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I feel like a fool right now, an idiot, a dumb idiotic stupid woman.
What did I do yesterday ? I have never ever felt that way before. I was behaving like a lovesick teenager with a person I don't even like that way. Do I ?
No. ofcourse not.
I like armaan, and only armaan. I am in a relationship with him. How could I even think about sid that way?
Probably I was just nervous, but whats the point? Why would I be nervous of .. Siddhant ?
Okay okay. Deep breath, in and out.
I am just over reacting. Sigh. It was the first time I had him in my house, alone, in the evening. Probably that's what got my nerves shooting up high.
Lets try this again. I am going to the library, where sid asked to meet him, at … I checked the time. 12.00. it is 11.57 right now. Should I go inside?
Would he think im early? Too desperate to meet him that I cant wait 3 minutes?
Should I wait? Would he think im a brat? Never on time ?
Oh my god. What is wrong with me today?
I stood there for a minute, debating, then straightened my hair and walked in.
I looked at the time again. Great, I just wasted 2 minutes in that debate. 11.59. perfect. Totally punctual.
I smiled to myself and looked for sid. I hoped he wasn't one of those guys who didn't know what being on time means.
I looked around. Ah there he was.
He was sitting on the corner table, head buried in a poetry book, face tensed, eyes wide. He moved his hand to ruffle his hair once, and then his expression changed from tense to trying to be tense. His eyes popped wide and he stroked his forehead. Sweating, he was sweating.
So this was the same sid who hated the idea of studies. I grinned.
''Hey Sid'' I said.
Ah, I am not nervous. I touched my forehead. No sweat.
What triggers these sweats? I will think about it later.
''Hey Riddhima, I .. I don't understand a word here. I am sorry, but im completely useless''
''don't..dont worry. Have you read any poetry before?''
''what do you think?'' he smiled a crooked smile.
''I think I wasted my time asking you that, now lets take a seat''
I sat in the seat next to Sid and he moved his seat closer and showed me a book ''Now, I don't really understand this book thing, really.''
I tensed and moved my chair slightly, he didn't seem to notice. He leaned toward me with the book in his hand and pointed to the contents and blabbered something about why cant they use simple words.
I wasn't really listening. I was just looking at him; he was inches away from my face; eyes toward his book. ''So, what do you think'' he asked me.
I shaked my head, ''what?''
''about the book, is this one alright, or should we choose another poetry''
Eh. I hadn't heard a single line. ''this one is fine''
''Are you sure? This is tough and I don't understand a word''
''Positive. I like challenges.'' I grinned.
''He pushed the chair backward and stood up. ''Okay then, wait here, I will issue the book.''
I nodded.
Someone called me. I had a special ringtone for him. Armaan.
''What'' I said.
''Hey beautiful'' I heard his voice on the other end.
''What happened?'' I said again.
''Does something need to happen when I call you?''
''No, but you don't have time for me these days. So, something might have happened.'' I answered.
'Um..''
''What..what is it?'' I got worried on hearing the tone of his voice.
''I want to tell you something. Can you meet me today evening?''
''What..is it urgent?'' I looked at Sid. ''We need to finish the book report''
''No, nothing urgent. It's just..been a while since we last went on a private date.'' And I swear I could imagine him winking.
''After the project is finished. Next week.'' I said.
''Fine. Bye dear.'' I could hear the tinge of disappointment in his voice.
''Bye..'' I said and ended the call.
''What happened?'' Sid was standing next to me.
''Armaan…asked me for a date. But this project…''
Sid raised his eyebrows, threw his head back and laughed.
''What, whats so funny?''
''Ur calling off a date with your boyfriend because of a project. That's hilarious''
I moved my mouth to a O shape. And then I realised. Its really funny. I have never ever cancelled my date with armaan. Ever.
''yeah'' I said, eyes low, thinking.
''Hey..are you OK?'' Sid rushed to me seeing the change in my emotions.
I nodded.
''So what about my house today, at 6?'' I said before he could ask anything.
''Sure, but…you know?''
''What?''
''You seemed nervous having me in the house yesterday''
I knew what he was talking about. My stupidity. I smiled a wry smile.
''It wont happen again' I promised.
''Okay then, at 6''
''C ya' I waved and walked away.
Don't loose your sanity today !! I muttered to myself
Ye Hai Mohabbatein
