After the shower Kalpi was feeling bit relaxed... Though the purpose of shower was not fulfilled but it helped him wash out the tiredness of the day..She looks at their room and decides to leave as staying in this room for long may bring back the memories which she is trying to forget... At the same time when she was about to leave Raghav enters the room... They share a painful eye lock... Kalpi turns out to leave but Raghav calls out her name to stop her...
"Kalpi.. I think we should talk.. I want to explain something.."
"I do not think there is anything left to talk about.."
"There is... I want to apologize... I want one last chance from u... I know I have made lots of mistakes...but just a single.." He said in a feeble voice.. The guilt in his voice was clear... anyone can say that his apology is sincere and he is regretting for his mistakes..
"Raghav please... Do not make it more difficult... It will be better if we let it happen easily.. We were together coz of the love and I do not think there is any love left between us... " She cuts him in the mid.. closes her eyes to prevent the tear from falling and says firmly.
"U know I love u...N I know U love me too..." Raghav said while holding her from the arms and turning him to her side... The tear which she was preventing to fall came down from her eyes... Raghav tries to wipe it but she jerks it off angrily.
"Don't... u have no right to wipe the tears which are there coz of u only... Remember the day u said that from now onwards I want let anyone else hurt u...No one will be able to give u pain. u were so correct Raghav... u dint let anyone else hurt me coz the pain u have given me has hurted me so much that I do not care about the pain other has given me. N Mr. Raghav Singhania... Let me make u clear... I do not love u." She said angrily. The guilt in Raghav has turned into anger... he knew she was correct and he has given her immense pain but the last line... No it can't be true... He has seen love in her eyes... he has seen his effect on her in the party and now she is denying it...
"Do not lie... I know u love me... I know that u made the arrangements for the party and I knw that the cake was made by u..." He said angrily while tightening the grip on her arms.. She feels pain but ignore it.
"No I dint... That was made by the kitchen staff." She lied.
"Don't try to fool me... The cake has the special flavor which u named as RagNalicious... only u r the one who can add dates and oranges to the cake... U told me that this combination is just like us...sweet and sour!! " He roared.
"Yes.. I made it... but for my daughter for her happiness and not u... For me u do not exist. " She replied angrily and leaves the place leaving Raghav alone. Raghav tried to call her out again in anger but she disappeared quickly... in anger he pushes the Kalpi's books kept on the table... They fell down and a letter drops from it... Raghav notices it and picks it up. He is surprised to see that it was addressed to him and the hand writing was of Kalpi... He notices the date and shocked to know that she has written it on Ria's birthday which was few months back.. He wonders why he has written the letter for him and starts reading..
Dear Raghav,
I do not know when the distance between us increased so much that I have to write a letter to share my feelings with u... There was a time when u used to understand my silence but now u do not have time to hear my words as well... I hope u finds time to read this letter and if u reading it than I am really thankful to u.
I do not know from where to start.. It's not that I do not know what to say but I do not know how to say... I have so many things to tell but I fear that u might not read all of them due to less time.
I dint realize when our relationship changed... When from a loving husband u became a busy businessman and I lost my Raghav... There was a time when ur presence was enough for me and I never wanted anyone else around me but now even ur presence makes me feel alone...When I used to cry I always found u beside me but now when I cry I find the loneliness around me... All I have to do is switching on the shower and letting my tear mix with water so that no one can identify them. Earlier we used to watch tv to spend some time with each other but now I watch tv just to kill the time in ur absence. There was a time when we used to feed each other but now u don't even have time to know whether I ate something or not... My world used to revolve around u but now I feel as if I am not a part of ur world..
N m not saying all this to make u emotional but just trying to show that our relationship has changed... Now we never talk but argue...Argue over every small thing... ur busy schedule.. ur cheatings and mean methods to again success... All I remember is argument... sometimes over mom or pakhi and sometime for Ria.. From last 5 years everything has changed... u have forgotten that u have a life outside ur office... u have a wife who waits for u till night and sometimes till morning... u have forgotten that u have a child who needs her father... a child who wants to play with her father and share her life with him... u were always absent from her PTM and annual functions... Neways I do not want to start about it again.
From last 3 days I am trying to tell u about Ria's illness but whenever I called u either u were busy or out for some or the other meeting... N today u left no option to me so I am telling u about her via a letter... From last 2 weeks I have noticed that Ria has started wetting her bed in night.. The child who left this habit at the age of 1 is doing it again.. I consulted a doctor and he told me that she is suffering from some psychological problem... I met a psychologist and he told me that she is disturbed coz of our fights..She needs family love... She wants to spend her time with both mother and father... I repeat with her father as well. When she sees her friends enjoying with their father, she feels lonely... She feels embarrassed when her friends ask her about u. N whenever I tried to explain this things to u we fought... The fights which Ria witnessed and it's affecting her very much... She can feel the breaking of her family. The complexity of our relationship is disturbing out child's growth and hence I want u to think over it.
