 years back when I had left him after him going to patiyala. I started crying hysterically. He took me into a warm hug and carressed me in every possible way for some time and as he felt my violent cries subsiding to give way to silent sobs he again risked the question " ridhima, jaan you can tell me… is it something with me…have I committed a mistake..tell me ridhima…your silence is killing me"

Listening to him I just looked up with wide eyes. How could he be so selfless? It was always me who hurted him and still he is asking if he committed a mistake? i could do nothing but hug him tight and cry. With every tear he felt pain and did not know what to do. Finally looking at his condition I decided to speak. I just uttered " armaan its….its just that the thought of …" I again turned silent. I had no courage to say those words . I knew they would hurt him. It is not that I have not hurted him before but I know that even though it will hurt him still he would not let me know about the pain and would try to act neutral burying the painas deep inside him as possible. He looked at me and asked me to continue. Somehow I voiced my fears . "armaan it is…armaan there is this fear settled in me…I don't know why but you are such a part of me that I fear what if I lose you. I cant imagine life without you. Just that even the thought of losing you is drying my desire for life.i cant think of it.." at first his face displayed some hurt expressions which hit me deep at the heart but then understanding the situation he took control over it. He looked into my eyes and said " that's it… I thought…it was some mistake I committed….ridhima you know I cannot leave you in my wildest nightmares but more than that you know that I cannot see you in tears . they hurt me like stones hitting my heart. Ridhima your tears are more valuable to me than all the wealth in the world." " armaan I …I cant stop them… don't know why…" I managed to speak. " ridhima I would never go away leaving you behind, people say that love is blind but I say it has the best eyes… it can see throughthe surface so why don't you try. Scan my heart" armaan said trying to instill sense in me. He cupped my cheeks and looked in my eyes. As he saw those tears reappear he said " hey sweetheart you are in no way getting freedom this fast… you get that… I cant go away so fast…I have about atleast 20 years to live " smiling as if he cracked some joke but as he felt my glare on him he realized I am in no mood to joke, he made out that I was serious." He lowered his head and then looked up with a depressed face.

He made his way to me and held me by the waist , then slowly kissing away all those tears which were still on my face he made me get lost in him. Then slowly tucking my hair behind my ear he said " your biggest wish from life is to never lose me na?" I nodded. He continued " you know what is my biggest wish in life" I shrugged my shoulders and looked at him without an answer. I just could not guess it. He cupped my face in his palms and said " you remember once after that bet incident I asked you to not let your tears flow for me when you said that you wished I was a teardrop in your eyes so that you could have easily dropped it and forgotten the pain I caused in your heart but today I say that all I wish is that I were a tear in your eyes because then you would be satisfied that you wont lose me as I will be enclosed within you and that I wcan never leave you without you wanting me to do so and I would be satisfies that you would never cry as I know that you wont let me drop as a tear and get lost in the crowds of the world… I know that you would always keep me with you in life"

These words made me fall in love with him all over again, I still don't know how he manages to look at the best out of every occasion. I stood there gazing into vaccuum as his worlds revolved in my mind and brought tears in my eyes

Looking at him with an intense gaze I said " and if ever I commit this mistake by mistake."

he looked at me and that was his answer. His eyes said " I know youwould never do that"

I again looked at him and said " now on even I wish that I was a tear in your eye so that I could be born in your eyes, rest on your cheeks and die on your lips"

As I said this tears again stained my eyes… what was different was that these tears were not of pain or fear but of happiness and gratefulness….. caused by the feeling of being loved.. I can never forget those words in my life because those words were actualy made me feel that I was losing the moments I could have spent with him in crying meaning I was losing a part of life without using those moments to our happiness but still my tears at that time did not stop… he slowly covered the distance between us and kissing away my tears he said

"agar khuda kabhi aapko

Galti se rulaaye

Ya aapki aakhon main

Aansun jhalak aaye

Sambhal ke rakh lena use

apni aankhon ki seep mein

kya pata kal vo hi aansun

khushiyon ka moti ban jaaye"

he said these words following which I embraced him with undying passion and slowly covered the distance between our lips and broke into a never ending kiss … and as we parted for breath he just made me promise to never cry again and I kept upto my promise…. Not that thati bury my sorrows inside but I share them with him and he makes sure that tears don't reach my eyes. I restricted my tears and today I know that all those moments which i might have spent crying and sobbing were now precious to me as they were full of love, trust and passion for each other

" tears might be a way to express one's feelings in life but it is better to keep those feelings buried if those tears hurt your life"

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i will pray for him i am he will recover

Wow honey thats a gr8 news..Thanks 2 Allah..

gr8 news jesus will always keep those happy who r good ur good things never happen 2 goode people and noe cumin 2 updt t ws a nice way 2 exprss the emotions u were goin thru god bless u ur Shots and ur granpa