Hello Guys.. For the first time in my life, I am attempting to write OS and surprising it's not about my most favourite character and most loved character Uday but infact about his love - Manyata. I am not at all good at this and just a lame attempt on my part. Actually, I was inspired by this week's episode and it really got me into my thinking mode. To be honest, I have never ever understood Manyata's actions & reactions. Although the show is about Manyata's journey, but I have always analyzed, thought, and felt emotions for Udayveer only. Never could agree, accept or understand Manyata's thoughts and actions and never could digest her Akaash jaap. But last week's episode really got me into thinking about Manyata's feelings!
Another thing I would like to mention is that I am a diehard ManVeer fan, could not tolerate Monash ever and love udayveer to bits. But I also acknowledge that whether we accept it or not, Akaash was Manyata's first love/infatuation/obsession/whatever and a part of her life *sighs*.
This OS is about Manyata's feelings, her dilemma and her love - her past and her future! So, please don't take out your jhootas, chappals, rotten eggs and rotten tomatoes to throw at me *runs away and hides* Oh!! You are throwing at your screen only! Saved! *laughs evily*
Constructive criticism is very much appreciated. Well, enough of my clarifications - will get on with it!
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(Its from Manyata's POV)
Today was supposed to be the best day of her life. I had dreamt about my wedding day and like any other girl had so many plans for it but it turned out to be worst day of my life. Who is to be blamed about my condition - is it me, my fate (kismet) or karma?
Standing in my room, I look at my reflection in mirror and see a girl who is wearing an expensive, beautiful, pink bridal lehenga and is adorned with heavy jewellery - Her Highness Yuvrani Manyata Kumari, princess of Devgarh. A princess, who has all the riches of the world, who has the power in her hands, but in reality is the poorest of poor! Today she felt that she was even poor than moniya ' who used to work in Mall as maid.
Is this my fate, my destiny, my kismet or my karma? All my life, I have been either forcefully taken away or running away from family/people/relations. Was it my fate that I was kidnapped and kept away from my family when I was 4? Was it my fault that my baba always told not to build any close bonds or relations and always kept me moving from one place to another. Was it my fault that the only person who showered so much love, took care of me, and made me happy always, my baba.. was infact not my father at all!! Was it my fault that just when I had thought that finally I have found an anchor in my life ' Akaash, I was again forcefully taken away from him and hurled in hostile environment?
Akaash ' who made me realize that even a maid can have her fairytale! I stood against my family, went through all hardships, fought with my family, fought with Uday, destroyed my family's reputation for him, and even became yuvrani for him. All that was for nothing - he never ever understood me, my sacrifices and my love. I always kept my bargain, my word, and even went on my wedding day for his sake to say goodbye to him, but his love for me has been overpowered by his revenge and hatred.
Uday ' Yuvraaj Udayveer Singh!! No! My Halkat Veda, Yeda, Tharak ka peepa! I don't even know when immense hatred changed into strong bond. As much as I wanted to hate him, I just can't now. Uday - who had always troubled me, teased me with his smirk and flirtious actions, imposed his opinion and his decisions on me, but also supported me when no one was there with me. I don't even know when he became my best friend. He stood by me, helped me & my family in every way. He was always there for me, when I was alone and fighting for Akaash, when I was alone and fighting to become Yuvrani, always guiding me, motivating me and helping me, even saving my life when my own sister tried to poison me and kill me twice. It was Uday and only Uday who was there for me. He always brings out the best and the worst in me! Whenever me or my family was in trouble, It was Uday and Uday who helped me, not even waiting for me to ask his help. He knew I could never reciprocate his feelings but still he was ready to wait for me. I had accepted him as my destiny and then fate brought Akaash again in my life. Uday even set me free from contract, from marriage & from him. I had never had any intention of leaving him but my one decision to say goodbye to Akaash resulted in hurting & humiliating not only him but my family also.
Such an irony, that when for the first time I was actually saying goodbye to Akaash for Uday, because of my actions it is Uday who has left me. One person who I hated the most has in truth become my life now. Is it Irony of my life that whenever I am running after something, the moment I about to get it, it is taken away from me ' whether it was Akaash earlier or Uday now!
Today, because of my actions, I have betrayed everyone who loves me. I have betrayed my family by my actions, betrayed Uday by going away on my wedding day and betrayed Akaash by leaving him for Uday.
Is it my kismet(fate) or my karma that every person who loves me, either leaves or is taken away from me. Be it my family or my baba, Akaash and now Uday! Every person who has loved me is now far from me. Is loving me a curse that has fallen on me and my family??
She falls down on the floor, holds her stomach and cries out loud in pain. Sobbing uncontrollably, pain in her heart, feeling her heart break in million pieces, she shouts out in despair, crying loudly but no one comes to console her now. She had Uday with her in every crisis and now in the biggest crisis of her life, she is without him. She misses her best friend, misses his smirk, his teasing, his smile, his wise words, and most of all she misses her halkat veda!
Just one question revolves in her mind - Whom have I betrayed by my actions?? Is it Akash or Is it Uday?? Who has she deceived ' her past or her future?? Who has she let down ' her love or her friend! Biggest dilemma being that is Uday her love or her best friend??? Is she masking her love and giving it a name of friendship??
Hoping for some answers but there are none! She is falling into bottomless abyss of despair and self hatred! She is all alone with no one at her side - a princess who actually is a pauper! She may have all the riches of the world but no one can be poorer than her!
Hours passed.. and she is still lying on floor, still crying and thinking... Just then she feels a hand on her shoulder and a soothing voice "Manyata Bhai! You are never the one to give up! Get up and fight for what's yours! You can't let that ghamandni win huhh! I tell you!!"
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Pls do comment and tell me whether you liked it or hated it! This is just expressing the feelings of Manyata - that's why it has only questions and no answers! Hopefully you guys don't find it depressing!! Sorry for wasting your time!
Cricket
