virman os : with you

(MPOV) May 15, 2011

My name is manvi vadhera and I have leukemia.

I don't know how I got it, I was a healthy person all my life. But the doctor said you can get it even if you are the healthiest person in the world.

I think the reason I got this was because my great grandfather had it and died from it.

And the part I'm dreading is that I'm dying and I have only a few days left. I'm dreading it because my husband, virat, will be a widower soon.

I remember when the doctor told us I wouldn't make it, that was one of the worst days of my life.

Flashback: I was laying in my hospital bed, holding virat's large, warm hand in my small,cold one.

I was waiting for my blood results, to see my blood levels and everything.

I hope I would make it, for virat's sake.

"I hope the test results are good, if they are you could grow your beautiful jet black hair back. I loved running my fingers through it..." virat whispered with a chuckle.

I smiled a small smile at him, squeezing her hand out of nervousness as the doctor came inside the room.

The look on his face wasn't good. It was a grimace, as if something bad is happening.

I had an epiphany right at that moment. I wouldn't make it... Poor virat.

"Hello Mr. and Mrs. vadhera..." he said, nodding his head toward us.

"How are the results ?" virat whispered. He gave her a small smile, then gave the paper with results on it to virat.

As virat read, started explaining what was going on.

"Her white blood cell count has doubled, her hemoglobin levels are very low, and so are the plasma levels..."

A look of realization crossed his face, and he started sobbing. Then the doctor softly spoke.

"I'm so sorry, I'll give you two a moment. Before I leave I just want to tell you something." He paused for a moment then spoke again with a look of pain on his face. "manvi has only a week or so left to live. virat you need to cherish your moments with her, as it will be her last..."

He then walked out the door and silently closed it.

virat jumped on top of me hugging me as tight as he could.

End of flashback.

He told us that 4 days ago, and virat followed his instructions.

he never left my side, the only time he did was when he needed to use the restroom.

The nurse connected another bed next to mine so virat could lay with me.

Now it was the evening and I saw virat drowsing off. I could barely sleep, as doctors woke me up every hour or so to refill my I.V, give me a pick-line, or medication.

Every night for the past few nights I watched virat sleep, a bit jealous that he could sleep.

Although he didn't sleep very well.

he has nightmares, screaming my name and saying he didn't want me to leave him. It broke my heart every time he said I was leaving him.

Did I have a choice?

I finally got some sleep then woke up the next morning.

virat was staring at me with a distant look in his eyes. he would probably be worse when I would be gone.

I decided to give him a small talk.

"virat can you do a favor for me?" I asked him. he nodded very fast, he didn't speak much, because every time he opened his mouth he started crying.

" When I'm... gone ,I want you to move on. I don't want you to die alone, I want you to find someone to marry and have children with. You'll always have my heart with you."

he started crying uncontrollably, and then whispered.

"manvi my heart belongs with you. I won't be able to find anyone else except you."

I shook my head, but kissed her forehead.

A few days have passed and I knew the end was near.

I felt more fatigue each day, and became so weak I couldn't even sit up by myself.

virat and I had already made funeral plans. I decided to be cremated and to spread my ashes in the ganga.

Virat didn't want to keep a jar of my ashes in the house, it would bring too much melancholy.

Everyday I told him I loved him, because who knew? I could die in my sleep for all I know.

( vPOV) May 20,2011

Each day, manvi was getting weaker and weaker. I knew the end was soo close, and I dreaded it.

Part of me didn't want her to die so soon, but a part of me did because I hated seeing her in so much pain.

She tries to fool me and pretend to be feeling fine.

But I see it in her eyes that she feels so much pain. I just want it to end already.

Now I was laying in bed with her, holding her cold body tightly.

"virat," Edward whispered. Her voice was only above a whisper, she was very weak.

"Yes?"

"I love you so much, and I'm sorry you have to see this..."

"See what?"

"I'm dying now, in a few minutes I'll be gone, I can feel it. I just want you to know that I love you soo much and my heart will always be yours." she ran her index finger softly against my cheek.

Lonely tears started falling down my cheek.

She whispered 'I love you' over and over again and kissed me for the last few times.

5 minutes passed and slowly her eyelids covered her beautiful dark brown eyes that were lifeless.

I saw her body become limp and the line on the monitor flat.

I kissed her now cold lips and cried myself to oblivation.

(MPOV) 1 year after death

I was now in heaven, watching virat.

I was so sad that I couldn't spend a long life with him, I wish I could have lived longer.

If I could talk to virat now there would be many things I would say. The main things I would say would be I love you, I miss you, I want you.

And all those words are true, I mean them.

When I saw movies with people dying and saying those words, I honestly thought it was stupid.

But now here I am, dead, and I value those words.

I watch virat closely everyday, and I see he never moved on yet. In fact, he got worse.

Now I was watching him, and saw him driving to the beach that had cliffs.

Oh no, this can't be.

(vPOV) One year after manvi's death

I tried to move on after manvi's death, but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't.

I couldn't take the agony I felt each day. I missed manvi soo much, no words could explain.

One day, I just couldn't take living without living without manvi. I knew how I could see her again, and this time I wouldn't have to let her go.

I drove to the beach with the cliffs, manvi and I went there a lot.

I parked my car in the secluded area and left my bag and coat in there.

I walked the pathway to the highest cliff.

I walked to the edge of the cliff. I took a deep breath and then whispered "I'll be with you soon manvi."

I then jumped of the cliff.

manvi, here I come''

sorry its a sad os

love ya...

vishruta😳