It's Ria's birthday and I am asking a gift from u... please give me my Raghav back.. The loving father and husband who never failed to make small efforts for their family. For Ria's happiness come back to us. I want to give our relationship a chance... I want us to work on it once again. I know we love each other a lot but this busy schedule has taken away romance from our life... I just want few moments of ur busy schedule for me and my daughter... n I know my Raghav won't deny me... I know the love u have for me and Ria.. I want you to show it to her. I know u gained this success for us... u wanted to give luxuries to Ria but Raghav... more than this facilities.. she wants her father's time. I hope u will understand it.
Let's start once again... Let our love blossom the way it was in college. If just take a single step to come towards us.. I promise, I will take all the remaining steps to reduce our distance. Just one step Raghav... N m waiting for that.
Yours loving Wife
Kalpana Raghav Singhania
Raghav was in tears after reading the letter... Till now he was unaware of Ria's illness... he doesn't know how to react, whether to get angry on kalpi for hiding such big thing from him or to feel guilty for not being with his daughter when she needed him the most... Somewhere he knows that he is the reason for Ria's illness... he remembers the time when he used argue with Kalpi on petty things... Kalpi used to remind him about Ria's presence but no one can control him in anger. He feels suffocating due to his guilt and comes out of the room... hurriedly he takes his car keys and leaves the house...
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Kalpi who was already restless coz of Raghav's words decides to read a book... She takes out her favorite author to read the novel but nothing was making her feel better... She decides to sleep in Ria's room as she is only one whose smile can take away all her pain... Before entering Ria's room she decides to check on Pakhi and Gauri as she dint meet them after the party... She goes to Pakhi's room... She was lying on the bed with laptop in her front... Her expressions were as if she was talking to some guy... Kalppi got conscious and decides to peep in her laptop secretly.. She gets shocked on realizing that Pakhi is talking to Sammy's photograph... she stand there to hear what she is saying...
"Ohh Sammy sir... u r so cool!! U know u r so unlike my ex-bf. I think I have a major crush on u.. I like ur smile so much... N u r so simple... I just phoned u to come to the party and u came. Do u too feel something for me?? I still remember how dashing u were looking in Ria's birthday party and the way u danced with Kalpi bhabhi... that was so hot. When r u going to dance with me in that way??"
Kalpi felt sad on mention of Ria's birthday party but controls herself and smiles on realizing that it is just Pakhi's crush like every girl has on some or the other teacher... her next stop was Gauri's room... The door was open but lights of room were off..
"Mom might have slept by now... " She thought and decides to walk off but stops on hearing someone sobbing in the room... She steps inside and in dim light notices that Gauri is sitting on floor with a photo in her hand.. She was crying badly and Kalpi felt worried.
"I think she is missing dad... but should I step in?? Last time when I tried talking with her regarding dad.. she just lashed out on me... What if she gets angry once again?? But how can I leave her alone in such condition??" Thought Kalpi... But finally she decides to talk to Gauri... She keeps her hand on her shoulder and sit down beside her... Gauri whose face was engulfed in tear keeps her palm on Kalpi's hand and drops the photo... kalpi was shocked to see that it isn't Rag's dads pic but stays mum.
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Raghav was sitting outside his bunglow on bonnet of his car...staring at sky.. not knowing how to respond... When he sees Vitthal sitting at the corner of street... He wonders what he is doing here... Raghav wonders what Vitthal is doing here at this time.. He observes him keenly... He is still in the dress which he has wore in the party... "Dint he went home after the party??"thought Raghav. He steps down from the car.. wipes his tears and proceeds towards Vitthal..keeps his hand on Vitthal's houlder... vitthal lifts his head up in shock but sighs relief after knowing it's Raghav..
"Is everything all right what r u doing here??" Raghav asked worriedly.
"Gathering courage to meet u and speak to u." Vitthal said in a sad tone.. They look at each other's face and realizes them both of them crying few second ago..
"U do not need to gather courage to talk to ur son.Tell me what y want to say." Raghav said while controlling his emotions... Vitthal gets emotional hearing this,he remembers the time when he insulted Raghav. Tear starts flowing once again from his eyes and he hugs Rag who was surprised by this sudden affection of Vitthal.
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