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If it was meant to be
Part 2
I could do it- Get out of the house without breaking down completely.I didnot want Shilpa aunty to see me like this-
Taking deep breaths I scrambled down the stairs.
Why did she speak to me like that?
When did Diya find me so..so...so repulsive?
The thought brought a fresh bout of tears-I hung onto my last ounce of control as I raced out to the garden.I could see Ramu kaka eyeing me with confusion.Once outside I let myself calm down.It wont do good to run to the house in tears especially since the mehendi was today.What would Gunjan think?
It was her special day-I could not ruin it for her.
I stood a while trying to stop the tears.Clasping my hands together I knelt down trying to think.As always under pressure my thoughts scattered,my hands started to tremble.I took deep calming breaths.I could not have an attack - Not now-
Not now-
Not now-
I chanted to myself,keeping my eyes closed.
Taking a deep breath I stood up and started walking towards home,wiping the residual tear drops in my eyelids- and then he walked in.
I did not need to look up to know he was there.I could hear my heart thundering.He looked as taken aback as I was-To be honest even more so.
I stared at him as he looked away quickly.
Repulsive-
Now the entire Sharma clan finds me repulsive
I chewed on my lower lip.I would not cry-
"Hi.."I said softly.
"Hi.."he said equally softly,keeping his eyes safely away.
I wanted to talk but having no idea what to say I moved away.He looked up as I passed him.
"Nupur..."he began.I waited.He did not say anything.
Ofcourse he wont
"I will see you at the mehendi."I said.
"Actually- er -I am going to Mumbai for the weekend so.."
So he wont come...he wont come at the wedding and neither would Diya..
I started trembling again.
"Okay...I understand..I..."my voice cracked and I rushed forward.
"Nupur.." his voice was worried.I stopped.I could hear him coming nearer.
I could not risk that.I started to move again.He grabbed my wrist.
"Wait,,"he commanded.
I kept my eyes down.
There was a silence and then he said in the most gentle voice ever.
"Please look up."
I did.
His eyes widened.
"Why are you crying?"
I started wringing my hands.I clutched my dupatta and swallowed hard.It was coming back - the dizziness- the frantic thumping of heart.
"I..um..I ...Mayank..I ...cant..s-speak..."I blurted out.
A flash of pity came to his eyes.It was more than I could bear,I rushed away from him.
"Nupur..."he called loudly.
I stopped again.
"I will be at the wedding."
I turned back to see him colouring slightly as he shrugged.I smiled at him and he smiled back
Part 2
I could do it- Get out of the house without breaking down completely.I didnot want Shilpa aunty to see me like this-
Taking deep breaths I scrambled down the stairs.
Why did she speak to me like that?
When did Diya find me so..so...so repulsive?
The thought brought a fresh bout of tears-I hung onto my last ounce of control as I raced out to the garden.I could see Ramu kaka eyeing me with confusion.Once outside I let myself calm down.It wont do good to run to the house in tears especially since the mehendi was today.What would Gunjan think?
It was her special day-I could not ruin it for her.
I stood a while trying to stop the tears.Clasping my hands together I knelt down trying to think.As always under pressure my thoughts scattered,my hands started to tremble.I took deep calming breaths.I could not have an attack - Not now-
Not now-
Not now-
I chanted to myself,keeping my eyes closed.
Taking a deep breath I stood up and started walking towards home,wiping the residual tear drops in my eyelids- and then he walked in.
I did not need to look up to know he was there.I could hear my heart thundering.He looked as taken aback as I was-To be honest even more so.
I stared at him as he looked away quickly.
Repulsive-
Now the entire Sharma clan finds me repulsive
I chewed on my lower lip.I would not cry-
"Hi.."I said softly.
"Hi.."he said equally softly,keeping his eyes safely away.
I wanted to talk but having no idea what to say I moved away.He looked up as I passed him.
"Nupur..."he began.I waited.He did not say anything.
Ofcourse he wont
"I will see you at the mehendi."I said.
"Actually- er -I am going to Mumbai for the weekend so.."
So he wont come...he wont come at the wedding and neither would Diya..
I started trembling again.
"Okay...I understand..I..."my voice cracked and I rushed forward.
"Nupur.." his voice was worried.I stopped.I could hear him coming nearer.
I could not risk that.I started to move again.He grabbed my wrist.
"Wait,,"he commanded.
I kept my eyes down.
There was a silence and then he said in the most gentle voice ever.
"Please look up."
I did.
His eyes widened.
"Why are you crying?"
I started wringing my hands.I clutched my dupatta and swallowed hard.It was coming back - the dizziness- the frantic thumping of heart.
"I..um..I ...Mayank..I ...cant..s-speak..."I blurted out.
A flash of pity came to his eyes.It was more than I could bear,I rushed away from him.
"Nupur..."he called loudly.
I stopped again.
"I will be at the wedding."
I turned back to see him colouring slightly as he shrugged.I smiled at him and he smiled back
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