MY SERIES OF TALES- THOUGHTS-PAGE 24 - Page 8

I am the one.

These days had been the most important days of my life. We were united. Yes finally when our internship was about to be over we realized our love for one another or atleast I thought so. He proposed me and I accepted with no fears of the consequences. No fears of a broken heart, no fears of swollen eyes. All I saw was love, all I trusted was love , all that hurted was love, and all that succeeded was love. I might sound a philospher by my words but at heart I am a woman who dreamt of love and got it, who understood love and went through it. Every phase of love just like hindi film scripts, through happiness and desire, through pain and tears but in the end love won.

It wasn't me but us who were not keen to disclose our relationship, I because I was shy and he…I didn't know why but he seemed to be every girl's dream…the ultimate person to be with… his image around was not my types and my image not at all his types but luck fused us together. Luck or fate or might be a bet…. Yes you heard it right I was auctioned… armaan mallik was playing on me…. I meant nothing more than winning a bet to him and to me he became the centre of my world. I wouldn't have known this if not for the day I wish which never was in the history of my life. The day which happened to be a heart breaker. Scheduled with back to back surgeries I was not free to be with him throughout the day as I usually was. He joined the gang at the caf which was a common place for us to meet. After a great deal of fun and jokes one of our colleagues questioned him about our relationship. Stumped he said " you feel I will be committed to ms basket…well you are wrong…she is not my types…she is so…so teacher types and you guys believed I ARMAAN MALLIK in love…I mean what's wrong? Only fools fall in love" and I don't know why god made me step in just then. I was there with a sad face to narrate that day's happenings to him. I wish that moment had not happened. Without noticing me around and defending his image he said " god knows who spreads these rumours…armaan mallik the dude…. In a relationship with ridhima gupta…that's news to me…it can never be in any of my life… I was just around with her because someone had challenged me saying ridhima never has an enchanting effect of men over her. It's not easy to win her. She is not those easy types of girls." that was it…I could not bear to see my love being insulted to this extent. I walked upto them with tears flowing down my eyes. Seeing me there he looked down. Caught redhanded he was not able to meet my gaze but I had caught his I was still in a state of shock…pure simple shock. Never had I known that my life would abandon me this way. Never I knew that all those words which made me smile were a hint to these tears. I looked into eyes searching for my answer but I feel mine were too blank to understand.

He tried to bring his hand on my cheek and caress it but I stepped back. Hurt more than words could just explain I was slowly sinking into the truth. Was I a mere game which was played by him of no more value than a bet? Actually it was not me but he who had messed up. I finally just gave him a tight slap onto the face and said " you were right armaan….only fools fall in love and I guess I am one of them. As I said these words I did not have enough strength to hold myself up and wait for his reaction. I was not strong enough to face two consecutive heartbreaks, both because of him. It was because of him that I confronted my father and he was against our relationship and was in no way going to support us but I went against him to stand up for my love. I swayed on my feet and tried to stand by the support of a chair. But as my mind slowly slipped into unconsciousness I swayed and fainted lying there right on the floor. All this happened too quickly for anyone to respond but he was the first one to do so. I was not in my senses after that but my friends narrated all those incidents to me.

They narrated all his care for me once I was conscious. They told me how he had been taking care of me. While they were all busy thinking what happened to me he was the only one to take action and lift me and take me to the iccu. As he checked my bloodpressure he found out that it was extremely high due to tension and that was the reason why I fainted. As he injected a dose of into my arm he felt the pain himself. He settled beside me pulling a chair for himself and holding onto my hand he broke down. He still had not realized his love. All enquiries by our group went in vain as he thought that he did not deserve me and that we were always just good friends. He wept silently and remembered how he purposely had fooled me by saying he loved me or atleast he thought so. He was the one to stay beside me throughout the three days I was unconscious. He could not recognise the feelings that rose in him. They were all like a cloud of mist and shadow. Unclear thoughts entangled his mind and unknown feelings wandered in his heart. As for me , I thought I was lucky because all that time I had his hand in mine

Next all I remember is our gang walking into my room and summoning him. Not knowing that I was conscious now he did not leave my side as a tear left his eye. Being low yet strict on her voice anjali di said to him " you say this is not love? Your care for her is friendship, your tears for her his friendship, your heartache for her is friendship… is it nothing more than that…answer me armaan" he did not have the answer. After me fainting he did not give it a thought. All he cared at that moment was whether I was alright still trying to find an answer he phrased up the words " anjy, you know what? Ridhima is a very sweet girl. I do not deserve her. She deserves much better. I am too bad for her. I have hurt her endless times… I want her to move on because all I have given her is tears and this condition." He said all this in a breath trying not to look up because he knew his tears wont stop .

Muski interupted " armaan you know you are lying? Why are you doing this to both of you?" armaan answered "look at her condition muskaan…it is because of me." Finally atul spoke " and your condition.is it not because of her… crying by her bedside wont gift her to you. You will have to win your love. Three days gone and you have not let a single drop of water reach your lips. Would you be able to survive and seeing you in this condition would she be able to survive? Ask this to your heart armaan and keep your mind out of it" all these questions wandered in his mind. He was feeling weak at heart. Not able to decide what to do . that is when rahul helped him " armaan you know what …you are the biggest fool I have met who is tramplig and troddling over the love which came its way. You are right you don't deserve her but your love certainly does. Realize it before it is too late" the rest of the gang also agreed with rahul and asked him to decide. Left to himself with no shoulder to cry on he held tighter onto my hand and said " what shall I do? Why am I not able to understand this feeling? What exactly is it ..crush…infatuation, friendship, lust or love… help me sort it out ridhima..pls help me…" he said all this and innumerable tears came streaming down his cheeks falling onto my fist and causing me a heartache. Slowly I shifted my hand a little and as he felt the movement he realized I had gained consciousness. He composed himself together but meeting my gaze was not easy for him. I still had those tears I don't know why.. he did not look up because he knew he wont be able to control himself but he uttered "sorry ridhima…I am sorry" "sorry for breaking my heart" I replied " don't say that….it hurts…I never meant to do it please forgive me" he apologized " apology for what armaan? I said tears brimming out of my eyes " how are you now?" he asked changing the topic. "how does it matter?" I asked as straight faced as possible for me. " it does ridhima it does….you know in all this while I realized something…I don't know how to phrase myself but…i….i think I love you" he answered…"you what? " I asked shocked "I …I think I love you" he answered "I am not ready for another heartbreak armaan…I would break…I wont be able to survive the next one…I would die of pain armaan…I would die.." I mumbled As I tried to ignore further his talks. I still loved him but needed some time for us. I did not want history to repeat itself. I wanted to remove this I THING I love you forever. He had to decide whether he loved me or not. I no longer was a game for him to play.

Sensing my anger for him his heart broke and holding my hand into his with his tears dropping on it he kissed it and then said :

Khafa na ho jaao yun humse

Aapke liye duniya se lad jaayenge

Lekin dur jaane ki sochna bhi na humse

Hum har pal hazaaro baar mar jaayenge

I took my hand from his grip though his words had melted me inside but now I somewhere did not want to be easy for him. I said " armaan you are sure…I thought love was not your cup of tea … you thought only fools fall in love didn' t you???? I asked

"ofcourse I did…only fools fall in love and everyone says I am one of them.." he said smiling sheepishly. That was it. I took him into a bear hug and said " never leave this fool armaan…she would die without you"

" you are not foolish when you confess love but you prove to be foolish when you reject it because love is life… you wouldnever get another one"

Originally posted by: ranbir_lekha

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Originally posted by: srihari214

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